Raman-tumhe kya lagta hai shefali, Main bahut khush hoon ishita ko chod kar, nahi infact I am dying within.bahut pyaar karta hoon main apni ishita se, aur yeh bhi jaanta hoon ki woh bhi karti hai. Tumhe pata hai uske parent aur mere parent, all hates her for leaving me. Par phir bhi woh mujhe chod rahi hai, just because she thinks that she can't give me happiness. I agree sex bahut badi cheez hoti hai, aur Iske bina married life nahi chalti but pyaar bhi toh kuch hota hai. Mujhe raaton ko neend nahi aati yeh sochkar ki ishita divorce ke baad akele kaise rahegi, usse independent banane ke liye, Maine uski job lagwayi, usse self defence class join karwaya, but Ek din mein usse gussa tha, tumne dekha hoga uska haal. She cried hugging herself in the party. Woh bahut akeli hai aur uska mere siva koi nahi, Main jaanta hoon yeh sab shefali aur nahi chodna chahta usse, but kya karun.she attempted suicide when I wasn't ready to give her divorce. Usse mere takleef ki itni fikar hai ki woh apni takleef nahi dekh rahi. She want to leave me for me. Shayad main duniya ka eklauta lucky aur unlucky banda hoon, jiski biwi usse itna pyaar karti hai but phir bhi uska saath nahi rehna chahti. He said in broken voice.
Shefali -i do understand ur point of view bhai, but yeh bhi toh sochiye ki bhabhi ko kitni takleef hogi that she is leaving u. Sochiye unhe sach mein kitni problem hogi that she took such decision. It's not easy to leave someone u love for his sake. Just think about the amount of pain she is enduring.
Raman -kya samjhu shefali. Mujhe toh kuch samajh hi nahi aata,naa uski problem aur naa hi uska behaviour. Pyaar karti but hates my touch. Can u believe, she loves me but hate my touch. Aisa kaise ho sakta hai, mujhe nahi samajh aati uski problem, she say that she loves me and even i can feel it but she don't like my touch. Pata nahi kaisi problem hai yeh, aur kya solution hai Iska. he was saying when shefali asked -raman bhai, did u ever raped anyone??
Raman and Rajeev look at shefali with shocked eyes and Rajeev said -what the hell, how can u ask something like this??
Shefali -rajeev let me talk. So tell me bhai, have u ever raped anyone??
Raman -no, why would I?
Shefali -did u ever have sex with anyone before marriage??
Raman -no.
Shefali -why??
Raman -yeh kaisa sawaal hai, why would I rape someone or do anything like this before marriage.
Shefali -but kyun nahi kiya.
Raman -kyunki yeh galat hota hai, hume sikhaya gaya hai ki yeh sab galat hai. Rape is a crime and having sex before marriage is wrong. Matlab nahi karna chahiye.
Shefali -and what if, with this belief someone tell u to do the same, what if someone force u to do the same. Will u able to enjoy it.
Raman -no. Of course not. Agar dimaag mein yeh baat baithi ho ki joh hum kar rahe hai woh galat hai then how can someone enjoy it.
Shefali smiled and said -i think u got ur answer. She said making Raman think.
Raman-main samjha nahi, u think I forced her for physical relationship, no, never. I never forced her, infact the day she told me this, I never even touched her forget about forcing.
Shefali -u r getting me wrong bhai, it's not about u. It's about our society.
Raman -main samjha nahi. Can u please explain .
Shefali -rajeev can u please leave us alone for a minute.
Rajeev -yes sure, he said and went .
Shefali look at Raman and said-main samjhati hoon,dekhiye bhai hamari joh society hai woh iss tarah ki hai jahan bachpan se ladkiyon ko seekhaya jaata hai that sex is like a crime. We were kept under wrap and always taught that we shouldn't be physically attracted to any boy as it's ethically wrong. Ladkiyan issi soch ke saath badi hoti hai, then one day they get married and all told them to surrender themselves to their husband. Jis baat ko bachpan se galat bataya gaya hota hai, usse Ek din karne par majbur kiya jaata hai which make girl grow this kind of feeling, unhe yeh nahi samjhaya jaata ki u have to do this as a part of love, but as a part of responsibility.u have to do, u shouldn't say no to ur husband, tumhe bachcha paida karna hai, parivaar aage badhana hai and all this crap. Yeh sab baatein unhe majboor karti hai sochne par hi yeh pyaar nahi unki responsibility hai. They can't connect love making with love. Unke liye pyaar dusra ehsaas hota hai aur sex is something else. That's why they perform it out of responsibility not love. Aur jab ehsaas nahi hota toh woh pyaar bhi nahi hota. It become suffocating. R u getting my point .she said looking at Raman.
Raman look at her and said -thoda thoda, u mean to say that ishita can't connect between love and our love making. Usse woh pyaar ka hissa nahi but responsibility lagti hai which she has towards me. Issliye woh usse feel nahi kar paati. Kyunki usse yeh sikhaya gaya hai bachpan se that talking and having sex is wrong.
Shefali -exactly.
Raman -tabhi she was uncomfortable in even talking about it with me also. And I took her to sexologist.
Shefali -that was a pretty wrong step, bhai. She don't have any sex problem but mental problem. Baat sirf uske soch ki hai, unhe aur koi problem nahi.
Raman -tumhe yeh sab kaise pata chala.
Shefali -ishita bhabhi told me all this.
Raman -tumhe bataya but she never told me all this.
Shefali -that's the difference between a husband and a psychriatist. Maine baat ki unse, she told me about her family. They use to live in village and had five sisters. Aap hi socho, jis ghar mein paanch betiyan ho, uss ghar mein kitna discipline hoga. Her mother was very strict. Ek baar she slapped her for watching a kissing scene on TV, aur phir unhe samjhaya that all this is wrong, she should not even think about it or else her father will beat her into pulp. Issi darr ke saath badi hui hai yeh saari behenein. I am sure that every sister of her must be going through the same marital problems. Bas difference yeh hoga that she mouthed it, baaki shayad yeh khud mein hi jhel rahi hongi. U know this feeling is very suffocating and sometime the person commit suicide too, yeh toh achcha hua u guys talked, at least she got open to u.
Raman -iska kya solution hai, how we can make this normal, ishita ko kaise thik kiya jaa sakta hai. Main usse divorce nahi dena chahta aur ab uski problem samajh kar toh bilkul nahi. I want to be with her, kuch karo naa, jisse woh mujhe chod kar naa jaaye.
Shefali -i studied about such cases last night, that's why I wanted to talk to u. Mujhe lagaa tha ki aap unhe chod rahe hai because of her problem.
Raman -nahi, I am not. Infact she is taking divorce, can u help us in any manner.
Shefali -at first we have to make her realise the value of u and ur relationship with her. Agar Ek baar unhe yeh ehsaas ho jaaye ki aap unke bina khush nahi rahenge toh shayad woh bhi try kare iss relationship ko work out karane mein. U should talk to her and tell her that u really love her and can't be happy without her. Agar woh khud help karne ko ready ho jaaye toh situation kaafi easy ho jayegi.
Raman -i talked to her yesterday, told her that I love her and will never able to love someone else but kuch nahi hua. She is just not ready to live with me. Bas roti rehti hai aur mujhe kehti rehti hai that I should be happy, ab kaise rahun uske bina happy.
Shefali -then I think u should go away from her for sometime. Shayad aapse duri unhe aapki importance ka ehsaas dila paayen.
Raman -woh mar jayegi mere bina, she just can't live without me.
Shefali -yeh baat unhe samjhne dijiye that she can't survive without u. Jab unhe yeh samajh mein aayega that how important u r for her and she should work for this relationship then only we can help her and ur relationship. She was saying when the door got opened.
Both looked at the door and saw ishita standing at the door with moist eyes.
Raman -what happened ishita, he was saying when she came to him running and said -kahan chale gaye the mujhe chod kar.
Raman -i was here only, he was saying when she hugged him tight and said -aise chod kar mat jaaya kariye, Main mar jaaungi. I am really sorry, really really sorry for all my mistakes, but now I will do everything for u. She said making both surprised.
Raman -iska kya matlab hai??
Ishita -aap nahi chahte naa, ki main aapse dur jaaun, I will not go. Kyunki main jaa hi nahi paaungi. Main aapke saath ho rahungi. Will do everything in my hand to make this relation work, par aapse dur kabhi nahi jaaungi, aap bhi mujhse kabhi naraaz ho kar mujhse dur mat jaiyega, please raman please never leave me alone. She was saying and crying hugging him tight while Raman just couldn't believe that she is actually saying this to him,for him.
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