~*~Pals~*~
So initially when I started watching Remix, I totally LOVED Ashi's character. From the very beginning, she became my favourite character! I loved her attitude of never being scared of seeking out anything she wants, I loved her witty remarks and replies to everyone, I loved her jokes, her ability to make everyone around her act themselves, her ability to remove awkwardness and reach out to people. Just everything about her made me drawn to her character! Ashi is one character that is AWESOME to say the least, an inspiring character whom I wish I could be like.
And Yuvi's character at first was really not likeable. However, I did find Yuvi's character interesting from the very beginning. His and Latika's characters were the two characters I found so interesting just because they were so complex! You could tell that they had so many layers to them, they had so many issues in their lives, needing to be dealt with. And they just needed someone to understand them.
Well, Yuvi's character from the very beginning was really complex. But Ashi's character in the beginning, just seemed PERFECT. This girl could do anything, she was not scared of anything/ anyone, she could inspire anyone. But as the show progressed, you got to see that Ashi's character too was really complex. She really wasn't as perfect and brave as she appeared on the outside. She too like Yuvi had her own issues and sensitivities, and she too needed someone who could understand her in her life.
So when these two met, they completely hated each other. They were two strong personalities that completely clashed when they met. They could each give the other a takkar in their own way. They were both witty and intelligent and could talk the other out. They could totally match up to one another in every way. And they both loved to mess with each other. From their very first interactions at the summer camp, you could tell that Ashi had finally found someone who could match up to her. Someone who could even scare her as Yuvi did in the beginning episodes. 😆 Someone who just couldn't stand her jokes or her, and whom she could not stand. Someone who couldn't help irritating or taking panga from her every chance they got, and someone she couldn't help irritating. And the same went for Yuvi. Finally he had met someone who would not let him believe that he owned the world. Finally someone who would not boost his ego, and just be themselves with him.
But really, when I started watching Remix initially, I did not love Ashi and Yuvi's pair all that much. I found their cute fights entertaining and they made me smile, but I really didn't feel anything for them.
But as the show went on, we saw Ashi and Yuvi's characters develop and one after another we saw many layers to their characters. We saw how well they understood each other, how well they could help each other out with their problems, and just how in synch these two were with each other. We saw how many times they didn't even need words to communicate with each other, their gestures would just be enough.
So the very first scene that really made me LOVE Ashi and Yuvi, truely was the scene in the shed where Yuvi cheers up Ashi with his guitar. That time I just FELT Ashi and Yuvi. Even though after this scene, I kind of got disconnected with them again, and didn't really feel them again untill the farewell dance and the scene where Ashi is crying in the shed because of finding out about Yamini and Yuvi. But it was this scene that FIRST made me FEEL Ashi and Yuvi and believe in their love:
I just LOVED this scene so much! Just the way Yuvi came in and just sat beside Ashi, just made me want to give him a hug. And the way he first tries to cheer Ashi up by telling her a good news, about Aman's dad. And the way Ashi smiles upon hearing that, which makes Yuvi also smile. And then the way they have a cute bickering about each other's brains. 😆 And then the way they share each other's insecurities about their parents with each other. And how Ashi indirectly asks Yuvi to cheer her up. She uses her sarcasm to ask him to play something. And I found this part really adorable because Yuvi had just mentioned that his way of cheering himself up, his perfect cure was his guitar. And then Ashi, asks him to play something for her, thus cheering himself up and her. I loved how she's sarcastic at first, but then she does show Yuvi she really meant it. And just the way they look at each other while Yuvi is playing THEIR tune, that he has composed especially for her. The tune that she has inspired him to compose. He plays that tune for her and they both remember all of their moments. And just the way they look at each other, made me BELIEVE that deep deep down they do love each other and are slowly realizing that there is something about the other that draws them to each other. They are realizing that yes this person is special. There is something about them that makes me just let them in. Let them into my life, and into my heart. There is something about this person that just makes them irrisistable to me.
And then of course the 'follow your heart' scene is another scene which made me feel AY. I'm not sure which of these scenes came first, but I think both of these scenes kind of go together. I think the Yuvi cheering up Ashi scene made Ashi really FEEL Yuvi for the first time. For the first time, it made Yuvi special to her, it made Yuvi feel like she had always known him, and he had always been a part of her life. And the 'follow your heart' scene similarily I think was the moment where Yuvi really FELT Ashi. He felt her prescence in his life, he realized she was special, he realized that her coming into his life had just made his life much much better, much more meaningful. He really believed that with her he could face anything, he really felt her in HIS life, and just like Ashi, he too felt like he had always known this girl.
So really, both these scenes made me really FEEL Ashi and Yuvi because I think, these are the moments where they really FELT each other. Even though, there hasn't been ONE particular moment where AY have fell in love. We can't really pin point an exact scene where they realize that they love each other, but these two scenes just really made me believe how special the two of them are.
So here are some more sigs from the follow your heart scene:
So really from this point on, I just LOVED them, and there's SO many reasons why! Here are just a few of them:
I love the way they irritate each other (and can't help doing so):
I love the way Yuvi understands Ashi:
I love the way Yuvi wishes Ashi, right at midnight on her birthday:
I love the way Yuvi provides Ashi comfort, just by being there (without even saying anything out loud):
I love how Ashi inspires Yuvi, and just listening to her talk makes him believe that anything is possible:
I love the way they take each other for granted, and drag each other into their messes:
I just love the way they look at each other and get lost in the moment:
I love how they are totally psycho and wacho, and I love how they call each other that:
And MOST of all....I just love how happy they make each other:
.............And there are MANY MANYYYY more reasons why I just LOVE them!!!!!! 😍
~*~ Tanu ~*~
I knew about Remix since it had aired in India but didn't bother to watch it then '''. But last year '.one day I was not feeling myself'''' had tensions with my friends'.. so just in order to distract myself I thought of watching some daily show '' It was only then the idea of watching Remix came to my mind'''.. I looked for its vids on Utube n luckily I found the vids from epi 1 (thanks to nitzeee)
So the 1st AY scene I saw was their 1st scene ''''..Yuvi calling Delhi "ultra pakaooo" then yuvi looked kinda cute to me''. But I wasn't impressed much by him'''.. Then Sonu-Ashi scene Where Ashi wanted a "perfect ventilation in her dress" n sonu was freaking like anything🤣''.
I started adoring Ashi from starting ke epis ''. I dunno what was the reason '''.Her truthfulness 'her loving every one'. Her treating ppl in the manner they deserved'..her audacity or any thing else'but I became crazier for her with each passing day😍😍'''. She filled me in with some stange strength''.. I felt like I was capable of doing anything when I saw her'''' after I was struck by ASHISM I no more cared about what others thought'.. I started believing in myself''. I argued with my father(for the 1st time) for my future career plans'''' Ashi had become a part of
my life'''' my friends could feel the positive vibes inside me '. They asked me the reason ' I told them about Ashi but they didn't believe me but still I didn't stop believing in her''''
I was so so so into Ashi that I could not like Yuvi that time because he was always troubling Ashi in the starting ke episodes''' pulling her in the pool ' blaming her for stealing his wallet'. N that stupid poster that he made of Ashi'.. Blackmailing n bossing around her when she was hiding leo''' n what not''
I failed to see from his point of view'.. Then THE FAKE DATING PHASE came n I started liking Yuvi when he started liking Ashi'.. The night when he couldn't sleep thinking of Ashi '(she had asked him to write the lyrics) '.. it was only then I saw Yuvi's cuteness'''. His confusion about his feelings for her''.. n when he started believing in Ashi since the FYH there was no looking back''. Yuvi had already made a place in my heart'' He hated her earlier because she made him feel that he had no identity of himself'''.. so he found ways to irritate her''.. she hated him because of his being Yuvraj "DEV"'.. (not the name but the attitude) '.. she never left any chance of criticizing him n he never left a chance of troubling her''.
But then he started believing in her n seeing him believing in her she realized the true meaning of her words'''.. it was like each of them complementing each other''..
The farewell dance '''. Was the moment when I felt that their souls were united wihtout even letting them know'' she was sad because she had to go with her so called father''.. n she found a shelter in his reassuring shoulders n completely surrendered to him'.. n he did all his best to make her feel relaxed '' I couldn't help watching the scene again n again''. The moment was so beautiful n pure'''. N I knew it was true loveeeeeeeee''.
When he heard that she had gone I saw the tears in his eyes'''.n then I knew him'.. but maybe he himself didn't know then WHO was he "a spoilt brat YUVRAJ DEV" or "a cute, innocent YUVI "'''..n then when he was with Yamini '.. though I couldn't understand his feelings I couldn't consider him wrong''' then when Ashi returned I was like I felt something hollow inside me I cried like anything seeing her in pain''.. I could not wait for the next day to watch the further episodes' I woke up the whole night n saw all the episodes till that fatso was finally out of the AY's life''''(I had my major exam the next day)''' but for a slight headache everything else was fine'..
When Yamini left had it been someone else she would be happy'' but she was not 'she couldn't bear his breaking down'''.. I never thought that Love could be like this '.. so selfless '. Loving without conditions'''.. "tu chahe haan kar ya na kar teri hai marzi kehte rahenge tujhse baatein hum dil ki "
Now I started seeing love from their eyes '..n I felt that theirs is the only LOVE 'so pure' so magical' so ethereal '..so passionate''.so unconditional''..each n every moment of theirs brought me closer to them '..closer to love😍 '''' when they "dated"'''. I was happy when they were happy '''. I laughed with them'. Blushed with them''' when they "broke up"'..Cried with them''''' After the "brake up "' pehle toh I thought ki Ashi should forgive him n again start dating'. But after then I realized ki they don't need LABLES to love each other '.to care for each other''to remain connected to each other'''..
AY for me are all about spreading love everywhere'' they are a single soul in two bodies'.supporting each other when one needed a sholuder to cry on ..... bashing when the other was wrong ........ just being their REAL themselves......I am crazy for them no actually NUTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS for them'''' I love them I dunno to what extent n would love them till eternity'''''I am feeling AY all inside my heart'''.. while saying all this'''. GOSHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE themmmmmmmmm☺️😊😳''
~*~ Anu ~*~
For me the moment I started really loving Ashi-Yuvi was the "perfect hona zaruri nahin hai lekin real hona bahut important hai" scene. There is just something so magical about this scene. It was the first moment where I felt connected to them, like as if they had touched my heart. I think it's because Ashi's words had and still do have a resonance in my life. They struck a chord with not just Yuvi, but me too. That one scene made me accept my flaws and gave me the strength to face others as I really am. More than that though, this was the scene where I really starting feeling Ashi and Yuvi's love. I think it's the first time we really see and really know that Yuvi loves Ashi, that she has become a part of his soul, that she is his inspiration. The confusion, the pain in his eyes as he tries to find the words to tell her the truth just blew me away. I realised that he idolises her, that she is his everything and it struck me that this was just amazing because this was a guy who had never worshipped anyone but himself. He had never felt the need to be pure on the inside for someone, but this moment showed that he wanted to be a good person for Ashi. And it contrasts with the assurance in Ashi's eyes. You see just how much she trusts him, down to her very soul, and that left me awed too because I knew that till now she hadn't trusted anyone with all of her being. It made me hell proud of them to see two people so young but so in touch with reality. I was amazed at how they could be so mature, how their love could make them better and more fuller people. From this moment on I realised just how special they are and just how deep their love is. I saw that it wasn't just a normal college type romance, but something deeper, something based on love and trust and friendship. I think it sums up the very essence of them and for me it is the moment that always leaves me speechless by how special their bond is. Seeing how it has made Yuvi think about someone other than himself, made him mature, and how it has softened Ashi, made her lower her defences, I realised that theirs was a love capable of changing the world ' theirs and mine.
~*~ Shelly ~*~
from a long long time , smriti has been behind my back with this unique holiday homework for me :D :D Even though it seems fun and something i love , holidays have made me such a lazy freak , that nthing inspired me to even move my hand on the keyboard =)) but after watching rajs mcvities ad for 30 minutes nonstop back to back made me type this all out =)) so here i go!!
when remix started i was intrigued with the concept n all but never got to see it ... and whenever i used to see it , it was only in bits n pieces .. the first ever "ay" scene i saw was i guess the midnight garden scene and i was like "heck thats coool" it was like the breather from the kasautis and the kahanis and the saas and bahus mom used to force us to see with her.. i was just i guess 14-15 back then when all this started.. i didnt have much brains too bt sumhow i knew this show wud be differnt .. due to a family vacation i lost touch with my new found favourite show and by the time i was back i had missed alot !! so i never actually knew which jodi or character i actually liked by then... then i googled "remix" and it got me to indiaforums and a lot of yahoogrps which were a rage at that time :D
slowly and steadily i caught on with the episodes and started liking ashi yuvi .. but that one moment that made me go fida on ashi yuvi or yuvi most precisely was ashis bday !!!
the scene in which yuvi gives her the ring .. i was blown away by the sheer innocence and the silence and everything .. it was just perfect :) i mean ashi was happy but she controlled her emotions coz i guess she didnt want to go thru the pain of heartbreak again or sumthing ... i guess it was one of her special moments for sure :) and then what touched me more was a few days later during the bday celebration when the TWIT aditya just casually THROWS THE PRICED RING For his tuccha kachra ring ... the look on yuvis face was to DIE FOR ... i actually cried with him ... it was like his heart got cut through ....
okay there was separation period for them but still its beauty wasnt tarnished .. i mean it wasnt the usual kekta separation where the evil forces are hell bent to keep u away and aditya was so nt the usual villain types ... it all appeared so normal and so real ... i remember making one of my first sigs on yuvi on this scene too .. his expressions are etched in my memory till date :)
from that moment onwards i started following ashi yuvi :) regularly and i wasnt dissapointed for sure :D :D
~*~ Mads ~*~
When u are told to say something abt urself or ur journey in life so far, its soo soo difficult, because u kno urself, u hav seen urself grow up, but can u ever understand and feel urself as absolutely and completely as u understand or feel someone else in front of u ?? Well, I dunno abt others, but I certainly cannot .. and when I realised that I have to describe AY's journey uptil now, I encountered similar feelings of anxiety within me! Difficult I thought it might b because there's soo much to write and I wouldn't kno from where to begin or whether I wud make justice to them, but more importantly I realised, jus like words fail me when I have to describe myself, so they fail when I have to describe AY .. because, I realised this, after 4 long years, that I have understood them, loved them, respected them, adored them soo soo much when I got to know them, that they became an eternal part of me .. and when I m told to write something abt them, I m often at a loss of words, because I m afraid that I cant FEEL them as much as I should! And for that I curse myself, I hate myself and I think I m not at all as loyal to them as I should be! But then I realise how completely baseless these feelings of mine are, because the fact that I cant write them soo easily is because they are as much a part of me as the next breath I take, and how can u describe that phenomenon?
Well, when I used to watch remix 4 yrs back .. they BECAME a part of me without my realising it, they BECAME my definition of love and the fact that it is soo pure and divine a feeling that when u have it in ur life, ur life can never ever be empty, my belief that life is BEAUTIFUL and it would always b unless u decide otherwise, my hope that no matter even if u fail 99 times, the 100th time would b the time that u WILL and u HAVE to succeed and even if u don't, then u would always know why, because its YOU who are responsible for ur every action and only YOU have the capacity to change them.. my inspiration to BE MYSELF, no matter what because unless u are urself, neither are u worth of ur own respect nor anybody else's and its only when u are urself, that u can EVER attempt to succeed in life, my every every dream abt MY OWN love story BEGAN wit them ... all this, without my realisation, and the fact that I m able to write it NOW is because I have lived it for four yrs, had anybody told me to write this then, I would have been utterly baffled!
Hence I never let myself FEEL them as much as I do now .. because I never realised MY strength of feelings for them, then ..
So to say that my "AY journey uptil now" .. I would say that it BEGAN this year, because uptil now, I had jus been LIVING it, without really knowing or understanding why .. but this yr, when I had a look at the videos uploaded on YT and thanks to nitzie's mixes was the time when I started to understand and FEEL their beautiful journey!
When I came to know the meaning of the word ' SOULMATES through BRIDA, it so happened that I was watching MJHT during that time and since SaJan were an essential part of me by then, I could relate this word to them completely ... but now, when I speculate as to why I loved SaJan in the first place, and the reason's quite obvious .. but in a way, I thanked AY for making me fall in love wit SaJan and I now I thank SaJan for helping me pen down my thoughts abt AY ... and for making me realise that AY are SOULMATES .. And my own realisation of why I have loved them so much for more than 4 yrs, why have they managed to capture my heart so eternally and never to leave from there and moreover why they have become a part of my life hit upon me ... And with this realisation, when I now look back upon their journey, I realise that all of the pieces fit in soo BEAUTIFULLY and makes it easier for me to write their journey..
I don't think I ever saw their fights initially, not even then, 4 yrs back .. and not now, and I really dunno why! Maybe because I have always been a peace loving person and any kind of fights didn't really appeal to me that much and strangely during that time, I was almost afraid of watching them fighting with each other so passionately and wit so much feelings because I thought WHY?! Why do they have to fight.. when they clearly have to get together in the end? And thats when I got my first insight into AY ' they fight, because they are inherently different human beings who cannot tolerate each other ... SHE could not tolerate a person as fickle and materialistic as him because she herself had never been and could never IMAGINE to be that! HE couldn't tolerate her because she was a person who thought a little too high of herself, and he tried to hide it under the cover of "a girl who didn't give him AS much importance that other 'chicks' did", however the truth was that she ruffled the very core of his existence by calling HIM fake .. they fought because they have always been honest, with each other, even tho many times they didn't actually SAY it aloud, so they didn't know any other way to be wit each other than that! Their fights, then, were a way of expressing their feelings for each other too .. the fact that they cannot stand each other and cannot tolerate each other AT ALL ...
Later on, however I realised that since they were eventually "meant to be" together, these fights were just one of the many ways by which FATE tried to bring them together..by trying to cross their paths with each other, their souls seeking, craving for each other .. but never even as much as touching each other because THEY themselves as human beings didn't allow themselves to reach each other ..
But eventually FATE did find a way out .. and that was when they started "dating" each other, fake or not! Their souls found a way to communicate with each other and elated, knowing the fact that finally, they would be able to discover their other half ...
The first time HIS soul was touched by hers was when she first saw through his dreams and ambitions in life and realised that there was so much more to him than just a rich politican's kid or fickle as she had thought him to be .. he was a person who was lost in life, not because he didn't have an aim in life but because he didn't have the path to follow that aim and she BECAME his path .. she told him to follow his heart and his dreams in life because nothing is more pure and more beautiful than what the heart wants .. because unlike the brain, the heart cannot manipulate, it only knows and shows the REAL desires of the soul and thats what is always something that gives us true and eternal happiness..and then that decides for itself the path to be followed ... this realisation by her brought inside him a new hope and inspiration as though these two words stemmed FROM her and ended WITH her .. as long as she was with him, whether in person or not, he would always always have a path to follow, a dream to pursue and a life to lead ..
The first time HER soul was touched by him was when he explained to her that how much ever she loves HER mom, she should also learn to SHOW it at times too, she cannot just take her for granted everytime because just like SHE craves for her mom's love, so does her mom .. HE made her realise that expressing one's feelings and desires isn't all that difficult or hard as she finds them to be.. infact, it can be as easy as the next breath u take, but only if u allow urself to breathe .. its when HE became a part of her life in such a way that she even wondered abt her inner desires and dreams and love, some things that she had almost always secretly wanted, but never really admitted to herself, which NOW with this realisation, she did .. as long as she allowed her heart to have those feelings for him and express them as and how she can, she felt her life to be complete..
THEIR souls had to meet then ... one way or the other, whether it was sooner or later, because once they had touched each other, there was no other way they could be, but with each other! There could have been many ways planned by FATE that may have brought their souls together, but I, like every one of us, saw or remember only one ' his farewell for her .. and thats when they were so absolutely complete and content with each other, that for that one instance, the rest of the world, if there was even any, apart from that shed, didn't seem to even EXIST for them ... they were TOGETHER .. and as long as they were that, nothing else mattered .. she gave in finally to her feelings, and embraced him ... because brave though she was, at that one moment, she just wanted to FEEL safe in his arms not because she was afraid of losing him, but because she was afraid of not feeling that moment completely ...
Every moment then on, their souls kept on craving for each other, longing for each other ... but never able to overpower their own beings, because their hearts had still not discovered their love for each other .. SHE went away to London and when she came back, all she saw was that he was with another girl .. her soul grieved, and overpowered her being, because it could not tolerate the pain of being away from its other half ... yet she knew she had to live, to be happy because life was still very very beautiful and she jus had to experience it .. HE was happy because he was with someone he thought he loved and he would do anything in this world, to keep her happy ..and his soul was overpowered by his own being as his heart tried to develop some feelings for this new person in his life, but his soul failed to connect to this person and how could it? When it already BELONGED soo completely to someone else? .. and HE realised that truth the harsh way .. SHE made him realise it ... so was this yet another way by which FATE tried to bring them both together..? She had learnt to love him selflessly, but what abt him? He had not really even thought abt his feelings for her then ..
And yet, so much pain, so much grief .. so much of unsaid feelings and emotions between them both.. she remained his friend throughout because thats the only relation between them she thought existed at that moment in their life..there could never be any other because she herself didn't know of any! He didn't really understand how to take upon so much of grief, hurt and betrayal in his life ... but slowly and surely wit her support he managed to overcome it ... did he realise his feelings for her then? I don't think so, because he didn't know about them himself .. nevertheless, they had jus been through a trying time of their own love without really realising it .. their love, especially her love for him had been tested so brutally and harshly .. but by the end of it she had begun to love him selflessly ... HIS love for her hadn't even surfaced up by then..or was it always there so that he didn't really need to even express it at times? Jus that he hadn't coined the word 'love' for it ...
THEY stayed away from each other more for the sake of their sanity than anything else, however, eventually their souls seeking each other and occasionally touching, because they just HAD to be TOGETHER ... those were the times they went on caring for each other, being there for each other .. unconditionally and irrevocably, because there was no other way that their souls could be wit each other ..
Once again, FATE tried ... and this time, it worked miracles.. as yuvi told her later on, "pata nahin maine tumhe kyun choose kiya is bet ke liye..shayad main andar hi andar tumhe chahne laga tha.." and THAT is what exactly happened...but because they were both strong individuals themselves .. they couldn't bring it to say this TO each other, she, for the fear of being hurt again..and HE because he never thought she could be wit him, because she was so much more beautiful than he was! But fate did work out its own way..and brought them together under the pretense of 'partial amnesia' and 'anvesha bet' .. and it was almost like a dream come true for her, a dream that even she didn't realise she had been dreaming all along .. when he admitted his feelings for her .. she didn't even know whether to believe it or not, whether to accept it and face him or to run away from him .. but eventually, the strong person that she was, she faced him and poured out not jus her heart and life to him, but even her soul .. and love blossomed in their lives .. ELATION cannot even begin to describe what they felt during that times ... and while their souls elated, they themselves discovered subtle changes within them ... he realised that she became his strength in life, something that had already happened, but the realisation came in now...she realised that she can never give herself .. her life, to any other person now, not even after him ..
And this was the ONE time when I completely FELT one of their scenes so absolutely and completely that it changed MY very life ... he came to confess to her abt the 'bet' wit sid but was unable to do so ... he lied to her yet again, however, his feelings were anything but a lie .. he wanted her to be proud of himself, because his own insecurities and the fact that somewhere, is he not worth her? But she loved him not inspite of what he is, but because of that .. and thats why she told him "perfect hona zaroori nahin hain, lekin real hona..bahut important hain.." because underneath that facade of a rich politician's son..underneath that ruthless attitude of his..lies a human being that is so genuine and so real .. and somebody that nobody but her saw .. and thats WHY he is worth not jus of her, but any girl who is as beautiful as he is .. and thats when I found my aim in life too .. I realised that u really cannot b a good human being unless u are real and genuine...real and genuine not jus to the world, but to ur own freaking self too! The day u start lying to urself, is the day that u hav lost ur aim in life..and as long as u are true to urself, real to urself, u wil remain that to the world too ..
Then how did their journey take such a brutal and harsh turn? Why is it that she came to kno of the bet and she "broke up" with him? I guess because he hadn't learnt to love her selflessly yet..and only those souls that can learn to love each other selflessly can be together? He needed to learn to love her selflessly until he eternally deserved her presence physically in his life...because mentally, she was already and wud always be a part of his life ... their souls, if needed to live together eternally, then they should learn to love each other selflessly ... and for that, he needed to learn to love her that ways, because she in a way, already had!
Life seemed at a standstill for both of them then ..
For HER, his betrayal meant not jus his betrayal in her but HER trust in herself .. because her life, her soul, belonged to him so eternally, that it was as if SHE had lost her trust in being WHO she was .. she was shattered and broken ..for the first time in her life, she wanted to run away from it all, not because she didn't have the strength/courage to fight and face it..but the very soul from which she derived this courage was shattered and tattered to such an extent that she didn't find any will to revive it .. eventually, wit time, she learnt to trust in it..she had to revive her broken soul and not because she NEEDED to, but because she WANTED to .. she wanted to live and accept the hurt and betrayal by him .. and was it because she had seen the depth of his feelings for her under his lies? Was she able to look through her hurt ego and self esteem and glance through HIS soul which was still very very pure? Or did she jus kept on discovering him slowly and developed this trust and this belief in THAT love they shared? I really don't know whether it was in jus one moment .. or their entire journey that she took to gain back that trust in THEIR love .. his love, her love, she was sure of, as much as the next breath she took .. but THEIR love? And when and what exactly made her believ in it .. I really don't know .. not even now, when I know their entire journey!
For HIM, life was a standstill then, because she was a part of his life like no other being was to him..like the very air he breaths, her presence in his life was something that was his NEED more than his want..and EXACTLY this was what he had to change .. he had to learn that her presence need not mean only physical one .. he needed to learn that even if she didn't come back to him, it was because SHE didn't want to .. and he should respect that decision of hers without letting it affect THEIR relation and his feelings for her ..HE needed to go on loving her and deriving strength from that love .. and only then would his love be worthy enough to get her physical presence back into his life .. and for that, he needed to undergo another journey of his life and when he says that to sid "is baar sab kuch alag hoga..is baar woh mere paas jaroor aayegi.." he meant it in his every action of his .. for once, this lie was over, he NEVER lied to her about anything..and kept on rediscovering her wit every minute of his life that he spent wit her .. and his feelings multiplied by every second ...his love was something he was sure of..but HER love and THEIR love was something he needed to be sure of .. or maybe, for him, it was no longer abt THEIR love..it was abt HIS love and that made him automatically a better human being and as long as THAT was present in his life he always had a life he could be proud of ..
When a new guy entered her life and threatened to take her physical presence away from his life was the time when HE learnt to love her selflessly ..and this irony brought within him changes that he had never even dreamt of, because "uske liye badalne ko dil karta hain..she makes me a better man dude!" and he kepy on loving her selflessly, never really waiting for her to come back to him.. because she WAS with him..even tho not physically..
All throughout the second season were the times I really came to know AY so much better then, because tht was the time ( acc to me ) that I was really old and mature enuf! Their love became the VERY definition of love for me...because their love wasn't for others to see..infact, their love wasn't even for each other to see..it was jus FOR themselves, their strength to correct themselves whenever they went wrong .. sometimes by each other, sometimes by their own selves .. their happiness in life..that they spread not only amongst each other but amongst all those mortal beings within their presence .. their love was something that had no beginning, no end .. they gave their love the name of a 'friendship' sometimes.. they gave it the name of 'enemies' sometimes .. or at times, they didn't even need a name for it, because there was actually nothing that could describe this phase of theirs .. this was one beautiful phase in their life that I wished every person should hav, because when u hav something like this in ur life, even one lifetime isn't sufficient to completely and fully appreciate and FEEL it ..
The rock concert is one of my eternally fav moments..for my own reason, because for the first time, during this phase of their life, one of them had managed to think differently than the other .. he thought ahead of times and wanted to finally give their relationship an official name of 'love' .. SHE hadn't really thought about giving a name .. because she didn't feel the need.. these opposing views clashed wit each other and momentary were on the verge of shattering their relationship .. but how CAN it be shattered? They were connected by their souls..can their really go apart from each other? And thats the best part abt their love, because they don't NEED to protect it for themselves..it protects itself ..
And then the ultimate strength of their love .. overcoming their fears, their insecurities not abt each other or his love or her love but abt THEIR love, their differing viewpoints at times .. their own egos..their hurt, betrayal..so much that they have gone through in their lives .. but THEIR love, had the strength to overpower all of these things..and finally forced them to come together officially.. if u ask me, was there really a need of it at all? But maybe, it was more a need of the world than them both ... coz two people cannot really be said to be "TOGETHER" until they are physically so .. so it was more for the sake of the outer WORLD that that day happened in their life, is what I would say NOW .. I mean, weren't we ALL so happy that day too? Why is it that the mere presence of two beings physically together gives us all much much more happiness than their souls being together in an invisible world? This question wil remain unanswered over the time though .. for me atleast ..
Having said ALL this, I believ there is still lots more to be discovered wit every new scene of them that I watch .. in every phase of their life..so that this journey is my perspective NOW .. and my perspective is going to change when I watch their scenes later on .. so this AY journey for me, which BEGAN this yr wil never ever be complete..atleast not until I stop LIVING them .. and that means, it would remain incomplete, eternally for me!
~*~ Nappy ~*~
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Edited by -DulceMaria- - 15 years ago
"Between us is a love that can perform miracles!"
But noo seriously...Meera has been with Yashwant Dev all this years because of her sons...especially Yuvi...otherwise she was least interested in spending life with a man who doesn't even care for her (forget about love)! Even yuvi knew this and he was ready to leave Yashwant dev, but Meera didn't want to...for Yuvi until today...and she is today away from Yuvi only and only because of his happiness!! Maybe she is there somewhere screaming..."Salvame!"...like Sonia did when she was leaving for US for Ashi's happiness...!! Meera has always cared about Yuvi's happiness first and vice versa...!
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