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( poster courtsey rimjhim😛)

chapter 36

So many emotions passed on her she could feel the intensity of his pain… she felt like her heart would burn up with the tremendous amount of pain he sufffered in his life. Her heart was torn apart her breathing became ragged Tears welled up in her eyes and she wanted her to run into his arms and allow
her to comfort him. she quickly went outside to search him

Kesar was sitting on the floor of his balcony he was holding his tuntauna staring into stillness in dark cloudy night and then softly he took the tuntauna in his mouth and started playing a soulful tune…the reflection from past hurried on his mind as he played that tune….he remembered how beautiful his childhood was amoung his parents his vasantbha and neerja…he remembered their kind faces as is they were present before him he remembered how much his brother dotes on him how his wishes were fulfilled in his house and then the sudden death of his family and how the crucial fate exploited his childhood he was forced to leave his own house and was force to live in the dark and abandon streets of delhi… noone there to sympathize with him…...he begged for scraps of food and money he did manual jobs like other street children but there was noone to help him butualized by the system he was forced to commit the crime……….He remembered his mother told him once that ppl who do wrong deeds go to hell but here in the street it was the living hell for him…..if he didn't steal he would have died anyway…still he was guilty he was wretched as he failed to live their dreams dreams to make him successful and respected man in the society and he was shattered……..the silence of the dark moonless night was interrupted by his faint cry that sounded almost as a whisper in the darkness…..Gulaal heard the sob and went near the balcony …she looked at him, his eyes were blank emotionless and dead

Unable to talk kesar said "gulaal jao yanha se mujhe koi baat nahi karni hai

Gulaal looked at him and said "kesar…mein"

He said in low voice "door raho mujhse….mein boora hun bahoot bura"

Gulaal felt a ache in her heart….

She sat besides him and said "kesar tumhari hi tarah ek ladki thi bade se shehar mein bade se ghar mein bikul akeli….uski mummy bachpan mein hi use chod kar chali gayi thi aur phir uske papa usese pyaar to karte the par kaam k silsile mein hamesha bahar rehte the…desh ko unki jarurat thi par yeh baat us choti si ladki k kanha samaj mein aati thi.woo to bas chupchap apno k beech kissi apne ko dhundhiti rehti thi…uske papa uske liye bahoot saare toys aur gudiya laate the aur woo un gudiya aur teddy bear k plastic k ankhon mein pyaar dhundne k koshish karti thi un rooyi(cotton) k haathon mein apnepan ko talashti thi par un plastic k ankhon mein woo pyaar woo apnepan kahan tha…thak kar usne socha k aise koi cheez hoti hi nahi hai aur woo bhi zamane k saath chalte chalte khud ko bhul gayi…..woo bhi plastic jaise ho gayi thi……poised calm but lifeless phir ek din uski zindagi mein ek bahoot pyaara insaan aaya usne uus ladki ko zindagi k sahi arth samjhaya..uuse hakikat aur uski duniya mein farq bataya..anjaan hote hue bhi har pal uuske bare mein sochta raha…..uus ladki ko apne sapno se phir se milwaya…woo insaan bura nahi hai kesar

She said in craked voice woo insaan bura nahi hai kesar uske saath boora hua hai…..par woo acha hai bahoot acha……

kesar u r the best thing ever happened to my life…..i m sorry and she looked at him and extended her arms to comfront him

He looked at her and an incoherent cry of anguish and pain escaped from his soul and sounded over the
cries of terror from inside……he clasped in her arms and cried bitterly…..the tears stream down his face and he was shivering in her arms….gulaal was drenched in his pain she hugged him tighter rubbing his back gently and softly to rassure him to console him

He sobbed "I miss them…kyu sabne mujhe chod diya" and a passionate burst of weeping chocked his voice

"sab thek ho jayega" she kept saying between her sobs and tears….

it took some hrs for him to recover till his tears were dried his sobs reduced in her warm and cozy arms and there was peace surrounding his heart..he lay passively in her arms without tears there was complete silence..gulaal gently put her arms around him and moved him close to her bosom and he had no strength to move away he lied still witnessing her caresses she looked at him and she gently caressed his hair with her soft finger and smoothed his hairs from his forehead and planted a soft kiss on it.. and he sighed - a deep sign of relief…he felt sort of warmth and the light that chased the darkness away in his heart…he thought he was in his dreams there were utter abeyance of the thought only warm and gentle feeling for her….he looked in her eyes in which there were tenderest and deepest emotions for him

very gradually he regained himself and realized the closeness between them and he slowly parted with her…sat beside her gazing into sky…with his blank eyes that couldnt meet the gentle and tenderest gaze of hers

gulaal looked at him silently and then asked in soft voice "tumhe taare ginene hamesha se acha lagta hai?"

he smiled and said "jab chota to roz raat ko chat par vasantbha k saath tare dekhta tha vasantbha ne hi bataya tha k yeh tare humare apne hai…jo door chale jaate hai woo tare ban kar raat mein chup kar hume dekhte hai….saari raat humare saath rehte hai"

she smiled

kesar pointed some stars at sky and said "woo panba aur neerja hai aur woo sabse jyada shine kar raha hai woo motabha aur jo mere sabse pass hai woo vasantbha"

gulaal pointed a star close to her and said "phir to mere mummy bhi yanhi hogi…woo meri maa hai"

gulaal said "kesar apne vasantbha se nahi milwaayoge?"

kesar looked at her and smiled and said gazing at star "vasantbha yeh gulaal hai"

gulaal smiled and looking at her star she said "maa yeh kesar hai"

he in complaining voice said "vasantbha gulaal hamesha mere peeche padi rehti hai"

she said in tender voice "maa kesar hamesha saaye k tarah mera saath rehta hai"

kesar "vasantbha humesha mujhpar gussa karti hai"

gulaal "maa kesar kabhi mujhse naaraz nahi hota""

kesar complained "vasantbha yeh meri koi baat nahi manati"

gulaal said "maa kesar meri koi baat nahi talta"

he said in sweet voice "par gulaal bahoot achi hai"

gulaal said "maa kesar mujhse bhi acha hai"

kesar looked at her and said "meri bahoot achi dost hai"

she looked back and said looking in his eyes "sirf wahi mera dost hai…kesar k alawa mera koi dost nahi"

and she extended her hands and said "frns"…she asked for the frnship that she always rejected…the frnship that was always present between their countless bitter encounters the frnship that she always acknowledged deep in her heart

kesar looked at her and his heart exclaimed in torrent of joy and gratitude

he put his hand in her and said in low voice "thanks"

they sat there with their hands interlocked ….as he touched her a softer feeling for him began to arise in her heart her cheeks crimsoned while kesar was caressing her hand with his finger innocently…….and her heartbeat began to accelerate she was melting with his touch…and she dropped her eyelids in shyness….looked in other direction and heard a music that was played in the nearby party….she stood up and looked from the terrace…it was midnight and ppl were enjoying enjoying themselves in that party soon a soft music began to play and the ppl were dancing slowly and romantically…kesar also stood near her

Kahin to.. kahin to.

Hogi woh

Duniya jahan tu mere saaath hain

Chaha mein chaha tu

Aur jaan bas tere mere zajbaat hain

gulaal looked at him and said "kesar humara pehla dance adhoora rah gaya tha….so dance karoge:

kesar looked at her the tears surfaced in his eyes but he brushed it off he bend down on his knees and asked extending his hand "shall we dance"

and gulaal smiled with her moist eyes and nodded her head in consent

he stood up and gently passed his arm on her waist and took her hand in his and they began to dance softly….gulaal looked at him and saw the most beautiful and scared emotion for her she had never experienced such devotion and love for her…she was overwhelmed and she rested her head on his chest listening his heartbeat that was beating for her

soon the music stopped

ppl in the party asked "arey yeh kya ho gaya music ko band kar diya"

host replied "sorry guys raat bahoot ho gayi hai..isliye music band karna pada extremely sorry"

but here kesar and gulaal was unaffected they were lost in their world and they continued dancing ecstatically without the music as their heart was filled with the sound of their love gulaal looked at him and the tears rosed in her eyes to receive such warmth and affection kesar looked at the tears gently wipe the tears and he drew her into both his arms…she closed her eyes and danced softly in his arms he was dancing too but his heart was crying as the girl is his arm was not his

Kahin to.. kahin to.

Hogi woh

Duniya jahan tu mere saaath hain

Chaha mein chaha tu

Aur jaan bas tere mere zajbaat hain

Hogi jahan saba teri

Palkon ki kirano mein

Lori jahan chand ki

Sune teri bahon mein...

[Jane na kahan woh duniya hai

Jane na woh hai bhi ya nahi

Jahan meri zindagi mujhse

Inti kafa nahi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qquyxqpYdJ0