Shravan,
I know this letter will meet the same fate as my previous one and no matter how much I or others request you this will become a customized newspaper edition specially to be distributed amongst your gang'.This probably would be just another joke for you to laugh on but despite knowing this I wish to write this down and send it to you cause all that proceeds have been eating me up for some time and guarantees to leave a tub full of guilt if I don't do this.
I have mentioned earlier and I say it once again that liking someone is no crime but your friends and precisely YOU have made me feel so and that to over the whole god damn year with the second one to follow.I have punished myself for liking you,ran miles away from myself,fought with myself and cried tons of buckets(maybe still more to follow) but still at the end have reached to a conclusion stating that I still love you(maybe more) even after what you have done and said to hurt me.
I know this letter might just add on to the burdern,as you consider me one and sometime later after receiving this I would have your friend at my door step ready with a passage on how wrong and freaky this is.
All this time I have loved you very deeply,never forced you towards me,never interrupted you or anything that happens in your life or never wished bad for you. Though you did not belong to me but the mere thought of liking someone else has rose in me the feeling of cheating on you.But you,don't fear I am never going to make you the black' character in any one's eyes not mine even.Whatever I feel today,go through all blames on me :)
I apologize from the bottom of my heart if I ever added any sort of tension on your already over heavy shoulders or ever became any sort of block or a reason for a fight between your friends or girlfriend.I am sorry for entering as a 3rd person' in your love life and trying to claim rights when I owned none resulting in cursing you( very rarely haan?)
It hurts.Bohut zyada! It kinds of kills me a bit inside to see you with her and not me,to see you laugh when I have cried,to see you do nothing when your friends humiliate me and every time this happens I wish to do the same,whatever you have done to me over the year. But convince myself that you are not my property and I do not own you.Phir bhi I Love You bohut zyada(Complicated shit,I know *sigh*)
And haan before this ends just a little piece of advice for you.Start developing your own feet and spine,kab tak dosto ke paloo mein chupoge.JUST SAYING!This advice might just help you in future.
Also stop those sly looks on me when I am not looking or admit it to your self.
Best wishes for your future and may your relationship with Urvashi stay strong as ever.
Love
Suman
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