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I never thought that I would walk these pheres...walk these 7 pheres and not care for a single one of them. I always dreamt of taking the pheres with all my heart, vowing to the man standing next to me that I will forever be his and will be there through sickness and in health. But today, today I walk here with every one of my values, dreams, and beliefs being shattered. It's funny how we all make big plans and dreams about our life. The most precious part of our dreams, especially girl's dream, is of that one special person who would be the only one that would make her feel like a princess. I too like any girl had weaved similar dream. But now with each step I'm taking, it feels like those dreams are moving further and further away from me. With every step I take I lose a dream, which once I thought would be my life. I always thought I would've given anything for this day, that it would be the happiest day of my life. That each and every moment would be precious, treasured, and close to my heart. But no, that's not the case. Today I walk these pheres with a man I have no interest in, a man who has no interest in me. Neither of us wanted this marriage, but nothing was done about it. I would never have thought that, I Nakusha Basu would ever start my so called new life like this. Everything happened so quickly and every dream slipped right out of my hands. Now no matter how much I wanted to, I could never find that one love I've been looking for, the one love that would make my heart race faster than anyone can imagine, that feeling of belonging to someone, and just being loved. I can never want that one thing that is completely out of reach now. I would never find that love, it can never happen, at least not now that I'm married. I would never break this relationship for a better life either. It wouldn't be me; it would go against everything that I stand for. This was it, my life is now right before my eyes, I was now his wife, a daughter-in-law...sister-in-law...I was now part of his world, a world that has nothing for me but the status of being his wife. Naku thought to herself...she lifted her chin up to see everyone at the ceremony staring at her and smiling. She was after all a beautiful bride. She puts on a fake smile completes the rest of the wedding rituals. With the each step I took, my dreams are shattered into a million little pieces, and not one person could hear them break...no one...not even my mother whom once use to understand me without having to say anything to her...not even my father whom use to get worried with the faintest noise of my cry... and Sethji the one person who does know what I'm going through but is too little to help? I'm helpless.