Okie ninny ji r we ready to discover this mix together?...☺️..r we?..r weeeee?....we better BE☺️,,,coz here i goooooooo on my roller coaster ride😍
Starting with him playing the guitar...oh my god...u know i felt ki he composed this song at that VERY moment...like u said this is the ONLY present moment..it so IS..coz he he composed this song at THAT very moment...Ashi...ashi ki life main yeah tornado already aa gaya hai....she is broken shattered deluded disillusioned and above all she is LOST she so is she is so lost form her own self from her IDENTITY she can't look herself in the mirror she so CAN'T she who was so so so SO sure of herself can't just can't meet her own eyes...she is so full of doubts of fears of uncertainities and she so doesn't know how just how to accept and LIVE with this ghastly truth...her whole eighteen years of being Anvesha Banergi Ray has been turned into a mere question mark...and she JUST doesn't knows how to BEGIN answering this question...she is LOOSING faith in HER OWN SELF and thats why she can't feel bhaggu..all she is feeling right now is BETRAYED CHEATED and thats filling her with PAIN REPULSION she is rebelling against her own self
and Yuvi..Yuvi via this song he is urging her not to loose hope not to loose faith...you know its like she is not there in this moment where he is composing this song but HE is so feeling her anguish living it rather and via this song he is sort of pledging to his own self ki NO he would not let her fade into oblivion he would NOT he is vowing that chahe jo ho jaye he would get the life back in her coz heck without her the word LIFE seems as still and silent as the dead...SHE IS LIFE...SHE IS HOPE...she has to feel allthis she just has to ONLY then these words would hold meaningggggggggg...and u know here in this guitar wala moment he is just promising this to himself ki ki woh Ashi ko apni APNI ashi se milwayega....aur uski ashi kaun hai?....maaaaad and crazy a lil insaneeeeeeeeeeeeee wali ashiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii jiski insanity jiska pagalpan is JUST infectious ☺️
and the moment he thought about HIS ashiiiiiiiii uski ashi jo apne lil finger pe poore worllllllllllld ko ghuma sakti haiiiiiiiiiiiiiii woh ashi jo bina kisy reason ke kisse bhi pyaar kar saktiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii hai woh ashi jise hanse ke liye kabhi bhi koi reason nahi chahiye woh ashi jo pagalon ki tarah hanste hanste halke se rone bhi lagtiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii hai woh ashi jisky boooooond boond se sirf happinesssssssssssssss aur hope chalktiiiiiiiiii hai☺️.....the moment he thought about HER...(in the very first series of b n w flashback),,,,HIS resolve strengthened pata nahi kahaaaaaaan se he got this mad insane hope courage to fight beyond measure and this time he was fighting against fate and NO not FOR HER heck NO he was fighting for HIS OWN FREAKING SELF coz he NEEDS her happiness he NEEDS her insanity he NEEDS her to feel bhagguuuuuu he NEEDS her to feel herself....ONLY and ONLY then all these things would hold meaning for him....only then he himself wld be able to fele all this COMPLETELY ....and the beautifullest part is...aaj jab she is not feeling all this..toh his belief in all this has STRENGTHENED it so so so HAS coz he is he is feeling it with HER force HER belief...he KNOWS that she is THIS..that all this flows in her veins and he HAS to get it back its still THERE all he needs to do is make her REDISCOVER it and aaj jab she isn't feleing it somewhere he too is scared damn dman scared but he can't he just can't let that fear grip him..isliye he is believing in all this all the more..coz believing in it means BELIEVING IN HER..all he did was made HER live in his beliefs in his faith and all he has to do NOW is make her see this self of hers which is living within him..just make her see her own self from his eyesssssssssssss.....and u kno that is why the guitar and the song..coz we KNOW music is the thing which gives him the courage to fight beyond measure...and here in this only PRESENT moment..all he is doing is preparing to FIGHT to make the universe conspire..to phir se take this journey of rediscovering bhaggu...and the minute he thought about his hasti khelti phudakti wali ashiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...he felt bhaggu he felt sooooooooo close to him...and thats from where he got his COURAGE HIS HOPE☺️☺️
and now he goes back into time..he starts from the VERY first moment when fate struck....and u know if you see theek se us moment main all he is telling her ki ashi its okay problem aayi hai toh is faith ke saath aayi haiki hum handle kar lengeee hum koi na koi solution dhoond lenge..we can and we willlllllll....all he was doing was showing her YES ki possibilities..but all she was responding was NO NO NO i CAN'T and yeh kah ke she just leaves...WITHOUT seeing any any POSSIBILITY she just leaves...and thats when he remembers...(second b nw flashbacks)...OMG....he remembers all those times where she was feeling POSSIBILITIES be in it after black gang wala moment..be it in the roller blading wala moment..be it in her sending flying kisshies to her one and only wafadar tommy momennnnnnnnt☺️,,,or be it he waking her up wala moment..just see all of these moments..and feel how possible she was feelingggggg....in moments main he was saying no..but she so so was just saying YES YES YES even for the absurdest of plans absurdest of ideas she was saying YES....coz her situation main she felt everything she is feeling is possible...just see her excitement her enthusaism her freaking belief KI HAAN..ITS POSSIBLE..I AM POSSIBLE..☺️....shit..how did u do this huh ninnuuuuuuuuuuuu?...just how?...this is so beautifullllllllllll....us moment main she was all NO NO NO and all he saw was her YES YES YES..and just feleing that gave him hope and strength to fir se make her feel YES....☺️..and then he realized that her being NO is not jayaaaaaaz...
SAME...SAME U DID in farewell dance moment tooooooooooooooooooooo....he remembers ki how she NEVER NEVER let hm hate his own self coz of one wrong person that came n his life he saw how she just NEVER let him sink coz of this ONE wrong thing...so how just how could she LET HER OWN SELF SINK RIGHT NOW just hooooooooooow?...this...this is NOT jayaaz AGAIN...the girl who never NEVER lets even the evilest person hate his or her own self is right now so so far away from loving herself?...this so is NOT jayaaaaaaaaz
and OMG just omggggggggg the FyH and the Perfect Hona moments shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit....i just duno what to say....its like she made these two things his life ka bibleeeeeeeeeeeee his life ka only only path...every moment of his life is now just abt these two thingsssssss...and now right now SHE the girl who made him discover these two things made him see ad live the possibility of HIM...HIM capable of living these two things...that same girl is so so far away from this ONE path.....how JUST HOW could she do that huh?...how could she not see this path how could she decide NOT to walk on it even for a mere nano second JUST HOW?...how oculd she think that no she CAN'T WALK..how oculd she let that thought surface how could she be so lost so confused ki she was not seeing the damned light which glowed within her which had the power to illuminate any damned dark spot...?....she being this was just not right and jayaaz it was BLASPHEMOUS it was putting a question mark a big question mark on the reality of all these things...YES agreed that these things would exist NO MATTER WHAT but heck for him she was the MEANING the MIRACLE behind these things..she was the oe who made him see them as POSSIBLE...so how just how could she do this to herself who gave her the damned right JUST WHO....he was mad he was angry he was BOILING MAD and this madness made his resolve all the more strong....coz he knew that she would not be able to SURVIVE if she couldn't feel this ONE path again...he knew for her there was o damned option but to stand up stand tall and confident and fullllll of hope and just FIGHT..and he so won't WON'T allow even her own self to satch this from herrrrrr....HE SO WON'T chahe iske liye he has to go against her too he would DO IT....coz uske against khade hoke all he wld be doing is bringing her closeto her own self...the place the person to whom she belongs..more than belonging to anyone else..ALL OF US first belong to our own selvesssssssss..jab tka khud se khud ki osul se truthful nahi honge jab tak khud se khud ka rishta nahi live karenge toh dusron se kya feel karenge yaar?....
so ya..dheere dheere he is making her follow her heart..telling her its okay to be imperfect...perfect hona zaroori nahi haimeri whackoooooooooooooooooooo real hona bohut important hai samjhiiiiiii dobi?..☺️...and ed main..omggggggggggggggggggggggg....end main...she smiled for the first time ever...SHE SMILED OUT OF HER TEARS SHE SMILED SHE SMILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED and uska haath thaam ke she walked bouncinglyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy towards her DREAM HIS DREAM THEIR DREAM...YES there was sadness still there..there was stillsome hurt..but heck....there was HOPE and BELIEF tooooooooooooooooo...hope ki ALL WILL BE WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL....pata nahi kab but it will be it just WILL BE and bus ek baar yeh hope aa jaye toh u can handle anything...problem solve ho ya na ho use jhelne ki himmat aa jati haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..and she got her strength back...this time via him....vis his smile..his belief IN HER...☺️....jab usne khud ko dessert kar diya jab usne khud ka saath hcodh diya even THEN he believed in HER and in alllllllllllllllllllllllllll her possibilities in all her beliefs in every little se little thing she REPRESENTED..and remember what cohello said..."because YOU believed i could do it..i DID it"...☺️....ek belief is enough to make you fight coz us ek belief main bhagguuuuuuuuuu ki belief hidden hoti hai...yeh ahsaas hota hai ki bhaggu still is believing in us he never stopped believing and he NEVER would..and yuvi...yuvi brought this belief to herrrrrrrr by believing in her☺️....and u know i wld tell u a secret...i dunno..i just go all crying crying in htis moment..dunno how or why it became soso SO damned special to me...perhaps coz at the back of my mind i know this is Ninny's favorite moment☺️...soalong with AY i am feeling meri ninny toooooooooooo☺️
and i feel is moment ko hope bana ke he came back into the PRESENT moment jab he was playing the guitar this last wala moment where she smiled again where she felt her dreams again...where she felt her possibilities again...where she was able to wipe her tears...DEFEAT SADNESS...and fir se embrace happiness...i guess this THIS was the moment which became his hope....and just feleing this gave him peace....it gave him a promise of eternity...and now taking this moment feeling it he can araam se sleep coz he knows tomorrow is a new day...a brand new daaaaaay..and no matter how dark their life ka night turns...just remembering this ONE moment where she was able to defeat sadness defeat pain and fir se beammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm wid lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee wid sunshineeeeee...just remembering it wld be enough to tell him..tell them...ki the dawn is BOUND to break just after the darkest hour of the night..ki koiiiiiiiiiiiiii hai out there woh would ANYHOW bring sunshine to vanquish night ki darkness...and yeh aur koi nahi hamari khud kiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii belief aur faith hai☺️....
omggggggggggggggggggggggggggg...now i wana say i LOVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEE...☺️....if i made u fall in love wid your own mix...which i know I DID☺️...toh then time for my gifttyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy☺️...aur gift main u wld have to keep your sig tag as "loony rocks and nappy sucks"☺️...that too for seven days MINIMUM..☺️
GEEEEEEE..am such a rockstar☺️...love meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....loemere ay..and mera cohellooooooooo🤗...and kya..i can hear u crying and saying..."haaaaaaaaaaawmera i love you?"😭😭😭...well to that all i can say is I HATE YOU NINNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY☺️☺️☺️
"TOUCH WOOD"😉Edited by FollowYourHeart - 15 years ago