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Well... I think I should have waited till the entire Kashyap parivaar came to know about Suhana's illness. I am using lyrics of some songs (I know only a few of them 😛) to describe Ishaan and Suhana's journey.
Ishaan Kashyap and his journey with Suhana (Breathless -Koi Jo Mila by Shankar Mahdevan)
Koi jo mila to mujhe aisa lagta tha
jaise meri saari duniya main geeton ki rut
aur rangon ki barkha hai khushbu ki aakdhi hai
mahki hui si ab saari fizaayen hain
bahki hui si ab saari hawaayen hain
khoyi hui si ab saari dishaayen hain
badli hui se ab saari adaayen hain
jaise meri saari duniya main geeton ki rut
aur rangon ki barkha hai khushbu ki aakdhi hai
mahki hui si ab saari fizaayen hain
bahki hui si ab saari hawaayen hain
khoyi hui si ab saari dishaayen hain
badli hui se ab saari adaayen hain
Ishaan met Suhana for the first time in Boltanganj (if I am not wrong). When he met her, it was love at first sight for him. When he realised he was in love, he felt very happy. He was delighted, glad, pleased and happy. He kind of felt confident when he started meeting her, talking with her, even though there were some misunderstandings, nok jhoks (kind of) and arguments. But he always had respect for her. He probably loved her confidence, her style...... her. As in the lyrics, the world changed for him. He saw colors, flowers, happiness in the world around him. He was in love. Then, they got married, but it was only after Suhana said that she accepts her marriage (the talk on the phone). That showed that he has respect for her opinions, for her choices and her wishes.
jaagi ummengein hain, dhadak raha ahi dil
sapnon main toofaan hain, hoton pe nagme hain
aakhon main sapne hain, sapnon main beete hue
se vo saare lamhe hain
jab koi aaya tha, jazron pe chhaya tha
dil main samaya tha, kaise main bataun tumhe
kaise use paaya tha, pyaar ke chehre pe bikhri jo julphen
to aisa lagta tha jaise kohre ke peechhe
ek os main dhula hua phool khila hai jaise
badal main ik chaand chhupa hai
aur jhaank raha hai jaise raat ke parde main
ek savera hai roshan roshan aakhon main
sapnon ka saagar jismain prem sitaron ki chaadar
jaise jhalak rahi hai
lahron lahron baat kare to jaise moti barse
jaise kahin chandi ki payal goonjey
jaise kahin sheeshe main jaam girey
aur chhann se tootey jaise koi chhip ke sitaar bajaye
jaise koi chaandni raat main gaye
jaise koi hole se paas bulaye
sapnon main toofaan hain, hoton pe nagme hain
aakhon main sapne hain, sapnon main beete hue
se vo saare lamhe hain
jab koi aaya tha, jazron pe chhaya tha
dil main samaya tha, kaise main bataun tumhe
kaise use paaya tha, pyaar ke chehre pe bikhri jo julphen
to aisa lagta tha jaise kohre ke peechhe
ek os main dhula hua phool khila hai jaise
badal main ik chaand chhupa hai
aur jhaank raha hai jaise raat ke parde main
ek savera hai roshan roshan aakhon main
sapnon ka saagar jismain prem sitaron ki chaadar
jaise jhalak rahi hai
lahron lahron baat kare to jaise moti barse
jaise kahin chandi ki payal goonjey
jaise kahin sheeshe main jaam girey
aur chhann se tootey jaise koi chhip ke sitaar bajaye
jaise koi chaandni raat main gaye
jaise koi hole se paas bulaye
He was in love indeed. He had dreams, dreams that he wished to fulfill with his wife, Suhana Kashyap. His relation with Suhana cannot be explained. It is unique, special. To describe it, is difficult. Suhana was like a blooming flower, in his lonely world. (when he was single). Like the moon hiding amongst the clouds, she was like a breath of fresh air. Like a person singing on a cold night, like a drop of dew on the field.😳
kaisi meethi baatain thee vo kaisi mulakaatein thee vo jab maine jaana tha
jazron se kaise pighalte hain dil
aur aarzoo paati hai kaise manzil
aur kaise utarta hai chaand jameen par
kaise kabhi lagta hai swarg agar hai
to bas hai yahin par
usne bulaya mujhe, aur samjhaya mujhe
hum jo mile hain, hamain aise hi milna tha
gul jo khile hain, unhe aise hi khilna tha
janmo ke bandhan, janmo ke rishtey hain
jab bhi hum janme to hum yahin milte hain
jazron se kaise pighalte hain dil
aur aarzoo paati hai kaise manzil
aur kaise utarta hai chaand jameen par
kaise kabhi lagta hai swarg agar hai
to bas hai yahin par
usne bulaya mujhe, aur samjhaya mujhe
hum jo mile hain, hamain aise hi milna tha
gul jo khile hain, unhe aise hi khilna tha
janmo ke bandhan, janmo ke rishtey hain
jab bhi hum janme to hum yahin milte hain
This is reference to the time when she explains that she does not accept this marriage and that she can't accept him. He thought about the happy times he spent with her. The meetings, the talks, were what reminded him of Suhana, what represented Suhana for him. He learnt that the happiness one gets when you get what you want, when your loved one is with you cannot be expressed. It feels like heaven. Then, Suhana called him and tells him that we met the way we had to. There was nothing special about it. A relation for life, it just happened the way it had to. (i.e. that it was destined and that we can't do anything about it and I can't accept it.) 😭😔
(Slowly, Suhana began learning the importance of family, relations and finally her husband. She realised that she loved Ishaan, that she cared for him and that she truly loves him.😳)
kaanon main mere jaise, shahed sa ghulne lage
khwaabon ke dar jaise aakhon main khulne lage
khwaabon ki duniya bhi kitni haseen aur
kaisi rangeen thee khwaabon ki duniya
jo kahne ko thee par kahin bhi nahi thee
khwaab jo toote mere, aakh jo khuli meri
hosh jo aaya mujhe
maine dekha maine jaana
vo jo kabhi aaya tha, nazron pe chhaya tha
dil main samaya tha, ja bhi chuka hai
aur dil mera ab hai tanha tanha
na to koi armaan hai, na koi tamanna hai
aur na koi sapna hai
ab jo mere din aur ab jo meri ratain hain
unmain sirf aansoon hain
unmain seif dard ki ranj ki batain hain
aur pharyaadein hain
mera ab bhi koi nahi main hoon aur khoye
hue pyaar ki yaadein hain (3)
khwaabon ke dar jaise aakhon main khulne lage
khwaabon ki duniya bhi kitni haseen aur
kaisi rangeen thee khwaabon ki duniya
jo kahne ko thee par kahin bhi nahi thee
khwaab jo toote mere, aakh jo khuli meri
hosh jo aaya mujhe
maine dekha maine jaana
vo jo kabhi aaya tha, nazron pe chhaya tha
dil main samaya tha, ja bhi chuka hai
aur dil mera ab hai tanha tanha
na to koi armaan hai, na koi tamanna hai
aur na koi sapna hai
ab jo mere din aur ab jo meri ratain hain
unmain sirf aansoon hain
unmain seif dard ki ranj ki batain hain
aur pharyaadein hain
mera ab bhi koi nahi main hoon aur khoye
hue pyaar ki yaadein hain (3)
Ishaan, now, has come to know that Suhana has brain tumour and if it is serious, it can be risky to her life. His worst dreams were coming true. The dreams he wished would come true were so beautiful and realistic but they are nowhere near to being true. His dreams are completely shattered. When he realised what has happened, the person who entered his life and now became a part of it, the person in his heart can go. Go. Go Forever. And now he has no dreams, no ambitions and no wishes. And now his days and nights are all filled with sorrow, pain and tears. He will be all alone, Alone, ALONE. And all he would have with him would be his memories.........
