Suraj Rajvanshi... Will shine through his rays?.. (a thought)
(the aftermath of yday's VJ's IV and with heavy heart coming to terms with the reality that maybe my dude has vanished in thin air, has he?! Will my Sun not rise and should I settle with his rays... Raaghav he is indeed turning into a string of melody)
Suraj Narain Rajvanshi... Suraj Rajvanshi...Suraj...now only his Rays (Raaghav)
The epitome of everything, the extreme of everything, does those things which are beyond imagination of any ordinary person...during the dark days he was that dark that he even tried to force upon her... during the grey days he was indeed for he started listening to her, during the white days he was so pure that he loved her more than him and every thing was so unique so special... be it the confession, be it her birthday, be it the way he made her his, be it the way he celebrated Saanvi's half birthday or be it the way he always protected or the way he gave his life for her everything was unique. Suraj Rajvanshi loved her like no one, lived for her like no one and made her live while throwing away his life for he is like no one.
Every second I am away from you turns like an exile (vanvaash for me)!
Has he come back in air, in her breath?
Hamarey hotheyhua thumhe kuch nahi honadenge!
He cannot be there so he chose his rays to protect her?
Any bad to you should face me first!
He took her position and faced death, a warrior isn't he?
If I am dead, bring me back alive, for no one can love as I do!!!
Yes he knows that.. so he made her meet his hamshakal, so has he fought with the almighty to come down to earth in the same form to be with her?
Aadat daalo hamara bine jeeney keliye!!
Yes is he slowly making her realise that she has to live for Anjor and for herself?
These are those lines which lingers in anyone's mind who loved and travelled with my dude and I try to calm myself and answer those lines which turned into a question for me.
Indeed he has turned into her Guardian Angel as when he rose above in the blast the last he saw his life crying unconsolable and he could not rush to hold her to stop her from tearing as he himself was tearing apart! But while tearing, his eyes were calm, a single tear drop and he decided what he has to do!!! In his own unique way!
If he had vanished in thin air, he would want to spread in that air and be with her to make her smell him, be around her to protect her, but being invisible he cannot protect her, make her live so did he come through that soul which wanted him to come through him!?!
He said he cannot be away from her so maybe that's why he has come to her through another soul which has the same face and also the same heart as this innocent heart too loves her unconditionally. (Raaghav was ready to tear away his face as that was hurting his maidam, that maidam just by her deeds won him over, for he fell for that lady, strong lady who kept her pain and was ready to address others pain!)
She said to my dude when they were talking about divorce, she will fly high alone and will not remarry as no one will want a tedi ladki like her... He knew she will fly high again but will she live as she fly.. No...will she smile as she fly high.. No... Will she even go into the other world where she will think about her own... No.
He knows her better than she herself,
Would she have even turned to someone if it was not Raaghav who had a face similar to Suraj... NO
Would she even think of smiling leave alone laugh if it was not Raaghav, No.
My dude is unique in this too as he will not hurt her ever, So I think he has fought with all gods...
He has come back to her in another form, through his rays... Raaghav the happy go lucky, piractical guy as he is also a no nonsense guy but unlike my dude who will not break her kasams or go beyond her thoughts, her words, this guy will live and make her live as he realise that Bajragbali has given only one life so it has to be lived and sure will make her live...along with the little princess whom he considers as his.
So I believe, my dude he came back in a unique way, confessed her in a very unique way, controlled her in a unique way, though she wanted him to love her sister, he respected her but he loved her through her sister still.
So I thought back, chew my cud, swallowed those essence and realise that my dude has indeed come back to shine through his rays to make her feel special, to make her live her life as He cannot be away from her...
Suraj Rajvanshi... Will shine through his rays... Raaghav
Hope the string of melody, brings solace to this tedi...
(purely my view though I am still coming to terms... )
Kumkum Bhagya
Pyaar Kii Ye Ek Kahaani
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
Shiv Shakti
