Dreams: A RiVanya/ArNi SS(updated on page 4,6,8) - Page 4

Originally posted by: ramya06

Res😛
Will unres soon. 😉

Originally posted by: sukhi...

Excellent piece of writing Rimi👏👏

Read the first part its so beautiful. Keep on writting dear!!🤗🤗🤗

Originally posted by: PaYa_Rivanya

Belated Happy Birthday gals.

Beautiful post.Keep writing.😊

Originally posted by: LuvArTi4ever

U penned down Ritik's feelings beautifully... Ritik loves his Shivanya truly,madly,deeply!
I like ur writing style... waiting for next update :)

Nightmare...

Why do we exist in this world? What is the reason, purpose of this life? How after bearing so much of pain and hurt one can live with a dazzling smile on her face? How can I be still alive after suffering all of these?

Maine puchha yeh dil se,

(I ask this to heart,)

Main kyun hoon jahan mein?

(Why am I on this earth?)

Ek dhadkan boli,

(One heartbeat answers,)

Tere liye!

(For You!)

Maine aadhe tarashi,

(I have curved only the half,)

Aur khwab bana di,

(And make a dream out of it,)

Nayi duniya basa di,

(A new world sprouts out of it,)

Tere liye!!

(For You!!)

Tere liye...tere liye...

(Only for You)

I never get back those 3 magical words from her. "I love you," these 3 words are not much to say but it holds the entire world for those who are in love! And I learn this absolute truth in a hard way. When yours love remains unreturned and unrequited it hurts your heart a lot. So much that in mind you are writhing in intense pain and agony, yet you are sporting the most dazzling smile of happiness at public. All of my heart and its every damn beat and rhythm speak only about her. Yet she is the one who hurts this heart always.

Jo main kehtaa hoon,

(What I say,)

Jo sunntaa hoon,

(What I hear,)

Jo sehtaa hoon,

(What I bear,)

Tere liye.

(Just for You.)

Main girtaa hoon,

(I fall,)

Samhaltaa hoon,

(I get up,)

Phir chaltaa hoon,

(Then I walk,)

Tere liye...tere liye...

(Only for You.)

It has been 6 months of our marriage yet still I don't know whether my wife love me at all or not? I have seen concern and care in her eyes, her words, her actions for me. She gets restless whenever I get home late or have gone out without informing her. She awaits me for every meals of the day, she arranges and organizes all my important to casual stuffs related to my daily life, she accompanies me wherever I ask her to and most importantly she dutifully protects me from all the damn dangers I have in my life. During my marriage, my mom said that she would be the shield and armour of mine against all dangers and harms that would lie on my path, even the death. And she keeps her promise every time...whenever I am in slightest danger or in death grip, she just comes between it and me. She is like one of those mythical protectors who guards you unbeknownst of you, saves you from every harmful element yet whenever you try to see their face or try to touch them they go away.

Koi dard hoon gehraa,

(I am like some intense pain,)

Koi aksh hoon bisraa,

(Or am like some forgotten shadow,)

Main kya hoon bata de,

(What am I, tell me,)

Tere liye.

(For You.)

Yaadon ka chehraa,

(Or like some long-lost face in your memory,)

Koi khwab sunehraa,

(Some desirable golden dreams,)

Main kya hoon bata de,

(What am I, tell me,)

Tere liye.

(For You.)

Tere liye...tere liye...

(Only for You.)

In past 6 months I have been getting scary dreams. Nightmares in more appropriate word to say. Sometimes I feel as if I have trapped in some dark and deep woods. There is no way out for me among the shadows of large tall trees which are coming at me to swallow me as whole. Among this, suddenly there's come a weird looking woman. She is snake from her waist down and her upper half is golden, glowing and scaly like serpents. Her face is blurred due to scaling but her deep blue eyes...they seem eerily familiar and known to me. I also recognize those emotions that are playing out into them. She stretches her scaly, golden hand at me and gestures me to walk towards her. Though her appearance is frightful I follow her and from there I drown into something.

It feels as if I drown and emerge into a new world. There is a magnificent palace with all regal grandeur and lustre. But there is no one else. A very sweet, enchanting music is coming out through the neither dark, nor lit, corridors and rooms of the palace. I slowly follow the source of the music and reaches to the garden. The garden is lit with thousands of earthen lamps, fragrant with delicious perfumes of unknown flowers. As I advance more I see a woman playing a musical instrument, something like lute and very subtly singing along with it. Her voice is so soft that it feels like whisper to my ears. She is sitting atop the stage under a shade, middle of the garden. But all of her figure is covered with mist and fog that she seems transparent to me sometimes.

Main khoyaa sa,

(I am this lost,)

Ek lamhaa hoon,

(One moment,)

Bas iss pal hoon,

(I am for only this moment,)

Tere liye.

(For You.)

Main awaraa,

(I am wandering,)

Baadal hoon,

(like clouds,)

Bas iss pal hoon,

(I am only for this moment,)

Tere liye.

(For You.)

She has dressed in royal, bridal attire- red and golden lehenga and saree with duppattas, one of them has veiled her face from the sight and all kind of jewellery and ornaments on every part of her body. All of these have enhanced and added their lustre into her own charming aura. Suddenly she senses someone's presence in the garden so she looks up but sees beyond me. The veil from her face removes by doing so and I behold"Shivanya!! She runs through me sporting the same expressions of Love that I long to see in her eyes for me, with a dazzling smile. I too follow her run and see a very familiar figure, dressed up in an equally royal robe, who opens his embrace for her to enter. She happily goes into there as if that is her safest heaven. The man's face is hidden into her crook of neck though he seems very familiar to me. And when I walk toward him, to them, suddenly all of the sceneries and imageries start to fade away. I feels as if my breath is hitched at my throat, my heart is beating erratically in my ribcage and then...everything's shattered.

Mere har marz ki, tu he dawaa hai.

(You are the medicine to my all my ailments.)

Hui hai jo qubool, woh duyaa hai.

(You are the wish that is granted.)

Yeh ulfat hai, ya koi nashaa hai.

(Is this the talk or some intoxication of some sort.)

Jisse chhuna chahe tu, woh dhuyaan hai.

(Whom you want to touch is mist and fog of some sort.)

Tere liye...tere liye...

(For You.)

I fear to lose her. I fear to lose my wife, love of my life, my Shivanya. She is everything to me. When she was not in my life, my life was as normal as it could be. But with her, comes love into my life. Since the moment I have seen her I know none else. My eyes and the sight of them are for her, for Shivanya. When she pushes me away, keeps me arm-length apart, I bear it smilingly. She sometimes allures me, just like my dream or nightmare (!) she draws me towards her without any effort. She flirts, she jokes, she talks, she soothes and with all of these she allures me. And then just like the nightmare she goes away from me. but every time she goes away from me, I fall more in love with her, I get angry on her then fall for more as even being mad at her seems to be equally desiring. She frustrates me, challenges me, maddens me but with all her extraordinaire ...she just mesmerizes me. I can't help myself but love her, even when she doesn't return it explicitly, even when she denies it that she too is intensely in love with me, at least for this life. It makes me jealous, angry when she doesn't say it out loud like I do but I clearly read the signs. That's why when I get hurt, she cries, when I am in pain, she is writhing is agony and when I am happy, she is brimming with joy. I totally get it...what I am to her but I want her to admit what she is to me!.

Main girtaa hoon,

(I fall,)

Samhaltaa hoon,

(And I get up,)

Phir chaltaa hoon,

(Then I walk)

Tere liye...tere liye...

(Only For You.)

In last 6 months my family and I have been through a lot of troubles, dangers and some near death experience. How have I survived those I don't know? But I know this that no nightmare can scare me or nothing can harm me as long as I have my wife with me. I don't believe in shastras and their predicaments but I believe and trust her and her God! I know with her by my side, I can go to the remotest corner of this world and will bear all hardships and problems smilingly. But if she ever leaves me...that will be the living of the nightmare which I get every night. I know this that I am connected to her...I can see and sense whenever she is in slightest trouble. So if something bad happens to her I know either I will die or I will burn this world. May be she has not been spoken what she is in her heart about me but that is very much evident every time we look into each other's eyes, hold each other's gaze. May be some mundane or serious issues and misunderstanding keeps us apart like some times in the past, or someone tries to come between us but I am sure we will every time find our way to each other. Always! Because, no matter what I can hear it in my heartbeat, I can sense it in my blood, I know it by my soul, heart and mind what Shivanya says - "Rittik, I love you."

Originally posted by: cuteariya

lovely update
very well written abt ritik feeling for shivanya ❤️
his passion love desire to make shivanya his in all sense 🤗
hope shivanya will love ritik the way he does 😃
continue plz