SS: ~I love Jodha~completed - Page 26

Originally posted by: sorathsheikh

Awesome , Superb update sissy 😃

Emotional also

Sorry i know am late haina 😳

Love you sissy 😃

HUG 🤗 ab jaldi se update chaiye 😊 hehe

Originally posted by: ..Prii1994..

People say things change for BETTERMENT, but what is SO GOOD in losing the LOVE of YOUR LIFE!!!???? 😭

I wished I could UNDERSTAND it...

Originally posted by: ..Prii1994..

People say things change for BETTERMENT, but what is SO GOOD in losing the LOVE of YOUR LIFE!!!???? 😭

I wished I could UNDERSTAND it...

Originally posted by: 1357raksha

Awesome update dear. ...

u have written jalal feelings nd what is he is going through very well...

Is hamida knw about jalal love jodha. ..

What d news to add to pain of jalal...

Ohoh what do jodha what to talk to jalal...

Update soon. ...

Nd... thanks for pm. ...

Originally posted by: Shinning_Stuti

Thank you so much.😃

She did not know, but has suspected something seeing her sons changed behavior; and very naturally she does not want her son to get stuck with all these, as this love has no future.

Originally posted by: RamSiyaRam

😲 Nahiii

Dil tod diya🥺

Surya ki bali nahi chadegi, Jodha will marry him😭

But you have give Audi to Jalal, kuch toh happy hona chahiye😳

Originally posted by: Shinning_Stuti

Jodha ki naam Jalal ke siva kisi or ke sath jor sakta hay????

CHAPTER 4:

Jodha ran towards me while calling my name. I was not able to move my legs forward, neither I was to turn back. I stood like a stone. She stopped in front of me, wiped the little trace of sweat with dupatta while taking breath and then held my hand suddenly.

"Jalal. I have something to..."

"Yes, Ammi told that you had come at morning. Tell, what can I do for you?" I pronounced each and every word perfectly, with applying extra formality on them intentionally to make them rude. Jodha could understand that apathy; her hold automatically got loose.

"I... I was..." She stammered for a moment. Then just like me she tried to include excessive zeal in her voice which did not match with her this time. "You had the entrance of RRB na? How was that?"

"Good." I answered as shortly I could have given.

"But the result will come out lately... Then getting a service is long-term process." It seemed Jodha was much worried than me about my job. "And you had given another Government service exam right? What about that?"

"Result is yet to come and..." I smiled. "Well, frankly I have least expectation with those. The preparation a person needs to crack those, I hardly have 10% of that. And I always had been dull-headed; it is quite obvious that I will not do any outstanding result just by memorizing some chapters of a book two nights before examination. Leave me..." I proceeded. "What were you going to tell?"

"You have to get a job Jalal. As soon as possible! " Jodha's eyes were staring at the ground, and her voice was too low to hear. "I know you only need a chance to rise. If you get that, no one will be able to stop you from rising!"

Had she stopped me only to show sympathy? I noticed her face minutely. Most probably she has not gone to office today. Her face was not looking glossy with makeup, her eyes had no trace of eye-liner, her long open hair was uncombed, and was flying in the mad air... She was looking extremely simple in her yellow-mixed old Salwar-Kamiz, and that simplicity has made her more beautiful- like a drizzle of peace from the first rain of monsoon... And it was evident from her appearance that she was waiting eagerly for this moment from morning. It cannot be some fake words of sympathy only!

But what else can it be! She can have nothing do with me, she should have no need to bother about my job, my career, my financial condition. Then why did she come in front of me when I had been determinant in my heart to forget our past forever?

"Thank you." I concluded. What more could I say! "But why had you come at my home today? Do you have any work with me?" Readily I threw the question to complete the conversation as soon as possible.

"I have..." Jodha tried to say, but somehow hesitated. "Are you in hurry?" She said instead.

"A bit. I am going to Shibani's house. I teach her, you know na?" I chuckled. Shibani, my oldest student, is some sort of distant cousin of Jodha.

"O Accha! Where is the scooter?" She again started finding words from air.

"In garage." I told her in short. "If you have nothing important to say, may I leave? I am already getting late." I was a bit harsh this time, which led the indifferent Jodha to be shaken.

"I wanted to tell Jalal that... Jalal can you give me a... I mean..." She started to explain, but could not. She sighed heavily with all the failure of heart, and said. "Okay, you are getting late. You go, I will manage somehow! And if your mood becomes good I want to have a talk with you. Only if your time permits."

"You do not need to worry about my mood Jodha" I assured her in a cold voice. "I am like this only..."

"What are you trying to say?" Jodha's voice had the fondness of scolding. "Don't I know you?"

"No. You don't know in which situation I am running."I become excited suddenly, and expressed my crude and nude heart harshly. "Do you know I am sitting jobless for 1 whole year? Do you know how I have to meet the expenses of my family with the little tuition fees I get? Do you know the all-total cost of my father's medical needs? Do you know how I fight every moment against the situation, how desperately I struggle to get a source of stable and regular income to pull my family? You cannot know me, so don't show pity on me from your air-conditioned room or the side seat of the Audi car! " I was too rude to her; understanding that, I immediately stopped... I did not utter the last sentence I was murmuring in my heart... Do hate me, but don't pity on me. I will bear your indifference; I will bear your hatred; but I will not be able to bear your pity Jodha, it will diminish the little self-respect I still have within me!

Jodha perhaps had not expected me to become so rude suddenly, but what she did after that was completely unexpected and shocking... She came too close to me, and suddenly cupped my face with her cold and peaceful palms. She was too close- I was able to feel her breaths... My breaths were getting strangulated in an uncanny feeling... She is a woman- a beautiful and extremely sensual woman... the first woman who had come to me with the first offerings of her just-achieved womanhood once... the first woman who has come so close to me, has touched me after being a complete adult! A touch of a woman, maybe coming from only a deep sympathy, is a treasure for manhood... especially when that woman is the only one whom he desires from all his heart! Why Jodha, Why! Why do you on the verge to take my heart out from my soul?

"Believe me I want to understand you, to feel you from your position... How can I show off pity to you?" Her voice was chocking now. "But what can I do, you tell? I have no choice without waiting..." She looked at my eyes intensely... "If I can wait, why cannot you?"

What is she talking about! I could not understand, as I was lost in her eyes... I have never looked at her eyes like this, never understood that two mere eyes can be such truthful and clear- like the mirror of heart... I kept on staring; she was too not moving her eyes from my eyes. Almost after 10 years we had a direct eye-contact, but I forgot the long barrier of time in between this... The eyes are beautiful, the eyes are enigmatic...

Why can't the time be stop now? Or let the time to ran backward... in the days of 10 years ago... when I had no tension in my head other than of passing the exams, when I too used to live a secured and comfortable life under the shelter of my father and love of my mother... give me back those moments with my Jodha- the fights of the morning, the smiles of afternoon, the moments of suddenly holding her hand while walking on the road while returning from school with friends; the evenings of eating ice-cream together; to sit on the benches of the park with a packet of potato chips and spending time together bunking coaching classes... give me those days back again... let me live again, for a moment... I need to live for myself too!

Time can't flow backward, neither can it stop flowing. I took my eyes back from hers, and then removed her hand from my cheek... "Sorry. I was not..." I apologized for my behavior.

Jodha again held my hands strongly. "Don't get frustrated Jalal! Keep patience, you will win one day. You have to win Jalal... "

With a lot of hesitations, I too held her hands with a pale smile. "I am not. I have no time to be frustrated!" I told with a soothing peace!

And just then a blow of horn pierced the air... The very known sound of the black Audi, which nowadays enters in our lane too much than need, blessed the dusts of the road with its presence.

The car stood just beside us, and the handsome face of Surya came out from the window attached with the driver seat.

"What are you doing here Jodha?" he asked, as expected, ignoring my whole presence.

"Surya you?" Jodha readily loosed my hands and went to the car. "You did not tell that you will come?"

"Do I need to inform you even now?" Surya chuckled and the set of white teeth shone. Jodha did not smile, she glimpsed at me for a moment then looked back to her fianc. "You sit at my house for sometime; I am coming after finishing our talks. I too have many talks with you."

Surya's facial expressions told that his ego has been utterly hurt to see Jodha giving preference to a street-lad more than him; but however, he did not react much... He moved the car forward.

"You attend him, I am going now. He is waiting for you!" I told Jodha. At least I should understand my status!

"You need not to worry about him... I..." Jodha tried to tell something, but I cut her at middle.

"How can I not worry about him? Maybe this black Audi shows off too much, but he is going to be yours na?" I smiled as normally as I could. "By the way, congratulation for your marriage-fixing Jodha..."

"Marriage? Who told you?" Jodha threw an astonished look on me.

"Ammi said. She has heard from your mother." Had Jodha sighed a little hearing my answer? I did not notice, as I was too busy to show the fake happiness. "Yes I should agree that this Black Audi is a good match for you. He is much handsome than need, and his car also looks good; and you are lucky to marry an owner of such a car... And most importantly I am going to get an invitation after a long time!"

"Jalal!" She lashed out suddenly!

"What?? Are you planning to scratch my name out from your list of invitees?" I laughed out to suppress the sting of my heart. "Aree don't do this! I especially like the preparations that you people arrange in the marriage parties... "

"You are..." Jodha's voice was filled with an uncanny agony. She looked at my eyes, and I saw, maybe it was the fault of my eyes, a drop of water being shined at the corner of those big eyes... Looking directly inside my eyes, she completed the sentence. "so cruel Jalal! So cruel!"

"I? Cruel?" I laughed out loudly- so loudly that even I was surprised! What else can I do rather than to mock on my condition? While controlling the strong jolt of laughter, I told "How can anyone be cruel, when he has nothing to show that cruelty?"

"Yes you are! And you are very smart to show that cruelty!" Jodha lashed out her rage. Again she came closer and touched my cheeks. "What have I done Jalal? What?"

This time I did not let myself to sink in emotions. I maintained a bit distance from her by stepping behind, and smiled indifferently. "Nothing! You have done what you should have done; I am doing what I should do. The ways are entirely different. There is no question of right and wrong."

Jodha kept on staring at me, her hurt glance was piercing my heart. I bid her goodbye and started walking at the road till I get any convenience.

Whatever may happen, Jodha can never by of Jalal's... Surya is good and eligible for her. The faster I am able to digest this fact, is better for me!