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part 173 his kisses trailed along her cheek to her eyes to her forehead. She smiled.. more of smirk.. of knowing to be alone again. To be stuck in her own private hell locked up in that cell of loneliness.
A Poem for Geet
I wonder what kind of life I am living
I can neither live in the physical realm nor die
My heart cries, bleeds and suffocates
The darkness sourrounds me day and night
I wait for the darkness in the dawn
I wait for the darkness in the night
Was my love not enough for you?
What more do you want from me?
I gave you my blood, my heart and my soul
I have nothing more to give to you
The only thing I have left is my life
But my life is a mere keepsake
I live it for my daughter and you my love
Even though I want to leave this body of mine
My duty to my child and my love calls me
It summons me to suffer your torture silently
Oh Lord! When will I be free of this pain?
Is there any place for salvation for me in this life?
I seek, ask and beg to you.
You yourself said - Ask and you shall receive!
So God, I am asking you for my liberation
Liberation from my pain and suffering
My faith is failing day by day
Yet, I hope to see a new dawn
A dawn which will have sunlight instead of darkness.
By: Rachana
3weeks had passed Geet was recovering but her misery was only getting worse as Maan had not spoken to her yet. She was feeling suffocated with this beautiful hell, as she would describe it. She felt choked with his unsaid words, his love & concern that was overwhelming, still there was this void, over taking any other feeling. Leaving her no hopes of alternatives. At times his love even diminishes her own rectitude. She had obligingly succumbed to his love until now. But then it was making it difficult for her to even breath now.
Each time he twined his hands around her neck, she simply yield into him. But today she decided to confront him, she stopped his hand from holding her. He knew why she did that. She just refused to give in, she turned & walked away.
he dipped his head & said is confession - I looked for u the day u walked out of my office that day
her steps froze
I madly looked for u every where, every passing minute was like hell. I hated my mere existence. I wanted to see u fall at ur feet & plead u for forgiveness. I had just realized I was nothing without u. it was just u.. in my life. U meant the whole world to me.
Tears fell from her eyes
she turned to see him.. he turned his back..like hiding away from her..like he won't be able to speak out his words looking at her. He just inched away. She ran to him & hugged him from back. He cried so did she.
I am sorry jaan..I couldn't find u.. Maan Singh Khurana couldn't find where his wife was. She hugged him closer. She loved it when he called her his wife.
Main ne tumhe kanha kanha nahi doonda.. my empire fell timid. I felt powerless, worthless. I led those 7yrs 6months & 10days like a vegetable. My soul was long lost..with u
I wanted to die.. but couldn't '
I was so scared thinking how u are?
Anything I did, but I couldn't even once drag myself out of the distance I pushed our relation into. The more I fought against that hell of loneliness, the more deeper down it pulled, dragging toward an unknown depth, killing me within. I prayed to babaji every day .. but I could hear only a laugh ..only my false ego, on my meaningless anger..on my taking u for granted.
Then I saw u walking to my cabin that day ..after 7yrs 6months & 10 days.. I just wanted to hug u take u away with me.. she turned to face him cupped his face in her angelic palm, she asked him a complaining tone..why didn't u
he fell on his knees & hugged her stomach.. burrying his face
there was a perfect silence, he couldn't say it... he feared ..the darkness of his soul. He feared that suffocation of the empty heart, the destruction by the immense nothingness.
She didn't understand wat he was fearing & why!!!
the words he spoke.. I thought..u were not
he didn't even have to complete, her grip around his neck loosened. Her hand fell straight on either side & she almost inched back..away. He held her tighter inching cloaer..he feared .. he moved more & more into her .. jaan.. sorry jaan.. I know I was wrong. Jaan ..sorry jaan.. plz mujhe maaf kardo the thoughts hit her heart..her soul.. shattering her entire integrity. He thought mk was not theirs.. he doubted their love, she stood their numb, her tears dried away. She stood their unmoved, unbroken..fixed stood in a permanent pose. Thoughtless now!!! like her struggle was still to be won. Is this wat they asked for!!! their life filled with sorrow, consumed in defeat & regret. All those years when his hands didn't hold her, her tears that he couldn't wipe!! meant nothing!!!
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