PROLOGUE
It was a complete chaos. Even the silence was filled with chaos. Shiva and Raavi finally got divorced. It was bound to happen. They all knew this. They all knew that the way Shiva and Raavi were behaving, they will not be together for long. But somehow they were not prepared for this. They kept repeating to themselves that it was bound to happen, but the feeling was not sinking in. They were all numb now. Especially THEM.
Raavi has lost whatever she dreamed from childhood. Her home. Her sister. Her family. Her HUSBAND. EVERYTHING. All she wanted to do was cry her eyes out, scream so loudly that it snap her out from the numbness she was feeling or go and launch herself on her said husband.. Oh ex husband... And ask him why he did that? Why didn't he even try? Was it that painful for him? Did this marriage was this cursed to him?
But she couldn't do any of it. She had to be strong for herself. She didn't even have anything in world except herself. Her masima wasn't even talking to her because she refused even a single rupee from alimony.
She was sitting near the lake and she didn't even know when she slept there. When she opened her eyes, sun was about to set and she felt the presence of familiar smell which was no longer unwelcome to her and the person that was no longer in her life.
"Ab kya chahta h tu?" she asked.
"Tu idhar hi so gayi...me bas udhar ped par tha to tujhe dekha...shaam ho gyi h tujhe ghar jana chahiye." He said.
"Tujhe ab kya fark padta h Shiva?" She eventually asked.
He didn't know what to say, so he just settled for, "sorry". She desereved that.
"Kis liye? Kis baat ki maafi Shiva?"
"Wo.. Jo bhi us din hua.. Matlab mandir me... Me kabhi tere character par shaq nhi kiya.. Wo to me.. "
"Tu ye sab mujhe Ab kyu bol rha h Shiva?"
Shiva was silent for a minute. May be he should not have come. It wasvall so soon. But it was needed to be said. She didn't deserve any of the humilation.
"Raavi... Mene ye sab isliye kiya kyunki me tujhe baandhna nhi chahta tha... Tu kabhi khush nhi reh paati mere saath. " He said after the uncomfortable silence.
"Oh wow! Humari zindagi ke liye kya sahi h kya galat...mere liye kya sahi h kya galat... Ye faisla akela karne k baad ab kya bataane aaya h tu Shiva. Mujhme to ab itni himmat bhi nhi bachi ki tujh se lad saku me. Poochu tujhse...samjhne ki koshish karu ki tune aisa kyun kiya. Ab to ho gya na sab khatm. Ab jaan ke kya karu me. Tune to mujhe is layak bhi nhi samjha ki apni zindagi ka faisla khud le saku!"
"Raavi... Shayad me tujhe kabhi na samjha pau..me kya mehsoos karta hu... Par me ek baat jaanta hu... Mene apni zindagi me Apni khushiyo ko kabhi priority nhi di... Mere liye apni khushi sabse baad me aayi h... Aur tu ye deserve nhi karti... Tu ye deserve nhi karti ki me tujhe kam ahmiyat du... Shayad me apne aap ko ahmiyat deta to aaj me kuch aur hota aur tere layak hota.. Par aaj me wo nhi hu... Aur na hi ban sakta hu... Kyuki aaj me tujhe bhi wo ahmiyat nhi de sakta jo me dena chahta hu."
How could she not break down when he had done everything to put a closure on their relationship and then give an explanation like that. All she wanted to was cry so hard, shake him and tell him what a gadheda he is. But she knew it was of no use. He was stubborn and if he could go to this extent to break this relationship.. Then whatever she tell him not gonna change his mind.
"Sun Shiva.. Me bachpan se jaanti hu tujhe... Humara koi rishta to ab bacha nhi par ek baat zarur khaungi tujhe... Khud k liye jeena, khud k liye sapne dekhna inme koi buraai nhi h.. Aur jo log tujhe sach me pyaar karte h unke liye tere sapne poora hote dekhne se bada koi sukh nhi h.. Me humare rishte k baare me kuch bolungi nhi... Kyunki bolne jaisa shayad usme kuch tha nhi.. Par ye jo kuch bhi hua is se mene bahut kuch seekha aur samjha h.. Aur shayad tune bhi.. Tune tera aur mera dono ka faisla le hi liya h to ab bolne k liye kuch bacha nhi.. Shayad mera dil tere jitna bada nhi.. To me bas apne baare me soch k bol rahi hu... Jab tune itna sab kar hi liya h to aaj k baad mujhse kabhi milna nhi... "
Something broke inside Shiva after hearing that. But he knew he deserved it. As she heard his footsteps fade… she could not control her tears. She cried for everything, her dead parents, everyone who left her, her hurt, her broken family and finally losing the love of her life, the man named Shiva Pandya.
Index
Prologue Page 1
Chapter 1 Page 2
Chapter 2 Page 4
Chapter 3 Page 5
Chapter 4 Page 6
Chapter 5 Page 8
Chapter 6 Page 10
Chapter 7 Page 11
Chapter 8 Page 15
Chapter 9 Page 17
Shiv Shakti
