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Reply to the post from the other thread... sorry mods this was important
Thankyou apology accepted. I did PM you about Sam, Due to his own reasons (Which were valid to him) he blackmailed me regarding my chat thread.Originally posted by: Abida0201
well my apologies for CARISMA< it was PRAGMATIC, about whom u pmed me! not hamisky!!
Sorry to mention this here Sam... but I don't want you to feel paranoid over what I said - so I am writing this here. I have nothing to hide.
Abida - out of all ppl what u did... can't say hurt... coz I stopped hurting a long time ago, i was dissapointed. I have never been bad to u. How Could I ? U taught me a art that I cherish of VM making. Something I love doing. I can never be ungrateful to anyone. Yet I can't stand lies or false accusations. I am not 2 faced - I'm very transparent, which is a equally bad trait. Because I cannot mask my true feelings.
I think many friends and silent readers wonder why I am so bitter.
I do not need to justify myself.. But once and for all I will... because from here - I want a closure on my MKAP life. This show that once made me happy, with which I brought happiness brings nothing but bad memories for me now. I could send you this by PM. But PM-ing is not my style.
I loved Kriya. I started having a soft spot for Pratigya before I left. Pooja before I used to really like her. Avantika I ddin't like - and had no personal reason to not like her. It was more out of social conformity, The happening thing of that time.
Then I learn't that Pooja on her FB was rude about IF members (whom I considered my family at the time). During the same time after watching some Avanti interviews I started liking her - bec I saw that she was genuinely sweet.
Hence I made a appreciation thread for her. I boldly said I didn't like Pooja's attitude for her handling of media. My topic for Arushi got closed bec ppl bashed.
I disliked Krishnpratz comments towards me and with the negativity around the forum - I quit. To never return.
After revieving many posts and PM's for a return, I stuck to the decision of not returning, coz I didn't want the same troubles again. Discussions of different POV's wasn't handled here. And by that time I had a established place in PK.. So I was spilt as it was.
But still I felt bad for ppl I was leaving behind... those who did care.
I opened MKAP 2 - Just for entertainment of my work. A place to chat to friends from MKAP, Coz I hate PM- ing and my box is always full.
I Didn't spend much time there coz I was on PK..
At this point I was done with P's character - I had accepted that she is not the character for me.
I didn't invite the Kriya/Arja fans... bec that was the problem... we didn't think alike and the situation would get out of hand. Not bec I didn't like them.
Anywayz... Any member of the chat would tell you that I was hardly there - U wouldn't know coz u hardly came there.
Now here some members came and had their fun - let off some steam, got over the stress and moved on...
But then MKAP 1 didn't like that bec this forum went quiet. Membs were picked on as traitors, just bec they attended a friends chat thread.
Now imagine - You work hard on a post and your friend are made to choose between your posts and MKAP 1, How would you feel? Just because I was not a Praigya fan - PM's were sent out to spy on our thoughts - off the forum. You couldn't be true to urself here or there.
I even shared my posts here, that I made for MKAP2. Sam said a while ago - I only cared about MKAP 2 - Then Y did I share some posts here with MKAP1? All the vids I made - sooner or later I posted them all on MKAP 1. I made Sankat's ring tone - I shared it here for everyone.
Soon or later - my friends were turned away, or were even scared to comment in my posts - bec just like Arushi I was outcasted too.
Others just wanted me to post here to help the forum environment, to help the chaska meter, forum rankings. That is not a love for one's work it is called using a person. Though they did not mean it in a bad way, but it became the case of... if u post here we'll attend if you dont then goodbye.
I must say - that a lot of true friends and fans attended...
Then I lost interest in the show... So the inspiration was lost too.
I like avantika's real life personality, I like Tanshi relationship - it's different. I admit it I do - so what is 2 faced about it? If I make a post to CV's regarding them, why do ppl send offensive messages. It is my choice. I have the rights to make my choice. For me Kriya magic died in the last epi before the leap. Though they will always somewhere be my fav's as a jodi..
When ppl/friends attack you for your likes and dislikes behind your back it gets to u. They did it more to me than others - bec u know and I know and so does everyone else on this forum I was famous and influential. (God that came with a price!).
When u are a human - these things soon pee you off! At the point where you want to hurt those - who conspired against you.
And in this battle unfortunately others fell casualty, but certain posts were not meant for them.
And others hurt themselves by stalking places and peeping at things which were not meant for their eyes... but yet wasn't hidden either.
I like Meera, I think she has lovely eyes and yes she looks like Pratigya and Prachi Desai. But I never said that she was better looking than Pratigya. But ppl picked on my posts like MO did that night. Where as you also sais the same thing - but no one said anything to you! See for urself! Now tell me... tum sab ko gussa aaya when we bashed Pratz, someone who has never done anything for you. Compared to that NOW think how angry did I feel who did everything for you guys!
I left this forum, I left my friends, BUT EVEN STILL - PPL didn't leave me alone!
Now tell me... Why I am the way I am! You can't take character/actor bashing. Everyone turns saints - but then you bash a person who was always there for you, a real person.
I have nothing more to add...
