Dear Diary thread #2 Part #37 page #122 29/01 - Page 43

Originally posted by: madhumeandyou

Awesome update.

Thank you

Radha insulted madhu but she's the one who's actually having a low character.

Yes

Rks shocked with her revelation. Waiting to see how he'll react.

We will see

Thanks for the pm

You are very welcome

Originally posted by: Zarine_94

Wonderful update dear.

Thank you

Loved the moment Madhu listened to RK and was not let in the house Kuku JI.

He is her husband and she must follow his words

And the scene where RK saved Madhu from hitting her head in the wall and how he defended Madhu in front of his mother is superb.

She is his wife and he will support her always. and she wasn't wrong

Thanks a lot for the update and the PM dear. Waiting for the next part.

You are very welcome

Happy new year

Originally posted by: cutical

oh God wen i feel like everything will be alrite then everything will be messed up

Don't worry everything will be alright but when it happen the story will end

hope rk n madhu problems solve now want them together

They will be

n good that radha is out of their home nt like her relly

Yes thank God she left them

hope rishbala sopve their problems no more mu n just unite them soon plzzz

They will not separate don't worry

Part #28

"Give me one reason make you go back to that man?" RK trying to understand his mother

"Because I love him. I always loved him. All my life I am loving him" Radha

"What do you mean all your life? You know him after your divorce with papa, right?" RK

"No Rishabh I love him before I know your father. I always loved him. Before your father and when I was with your father and after divorcing your father. He is the only man I loved all my life" Radha confessing her love and only love to her son giving him shock.

Seeing her son falling on the couch from shock she thought she owe him explanation so she started to tell him the whole story

"I met him at college. We loved each other a lot. But my family refused our marriage. He was poor and from simple family. After my graduation my family arranged my marriage with your father. I thought if I can't marry the one I love. All the men out there are the same for me. I accepted your father proposal with my mind. He is successful doctor rich and good looking man from famous family so I accepted to marry him. After my marriage, I tried my best to be good wife to your father. But I couldn't love him. I felt he loved me. But I couldn't give him my heart in return. I was mad at him and myself that I couldn't love him. Our life were full of problems. I couldn't accept the slightest mistake from him. Your father know that I didn't love him. He tried so hard but I just couldn't. He started to run away from our problems to his work. Most of the time he was away. Our life was miserable. Till the day I got pregnant with you. Your father started to have hope again in our marriage. He started to care again for me and you. But all my time and all my love was for you only. I neglected your father and ignored him completely. And get myself busy with you. Years passed. I was breathing but I wasn't alive. Your father is living his life in work only. And I'm living mine as your mother only. I missed to feel love to someone and being loved by him. One day I met Kuku Ji in my friend's wedding. We started to meet again. He started his own business and he is very successful in it. After a while, I felt that if I stayed with your father I would cheat on him. And I respect your father not to do this to him or you. So I decided to divorce your father and marry Kuku ji. He was rich that time and my family couldn't refuse him again. Your father asked me not to tell you anything. And he told you that I divorced him because he was busy and not caring for us both. Do you know now why I forgive him? Because I know, I can't live without him. We both love each other and we can't live without each other" Radha

"You still love him after what he did to you?" RK in tears

"If you love someone you will accept anything to be with him. No matter what will happen. You will surprised for the things you will do or sacrifice for him" Radha

"And my father didn't he deserve your love?" RK

"I didn't deserve his love not the opposed. You can't control your heart to love someone. I wish if I could love your father. I wish if I didn't have to leave him and you. But I couldn't love him. I couldn't forget my love to Kuku ji. It would save the three of us a lot of pain. Do you think it was easy for me to leave you? No it wasn't" Radha

"It wasn't easy for me to be left for your love to another man" RK feeling hurt from her

"I know I hurt you by leaving you. And I hurt you more now telling you the truth. But you have to know the truth" Radha

"You don't know how bad it hurts mom" RK

"Forgive me Rishabh" Radha

"You don't have the right to ask me for that" RK

Then he took his car keys and left the house as usual to calm himself down. When he back at night he found Madhu waiting for him in the hall

"How are you RK?" Madhu

"I'm fine. Where is mom?" RK

"She left" Madhu

"Ok" RK going upstairs to his room

"I made you dinner" Madhu

"I'm not hungry" RK without stopping or turn to face her. He didn't want her to see his tears

"You didn't eat anything from noon" Madhu

Dear Diary

It is the first time for me to see him like this. So weak and so broken. I don't know what happened between him and his mother. But it is really broke his heart. It is sad to see him like this. He is a kind man. He doesn't deserve to be in such pain. I wish if I can console him. But every time I try to comfort him I end up hurting him more and more. The best I can do now is to leave him alone. Give him time to heal himself. He is strong man and he can handle it. Im sure of it. But please God be with him. I can't support him but you God know what is in his heart. You know how good he is. You know how to heal his wounds and ease his pain. So please God help him and be with him

Dear Diary

I lived most of my life in a lie. I was blaming my father for my parents' divorce. I used to hate him this time. It took me years until I started to love him again. And he was the victim. Oh what a game destiny plays with us. We share many things as a father and son. We have the same surname. The same career. The same passion for work and knowledge. And we share the same curse to have loveless life. Like I said before. Life doesn't give everything to anyone. Life gave us many things and took the most important thing from our destiny. It took love from our lives. Is my destiny to have my life like my father? Cold loveless lifeless life. Will Madhu leave me like my mother did? If Sultan back to her life. Will she choose him over me? She loves him and she never loved me. Can she forget her love to him? What if she can't? What will happen to me when she decide to divorce me? Will I survive the pain? Can I live without her after living with her for years? The best thing for me is to protect my heart. I can't allow her to break my heart again. I must leave her before she leaves me. I will divorce her. I can't let her hurt me again. I just can't.

But think RK. How will you leave her now? You promised her and her mother that you will support her all her life. You will support any decision she make. She wants this marriage. How can you prevent her from trying to make this marriage work? It is her right to try at least. And did you forget that leaving her means you will leave the Maliks also. Are you ready to leave them? After finding such, a loving family and feeling there is someone you belong to. You love them and they love you. Will you just walk away from them? And live alone again.

Ok tell me what can I do? If I don't leave her. If we don't get divorce. Living with her will make me attach to her more and more. I will love her more and more. And this will make it harder for me to let her go when she wants to walk out this marriage. Should I sacrifice my heart to give her second chance? Should I give her the knife to stab me in the heart? No, I can't

Well RK the only way is like you did with her first time you saw her. Give her the second chance she needs. In the same time, protect your heart from her love.

Don't love her

Don't get attached to her

Don't get close to her

And she already know your condition

No love, No kids

It will be fair and square

If she wants this marriage. She knows you will never love her. And we will never have kids

And you RK

You must control your feeling. You must not let her affect your heart. You must detach yourself from her. Don't ever allow her to get close to you. And don't ever allow her closeness to affect you

We will live as a roommate. I will do all my husband duties and will be responsible for her only but no feelings no passion no love no intimacy

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