SPM ~My Musings 3.9.19~ Identity crisis..
Kainat and Saltanat Shah Ghazi’s uniqueness lies in the fact that they are identical twins. But in their own right, both are individuals with their own distinct personalities and characteristics.Mind you, Kainat always felt lesser than her younger twin Saltanat in terms of good looks and out look. This was an issue with Kainat , for Saltanat she never realized it , and thus both twins never really jelled together, especially when both reached adult hood.This episode speaks of a major overhauling in the making of their very identities..
If we look at the twins, Saltanat is already thought of someone she is not. Worse more, her memory has failed her leaving her whole selfhood in limbo. She fights to get hold of her name, details and specifications! but ends up in a dead alley. This time she is person without any recognition of who she is? However I see some respite for Saltanat ,as whether she likes it or not, the shirty, Bolshi, Madhav will certainly lick her memory into shape! if it’s the last thing he has to do! as he has his own axe to grind…
However Kainat since some time has burnt herself over possessing Zaroon. So deeply is her want , her desire ,her longing for Zaroon, that she gladly sold her soul to the devil! and thus committed crimes left right and centre! It's tragic to see that by a freak accident , she chars her face in hot oil! That face, she stuck on herself to win Zaroon! but the face now infuriates Zaroon to no end. Her rage of being utterly rejected by Zaroon on account of her pretty Saltanat face!Leads her into a dance of rage, that goes drastically wrong!
Morally some would believe that this freak accident in the kitchen was a punishment from above for being a fiend from hell herself! But leaving morality, punishment aside, I would show support for those who become facially maimed due to any freak mishaps that they experience. I consider , the psychologically harrowing experience ,such persons have to go through apart from the pain in burn ,scalding cases! Thank heavens for restorative treatments like corrective cosmetic surgery. But some where the soul of the burn victim is also singed…
Kainat , presumably will go through hell! The cvs will have to treat her,condition with sensitivity, especially the thought of coping with a disfigured face. If after corrective surgery , her face ends up being different from what she always wanted to be.. a beautiful Saltanat look alike.. Kainat will most certainly need a lot of support from her immediate family! Her pretend parents Rubina and Nadeem. But most of all Kainat deep down, will need Zaroon’s complete support as her husband! For whom she always burned for! But with a new face ,can Kainat also change her inherent nature?? She may, if Zaroon accepts her.. but overall after the kitchen mishap, Kainat sure is going to suffer an identity crisis. Can we hope, a new face, which does not match Saltanat’s face, plus Zaroon’s support, can make, Kainat pull through, this fiery experience?
Does Kainat in a way burn her bridges? Destroy the path she herself created. So others cannot follow her truth? Perhaps this identity change is best for her, to breakaway from her past and start life anew. But even in this, pain cannot be ruled out, amendments and changes within herself have to be put in place.
Nadeem reacts as the doting, embittered father. After his daughter gets scalded.. and yes he blames Zaroon, who I suspect now will ensure that he is seen as saving his marriage. Zaroon actually didn’t mean that such a calamity befall Saltanat, where Kainat actually has to for go her original face. In fact Zaroon tries to shows some strength compared to Saltanat’s shaken parents, and as Saltanat’s husband, gives consent for facial cosmetic surgery. But Nadeem gives Zaroon a few reality checks. His identity as Saltanat’s husband might as well not be there ,as he has proven himself to be failed husband. Can Zaroon survive Nadeem’s scathing comments. His mothers murder by Kainat now seems dwarfed by Saltanat’s identity crisis ,her true face grossly at risk..
Saltanat was loved by all at Shah house as the new age woman. As a lost person in the abyss of an identity she is not! She becomes the target of much animosity by all in the Sharma household. Pity is, Saltanat as Kainat is totally oblivious of why she is hated by all? Madhav too for this Kashish’s sake, faces much severe criticism from both his motherand sister. But then again Madhav raises the dead! To give them the punishment they thought they escaped from in the land of the living!
He deals with all taunts angled at him, only to catch Kainat in the world of reality! Reality of her killing her mother like sister, Sakshi. It’s the same revulsion that Zaroon suffered ,everytime he saw Saltanat.. Kainat’s face always came up, as his mother’s killer..But with Madhav he only sees, Kainat, I feel he tries to cover up seeing Saltanat’s beauty. That’s why he gives his pretty prisoner, yet another name Kashish .. His Kashish .. She attracts him passionately to fulfil his duty, both Sakshi's brother and as her virtual son!
But then again, god works and speaks through children. Krish is the only , innocent, uncontrived, unaffected, nearly divine being who befriends the vulnerable non- entity Kainat/Saltanat. It’s almost, when Saltanat loses all hope in her present non- existence, young Krish leads her to some home truths! In his pure innocence he exposes, the lies and the ploys of his family members! What Madhav had told Saltanat, were all lies and nothing but lies! She was his memory slain prisoner! to fulfil some ulterior motive of his..
I would say, Kashish she may be , but the fiery, feisty manner in which she confronts Madhav about the yarns he had spun before her, is truly in good old Saltanat’s style! When it comes push over shove! she does it all! to the brawny , hefty Madhav!Her chant! Her march to the front door is all about! I am leaving!! stop me if you can? Madhav‘s hopes build up! Seems the woman’s memory is coming back in dribs and drabs!
Madhav too was not born yesterday! He tries to stop the shrew with a tight slap! But his hand freezes in mid air. He nearly loses it.. but for his Sakshi di/maa’s advice.. never do unto a woman, that you wouldn’t have, done to your own sister!! Yes she nurtured Madhav right from a tender age to look out and respect women; especially the vulnerable ones.Madhav cascades this to young Krish as well. As Krish is the only one who is sensitive to the needs of this lonely sad visitor in their house..
Is Saltanat coming around ?? Or will Madhav still have to wait? He wants her ,to shake her true self out of the doldrums?? So he can make his move.. but even so this Kashish influences him. ..
Precap:Seems Madhav has had enough of this mouthy, rude ,aggressive girl! He can seem she can fight and bite too, half given the chance! She might try to do a runner! As it is, Krish gave her some clues, as to why she is in Sharma house! Madhav cannot take chances.Does he take Kainat/Saltanat back to Shah Manzil to shake her, memory ? to force her into finding her true presently dormant identity? Saltanat and Madhav are seen to be both as bad as each other in terms of losing their equilibrium. When she commands him to shut up! Madhav realizes, if as Kashish she is such a firebrand! Then surely, she will pull the house down as Kainat! Little does Madhav Sharma know, that this is really Saltanat in Kainat’s clothing! Saltanat who is a tough fighter when it comes to standing up fo rher principles! So, looks to me there are rounds of tough combats coming ahead! between these two principled adversaries!!
Zaroon’s words outside the OT.. are ominous will he ever see Saltanat again? Will she ever forgive him?? If only he knew that both twins are fighting to retain their true selves, as we speak! Quite an episode.. Young Krish partly saves the day for one helpless soul.. Divine intervention, I would muse. 4.9.19 Hamlet 53, Irshita, viji, rameeraa, thanks for supporting my musings. love hammie
Pardons for a long post... got carried away.....
