Fiza'a OS gallery thread 1 - Page 69

Originally posted by: np18

is this it? theres a continuation na? this was nice

Hey guys, maybe u found it boring yet it was sumhow meant to be publish, I want to. As AIDS day is cuming in near future, I somehow cant hold myself writing on it…

Light beneath the Eclipse

They say the relation between a doctor and a patient is the most trustworthy and sacred, yet I found adulation in it too. Life with all the misery's, un predictable has given me what is every girls fantasy, yet for me it seems like a heaven build exclusively for me here in this world. All around us we found, selfishness, betrayals, hypocrisy and lust, yet the fortune I got gave me, selfless lover, loyalty, truth and solace…

My life was at a moment worlds biggest disaster yet it became a full of moments to be cherished every second.

I have always been a very silent and reserve person, yet I have my moments of joy and happiness. Being part of medical fraternity I got the best of the opportunity to help people, to make them relived from their pain, to share their moments of utmost happiness.

It's as strange journey at time watching a person knowing has left few moments, but living on the fullest. At times watching a person living like a non living, meet his destination in just flick of seconds. So than what life is, really unpredictable...he said rightly

Who knows what life hold next for us, one knows have sum few last moments so can enjoy them at fullest, one in believe have a long life yet dies in a second. So what is in our hands in today just today, so lived believe it cherish it…

These were the lines I heard in my first professional year in our opening session of the year, but they become my motivation my moral of life. Knowing all the realities of my being, I lived my life making the most of it.

You must be wondering why I am giving lecture on living life, as I know the worth of every single moment more than any one among u..

I was 19 when I just for fun, gave my blood for testing in a camp at our college, and my reports were not handed over to me, yet my parents got the shock of there life. I was decalred HIV positive . It wasn't my parents wish to tell me all about but I snatch my reports and got fainted right very moment...

I cried cried n cried for god knows how much of my days, why me, why me were the only question. Why my dental sitting was converted into a night mare. I felt my life completely gone I dark.

It was just not mere feeling of death that engulfs me, yet the lonely nest ht followed was a biggest pain. My friends, my class maid everyone was now out of my reach, what was left was a lonely me to fight or rather life my dark fate.

We change the city so that people shouldn't know that what I am suffering from. My parents gave the biggest strength...

Dad asked me to get grip on my studies, my ambition was to be doctor and I will became one. Sumhow I found myself complete engrossed in it, I cleared the premedical test as a topper..and get the enrolled in medical colloge..

But I didn't change myself, I kept myself to me, I didn't have my frinds with me as I wasn't making any. I donot want any sympathies neither have I wanted any one feeling disgused of me, doubting on my character...

In all that I found a friend that was Gunjan; she was sweet bubbly and full on life person. I told her all about me as she was too much adamant on having me as a friend. The first was as usually as shock she had, silent was all around that I got found...i was about to leave the place knowing her answer she hold my hand n hugged me tight...i was taken a back..after so long some1 actually touched me with affection other than my parents..

She hited me on shoulder scolding me, that she too is a medical student doesn't she knew that she is no harm to her, doesn't she knew that she is as pure as any one is…

I felt like so much strength in myself...and from here I started my life with a new hope added in it. She was always as strength and made me live my life on fullest...

And then what happened I even didn't dreamed of. No its not truth I always dream such, yet this dream can ever came in being I know this pretty well…

Mayank came in our life as guider on studies, he was gunjan's cousin brother and they share a common flat as they belong to different city. He was senior than us he was in final year and we were in second when I first time talked with him

He was pretty sober, light hearted and a very intelligent person and more than a Greek god, he took my heart at once yet I always ignore it knowing it's not right…

But soon I found a very good friend and the best was the way he always correct my views about life and how to live it.

But a day my whole world collapse in pieces, when I found him on his knees asking me presences for lifetime in his life. I was looking at him siting on his knee, his one hand extended towards me and his head bowed with a little smile. I took a step to embrace him in my arms, yet I got freeze right there when I remembered wht I am..

He was at that time a passed out student who has just completed his residency and was going aboroad ofr his specialtiozation. So he said he went her to be his before he is leaving for two years..

I run away from there without saying anything to him, and he was left shock and disheareted behind me, reaching home I locked myself in the room and cried again the way I cried that night.

Cause the reality again was struck, no matter wht I cant live a normal life. I was loved by the person I loved the most yet I cant feel it, I just cant..

Mayank told gunjan all about this as I wasn't receiving his calls. Gunajn gave him the shock and he felt his whole world spine…the way gunjan told me he was lost in himself for two days and the other wht happened was not less than I delusion

Ding dong

NM: ji beta

Mayank: anty mein nupur k friend hon ..us k kuch important notes thay , can I meet her..mein gunjan k bhai hoon

NM: aray han beta mein tumhain pechan gai..woh uper apny kamery mein hai …dekh lo..

I never lock my door as of if my health gave me a shock , so my mom now n than check me most of the time. He came n open the door and locked it..

I turned at the voice of lock , as mom never do so…finding him standing there with a bit torn expressions ..my heart thumbed with restlessness

Nupur: ap…wht r u doing here..why u came here…to sympathize

He moves forward towards me but now with a stern look as if my last word hurtled him like anything…

Mayank: u love me or not…

Nupur: I have nothing to do with all that rubbish , I don't need ur words of consaltion..just get out of here

Mayank: u love me or not..

Nupur: I said get out…

Pining me to wall griping me with my shoulder, he looked straight in my eyes, the feeling that were already diiffciult to hide, the feeling of helplessness was cuming all in my eyes, and was about to shed from there..

His breath on my face his caressing fingers on my shoulder, and his confessiong eyes all were to much to hold my slef…

Mayank: do u love my nupur..he said in a whisper to loud to be expressed..

His expressions were coming to harsh for me, again and again his question was repeated, yet the distance was decrease too…

I tried hard to push him back, struggle to free myself, not in uge to protect my self it was an effort to get him rid of myself..it was done until I fetl his words been wrote on my lips by him..

Nupur: m-a-y-a-n-k…no…pls…I am HIV..

But it seems he isn't hearing any thing, it seems he will take confession from my lips but himself..

I closed my fist when I felt him finding way inside me..

He brushed his lips…I pushed him back, he pulled me close, a captured them, I resist again, holding him tightly , holding myself to make any confession. But he was way to adamant than I ever thought, he deepen it, his savoring velvet feeling, with his finger on my back of my neck, making me loss the limited amount of sense that were alive in me..

Griping him closed I made my confession, and felt his reciprocation with a different feeling. Slowly he moved away having a close eyes on my each n every expression..I fall on floor, and hide my face in palm, I cried n cried but this time I wasn't alone, I was in his warm embrace that was pulling me close n close..

Nupur: why u did this…u know who I am…huh

Mayank: I love u ..and that's all I know…

Nupur: it's not a movie Mayank…its real life..u know u can't live with me

Mayank: why I can't..just let me be…I know u love me, more than I love u…

Nupur: stop being a love sick teen…u know I can't give u anything u can't have a relation with me, it's contagious…

Mayank: I am a love sick person, and I can have a relation with u , if just u trust that my love will never change in sympathies, regret or anything disgust…nupur sits there just not one way to make love with the person u love, being with him IS the weaving of love..

I know wht u mean and I know wht r u afraid of, speak like a doc. Ur an HIV positive not yet an AIDS patient, plus who know how much life I have. How many of people who were full on health few second before , we have declared dead..then why not u can live with me…

It just matter that u know one day u need to go, yet we all know we have to. I want to live the journey with u , I don't fear the end. Pls. let me have u, pls trust me. I just want ur confession, I just want ur trust, I just want my nupur who despite of knowing this is living on full, than why not u can add me to this journey..pls..

I break in tears again but this time there was hope, I looked at him with all he love I have of him, his smile made me reflect it to..

My parents were more than in a shock hearing his confession in front of them, marrying me, my marriage was not now even in there nightmares.

His parent though were too doctors yet to make them understand for him was not so easy yet his determination and his all talks, they have no answer to that.

We got engaged and he left for his specialization, he came back now n than within these two years to meet me of course..

At times he behave like a child, he made me forgot I may die, yet he said right everybody know they may die, right now or than..

His whole night talks of teasing me with hot girls at Boston, and I with all boys at college.

Mayank: wht shud I do ..u know who hot I am, so girls can't help nearing me..it's fun here…

Nupur: ohh really..good me to enjoying it with raj..u know we all went on movie

Mayank: wch movie..

His change of tone, made me chuckled…he knew nothing like this can happen but he can't hold his expression

Mayank: ma'am I am coming back in two weeks than I'll see ur raj n Rahul…plus get ready to change ur sur name..

My blush was soon changed with a pain..wedding?..huh

Mayank: nupur….I love u

Again it made my fears disappear..

Though I did cried on our wedding night but not in front of him, we talked, shared a level of intimacy, not the whole. Not a single time I can see any need of more in him, no desires to have me at a different level, thought they say it can be done with precautions yet, I donot want to take a 1% risk even for him..

The night when he slept snuggling close to me, smiling like a child, holding tightly…a shed sum tears to thank lord who gave me the best of the fortune every a girl can ask for..

Dud..

Nupur: ahh..mayankkk…uu..u always made me scared..

Ya I am being intercepted by dr mayank shamra, senior cardiologist, who as engulfed me in his arms tightly, kissing my neck deeply..

Mayank: wht dr. nupur u such a chicken…

Soha: my mom is not a chicken ur getting naughtier day by day..

We spank apart as we heard of our princes with us, yes she is our child, our soul. Who say a an HIV positive mother cant have a negative child, here is my angle right infornt of me.

Mayank: ahan..my girl taking her moms side ..wht happen..

Soha: cause ur elder girl skipped her medicine today again in anger….

Nupur: soha…ur night ice-cream is cancel

Mayank: jani ur getting two scopes extra…n wht I m hearing han nupur…why

Nupur: I forgot mayank…nothing

Soha: no she didn't she was angry on u…

Gunjan masi is here im leaving bye mom she kissed my cheeks..n giggles as her father kissed n tickle her..

Bye jan …

Mayank: nupurr…u know I was in meeting…phir..

Nupur: don't u dare not attend my call …next time if u did I 'll do sumthing better..n bigger

Mayank: nupurr…stop blackmailing me…

Nupur: I'll..

Mayank: acha…he said with a smirk…I'll tell u what I can't do more n better….

Maynkk….

True ur biggest misfortune u felt at a moment can be ur bestest gift my God almighty, if he give us pain or take away from us sumthing , he do give us much more than wht we deserve or thought, it just if we have faith on him, if just we can see the eclipse on the moon, rather if we can see light beneath the eclipse.

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Cascade it was one of the beautiful OS ive ever read

u know what ----it was one of ur best works..

fabulous fabulous OS hun
at first i should thanx to nups mom and Dad.
they were the big support of nupur

and then Gunjan..
and lastly Maynk- who is a Gem ... GOSH i loved maynk here. he is u know farishta type ki insaan.
i adore his love for nupur...
my eyes becme moist while reading ur OS.



jaana thank u so much for writing such a nice OS- hats off to u...
Do write more

beautiful,,most beautiful OS...👏

beautiful one fiza
thanks for the pm

Beautiful OS Fiza.very beautifully written

Originally posted by: Mudrika25

beautiful,,most beautiful OS...👏

Originally posted by: -Faria-

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Cascade it was one of the beautiful OS ive ever read

u know what ----it was one of ur best works..

fabulous fabulous OS hun
at first i should thanx to nups mom and Dad.
they were the big support of nupur

and then Gunjan..
and lastly Maynk- who is a Gem ... GOSH i loved maynk here. he is u know farishta type ki insaan.
i adore his love for nupur...
my eyes becme moist while reading ur OS.



jaana thank u so much for writing such a nice OS- hats off to u...
Do write more

thnku so much jnai

Goshhh dii u left me with tears...
Its so beautiful..
I had sad tears when she got the news of having HIV and happy tears wr there as i found them blessed with their angel...
Its indeed the best best OS of urs till date..dnt know abt others but i didnt felt like this before...
The way u expressed everything ws utterly beautiful yet emotional...Thank god someone wrote something on HIV..people hav so much less knowledge of it..They think having HIV means having AIDS while its nt true in every case...
Love u dii for this..hats off...

It was so touching... nice os It is really a good thing to write on this matter...
Well done dear... 👏