Kesariyo Rang Mane Lagyo - 9 June 2011

Mein aa gai😛
And kya epi tha !! kya epi tha!!! me going all round and round and round
*sigh* The guy will be so the death of me...his expressions, his anger, his frustration and over all his vulnerability...It gets all over you like a real bad rash...😆...I know it is a really bad comparison...but kya kare... he is really a bad rash..cant seem to ignore him and cant get out of his effect😳
By the way the epi was dedicated to Kes-Gul today...and my God what confrontation!! both were in tears and killing us by their words...
And so the epi starts with Gullu and Tallu scene...and Tallu almost fainting and Gullu manoing..and Talli doing nakhras and walking out...(Bhagwan tera Bhala kare Talli!!!! aisi hi walk out karti rahe to Hamesha!! Hum tere liye World Ka best bandar le aayenge...Shaadi ke liye😛)

Kesar sitting outside..apparently waiting for his prey...hehe Gulaal...but in comes Talli..and their eyes meet ..(by the way I loved how Kesar was not shy or reluctant to meet her eyes, he ofcourse doesnot know that Talli has heard the whole conversation...But still his unrepentant gaze made me so happy...)
He is such a character na...he doesnot believe in false expression, false consolations,...he believes that if something is there ...one should be able to face the truth of that something, of that situation and face it head on..and also he had other things running in his mind...he is now growing out...not keeping those burning things inside...
and then comes Gulaal..and he decides it is time for them to talk...
I actually wondered at his insistence of talking then and then, but then I thought, that it had taken a lot for him to actually build up this courage!! this realization that it was time for the final truth..now there can be no hiding...
But Gulaal ofcourse says that it was not the time for them to meet... and I was really surprised that Kesuda agreed so quickly...somehow I thought he would not leave it there...but he did...
And he went to the river and sat there all night...

The fire actually symbolized the fire in his heart..and the way he kept it burning all night said that he didnot want that one to die now...it was do or die for him...and he was not going to back out...

And you know when a person is waiting for a moment to come as impatiently as Kesar, it is natural for him to question Gulaal as he did, Why was she late'? She was not late ...the wait had been long for him...it had been actually a wait of 10 long years...

Gulaal..What to say about her...and Thank God I am not doing her analysis today...I would not have words to defend her...and on the other hand I would not have words to console her...she has so put herself into a frame...that she cannot step out of it..she is up there...idolized and criticized...but untouched...to some extent inhumane now...The standards of greatness she had set for herself are now turning her into woman who has given and lost her heart to a dead man...and so now her heart is also dead

But I loved the passion in both of them...Kesar's anger oozing out...his manhandling Gulaal...was so obvious...and so righteous that I inspite of having a certain degree of feminism in me...felt that it was completely right...

The way he questions her and she refuses to acknowledge his questions...and he so rightly pins her down ...on every question...But she is so much in denial...she has bounded this water inside the dam for so long that she cannot...just cannot let it go

Gulaal...I know even I am angry on her now..for denying it till the end...But you know it s a known theory that when you have been fed poison for years in small amount...you become so addictive and so used to it ...that a person needs an extra jolt..and extra dose of poison ..and enormous amount ..so that the poison comes out via nausea..Gulaal needs the same..she needs a strong dose of poison so that the deep rooted poison comes out and she becomes human again..I dont know if I am making sense But it is because she is Gulaal...I cannot see her like this...She is his heart, his mind, his body ... his soul...

So he starts on a weak footing and slowly approaches the base of the problem...He was fiddling with the concept of truth...May be even praying that she would deny the whole thing and just say sorry for what happened...

Was it me or did someone else also feel that he was giving her leverage... to hear from her mouth that she denied the deeyarvatu because Dushyant was bad and didnot have good intentions..I think even if Gulaal had admitted that...it would have been end of his agony...he would have been satisfied and the whole calamity would have died a peaceful death...

But somehow Gulaal's sixth sense is out of order this time...The woman who was so perceptive is in a total denial mode...I think after seeing that stupid talli faint..she has built a wall around herself which Kesar cannot seem to break inside...

Though her mind and sharpness is still intact when she detects the bitterness inside Kesar but doesnot realize that it she who is the saccharine for that bitterness inside him...
He keeps asking her...he modifies his queries but doesnot leave it...and again and again brings the fact that she went ahead ...went against him and supported Dushyant...She so tries to avoid it...hehe but she could not could she...Kesuda is adamant today...he knew this was do or die for him...he will not get the moment again..he couldnot have left it alone, and not half way...no way!!!...

But she didnot deny..she just refused to share anything with him...she used her 'brahmastra"...that she did it for the good of the family...but today even that failed...she would not succeed in that..and that only aggravated him more and he made allegations on her, about her and Dushyant...

and one more Slap!!! O God!! this is so turning into a mess...
I know he made a wrong allegation and Gulaal who had all her life led a life higher and more sacrificial than others was bound to react that way!! but there was no way you can undermine the pain that Kesar was going through and that pain came out..in form of anger, hate and he spat out the truth which had not come out, was torn out of him...

And did someone notice the look after this...he looked so damn hurt..all the hatred had drained out of his face and the look was only of the betrayed and hurt child...
I guess somewhere since yesterday, since Raman told him about Dushyant being in love with her, the picture became clear to him..till now he was in two minds, whether to believe what he had heard as a child or not..because Gulaal believed in Dushyant and so Dushyant couldnot be wrong...but then what about the horrendous truth that he had heard?? he was ready to doubt himself but not her...
But with the truth coming out ...and with Raman reminding him how he was chosen by her over Dushyant...he became sure...It was her choice, her decision that made him firm, that made him take the drastic step of putting his heart open before her...after all he was laying open only what was completely, irrevocably and undeniably hers...

and once it was out he could not stop the hurt and the betrayal from entering his voice...she had done wrong in hiding the truth..she had hidden it from Panba, from Motabha...but above all she had hidden it from HIM...HER Kesar...And THAT was the whole root cause of his pain, his kadvahat as Gulaal had put...the whole reason why this situation was taking a toll on him...

That she had not told him...Her Kesar...(awww the bacha!!😭...all through out he had been strong, derisive of her, angry on her, telling her, taunting her, shouting on her...but the main thing was She had not told him and that was what hurt him the most, she had hurt him right where it hurts the most...she had not made him a part of her life ...while he had made her, his life😭..)

.*sigh* he so completely puts himself in her hands na...it is like a child you know...even if you throw him higher in the air...it smiles at you...because it knows you will catch him...
But this time Gulaal failed to catch him...and he falls face down😭,,,,
He is shattered...(am sorry I just cant write more on this...it is making me so damn sobby😭)

and Gulaal..as I said, she is damn perceptive...even in this mad faze of denial and hard heartedness and madness that has taken over her...she detects the hurt in his voice and so she asks whether he is asking or making allegations against her...

She knows...she just knows that he is not making allegations about her intentions...he is alleging of not making him part of her, of alienating him in the most cruelest of senses..she alienated him from her heart, her life by hiding the secret from him and so the Child Kesar had alienated himself from her physically and went to boarding school and refused to meet her...

But now?? now what!! Once he had seen her again...there was no turning back..there was no escape for him...he could not save himself from this heart break...


Guys me cannnot continue on this post..am posting below...
plz bear...

Gulaal was so not ready for this...As I said, the water is so tightly bottled up inside that it cannot come without a grand shake ...So she still says nothing...but ofcourse...she is a woman who has lived as a bride of a dead man for so many years that she could not have taken the allegation of her intention...and so she breaks down for once and tells him ...begs him ...not to doubt her intention...and her dedication and devotion towards Vasant...
And you see Kesuda...he feels so damn guilty...you can see his face, that said that if he could turn back the clock, if he could avoid any of this he would have, he would have done that..if he could have died that moment to stop the tears coming our of her eyes, he would have done that..gladly...
But then Gulaal realizes that if she stays more, there was more to come, and I dont think she was ready for that...and we see a coward Gulaal today, who would not face the demons head on!! and she ran!! and the demon is right behind her na😆 he would not be cowered by her this time...
The conversation that followed was to some extent spiteful because Gulaal didnot want to show her vulnerable side, and Kesar did not want to be won over by her tears anymore...but you still could see the hankering in him..when he runs after her and says that she could change it ...she could change it all...
It actually shows her power over him...It is only she who could do that...she could just wave a magic wand and everything would be alright...his childhood memories of her finding water and changing the fate of the village still reigns supreme in his mind...
And Gulaal again brings trust and greatness in the conversation...and Kesar is so done with the amount of greatness surrounding him and making him feel like a pygmy all the time, he refuses to be baited this time...and so he asks her what if he doesnot believe her...

I liked Gulaal's answer to this...I always maintain that she is basically an intelligent woman..she counters him on this...if he doesnot believe her then what is the meaning of her answer...he could very well not believe that too..and he believe whatever he wants...
Kesar was taken aback by this...
you could see that ...he trying to find his way out of this...he is confused...so totally dwarfed by her thoughts and power...

The difference between the two always had been this..Gulaal working both ways ...mind and heart...where as Kesar is all heart,,in fact if the older Gulaal was seen by someone...Kesar is the replica of that Gulaal without the anger factor...and Gulaal is now completely like Vasant...the only thing Vasant lacked was Gulaal's dominance and sharpness...But the equation was the same then...when Vasant had refused to run away with Gulaal because it would have rekindled the enmity between the two villages...and Gulaal ready for come what may!! Same like how Kesuda is right now...

*sigh* what a journey na!!!!

And then we have the final clash!! when Kesar insists on every answer and Gulaal refuses ...and eventually her control breaks and she too becomes adamant and reckless ...and says it out aloud...that nobody had a right to question her but Vasant...
And my heart breaks several pieces as I see Kesar coming to the terms that his thoughts, his opinions don't matter to her...
and even though bleeding he still shouts..I have the right to ask you and she point blank refuses and tells him that nobody except Vasant has the right...and he still asks ..totally broken, still unbelieving ..that he doesnot have any right on her???😭...and she denies...and you could see tears flowing out from his eyes...that one lonely single tear had me into several pieces...

Gulaal was on a defiance mode and when that happens you build walls so high that your own people get hurt...and today Kesar got the brunt of that...and the thing is ..however much he shouts as he did in the end...Kesar is so weak before her..that however he tries it ...he cannot overshadow her...her berukhi is killing him..

His shouting at her back was proof enough of that...it was his hurt that he was ventilating as his anger...the way he said that if you dont care, I also dont, if you do whatever you want...I also would do the same...

awww...me crying and crying...what a mess...what a gala mess
and the precap: though I know many are upset...I was happy..Kesar is taking a stand...and now it is Gulaal's turn to run behind him...he will make sure she does...I am confident about my Kesuda...


And Shalu...me getting the Maha Episode YIpieee🥳

I was just thinking about the fight you and Shalini are going to have after seeing today's episode.

Today's episode was nice but made me cry .😭.it seems talli rani who has no brain will be kesar's wife .Only one way G-K will happen if talli open's gulaal eyes and read those letter otherwise i did not see any hope.

ohhh i read the 1st part...

Originally posted by: MeySimi

I was just thinking about the fight you and Shalini are going to have after seeing today's episode.

Will come back to read. The episode has left me spinning. Have a bad headache after today's episode.

He he Ganga...now mine and Shalu's fight is now forum famous😆
But no!! we have now made peace since the ME is now on my day😆
Owww. headache...I am having a heartache
Power packed na...am waiting..btww have used Bacha only once...could not resist that one time😳 sorry...😳😆

Srushti, that was a lovely update. We match in the term Brahmastra you have used.Gulaal is unbelievable. That was plain emotional blackmail.

Bloody amazing episode it was. I thought yesterdays was really heavy on emotions but todays took it a mile further. It just breaks my heart. He cannot think beyond Gulaal yet she doesn't give him a thought (well she does but she's just so confined within herself). He screams and shout for attention but she doesn't pay heed. The heart ache just jumps out of the screen doesn't it?

Originally posted by: AzMishy

ohhh i read the 1st part...

and what do i read...😕

K is so hurt n G is full denial mod n she is enclosing her in to a she cos of that talli pulli sobs n faints!!! *sigh*

i so wants to watch this epi srush...

some how will find the time tomorrow

seems to be a v emotional n K in v angry hurt mod

and i read the pre cap in other post and i am like😲🤢

nice post srush n ha yet to read the next part soon post it😛😆

E lo!! you are again confused😆
Now what happened...😆
and do watch the epi Azy...it was very emotionally high riding😳
and have posted the other part also😃

Originally posted by: *Reemz*

Bloody amazing episode it was. I thought yesterdays was really heavy on emotions but todays took it a mile further. It just breaks my heart. He cannot think beyond Gulaal yet she doesn't give him a thought (well she does but she's just so confined within herself). He screams and shout for attention but she doesn't pay heed. The heart ache just jumps out of the screen doesn't it?

It does...it leaps on you and you are so caught unawares because you are totally into them
Gulaal is in full denial mode...now she needs a high handed approach to bring her down from her high horse...and Boy!! Kesar is so going to do that...For the first time I want him to be strong enough to get her down at his level and make her talk and realize what he wants and what she wants...
What do you think Reema??? I personally think he is not gonna marry that bandariya...and is going to bring out a cat from his bag to stump Gulaal...