Geet skipped through each page and was shocked to see everything scratched out...every line, every word everything was scratched...her hope of finding out his past was gone...she needed to know who he really was and was scared to ask him on his face. He was unpredictable and so was his anger. She couldn't understand why he left her last night. Why did not do what he promised to do? Isn't he good at keeping his promise? So what is holding him back? He was truly confusing her..his words are completely different from his actions. What does he have in mind? More importantly, what does he want with her? She goes toward the end...where there were more recent entries...
I can't get her out of my head...I love her eyes, her innocence in them...her smile...the way she talks..everything...whenever I close my eyes..her expressions, her face comes in front of me...what is this feeling? Imagining her face brings peace to my heart..something that I haven't felt in a long time...what kind of magic does she have?
She turns the page with tears...
Why? Why can't I give her any happiness? Why is it that I always end up hurting her? Why is she not liking me? I just wanted to spend time with her..why is she so scared of me? Have I starting to become the one person that I hate the most? Why does it hurt so much?
She wondered whom is he talking about...
I asked her to marry me...she said no...doesn't she know that I can't live without her? My life is incomplete without her...I will get her way one or another...I can't see her with anyone else besides me...I...I don't know what to say...
She cries...
I hate myself...I hate that I have also begun to hurt her like him...I hate that I become the same monster that I hate...how do I take her pain away? She is scared of me...how do I explain to her that I don't wish to hurt her...it kills me...I don't even know why I did what I did...I know marrying her without her permission was wrong but I couldn't help myself...I can't live without her...I have to have her in front of me...
She skips more pages...everything was written about her...how he loved her and how he hated himself for hurting her...towards the end there was a date two days before..that was the day she left...she held the diary in her hand...as she read each words
If you are not here then there is nothing here for me.
Though I admit the gathering is young and beautiful
She sits on the floor with tears...as she reads each and every words...she hugs the diary...crying bitterly...she holds it in front of her again...
But if you are not here, then there is nothing left for me...
She stands up walking to the window...as she reads...his pain when he found her...replayed in her head..she looks at the window with tears...she thinks about when she was almost hit by the bus...his eyes...the concern, the anger...
She skips to the next page...the day he brought her back...
I don't understand what sort of state I'm in.Now that I've finally found you, why is there this kind of emptiness in my heart?
Why does my heart feel so empty?
Why does my heart constantly sense that something is missing?
(Guys think that there is a split screen between Maan and Geet...Geet is reading the diary while Maan is thinking about her...)
Maan sat at the bar looking at Geets photo drinking..thinking about their wedding...when she was unconscious...her pain, her tears...it pained him...he crushes the glass in his hand with anger...
Make me wretched again, make me cry again,
Oh inflicter of torture, return from wherever. Your image is stuck in my sight.
Your sadness, like you, is even beautiful
He touches her photograph with his bloody hand...
Wherever they look, wherever they go, these crazy eyes searches for you.
I'm alive, but I feel as if life is somewhere else;
I've misplaced my life somewhere.
If you are not here then there is nothing left for me...
[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q7xYsA5Zjno&feature=realted[/YOUTUBE]
Geet put the diary down unable to read more. Her mind was clouded...she didn't know what to beleive..this diary that is filled with pain or the shetan that is cold hearted full of anger and hate...She slowly gets up and walks out like a zombie...
She goes into the bedroom and lies on the bed...she hugs herself closing her eyes with tears...she was confused...her shetan was indeed very mysterious...she wasn't crying because of what he wrote but because of the hidden pain he had in each word...she didn't know why was she feeling bad for him? She sits up..why does she wish he was here right now with her? Why is she feeling restlessness? She looked ahead of the room...it seemed to get tiny and tiny...she looked around the walls...they were closing in...she panicked and started screaming..the house it seemed like it would eat her alive...she wanted him right now..she wanted to see him right now...she got up holding her fast beating heart...she tried walking toward the door but it seemed to be going farther and father away from her...she extended her hand to touch it but couldn't...everything around was closing in and soon it became all blurry...she dropped on the ground looking at the door.
Maan came home at night looking around. Something was unusual...where was Geet? He throws the jacket on the floor in anger. He looks at his hand which was now bandaged..it didn't pain him at all...nothing pains him...He goes around the living room and kitchen calling her name again and again...He goes upstairs..in his study room..he saw the mess was still there...he could feel her presence in this room...everything seemed to be just the way he left it. He goes behind his desk and saw his diary out in the open. He quickly puts the diary in the drawer locking it. He opened his bedroom door and as if everything stopped for Maan. He saw her lying on the floor unconscious...
"GEETTT" He runs toward her...he drops on his knee and pulls her head on his lap. He pats her head couple of times to get her to wake up but nothing worked. He picks her up and places her on the bed. He runs downstairs to get a glass of water. He sprinkles the water on her face..patting her face but nothing woke her up. A fear and pain ran through the course of his body..the same fear and pain
that he blocked off years ago...only she provoked such feelings in his body...He got up and called the doctor..
"I WANT YOU HERE NOW! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT TO GET HERE WITHIN 10 MINUTES...I DON'T CARE!!!" (He threw the phone on the floor after hanging up...he sat next to Geet..he looked at her pale face and body...he puts his head on her heart to feel her beating...he closed his eyes...her each beat was calming him down...he held her hand tightly...he felt himself going back into his childhood...he felt in the same position that he once repressed...)
Precap: Love me (make do what you guys can with this precap😆)
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Okay did you guys seriously think that I will reveal the past this soon and fast? You guys should know be better by now that I love torturing you guys 😆😆😆
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