Shivika 4 Shot- Its My Baby|| Shot 4, Page 24 (01/03/2017)|| Completed - Page 13

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Sorry for the long wait, I've been really busy with college stuff and haven't been near anything Ishqbaaz related 😭 (infact I'm supposed to be learning for tomorrows paper)...Buhht anyway, I have shot 3 ready, but I think I might have lost the plot along the way, so if you stop reading halfway through, I wont mind. Pinky Promise. 😆

P.S. Please ignore Spelling&Grammar Errors && Faulty Font. (I will edit it once I get time again)

P.P.S. Its long, like very long && Sorry in advance if it doesn't meet all the expectations 😭 && Thank You All for the Amazing Comments, I will reply to it when I get time 😳

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Did he just...He...Wife! Baby!...He needs...No, no Anika, he didn't...The fall knocked your head up really good. You're hallucinating! Anika stood there, staring in the direction that Shivaay had walked away in with OmRu in tow, unable to comprehend what just happened. She could feel the lingering touch of his lips on her forehead but she wasn't sure if she was suffering from a concussion or if she had really just heard him say those words and felt him kiss her. Infact she wasn't sure if that whole fiasco just happened

"Bhabi, come on" Priyanka told Anika softly, shaking Anika's arm gently on seeing her lost in her thoughts. She could see that Anika wasn't sure if the last 90+ minutes had really happened or not and she couldn't blame her bhabi for feeling that way because, hell, she herself wasn't sure. But right now all she wanted to do was take Anika upstairs and talk to her. Pregnant! She's pregnant and she wants to leave? Why? Bhaiya! Bhaiya did something. I've never met two people more confused and in love than these two. They're like storms, destructive and beautiful all at once. But anyway, I'm going to be a chote ma, how exciting...Chote Ma! Ohh no. Snapping out of her thoughts, she looked at her family who was still standing in the same positions as they were 5 minutes ago. She could tell from their expressions that they too, like Anika bhabi and herself, were highly confused. Throwing a quick glance at her chote ma, she sighed, relieved that the elder woman was lost in her thinking. Not wanting her best friend turned bhabi to be insulted or shouted at, she nudged Anika lightly until the glazed eyed look disappeared and she noticed her surroundings. Waiting for Anika to turn to her, she said in the same soft tone as before, only this time it was laced with teasing on the last part "Come on bhabi, let's go up...Before Shivaay bhaiya comes back and shouts again orrr he could come carry you up to your room"

"What?!" Anika alittle too loudly, mind still foggy but the words she heard from Priyanka getting processed. "He can tr" She continued angrily but she stopped on seeing Priyanka's stricken face, who was looking from her to behind her. Turning around, wanting to know what was causing Priyanka to look like this, she turned and saw the Oberoi family coming out of a daze. It seemed like her loud 'what' had broken the daze that they were all in. Ohh. Now why do they look as dazed as I feel? No No No. This all really happened. It all really happened. He knows. They know. But he said...Don't go there Anika. Feeling nauseous suddenly, she put her hand to her stomach, which didn't go unnoticed by either of the young women standing at her sides. Looking back at the family, she saw they were still trying to figure things out, thanking her lucky stars for keeping Pinky Aunty quiet and occupied she sent Priyanka and Saumya a nod, and receiving relieved sighs from them, she walked up the stairs, flanked by her appointed bodyguards. Ha! He thinks Priyanka and Saumya can stop me from leaving. I will damn well leave if I want to...But not today, I can't risk falling again...For my baby. Just one more night for my baby. Entering the room, letting out a sigh she took a seat on the edge of the bed, shoulders dropping as she felt the weight of everything finally settling in. She felt, rather than saw, Saumya sit down next to her. Knowing that Prinku and Saumya would want to know everything and know that she was too out of it to have a proper conversation at the moment, she looked up and told them quickly , her voice showing how tired she was "Please, not now ok. We will talk later, I promise. And do not worry I'm fine. I just want to rest for a while"

Seeing and hearing how exhausted Anika was and not wanting to trouble her even more, Priyanka and Saumya hugged Anika tightly, said that they understand, they'll be waiting for her later and then left the room, leaving Anika alone with her thoughts. Closing the room door she sighed once more and went to freshen up. Staring at her face in the bathroom mirror, she saw that her face was streaked with tears stains, her eyes puffy and red rimmed, but what caught her attention was the slight redness on her left cheek. Leaning towards the mirror to get a closer look, her breath hitched on realising and remembering what it was. "Shivaay" She whispered to herself, remembering the shock and surprise she'd felt when he slapped her. Anger quickly replaced her thoughts and she angrily splashed water on her face as if trying to erase the past 90+ minutes. Wiping her face she went back into the room and started pacing, too angry to sit down. Can this man get anymore bipolar? How can one person have so many different personalities? ... Maybe he really does suffer from some disorder, Anika. He does take a lot of medication...You can always take him to that Vaid, maybe that gadha can kick him into a grave! How dare he slap me. Me? Anika Shivaa...No! Just Anika...He admitted to us being together...But why only now? ...Because he regrets it Anika. Regrets that he got close to someone of such low status. No naam, khoon or khandaan. Road side trash!...But do you regret it?

She stopped pacing as her mind questioned her. NO. Placing a hand to her stomach she smiled remembering the day she found about the little being inside her stomach. "Didn't you surprise me that day. But even through the shock and uncertainty, I knew that I would love you. Because you're a little bit of him" And I Love him. Sitting down, tired from all the pacing, she touched her stomach and her mind went into flash back mode.

"Yes dadi, Sahil is settled at the Hostel, and I just got back to the hotel. I'll be taking the 08h30 am train back home tomorrow. And please don't stress yourself, I'm fine" Anika told Dadi over the phone. She had come to drop him off at the boarding school, wanting to be away from Shivaay for a while. Ofcoz Shivaay had protested, asking why she wanted to take train when there were cars to take her but after she refused the offer saying he would be accompanying Sahil and herself but after telling dadi that she wanted to spend some time with Sahil alone, the case was closed. "Ok Anika, I will have someone pick you up from the station. Take care of yourself" Dadi told her in reply. Saying a quick ok and hanging up, Anika out the phone down and decided to do some sightseeing close by. You can't keep thinking about that night. He doesn't remember. So you shouldn't either. That night makes no difference in your life. You both were drunk. If he was in his sense do you think limits would have been crossed? No! So just forget it. Getting out of the lift in the lobby she walked towards the door, intent of enjoying some of the scenery and forgetting all that was eating away at her. But then everything went dark.

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"Good, you're awake" Anika heard a relieved voice say as she opened her eyes. Unable to understand why she was back in her room when she knew she was walking out the hotel just seconds ago or why she felt like she had been hit by a bus, she brought herself to a sitting position and looked towards the source of the voice. Her eyes found a middle aged gentle looking women sitting on the edge of the bed. "I'm sorry, but why are you in my room" Anika asked her feeling confused. The older woman smiled softy at that and said "Not your room sweetheart, we're in my room. You had a blackout and luckily the doorman caught you before you could fall". On seeing Anika still looking dazed, she continued "I'm a doctor, Dr Mehra, I was there when you fainted, so I told them to bring you to my room". Finally understanding what had happened, she replied "Thank you for taking care of me. Uhm how long have I been unconscious?". Seeing the frown that developed on the doctor's face, Anika immediately felt uneasy.

Before she could question Dr Mehra again, the doctor answered, her voice going from professional to scolding as she spoke "Not long, about 30 minutes. I did a few basic blood tests, I hope you don't mind, you fainted because you haven't eaten and your body is tired as well. You really should be taking care of yourself, especially in this condition. Your baby is depending on you to get the nutrients needed and if you don't eat and rest then you could end up harming the baby". Thinking about how she spent most nights awake after that night in Shimla, she told the doctor "I was going out to eat befo". She stopped because her brain had only just processed what she heard. Baby? My baby?"I must still be drowsy, I think you said baby" She said to the doctor, laughing as she said it. "This means you don't know? Well, Congratulations! You're pregnant. You're going to be a mother" Dr Mehra told her happily, not knowing that she was about to bring Anika's world crashing down with news that she found happy.

What? Pregnant? Me! I'm going to be a mother? No! No! It can't be. Feeling like her world was being just by every disaster possible, the blood drained from her face, she looked at the doctor, fear in her eyes "Are...Are you sure?...It must be a mistake...I..I..I can't be!" She stuttered out, her voice, face, eyes all showing how shocked and scared she was on hearing those words. God no, please. You know my life won't allow me to nurture a child...Shiv...Shivaay! That night? No No, the doctor is mistaken!. Sensing Anika's inner battle and seeing the various expressions flitter across her face, the doctor reached out and put a soothing hand on Anika's shoulder saying "You're surprised. And I'm going to take a guess and say that this is your first baby? Correct? So it will be scary but with your husband and family's support, you will be fine. Infact they'll be ecstatic once you give them the news" Ohh doctor if you only you knew what the reality of my life is. Husband? Family? Ha! Not able to do anything but nod at the doctor, Anika got off the bed and slipped her sandals on while saying in a toneless voice "Thank you for everything Dr Mehra, I'll just go back to my room now"

"Ok sweetheart, but I will be over to check on you again, please take care of yourself. Eat well and rest regularly. Also you should go to have a full check up done. The only thing I can say is that you're about 2 weeks along. If you eat and rest well then you and your baby will be alright. But go see a gynaecologist as soon as you can" Dr Mehra told her knowing Anika would want time to herself, they both walked to the door, opening the door and stepping aside so Anika could exit, the doctor touched Anika's cheek and continued warmly in a motherly voice "Everything will be fine". Nodding again at the doctor, Anika hurried to her room, opened the door, rushed inside and shut it quickly. Back against the door, she finally let the tears fall, sliding down to the floor she feeling suffocated, she cried between deep gasps. No. No. Damn it! No. How will I tell everyone? How will they react? How will...Oh God, Shivaay! He will never accept this. He will never! He will hate me. It's my fault, if I had stopped myself that night, this wouldn't have happened. What are you going to do Anika?...Maybe I should..

"NO!! Don't even go there!" She said out loud, shocked at being able to even think of such disgusting thoughts. Placing her hand over stomach, as if protecting her baby, she spoke out to herself "This baby is mine. I won't let anything happen to you and I promise, I will give you the best in life. I will work hard and make sure that you will want for nothing" Standing up again, she remember the words the doctor said 'with your husband and family's support, you will be fine'. Hahaha! "He could want this baby" Why are you kidding yourself? "He's changed, he's not SSO now" Really? So you think the man who can't acknowledge that he spent the night with you will acknowledge this child, who by the way is the result of the very night that he is obviously regretting?? Hell Anika, he can't even say the word wife and you in the same sentence! Her mind supplied sarcastically."But he cares for me now, right? Maybe he is changing" Her heart made her say out loud, hopeful that the mind would see how Shivaay changed. Sure he cares for you, but only because you're his responsibility until the divorce is finalised. Don't you remember he made you sign those papers! He's divorcing you and it will make him and his family happy. As for him changing...Shivaay might change, but Shivaay Singh Oberoi will always be driven by his naam, khoon and khandaan mantra. And Shivaay Singh Oberoi will always be at the forefront of everything. Her mind snapped at her, frustrated at the nonsense the heart was saying.

"He took a bullet for me, he could have died. He saved me!" Her voice coming out desperate, trying to make her mind understand. Has he acknowledged you as anything other than his responsibility? He told you that Shivaay Singh Oberoi doesn't step back from his responsibilities, do you want your child to just be another responsibility? Can you live with seeing your child being taunted by Pinky Aunty? You are just going to force the issue on Shivaay and he's going to get all 'Shivaay the Great Wall' and take on looking after this child, but, but he will never give your or this child full rights as his family and he could very well end up having you...Damn it Anika, snap out of it. Anika's mind told her quickly and angrily, all the memories flying by."I can't, it hurts. It hurts!" Battling between her heart who wanted Shivaay and her mind who knew that she couldn't have him, she broke down again, crying those words out aloud, holding onto the nearby chair for support. Tears falling, she realised what a dilemma she was in, but she also knew that her mind was right. For once she would give her heart a back seat, because right now her mind was making more sense. She couldn't be selfish, this was about her baby now too, it wasn't just about her. She would do the right thing, for her baby. My baby.

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"Anika" Shivaay called out to her as she relaxed with her eyes closed on the sofa. He had finished filling in OmRu on what and how he wanted things to be done. Thankfully his brother had agreed to everything he said, he knew they were determined to make things right for him and Anika. Coming up to his and Anika's room, preparing himself mentally for whatever disaster was about to go down once he entered the room that at the moment housed a human sized nuclear bomb. But he was surprised to Anika relaxing on the sofa, looking so serene. But on calling her name, her eyes flew open and he could see a million of emotions swimming in her stormy brown eyes. What was she thinking about that? Is she making another plan to run away? Over my dead body will she be leaving this house! ...But no Shivaay, see the look of happiness under all those other emotions. And that glow!...How did I not notice that glow on her face? "Anika, come we need to talk" He said gently, but his barely controlled anger was obvious, stepping into the room, he closed and locked the door behind him feeling Anika's eyes on him as he did. Turning he walked towards her, as he got closer to her, he saw her stand up swiftly and walk towards the door, he didn't make any move to stop her but said in a low voice as she walked past him "We can do this the easy civilised way or you can walk out of this room and I will be forced to behave in an uncivilised way. Don't test my patience Anika" Why does everything have to be a fight Anika? Why can't you listen when I ask nicely.

Anika stood still hearing his threat, undecided on whether to heed to his words or brush them off, she stood there contemplating when she felt him rather than saw him walk and stand behind her. Feeling the waves of fury that emanating off him, she gathered her courage and turned around to be met with dark blue green eyes, almost turned navy, that showed her how much off anger he was holding back. Hiding her shock at seeing him like this she told him in a cold voice "Don't test your patience? What will you do? Carry me? Throw me in the pool? Force me to marry you? Insult me? Or maybe you'll slap me again? Let me tell you Shivaay, I've seen the worse of you and I've experienced the worse of you too, so go ahead and surprise me" She saw the impact each of her words had on him, saw how he paled with each word, saw his eyes fill with pain, but she couldn't feel sorry for him. If she did, he would get her to stay back and that was not something she wanted. I'm sorry Shivaay, but I have to do this. Anika had expected Shivaay to shake her up, rebuke her for speaking to him like that, she expected anger from him, but she got nothing, he just stood there staring into nothing. Turning around again, she walked towards the door reached up to open the latch but she froze on hearing "I want my family, Anika". Confused on hearing his words and tone that sounded so distraught, she turned to tell ask him what he's talking about but the words died in her throat on seeing him look so broken. Head bowed, eyes red, shoulders dropped, he looked like the epitome of a broken man.

Her heart beat faltering on seeing Shivaay so defeated, she quickly went to him, not able to stomach seeing the person she loves in this state. No. Shivaay. She held onto his shoulders and said softly "I'm not taking anyone away from you Shivaay. I would never take your family away from you. How can I do that?". She saw the change in him as his eyes went from empty to blazing fire, as his jaw tightened, she knew what was going to happen but he was quicker than she was. He pushed her hands of his shoulders and straightened up simultaneously, pulling her to him he twisted her left hand behind her back while his other hand held onto her right arm tightly. "DON'T PLAY DUMB WITH ME ANIKA!! YOU ARE TAKING MY FAMILY AWAY FROM ME. YOU ARE TAKING MY WIFE AND BABY AW" His anger replaced by fear as he said the word 'baby', he realised that he was hurting Anika by holding her in that way. Releasing his hold on her, he watched as she staggered back from being left so suddenly. Shivaay reached out to balance her but she raised her hand, halting his effort "Don't Shivaay. Don't come near me" She told him, the warning clear in her voice even though her heart felt happy by hearing him say that she was his family, that this baby was his family. Don't become weak by a few words said in anger. You don't know what is cooking in his mind. "Anika I'm sorry, I didn't m...is my baby ok?...I'm sorry Anika" Shivaay told her quickly, apology and fear thick in his voice, he was still standing in the same spot, afraid if he moved she would get hurt

You have got to stop grabbing her like that Shivaay. She is pregnant, you could end up hurting both of them...This woman keeps making me lose control! What can I do...Give her space, give her time, she can't be forced into talking...5cm of space is enough! Ignoring the voices in his head, he held his hands up and walked back alittle saying "I want answers Anika. You owe me that much after wanting to leave with my baby" And he got an answer, but not the answer he wanted. "Stop with the 'my baby'! I told you, this isn't" Anika snapped out, irritated at all the 'my baby's' she heard today from him, but before she could complete her sentence Shivaay was in front of her again, hands clenched into fists at his sides, jaw tense, gritting out dangerously "Complete those words and your will regret it Anika". But all he got was words that made his breath hitch "Just like you regret that night Shivaay". "What are you talking about Anika?" Shivaay questioned her back, confused about where this conversation was going. "Ohh we're back to pretending it didn't happen. Ok, that suits me just fine" She told him, words dropping with sarcasm. She walked to the door for the second time but Shivaay slid in front of her, his back against the door. "Move Shivaay!" Anika said to him, tired of this back and forth game.

"Why didn't you tell me Anika" Shivaay asked her softly, looking directly into her eyes as if trying to find the answer there. He saw fear flash in her eyes for just a moment and then it was gone, wondering what she was afraid of he asked her again "Tell me! Why didn't you tell me". Anika heard his voice rising from soft to angry but she just walked away to stand by the window. Sighing, knowing that he wasn't going to let this topic go nor let her leave the room she answered him "Why? Why should I have told you Shivaay? So that you could accuse me of wanting to trap you? So that you could tell me how you regret that night? So that you could remind me of my status? Why should I have told you that I'm pregnant Shivaay". She waited for him to answer but instead he asked her something that she hadn't expected "Do you regret that night Anika". His voice was low and laced with fear, if she hadn't been waiting intently listening for an answer, she would have not even heard his question. Startled by his question, she remained silent for a few seconds, gathering her scattered thoughts. Please don't say yes Anika. I will not be able to live with you hating me. Please God. He came to her and reached out to touch her shoulder but her answer had him dropping his arm and feeling like his life was draining away. "Yes". No! She can't, she...No, please no.

Anika stood facing the window, tears running down her face as she said the biggest lie in her entire life. Her heart clenching as she uttered that 'yes' she held her hand t her mouth to stifle the sob that wanted to escape. No Shivaay. No. I don't regret it. How can I? It's you, Shivaay. This baby is yours. Ours...But this house is not where I want my baby to grow up Shivaay. We will be nothing but 'responsibilities' and people on who your mother can throw taunts on whenever she wants to. We deserve more than this. We deserve happiness...But Anika..Shivaay is your happiness... Get it together and leave. Now. Wiping her tears and composed herself and without looking at Shivaay, she walked towards bathroom to freshen up again but Shivaay's words stopped her for the second time that evening "Do you regret my baby. And I'm begging you Anika, don't say that this isn't my baby". Spare me atleast this, God. Atleast let her love my baby. "No Shivaay, i don't. I can't. This is my baby, my family" Anika answered him and he could hear the happiness in her voice when she said the last few words. Relief and happiness flowed through his heart but then he remembered the stunt she tried to pull this morning and his happiness and replaced by anger. He held onto her arm firmly, but remembering to be gentle and said "You still haven't answered me. Why didn't you tell me. Why were you running away?! With my baby?!!" . He had tried to sound as normal as he could, but his barely on trolled anger from before returned full force as he thought about how he wouldn't have known about his baby if Anika had gotten away this morning. "Fine, you regret that night, you hate me, but you can't take revenge on me by keeping my baby away from me" Voice rising with fury and hurt and he pulled her closer to him, faces inches apart.

"STOP WITH THIS 'MY BABY' NONSENSE SHIVAAY! THE BABY IS MINE. I'M HIS MOTHER. AND I WILL BE EVERYONE HE NEEDS...AND AS FOR NOT TELLING YOU, I DIDN'T SEE ANY REASON TO TELL YOU. WHEN YOU COULDN'T EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE THAT YOU SPENT THE NIGHT WITH A MIDDLE CLASS GIRL WHO HAS NO NAAM KHOON OR KHANDAAN, THEN WOULD YOU HAVE ACKNOWLEDGED THIS BABY WHO IS THE RESULT OF THAT NIGHT? THIS BABY WHO IS GROWING IN THE WOMB OF A GIRL WHO YOU CALL ROADSIDE TRASH? WHEN YOU CAN'T EVEN ADMIT THAT I'M YOUR WIFE, HOW WILL YOU ADMIT THAT THIS BABY IS YOURS? THIS BABY DOESN'T FIT YOUR NAAM, KHOON AND KHANDAAN CRITERIA SHIVAAY, HE DOESN'T HAVE PURE BLOOD, WOULD YOU HAVE ACCEPTED HIM? OR WOULD YOU HAVE ACCUSED ME OF USING THIS BABY TO TRAP YOU? WOULD YOU HAVE TREATED HIM AS YOUR OWN? ACCEPTED HIM IN PUBLIC OR WOULD HE BE YOUR CHILD ONLY INSIDE THE WALLS OF THIS MANSION? ...I DIDN'T TELL YOU BECAUSE YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER ACCEPTED THIS BABY. NEVER" Anika had finally had enough, tired of his constant claiming of his baby and frustrated with the whole situation, she lashed out at him, tears falling as she shouted those words, all the emotion and stress that she had been bottling up since weeks finally finding an outlet. She saw Shivaay stare at her with blank eyes, his hold on her had loosened with each word she said, but right now she couldn't be the least bothered about the effect of her words on him. Pushing away from his hold she sat on the bed, catching her breath.

Shivaay stood still feeling as if he was being pierced by a million blades, his heart beating painfully slow as fear of what was happening sunk in. Her every word cutting through him like a sharp knife on knowing what his constant taunts and NKK lines had done to her. It had broken her so much that she couldn't even tell him about his baby because she feared he would reject the child. Shivaay, what have you done. What have you done. You've ruined your own life. You've ruined her life...I can't let her go, she's mine. They both are mine... Fix this. Make things right, make her stay. Schooling his features into a more normal look, he cleared his throat to dissolve the lump that formed there waiting for her to look up and then he said "I want you both Anika. You are my re" But he was cut off my Anika standing up quickly and spitting out angrily "Responsibility right. We're your responsibility...You think you want us Shivaay, but you don't. You feel obligated to looking after us. I don't want my baby to be an obligation to you. I'd rather have him grow up without a father than live here with a father who only sees him as a responsibility". Shivaay felt the anger he was controlling for the past few hours break loose "ANIKA!". But she pushed him away shouting back equally loud "DON'T SCREAM AT ME TO MAKE YOURSELF FEEL BETTER. I AM NOT YOUR PUNCHING BAG ON WHOM YOU CAN ALWAYS VENT OUT YOUR FRUSTRATIONS". Forgetting his earlier resolve of being gently with her, he grabbed her shoulders and said in a cutting voice "You will not keep me away from my child. You have no right, Anika, to keep a father away from his child! Don't make me do something that you won't like"

"Your threats don't have the same affect anymore Shivaay, I've heard them so many times that I've become immune to it. Try something new. And for your information, you cannot keep me here by force, no matter who you are or what power you may have, you cannot keep me or my child here by force" She told him in response to his threat, voice fill of courage she didn't really feel. "You are forgetting Anika, that you are my wife, this baby here is mine" He stepped closer with each word, reaching her he put his hand on her stomach and the feeling that he felt knowing that his child was there was indescribable. His lips curved into an ear to ear smile because of two reasons; 1. The feeling of being a father was so beautiful and 2. Anika had tensed, her breath getting deeper on his touch and he knew from that, that he still affected her. She's lying Shivaay. She's lying about regretting that night. Why? But his smiled disappeared when she flung his hand off her stomach telling him "You don't have this right Shivaay. And wow, I'm surprised that you can say my name and the word wife in one sentence without having a seizure". Armed with this new thought of maybe she's lying, he brought her in front of the mirror and said "Do you see that Anika?" But she looked at him confused, so he explained "This sindoor and mangulsutra, it's mine. And it's on you, means you're my wife. I have all the rights Anika. And I intend on claiming them, along with my child". Hearing her low gasp and seeing the blush that stole over her cheeks, his suspicions were answered. She lied because she's scared? Or is it something else?

Anika tried to control her emotions but the hope that maybe he had changed was too strong to be bottled away. Does he really mean it? Did he mean it all the times he called me his wife and said he wants this child?...Or it this his way of keeping us here? As that thought crossed her mind, she pulled away from him, spun around and said "Well played Shivaay. I must say, you were very convincing. If this your way of getting me to stay then sadly it hasn't worked". Shivaay smiled grimly at that and replied as honestly and seriously as he could "I mean it Anika. And I'll say it again, you're my wife. I meant it the first time when I said it downstairs and I mean it now too. I need you Anika". He saw how she froze, how her eye lit up with hope and then how it died just as quickly. "You don't get to play with my emotions Shivaay. I mean it when I said it downstairs and I mean it now too. I'm am leaving and don't you dare stop me. I deserve better, I deserve happiness, not taunts and insults" She told him coldly, after realising that they were getting nowhere with all the futile arguing. You gave him answers, you gave him a little piece of rope to hold onto, he didn't take it. Now there's nothing left. The mind is always right Anika...Maybe he does want you but maybe you aren't above his NKK beliefs. Hearing her piercing words, Shivaay never felt worse. You're losing her Shivaay, you're losing her because you can't see beyond naam khoon and khandaan...Are those worth more than her and your child?...Are those worth more than the love you hav...Love? What?...You Love her...I love her...Yes! I LOVE her...But you've lost her Shivaay.

Letting out a strangled sob Shivaay fell to his knees. "I need you, iloveyou Anika". He cursed his mind for only just figuring out what his heart knew all along. The Man who never knelt before anymore was kneeling today but he didn't feel ashamed, because he was doing it for love "My heart knew that it was always you who owned it, but my mind kept renting it out to my naam, khoon khandaan beliefs. It's been a battle Anika, and you don't know how difficult it is. Me, the person who trademarked the NKK beliefs falling for someone who was everything my mind disliked. Today, I realised that Love is beyond those beliefs. My heart wants to be with its owner, it wants you. Today my heart has finally managed to overpower my mind, because the thought of losing you scared it. It feared that if you went away, then it would stop beating. I'm sorry Anika, that it took this long to realise all of this. But please, let me make things right. Give me time to adjust. I will make you happy" He looked up from his position on the floor and saw that Anika was crying just as he was, waiting for an answer he stayed there, tears still running down his face. "It's too late Shivaay. Our divorce will be finalised in a few days. You're 6 months too late" She told him through her tear, wiping her cheeks, she continued "Your mind will always overpower your heart Shivaay. Your mother, father and uncle will be there to always support your mind. The heart is nothing but a weak organ" Why are you phailao'ing raita Anika. You wanted his love, so why are you refusing it now? You should be happy, Before her mind could answer, Shivaay was standing in front of her, his eyes red and watery, it pained her to see him like this but her mind was being rational and she knew it was right. "What are you saying Anika. I said iloveyou and you re" He held her shoulders, shaking her lightly but she held her hand up, stopping him.

"Because the person who was kneeling there is Shivaay, in a few minutes Shivaay Singh Oberoi will take over and start thinking about how all this will affect Oberoi stock prices, how the Oberoi name will be ruined, how society will taunt such a pure family. Shivaay, your heart might have gotten courage but your mind has been strengthened by years of nurturing your beliefs." She explained to him in a tired tone. As much as she wanted to throw herself in his arms and tell him that she loved him too, she couldn't. And it hurt. "But Anika, I will fight for you, I will fight with myself for you. Your Shivaay, Anika's Shivaay, will fight Shivaay Singh Oberoi. And I will make sure that Anika's Shivaay will win. I will win for you Anika, for my baby, no no, Our baby. I need you both Anika. Please" Seeing Shivaay this broken, so defeated and haunted shattered her heart into even tinier pieces, hearing his voice so strangled and desperate left her wanting to hug him and tell him everything will be fine. But she couldn't. This wasn't about her only, there was a baby involved too. "Shivaay, your mother, father and uncle will never accept me and this baby, your society will never accept me" She tried to reason with him but he just shook his head and asked her, his voice hinting at his anger "Am I not enough Anika? Is my love not enough for you? For us?" And her answer showed her anger too, and it left him feeling whiplashed "Was I enough for you? Before today, just Anika wasn't enough for you. You wanted naam khoon and khandaan. Just Anika wasn't enough"

"Damn it Anika! ILOVEYOU. ILovedYou back then, ILoveYou now and I will LoveYou Always. I just didn't have the courage to admit it back then but Anika give me just one chance and I will let the entire world know that Shivaay Singh Ob...I mean, Shivaay has fallen in love. He loves Anika...And they're going to have a baby" He had began in his SSO tadi, but he ended up pulling Anika closer and whispering the last bit in her ear. Pulling back he watched her blush return, and added with her pregnancy glow, she never look more beautiful to him. What a fool I've been. It feels so amazing to say iloveyou to her. Hmm, I'll have to make up for not saying it all these days...not that I'll mind. "Shivaay, you're staring" Anika told him softly. Clearing his throat and talking his romance for later, he asked her the one question that was bothering him "Did you really regret that night, Anika?". Seeing how troubled he was, she touched his cheek and told him "No Shivaay, the circumstances under which it happened might have not been right, but I don't regret that I was with you. I avoided you and hid the pregnancy from you because I thought you'd hate me for what happened and that you wouldn't accept my, I mean our baby. But why did you act like none of it happened?". Shivaay looked away as she answered him hating himself for being the reason she thought like this, head still turned the other way he told her "I was afraid that you would hate me. I can face your anger, your fighting, your 1001 emotions but I wouldn't have been able to handle your hatred Anika. I thought you didn't remember that night because of the alcohol, I mean you didn't show any sign of remembering so I didn't want to remind you and see you hate me. I was a coward. But not anymore, I will make everything right"

"You are mad, just mad Shivaay. How could I not remember? I woke up before you, so ofcoz I saw our state" She looked at him, rolling her eyes at his stupidness while he had the decent to look embarrassed. How can someone so intelligent be so stupid at times. But you love him and he loves you. Eeekkk, he LOVES me. He wants me and our baby. But I will not make things so easy for him.He will have to wait for me to say those words back to him. After all, I am Mrs Shivaay Singh Oberoi...Uhm maybe I should tell him that I like when he's Shivaay Singh Oberoi...But he should minus the NKK...Anika's Shivaay does have a nice ring to it. She was pulled out of her thoughts by her husband carrying her to seat her on the bed, kneeling down in front of her he kissed her left cheek, letting his lips linger there until he felt it warm up with her blush and said "I'm Sorry Anika, for slapping you" and then he put his head on her stomach and said "Hello Junior Oberoi"

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(I know there are things that have been overlooked during their convo' but that will all come in shot 4 😆)

Thank uUu for Reading 😳

Much Love, Shan'e ❤️