letter to swara bose from a swasan fan

dear swara Bose, phle let me tell u since the time u lost your memory... u have lost some very fascinating traits of yours... I don't know whether it's the effect of amnesia itself or bad company of sahil... I m not sure... 😆
since the time u came back nd accused sanskar for attempting to murder you...we all felt ur pain, it fear...sanskar was the person who tried to kill u is the image your mind reflected to you... can't blame u for that can I? it is said we can't control our heart but when this box of nerves starts it's tandav, we become helpless again... that's what happened to you... u had your heart nd mind in two opposite directions nd except 2-3 times, your brain took the lead...
honestly speaking.. u disappointed me a lot till date, u chose to believe the guy who saved ur life over ur mother who brought u up single handedly fighting the whole world just for you... I do agree efforts from ur family members we're not up to mark... it is not that hard to make u sit nd give a brief revision of the lost one year,..instead they chose to keep mum... but swara Bose amidst all this started making decisions without thinking much... yes u have had very string reasons not to believe sanskar, but u could have at least had given a thought to why actually everybody is asking u to not accuse ur husband, that he is a good guy... I as ur fan was disappointed to see u blindly believing what ur unprepared mind captured... u didn't gave a thought that he had so many chances to hurt you... but he chose to leave his house for your comfort, he chose to not access his rights on you as your husband, no. u never gave a damn about it... u we're never like this swara, the swara we knew and fell in love with believed in second chances, was impulsive but never heartless... I was dissapointed when u didn't had any reaction on sanskar's death... I was disappointed when u accused him of sending goons behind you rather than asking whether he did so or why he did so?
I m disappointed that not even once we're u curious as to what lays behind the past, y u feel restless just by hearing his name...
u disappointed me a lot...
do I not understand? I honestly do... u are ill... u have no idea how ppl were during that most year...
yet u lost ur few very admiring traits... u we're the one who analyzed things first nd then arrived at a decision...
big big disappointment..
I as a Swasan fan didn't liked that slap onstage in front of 1000s of ppl... it was humiliating nd not in a good taste... but again. I would have been surprised had u not slapped him for betraying you... u don't support lies nd liars... the very essense of swara Bose...
u asking for divorce again made me sad, but that's swara Bose we are taking about... u won't go around dancing after such painful betrayal... u trusted a person who didn't even exist ...
sanskar in all this got so much hurt and pain .. why? plain and simple... he loves you... so much that it has consumed him... he doesn't deserves this...
u disappointed me so much.. but do I hate you? I cannot... m not a wife but m most certainly a girl...
when sanskar lifted u nd forcefully made u sit in the car, the swara that gave a peek was a vulnerable girl who has no reason to trust the man in question nd is struggling to free herself from being taken away against her will... however wrong u are, u don't deserve that, mistrusting him isn't your choice but the only option available, the girl who kept on banging the car window broke my heart today... no one... no one wants to be treated like that, that can be the worst horror for any girl... the girl who kept on running mindlessly amidst a dense jungle to save herself made me feel the fear deep up to the roots of my spine... what u we're feeling was the worst feeling one could bear nd when u believe the said person as it tormentor? no... I hope nd pray no one faces any such circumstance..
today also... u ran away from him in the morning.. again swara? even after realizing that he didn't kill you as kissan? that whole night he took care of you rather than killing you? I don't know y u are stubborn so much ...nd yes when u initially smiled at him nd let him touch u, I knew it was fake, u loathe him don't you ? y would u offer comfort to ur supposed killer? nd m happy it was an act.. else it would hv looked fake despite u being genuine... yes u sleeping him by his side was not fake, nd the faith u had in urself that u can pretend nd it will be all fine and dandy, it was shaken swara bcoz u we're able to sleep peacefully nd u didn't expect that? did you?
I salute u for not giving up even after being so lost, I for one would have had lost all hopes by now... m glad u are strong despite of being so broken inside...
m waiting to see how swara maheshwari is going to rectify nd restore her own self which got blurred now...
I maybe sad nd upset with how u behaved at times... I love u nonetheless...
PS : this post isn't for blaming or jstifying sanskar, so m hoping u won't do that,
swara maheshwari loved sanskar more than she had received love in her entire life... bcoz she loves ppl other than sanskar also, doesn't means she doesn't value him.. neither is she a gold digger nor a selfish lover... thank you

Anku loved your take dear.. Yet to watch will do so soon but you made me a feel tad bit better that she was acting.. But then I will go back to my earlier rant.. Cv's made no progress with Swara whatsoever in the track. She woke up thinking of him as her murderer and she will continue to think so till her memory comes back and that was a huge wasted opportunity by the cv's. And as you said her heart took over very less and her mind was in control always.. So I am disappointed with this track as an whole.

Originally posted by: Banjaaran.

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This is such a beautiful letter SL❤️.

Apologies for breaking my self imposed exile again. Hope the forum forgives me.
was checking an old friend's thread and found my way here.

what I am about to say are the thoughts and musings that thread brought out in me.
don't want to open my own thread. hence hijacking yours.
Sorry about that.

When I and some other beautiful members were voicing our thoughts/criticism/ questions for Swara (AND Sanskaar and track) after a point of time we were made to feel like unwelcome unwanted guests at our own home. and this despite the fact that some of us weren't the ones supporting Sanskaar in his Jackassery days. (You will not find one single comment of mine defending Sanskaar when he allowed his Swara to get humiliated by others. I went silent because the character was ripped to pieces both on screen and in the forum)..

Now I request all those who questioned us for our views in this track to go and check upon Lucky's thread.
then you would know the difference between criticism/questions and bashing/trashing of a character.
and hereby I proudly declare that I never indulged in trashing of a character that I love.

and A request to everyone who calls themselves SwaSan'ains and yet tear apart ONE character (be it Sanskaar during his Jack-assery or Swara during hers. Criticism is one thing; walking all over the character in another.)..PLEASE do NOT identify yourselves as SwaSan'ian.
I am a SwaSan'ian and I am proud of my identity.
and your thoughts and conduct and words are insult to this identity of mine.

Thank you.
Over and out!
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banjaran 🤗
sorry I love ur un...;)
m quite okay with u venting it out here... nd trust me I know who thrashed sanskar nd who did not during his abrupt change of heart..
no.. u aren't any of them... I read just few of lucky's pages... nd I can't bring myself to go through the whole... that isn't criticism... that's hatred pouring out at the moment nd is very saddening...

Originally posted by: NitaReid

Anku loved your take dear.. Yet to watch will do so soon but you made me a feel tad bit better that she was acting.. But then I will go back to my earlier rant.. Cv's made no progress with Swara whatsoever in the track. She woke up thinking of him as her murderer and she will continue to think so till her memory comes back and that was a huge wasted opportunity by the cv's. And as you said her heart took over very less and her mind was in control always.. So I am disappointed with this track as an whole.

hi nita love 🤗 it's good if it made u relax slightly...
I know u r disappointed nd so am I... the track could hv been used so wonderfully but CVS turned blind eye..