Part 1
"I wonder why he took this decision for us, was it this easy for him totake this decision, was our love this weak that it could not stand a few obstacles and distances, he says its not easy to work out of long distance relationships but then it is not impossible,
Our love could have sorted it out, why was he so selfless? I know he can never get over me and my memories, infact I know him too well to accuse him of not loving me even for a moment, because I know, even though this decision made a part of me die, a part of him would have died every second while taking this descisionā¦ why did he have to think so much about me, he wanted me to move on, but did he not understand the fact that for me moving on meant moving with him by my side otherwise there was no moving on, I will be stuck in life till he holds my hand and making me feel his warm touch would whisper sweet nothings in my ear and make me move on on the most beautiful paths of life
I realize these were the most important years of our lives, as it was now that we had both to achieve our dreams and be what we want however getting over a relationship you have held for eight years is equivalent to dying each minute in an hour and that too when you know you might have to let go forever." My eyes swollen I held onto that photograph, one which was taken on our first official date, an icecream date along the beach, that was all our high school pocket money would allow us if we wanted to go out too frequently but trust me nothing in the world can taste better than that icecream, I did not realize its taste till it melted but now I would give millions to have it back. Memories everywhereā¦ I guess those were what that brought a small smile to my face between the sadness and dullness acquainted in those eyes which he never allowed to turn wet in the last 8 years. They were acquainted with tears of happiness though, quite sometimes at his words of love but those tears he slowly kissed away making me feel most special on earth.
I remembered those long hours of video chatting with him and when my eyes were not ready to keep open infront of the screen anymore we talked endlessly on the phone and I often fell asleep as he kept blabering and finally when I woke I found a message with a sweet gud night accompanied by a hug and a kiss without which it was difficult for me to doze off now.
Well, I know that what went through his mind at that moment of time was exactly what I would have thought if I were ever to be in his place. After all you always have the guilt of keeping your love tied to you when you know you are giving less attention to it than deserved, he would not have avoided me but being so far ne never wanted me to stop on my ways just because his thought and his commitment runs into my mind. We were in every way the perfect couple but right now education mattered, I was already admitted into the mumbai medical college for my MBBS while he had to fly to the USA for his MBA to follow his legacy, his greatfather went, his grandfather went, his father and now heā¦in short every man of his family has done his MBA from NYUā¦. So how could he break this long running custom now. Well don't take it to be sacastic or taunting coz literally what I say is the truth nowā¦ these distances were too much for me to bear, they would have been to you to if someone who happened to be your first dream at night to the last one in the morning and then would have been beside you every hour day in and day out, consoling you, loving you, caring for youā¦. Making you feel the way you want to.
However, as they say long distance relationships are hard to maintain, even though we had the phone and the internet yet it would not remain the same. We would get busy with our respective lives and it will all get over in a mess so it was better to terminate it here so that we can remain good friendsā¦but then can we remain JUST FRIENDSā¦.neverā¦..and to tell the truth I never wanted this just friends tag with him. He was NOT just another friend, he was someone special someone who made my life worth living. We tried to sort out the unsaid words but to no help. I know what he would have been feeling. He was going away for 4 years and he would be back for very short intervals after huge spans of time. He thought I deserved moreā¦.somehow in these though I drifted along into the past memories with him, the sweetest days of my lifeā¦ā¦
Today he was leavingā¦.and I was broken because I thought all my hopes were dyingā¦ we could never make it again..,ā¦ I wanted to meet him once before he left, to feel his arms around me, to feel his lips on mine, to feel safe near him and I knew he will come . even if he does not want to his heart will bring him here. And yes he did come . I was still in my room with a dull face and all my freshness goneā¦tears still there, an unknown fear creeping in me. I knew I would not be the same without him but giving me a hug and securing me life long FRIENDSHIP he wentā¦
"I wish you were hereā¦but you are thereā¦and there does not know how lucky it is"
....to be continued
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hope u all like this one as well
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it will encourage me to write further....
i was apprehensive about writing on a new couple bt i new i wanted it to happen
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love u all
kavyaš
Advocate Anjali Awasthi
Health and Fitness
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