Originally posted by: BollyBabe75
Arpita, heartbreaking! But, here again I read it twice and sat and thought about it before commenting.
I realize even though I ache for Khushi I am not as emotional as I could be. And it’s because I realize I had already felt the heartbreak that Khushi expressed. I had already felt all those emotions that Khushi was expressing. I saw all that Arnav had done already and felt the pain that Khushi would have felt and in fact did feel. I think that is why I was so hard on him. Swati also was very hard on him. The pain that you portrayed Khushi feeling in listening to Arnav I had already felt in earlier chapters like Khushi would feel. Does that make sense?
I am still mad at Arnav. And the things I wrote about him feeling guilt, taking her for granted are still true. I don’t think I ever called him selfish but definitely egotistical and entitled. Someone else I believe did call him selfish. His wants, his needs took precedence over Khushi’s. And he justified it by his work, her being too traditional, not willing to involve herself in the way he wanted to live.
Khushi isn’t without fault because she was willing to let him take her for granted. She never passionately vocalized what she wanted or needed. Now, the heartbeak of being Gawar and the sense of betrayal she felt for giving up everything for him guts her even more.
We’ll see in the end the truth about sleeping with Lavenya but I still can’t absolve him of guilt. In my mind even a depressed Arnav behaved in a fashion that he acknowledges he let his demons take over. Wow! Now he is coming out of his depression fast. He realizes the damage he has inflicted because he ran away from conflict and refused to face his demons. He acknowledges that he always does that and it won’t work anymore. Good start.
We’ll see who VD is. I have always thought that Khushi would be happy with a compassionate, well sorted guy like a doctor, or professor that shared her same dedication to helping others. Someone who is non traditional enough to not be bothered by her being a divorcee, appreciates her selflessness, and will not take advantage of her but value her as an equal in a marriage. A non brooding, extroverted NRI might be just the ticket.
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