Part#3
Flash back (2012)
"Muft ka kharahe ho thoda tho sharam karo and help us with the work... "
yes i was at Memsaheb's door step again this time she wasn't at home so i was held up in a deep and ugly argument with this female named Radha..
"Q tere paso ka tho nahi kha raha na... badi ayi.."
"dekh Maan tamez se baat kar varna..
"varna kya haan..". i pushed the plate aside ready to pounce on the women when someone turned me around hardly and slapped me hard leaving me shocked!
"is this the way you talk to elders... say sorry to Radha NOW!" I was already fuming and that slap just infuriated me a bit more... how dare she rise hand on me... I was about to reply her slap when she turned her back and brought a bucket full of water and emptied it on me..
"Memsahib please calm down... it's ok we shouldn't have brought him in the first place.." the women next to her tried the quite fuming Memsahib... she completely ignored Radha as her concentration was on my wet form..
we were in the backyard of her house so... I didn't spoil her house.. the plate wasn't broken too this time i didn't understand why was this women so angry on me... was it just because i was arguing with the other women... when she didn't move from her stand i understood may be she was waiting for me to apologize.. well not that i cared about her anger but i need food and for that i need to stay here.. so..
"SORRY!..."
I didn't even hear my own voice but she did and it seemed to calm down in the matter of seconds and asked Radha to lend me a fresh set of cloths and make set another plate as the one i was having earlier was already filled with water... and the concern and worry in her voice are hard to ignore...
after a while she came back in one of her plain cotton sarees doing her braid and sat on the chair Radha set for her... while i was seated next to the pillar with untouched food next to me... Radha left us alone to attend some work...
"From tomorrow look after the outside work related to home... like bringing groceries or stuff needed at home and other things... and money is in the draw in my study room..." when I looked up she gestured me the plate and left silently..
I didn't know how to feel this women trusted me with her house... money and I was shocked would be an understatement...
From then on I only got suspicious glares from Radha whenever I went to the market with her list and money... Radha would always be loitering around the gate until I return back with the stuff... and I made sure to leave the bill and the expenses in the same draw always... even though it was tempting for me to drink with the money but I found it hard to break the trust of the kind women...
Memsahib knew magic...
Present
Maan i want that file to be completed by evening... you know it is important right??
Maan!! Are you even listening!!
Sir?! Sorry sir... th.. the file will be completed by evening sir... i quickly fumbled with words apologizing for being distracted... i know he was quite furious over my behavior lately and i highly doubt that he was already planning for a replacement.
Excusing myself i walked out of his cabin and slumped down on my desk with the file... kailash bhaisahib was too tight lipped about anything.. running a hand through my messed hair... i desperately wanted something to relieve all my stress... the pain i was hiding deep inside my heart was growing each passing second and it was suffocating me...
Someone how collecting myself together i finished the file.. the job was important to me and i could not be careless at work.. maybe a drink won't harm i thought and that thought scared the daylights out of me...
I haven't touched a drink all these years...as it only took me to the most dreadful memories of the past...
why now?
This is what kailash bhaisahib asked and honestly I didn't have any answer myself and even if i had, i doubt he would understand even a slight bit of it! A sad smile played on my lips as a tears slid down my eyes, here in this empty apartment of mine there is hardly anyone to see...
Why did i have to run into him after all this years... why is it so difficult that i couldn't even get a small ounce of sleep these days... switching off the gas and getting my plate ready for the dinner...
His every failure in reach her is eating him inside... he accepted he did wrong long back but the one who would forgive him and give him another chance as always is too far away meeting kailash bhai didn't give him any answers...
He was thankful to his boss that even after his poor performance at work his leave for a week was granted...
was it only the guilt that was pushing him towards her or was there more to it... but for now he understood her warm smile was only medicine to his aching heart
he took the next available train which would take him to her location... in the deep conversation with kailash bhaisaib he grasped that her family was from Punjab... he knew it was impossible to search for someone whom he only know name of in such a big city of Amritsar
Ofcourse he didn't get a berth and was seated near the door of the general coupe... the wind was blowing a bit too harshly but he wasn't really bothered about all those things... his thoughts were lingering somewhere far in someone's words
To be continued...
p.s: sorry chalega kya (for the delay😛)
Edited by sporthy_smile28 - 8 years ago
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