MG FF-VIVAH-Thread 3 - Page 19

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Chapter 20

Dil hai k maanta nahi

Ye bekarari kyun ho rahi hai ye jaanta bhi nahi

Dil toh ye chahe, har pal tumhe hum bus yuhi dekha kare

Marke bhi hum na tumse juda ho aou kuch aisa kare

Mujhmein samajaa, aa paas aa jaa, humdum mere humnashi

Dil hai k maanta nahi

(Thanks Piya for the perfect song for perfect situation)

Though he tried hard but he could not shake images of Geet swimming throughout the day. He was irritated whole day and snapped at people firing some of his staff in frustration. He kept staring at Poonam's photo in his laptop. In the night he poured out his heart and shared his fear, confusion and dilemma with Poonam.

"Yeh mujhe aaj kya ho gaya hai Poonam. Tum toh jaanti ho maine tumhaare siwaye kabhi kisi ladki ke bare mein aisa nahi socha. Ek taraf lagta hai ki ab woh meri patni hai. Shayad isiliye yeh sab feelings ho rahe hain mujhe. Din raat mere zahen mein chaiyi rehti hai. Din ki shuruat se lekar raat khatam hone tak, ek saaye ki tarah mere saath rehti hai. Ab toh jab aankhon ke saamne nahi hoti to khayalon mein…yahan tak ki sapnon mein tak usne apni jagah bana li hai.

Uski muskurahat….uska bachpana…uska dard….uska pyaar…main kya karoon….uski har baat mere dil ko choo jaati hai

But I am scared Poonam. I know there is nothing wrong in this but I am scared of loosing you. I don't want to cheat you because I love you. So when I don't love her what are these emotions? Please Poonam tum mujhe chod ke toh nahi chali jaogi. I have told her I need time and I know I will have to take steps towards her sooner than later.

Mujhe bahut dar lag raha hai Poonam. Please tum mere saath rahogi na humesha….bolo Poonam….bolo"

[What has happened to me Poonam. You know right that I have never thought about any other women like that except you. On one hand I feel that she is my wife. Maybe that is why I am feeling this way. She is part of my days and nights. From beginning of the day to the end of the night, like a shadow she stays with me. Now even when she is not in front of my eyes, she is in my thoughts…even in my dreams she had made her place.

Her smile…her childishness….her pain…her love…..what to do….her every act touches my heart.

But I am scared Poonam. I know there is nothing wrong in this but I am scared of loosing you. I don't want to cheat you because I love you. So when I don't love her what are these emotions? Please Poonam, you are not going to leave me. I have told her I need time and I know I will have to take steps towards her sooner than later.

I am very scared Poonam. Please will you stay with me forever…tell me Poonam…tell]

Maan went berserk with his turmoil. As the last ditch effort of a confused man, he immersed himself in his work. He started having long working days and tried avoiding Geet as much possible. He tried to spend his every waking hour either in work or in talking to Poonam. But Geet did not leave her reverence. She still persistently waited for him for dinner. They hardly spoke these days as he was very tired all the time. But she never slept before him and sat with him in silence. She also always managed to wake up before him and set out his clothes and breakfast. Maan did not know how she did it as it almost seemed she was tuned to his schedule and knew what was on his mind.

Geet saw his more than usual avoidance. Initially she felt disheartened and sad. When she could not take the pain anymore, she went to Gurdwara for ardaas. She sat in front of Guru Granth Sahib and complained to her Babaji – "aapne hi toh raah dikhayi hai Babaji…phir man mein shaanti aur sukoon bhi do….aapki favorite bachi pe apna haath rakho….usse raah ke saath us par chalne ka hausla bhi do Babaji"

[You have only shown me the path Babaji…then give peace and contentment in the heart also…keep your hand on your favorite kid's head….give her strength to walk on this path Babaji]

She came back home and switched on national geographic channel. They were showing snippets of a BBC program "Life". She drowned herself in the fascinating world of how life evolved. Her fancy was caught by a particular segment where they showed a caterpillar going in a frenzy and converting himself into a cocoon. Then the cocoon burst and butterfly struggled out of the same.

Geet was amazed at what she saw. She realized that Maan was avoiding her because of his conflicting emotions. His turmoil had made him so restless that he was using his best defense of avoidance. Suddenly she understood him better and peace and calm settled in her heart. He was not avoiding her but trying to distance himself from his own pain. It was just the struggle before he smoothened the chaos in his heart and understood his feelings. Only when he did that will his heart open and flutter out in freedom.

Raasta kathin hai, manzil door hai ,

hosle bulund hai ,dil mein umang hai ,

intezar hai us pal ka ,jis pal mein ,

mein hi mein hi hongi ,aapke dil ke har kone mein .

(Thanks Anu (hermoso) for such a lovely poem which depicts Geet's wishes and her thoughts)

Almost a week later

Geet got up in the morning and as her ritual kissed Maan in their wedding photo which was on her bedside table "Good Morning Jaan"

Saying this, she got up with a happy mood. Before going to bathroom, she stood in front of the mirror and gave herself a flying kiss– "Happy Birthday Princess"

She got ready and went by her daily routine of exercising and then taking bath. She took out Maan's clothes and handkerchief and hummed to herself as she walked downstairs.

She wished everyone and started making breakfast. As a special treat she made kheer for everyone along with usual food.

She was slightly disappointed when no one wished her but then she consoled herself – "Are Geet ismein unki kya galti hai. Abhi two months bhi nahi hue shaadi ko, un logon kaise yaad rahega ki tera B 'day hai. After all they have never celebrated it na. Main khud bata deti hoon…nahi nahi kaisa ajeeb lagega na and then they may feel guilty or pressurized. Maan waise bhi aaj kal avoidance spree par hain…pata chala ki lava phat gaya."

[Come on Geet, what is their mistake in this? It has not even been two months since marriage, how will they remember that it is your birthday. After all they have never celebrated it, right. Let me tell it myself…no, how odd it will look, right and then they may feel guilty or pressurized. Moreover, Maan is on his avoidance spree nowadays…God knows, what if volcano erupts.]

She giggled at her own thought.

Daadima looked at her quizzically but she just shook her head vehemently in denial.

Maan, Dev, Meera, Vicky all left after breakfast. Daadima came to living room finding her muttering to herself -"Dusht Daanav…ek baar kaha bhi nahi kheer kaisi bani hai…koi fayda hi nahi hai inke liye kuch karne ka….par maine toh apni khushi ke liye kiya na…inse toh umeed rakhna hi bekaar hai

Khair ab yeh soch karna kya hai. Ghar par sab tera intezaar karenge aur agar tu late hui na ya nahi gayi toh sab ne yahaan pahunch jaana hai…nahi nahi Babaji"

[Dusht Daanav…didn't even say once that kheer was nice…there is no point in doing anything any thing for him…but I did it for my happiness, right…it is useless to keep any hopes from him.

Well, for now think what to do. Everyone is waiting at home and if you get late or didn't go, everyone is just gonna come here…oh no Babaji]

She was startled when Daadima kept a hand on her shoulder – "Geet beta aap ko Gallery nahi jaane aur app kis soch mein hai"

[Geet beta, don't you have to go Gallery today and what are you lost in thinking?]

Geet smiled a little too sweetly "Daadima….woh Daadima…actually I was thinking of how to ask you. Woh mummy ka phone aaya tha and she wanted me to come home today. Toh aaj Gallery se mein ghar chali jaaon. Thoda der ho jayega but I will come back before Dinner."

[Daadima….woh Daadima…actually I was thinking of how to ask you. Woh mummy had called and she wanted me to come home today. So is it ok if I go home from Gallery? I will get a little late but I will come back before Dinner.]

Daadima - "Are toh ismein itna puchne ki kya baat hai. Jaiye and enjoy yourself"

[Arre, why are you asking like that. Go and enjoy yourself]

Geet happily ran to her room and put a different dress in a bag. She went to gallery where all her colleagues were waiting for her. They all wished her and she cut a cake. Later she freshened up and changed into a white designer saree in the gallery and left for Handa Haveli.

She entered to a quite house. As she put her first step towards the living room, suddenly avalanche of people jumped on her wising her loudly – "Happy Birthday". Rahul opened a cracker and white cotton confetti surrounded her.

She smiled widely as all her cousins, friends and family engulfed her into a bear hug one after another.

As she settled with all of them surrounding her, Nisha her cousin chirped – "Geet Di, aap akele hi aaye ho….jiju kahan hai"

[Geet Di, you have come alone…where is jiju]

Geet felt little awkward but smiled - "Woh he was a little busy so…"

Cousin2 – "Are aise bhi kya busy hona….Rahul bhaiya aap call karo unko. Aaj ke din biwi se zayda zaroori kam kya ho sakta hai"

[Arre, how can he be so busy…Rahul bhaiya, you call him. What can be more important thatn wife today?]"

Rahul took out his phone when Geet rushed to him – "Nahi Rahul….woh actually he has planned something for the evening. Isiliye toh maine mom ko afternoon mein party rakhne ko kaha…hai na"

Geet looked at Rano with pleading eyes.

Rano added – "Kyon bachi ko pareshaan kar rahe ho aaj ke din….Maan ne kuch plan kiya hai toh let him finsh his work soon and take her out….nayi nayi shaadi hui hai donon ki aur tum log na bilkul bhi privacy ka khayal nahi hai"

[Why are you troubling my daughter….If Maan has planned something then let him finsh his work soon and take her out….they both are newly married and you guys have no concern for their privacy.]

Geet rolled her eyes at her mom's comment –"Lo pad gaya rolla…maine inhein madad ke liye kaha tha ki musibat mein daalne ke liye"

[Oh God I am in so much trouble now….I had asked her for help or to increase my troubles]

Her best friend Tina banged her shoulder – "Aye haye….special planning…privacy…thik hai chod dete hain but only if you promise to call tomorrow with juicy details"

Everybody laughed.

Geet – "Sharam karo yaar Mom Dad ke saamne bhi"

But they teased her to death till Rano got the cake .

Precap - Birthday