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Forgiven or Punished!?
First of all this post is not about whether Prithvi was right in forgiving Sindhu
That part I am not sure myself and have my doubts
Neither am I going to defend Sindhu
I am just trying to see the whole events from Sindhu's prespective
Sindhu had become habituated for crime by now
Even before SD's murder he planned for Prithvi's Murder twice
He even planned for kidnapping Mrinal
He even went on to harm Kallari, he wouldn't have worried if he was dead
So he was ok with killing his brother
He was ok, if his guru was dead due to him
and Prithvi was aware of all his crimes other than his plans to kill Prithvi himself
or may be he is aware of it too by now
Sindhu's main problem was that he felt lonely
He felt left out
He felt inferior
He felt insulted
His mother loved him but still she stood by her husband in his decisions
Though his wife loved him too, she supported Prithvi's ways
His son had Prithvi as his inspiration
It's Prithvi everywhere
This is where Mahakai played his game
and added oil to the fire
He said Sindhu was right in feeling betrayed by his father
(which no one else did)
Like Sindhu himself said that Prithvi was not his enemy
It was his ego, power hungry nature
but still Sindhu loved his father
he was more angry bcos he loved him
we saw his love when his father was stabbed by Mrinal
He was furious, he was hurt and he was concerned
Now how did he decide to kill his father
Offourse we know Mahakai's part
but still how come Sindhu agreed
When he had agreed to kill
he still needed alcohol, he still was shivering
he kissed his father before he stabbed him
then why did he kill??
He must have thought when his father was ready to die in Mrinal's hands
why not in his hands!?
When Prithvi can put his Father's life in danger for nothing
(Mrinal's forgiveness means nothing to him)
Why can't he do it when he could become what he wanted
That is "The King of Malwa"
After all he is dying for own son, his own flesh and blood
It's his Father hence he can kill him
He was kind of possessive for his Father and his love
which when he showered it on Prithvi, he hated
Now love has become hate, just a thin line btw both
Now his father is nomore
He made Malwa's enemy Mrinal take all the blame for it
She deserves it as she anyways tried to kill his father
Prithvi too gets punished and he too deserves it for stealing everything from him
Yes mother will be sad but her Son is the king
she will be healed as time passes
His wife will be the queen
he is doing her a favor in-spite of her not supporting him
and his throne will get passed on to his Son in future
and his son will be proud of his father unlike him
what-else does he want
Once he took the first step of killing his father
Other things didn't seem difficult
Even the guilt wasn't much now
He imprisoned Prithvi and Prithvi is still not suspecting him,
what an emotional fool
Kallari and others who are loyal to Prithvi will go down with him
His Mother has made him the King
Mrinal will is sentenced to death hence one enemy less for Malwa
and the crime was worth it.
But what Sindhu forgot was
He had righteous people in his family expect for his ownself
Not everyone was Mahakai
They may have their flaws but they stand by Justice
He didn't have any idea that his wife knows everything
He was happy that he got to do the last rites for his father
Finally he is got his rights back
but why is Mother stopping me
How can she even think about letting Prithvi do the final rites
What!!?? she knows the truth what do I do now!!???
Oh! now Prithvi will judge me, punish me
my life has come to this,
I will get punished by Prithvi
Now that I am ready to die and nothing left to loose
let me show him his place
My father and Prithvi are responsible for my situation
Now what is Mother saying
I thought I was killing my Father
But did I kill my Mother's husband
Did I kill her future
Did I kill Malwa's protector/beloved
How did I forget that he didn't belong to me alone
How did I even kill him with my own hands
My Father loved me and I knew it, though I never accepted
How will I live with this guilt, let me die
But this Prithvi is not letting me die even
what is with this Malwa and it's rules of no death penalty
OK, if he sends me on exile I am still free to die right
but what if he gives me life sentence
would there be a way to die there, or could it be my repentance
But wait what is he saying
He is forgiving me
How can he!!!????
I tried killing him and he wants me to be his brother
What is this Man made of
How would I feel everytime I see him
He has spared my life, but what about my soul
How would I face my Mother
Her white cloths will keep reminding me of the colors I erased from her life
How would I face my wife, she was the witness of my brutal murder
How would I face my Son, would he ever be proud of his father
How would I face people of Malwa, will they ever forgive me
My family might have forgiven me, but will Malwa ever
Wait!! is it really forgiveness!?
Am I forgiven or am I punished!?
If Forgiveness is the punishment I deserve
then let it be.
My father never got Forgiveness and that was his Punishment
I got my Forgiveness and this is my Punishment
Like father like son after all
Repentance is our life goal
Now I can understand why my father wanted Forgiveness badly
He was even ready to die and I am ready too
May be...may be...Mrinal will get her revenge and relive me from my imprisonment
yes she might free my soul
until then let me be genuine with my repentance just like my father
Let me try wholeheartedly
Let me be a good brother, a good husband, a good father and a good human
Let me wait, like my Father waited
Will I end like my Father or will it be different for me
Will I be able to forgive myself????
Well time will answer!!!
Oops! didn't plan to make such a serious and long post. Plz ignore typos😆😆
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