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Sushant Singh Rajput You really knew how to live life. Take Risk, learn the lessons and move on.
30 days is like 30 years for me. I have accepted SSR is no more.
I remember first time watching Sushant as Manav on small screen and I fell in love with his character and I was so upset when they changed in KDMHMD. I loved that show so much! I was so mad at Ekta for changing him. I didn't know he got the role in Pavitra Rishta. I was not good with social media at that time and didn't know how to track him on his work. I use to watch KWK and would hear his name often but was not aware that he's Manav. I never understood how Sushant name was always the least attractive and least in acting. And KJO had a big big hand in bringing his image down. We all say KJO is innocent but there was no need for such category as Katrina said she avoided KWK so she wouldn't hurt anyone feelings.
I saw Dhoni trailers and fell in love with the music. Kaun Tujhe Pyar...LOVE LOVE it. I think Disha and Sushant made a very cute pair. And watch Sushant Dhoni Comparison, Perfectionist!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92cSjgEVF6Q
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlVECEc95vs
Kedarnath!! what can I say about Mansoor? He is love, so much joy. I totally loved mansoor. I think this is Sushant best movie and I could never forget this movie, his chemistry with Sara, him dancing on sweetheart and Qaafiraana song was so beautiful. CInematopgraphy was Amazing. I have no words to describe how much I loved this movie and without mansoor, Kedarnath won't be Kedarnath. I was so so so disappointed with the ending. Coming out from cinema theaters, I told myself how can the director or writer do this? Like why? I loved Sushant and Sara pairing and wanted them to be together. I told myself I am so happy Sushant is alive in real life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f4zgTLqlNX0
And then the news came of SSR death. I was in deep shock, devastated and so hurt. My first reaction was Please you got to be kidding me, maybe it is just an injury or accident. I could not believe what I was watching on news. In the passed 30 days, each day I have cried a lot. Asking God why??? He was a good human being, a person who help everyone, and donate a lot of money and help the needy. Then Shekar Kapur mentioned how much you cried on my shoulder and how Bollywood treated you so badly. It is their Karma. I was shocked, Sushant never made his viewer feel this way. I just wished so many things, I wish I knew. But what could I have done? There was too many blinds since the day he entered Bollywood. Rajeev made sure not miss any opportunity to trash SSR image. I wished SSR sued Rajeev for posted fake METOO movement. Maybe Sushant was Mansoor in real life as well. Always look for the best. That was the time where SSR was traumatized and fell in depression. I finally saw how Bollywood sidelined SSR. I wish I could had seen this before.
I watched all his interviews, his 50 dreams, his future project, his companies and non profit organization. How much he loved India and how much he wanted to help the poor ones. We lost a Diamond, we really did. I believe SSR was someone who would bring changes into the world. He never needed Karan Johar movies or YashRaj movies. He made it big without them with Dhoni movie. He got many great projects but they got shelved out of no where. What amazed me that he never signed a movie for money, but he did for excitement. He had many big projects in mind. Let the investigation go on, I don't believe the police how they predicted his death as suicide in 10 minutes of investigation without finding a suicide note. When I found out about the 7 banners banned him, I immediately removed all KJO and Salman Khan videos and movies from my electronic devices. What makes me so angry is that he wanted to make a difference. He wanted to make and work in original scripted movies.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1hiXVOsefc
SSR death has woken me, I am not the same person anymore. I have changed, I am taking my life more seriously. I am not as smart as Sushant Singh Rajput but I will live each day to the fullest. From becoming engineer to working as a dancer for Shamak's dance group to working in Ekta drama serial to becoming very successful. And taking a risk to enter Bollywood and there too he became very successful. Spending time with Dhoni and his family, where we all can dream of. Not only that after MeToo movement getting Chichore very successful at the box office. Sushant you are a star, shining star. I wish you were with us so we all could tell you, how special you are. You were never an average guy, but very special. From not having a Godfather, or relative in Bollywood. You shined SSR. I wish you were alive, I wish you reported the people who were making your life miserable that took your life into depression. There was too much dirt happening which none of us were aware about it. People were questioning your character, even twitter took off your blue tick. What hurt me the most was I accidentally saw your death bed pictures. All the bruises on your neck, the worst ending ever. You didn't deserve this Sushant. No one deserve this. This was all preplanned. I don't believe these superstar didn't knew SSR was in depression. They gossip so much. Rhea tells every information of his to Bhatts and Bhatts share to KJO. And yet they create fake blinds knowing he is getting the treatment. This is very low and heartless. I will never ever watch their movie.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cG1ZuXF8kjc
What's next? Please don't hate anyone guys! you have a role to play and that is definitely not to hate. If you seriously love Sushant Singh Rajput, create your 50 dreams, get the inspiration from him and when one day you will be very successful you can say your inspiration comes from Sushant Singh Rajput. Fight for SSR, but work on yourself, that will be a great gift to SSR. Donate to the poor, send kids to NASA, work on something and learn what excites you. You have the power to make a difference. Don't even focus on the people who made SSR life hell. What comes around, goes around.
What I learned in the last 30 day is, Money is not the goal, learning new thing is the goal. Feeling of that you matter is the goal, investing in the right things and right people is the goal. Time is ticking and not stopping for anyone. Live your day to the fullest.
One last thing. please education yourself on Depression. Seeing a counselor does not mean you will go Parvin Bobbi way. If you know someone who is in depression, all they need is love and a lot of self love. Don't even ask them anything, just spend time with them and love them. Let them know how amazing they are. Depression is a very scary place to be and anti depressant has so many side effects. That is why SSR stopped taking as he wanted to heal naturally and I don't blame him at all. As you don't want to be on the medication for too long. When your loved one goes to see a counselor, it does not mean they have mental illness. Anyone can go to see a counselor. Just remember mental abuse is the worst abuse. People who mentally abuse other, there is something seriously wrong with them. Happy Souls don't make others life Hell. If you have depression, I urge you to contact your family doctor to prescribe a counselor. Just take it easy, life is beautiful and you MATTER. If someone or something is drowning you, just leave because your life is bigger than that one or that thing. Message me if you ever needed to talk.
Sushant Singh Rajput I am praying that you are happy with your mother and praying for justice. You have taken something from us and there is an incomplete feeling. Bollywood will not be same without you. May your soul rest in peace.
You will never be forgotten. You are a ROCKSTAR⭐️
Thank you for reading.
Anupamaa
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