Heya!! Another update but was bit tricky to write. Hopefully it's not a let down.Chapter 26
Ranveer observed his mother's condition closely in the days followed by her checkups. She kept trying to explain to Ranveer that she was fine but he could not come to believe a single word she would say.
"I don't trust you on this," he told his mother one morning.
"Why, I have been fine all along. You can see that," replied she.
"That's because, Maa, I see something is not right with you. It's like I know but cannot tell you what. I feel something's not right," Ranveer replied.
Amba smiled. "There is nothing wrong with me. I'm perfectly fine."
Ranveer still could not trust his mother's words but realized he had no other choice but leave at the moment. "I'm leaving right now, but, Maa, you have to take care of yourself."
"Alright. I will," Amba replied.
"Baba," Ranveer said looking at his father who nodded already knowing what he was supposed to do. Ranveer smiled at his parents and left.
Office was quieter than usual. There were not many people working on the first floor and Ranveer felt slightly relieved. Working with people around still made him feel awkward. This had been one of the major reasons why he chose a quiet and desolated place for his first cabin. It had been several days he had not visited that place. At the mention of the place the memories of those arguments with Ishani could still come back and make him feel fiercely miserable. However, everyday he tried to forget what had happened, but found he could not be courageous enough to face its consequences which seemed like taking every bit of remaining life out of him. And he could not afford that. Not again.
There were no meetings to be attended the day just like the ones the entire week, as both Rishi and Puneet took care of the business and company when he could not. Though Puneet was taking leave for quite a few days, Rishi looked after everything.
"Sir, do you need anything?" Rishi rushed towards Ranveer seeing him in the cabin. Ranveer shook his head, still lost in his thoughts, and staring out of the window, looking at the cemented buildings that spread over the visible view before his eyes.
"There are no meetings today. One was with Mr. Matthew Shaw which has already been attended by Puneet. Here are the details." Rishi handed over Ranveer the files.
"Thanks. And 2 days after we have a meeting with the SDs, right? Well, inform me about that. I'm sure they're very important."
Rishi could not understand how the SDs became so important to his boss all of a sudden that he wanted to attend the meeting on his own.
"Sir, they're not very important. If you don't mind may I...?"
"No, no," Ranveer interrupted abruptly, "I'll do it."
"Are you sure, sir?" Rishi confirmed again.
"Yes, and I never change my decisions. Don't you remember?"
"I'm sorry, sir," Rishi said.
*
The next 2 days for Ranveer passed in slight anxiety, for without his realization a feeling had already housed itself in his heart which would neither let him be comfortable with himself nor with someone around him. On the day of the meeting, each moment he waited for her to arrive, and seeing Ishani approaching the meeting hall he felt a delightful feeling welling up in his heart. All the bitterness, emptiness he had been feeling vanished and a soft smile crept over his face. Hiding it silently he made an appearance in the meeting hall where all the other people sat. Ishani looked fabulous in her red satin dress as she gracefully made her way towards her seat; but she did not look up at Ranveer. Many times their eyes met but she refused to look at him afterwards. The meeting ended and Ishani returned to her cabin followed by Ranveer to his own.
Ranveer came to his own cabin, rather disappointed, and not at all happy despite getting the deal in his hands. The contracts were not new for him, or it did not interest him anymore like before. For a few minutes he contemplated over the reasons why it did not matter to him but gave up, for no answer came to him. There were certain files needed to be finished before this evening and Ranveer engaged himself in studying them.
Few hours later Ranveer realized the sun had begun to hover down and the sky, slightly visible from the ajar window, was merged with purple and orange colors as light grey clouds scudded across it, wafted by the cold breeze blowing softly.
Soon after sometime Ranveer heard someone approaching him as sun slid down behind the trees leaving a brooding dusk in the environment behind and he heard a soft knock on the door as he invited the person in with a yes. Suddenly Ishani appeared in front of his eyes and he felt himself gazing at her helplessly.
"Can I come in?" she asked slowly.
"Yes," he responded after sometime.
"Are you alright?" she asked, when she saw him confused.
"Yes, yes. I'm good," he said, hiding the agitation, confusion that suddenly her presence had caused him. "Come in." He smiled.
"I had been to the construction site yesterday," Ishani said, coming into the cabin, "and work there has not yet picked up. Few days back it was bad weather that had caused the delay, but now I fear with the problems going on in your own company that it would get worse in future. Also few investors have already withdrawn from our project. We do not have enough time, Ranveer."
"I know. I have been in contact with certain clients who are interested in investments, and I'm hoping it works in our favor," Ranveer said. "I don't think you should be worried anymore. It will be fine."
"I'm hoping so, too." Ishani smiled. "But you know I cannot handle it all on my own."
"Trust me," Ranveer said, and Ishani asked no further questions.
By now, the sun had sunk behind its horizon. Ranveer switched on the lights and for the first time Ishani saw the entire cabin which was in a disoriented state. All the files were lying there carelessly, various papers out of them while many were placed in the files but clumsily.
"You were working here?" she asked.
"Yes. Why?"
"'Why'?" Ishani laughed slowly. "Don't you see what it is turned into, Ranveer? A child's room looks better than your cabin," she said picking up a bunch of papers placed nearby in her hands.
"I was studying all those files," Ranveer said. "I had to finish them all by now."
"Oh, are you done with them?" she asked. Ranveer nodded.
"Few are left. I should be doing that in a few hours," Ranveer said, but added immediately, "Oh, no. I have to go home. I'll do that at home."
Ishani looked at him confused.
"Maa is not doing well for a few days. I'm worried about her," Ranveer said.
Ishani's expressions changed. "What happened to her?"
"Medical reports didn't say much except weakness, but I'm still afraid." He looked at her and Ishani felt her heart beat differently, and she could not guess why.
"She will be alright," Ishani said.
"I hope so," Ranveer said. "But I find something's not right. I tried telling her but she thinks I'm over reacting to what she doesn't take seriously."
"Because mothers hardly pay attention to themselves and their health. It's the case with everyone," Ishani replied while Ranveer put all the files in order.
"That's right. Even Baba thinks I'm over reacting when all I want is to have a bit confirmation that everything's fine," Ranveer said wistfully.
"Ranveer," Ishani said, her hand on his, "parents are always like that and all we can do to make them happy is be with them for as long as possible. They would never ask for anything more. You know," Ishani said, as drops of tears trickled her eyes, "when Papa was with me I never feared anything, I knew no evil can ever touch me and even he never asked for anything more. But now when he's gone I really wonder if the time I spent with him was enough to last for me for a lifetime. If life has not been unfair to me. To us and Maa."
Ranveer looked at her; the tears pouring out of her eyes seemed to stab his soul, for he still could not grasp the myriad of sufferings she had been through and still did.
"Ishani," Ranveer said, feeling lump in his throat, "he did stay with you. Just the time was never going to permit him to be with us forever. But don't let his memories become the cause of your pain. Please don't."
Ishani looked at Ranveer, tears gleaming in her eyes in the golden radiance of the room, wanting to say something but no words were formed, and rather she looked away with a guilty look on her face and felt her heart clench in her chest.
"Are you not going home?" Ranveer asked.
"No, not now." Ishani shook her head, wiping her tears. "I have to visit one of the clients. We have a meeting in half an hour. I should be leaving now."
Ranveer nodded and Ishani left.
*
"What is happening to you, Ranveer?" Amba said seeing Ranveer, while he looked confused at his mother.
"What has happened to me?"
"Don't you see your face? It's too pale," she said, slightly panicked. "Didn't I ask you to take proper rest?"
"It was me who asked you to do that," Ranveer replied with a grin. "Don't play my cards on me, Maa."
"You think I'm joking? It's the matter of your health. Why don't you get it?"
"I'm fine," Ranveer said. "I can't remain ill and taking rest for the rest of my life," Ranveer said, when Amba suddenly interrupted him.
"Don't you even say that," she said. "Can you not speaking anything good for yourself?"
"Oh, Maa," Ranveer said, hugging his mother, "Everything's fine. I'm pale and tired"as you are saying I am"that's because I have had a lot of work to do today. But I'm taking care of everything and don't feel any of it myself."
"I don't want anything bad happening now," she said.
"Nothing bad is happening. All's well. Trust me."
Ranveer came back to his room and placed the files and other things on their respective places and suddenly his eyes fell on his reflection in the mirror. He remembered his mother's words and realized she was telling the truth, for his face seemed paler than usual and eyes red. Not much but change was there in his features. He could not understand why suddenly this was happening to him, without any problem or warning"he liked to tell himself. He shook his head coming out of his thoughts.
"Maa is too worried. She shouldn't think like this and spare me from getting scared too," he said to himself. "I'm good and surprisingly feeling better than last many days." Ranveer smiled looking at his reflection.
*
Ishani got herself ready for bed but did not feel like sleeping at the moment. She had just closed her cafe as there had been a birthday party which had lasted longer than usual. She did not allow parties generally there but it was a young girl's 11th birthday and her family was a frequent visitor to the cafe. Being extremely fond of Ishani and her place she wanted her birthday to get celebrated in her caf and Ishani had allowed her to.
It still remained cold as Ishani threw herself in the snug bed, a fire lit in the fireplace and windows tightly shut so that no blow of hostile cold could invade through anything to ruin the peaceful evening. Time passed but no sleep came over her, instead a faint vision flashed before her eyes. She could not tell whether she was dreaming or it was just a thought that kept returning to her again and again. Ishani saw herself walking beside a river into the woods as trees were covered in dazzling white snow and river flew amiably with a sound so soft and gentle that it touched the deepest core of her heart and made her want to sing or dance in joy or run or shout or just stand still with doing nothing. But she did nothing of this and kept walking with no disturbance from either her surroundings or any of her own emotions. When she reached a place where the river ended she stopped to look back the river flowing as gracefully as ever but its abrupt end saddened her heart; and even snow laden trees had ended. Before her lay only dark, grey lonely trees as if abandoned since forever. She continued walking and saw Ranveer emerge from the dark parts of the woods and she felt contentment in her heart as if all her heartaches had come to an end.
"I'm glad you're here," she said to him, her voice barely above a whisper.
"So am I." He smiled at her.
"I did not think you would be here," she said, still not believing his presence.
"Same here," Ranveer said.
"What are you doing here, Ranveer?"
"The same as you."
"I was loving this river and trees. Did you see them? But now none can be seen. If you walk past this way you'd see them," Ishani said pointing towards the way she had come and seen the trees and river.
"I know," Ranveer responded. "And after this nothing can exist."
"Where are you going then?" said Ishani as she saw Ranveer walking towards the place he had denied the existence of the trees. "And why?"
"I have to go," he said.
"But why?"
"I don't know. I think I want to see what is there."
"I'm coming with you."
"No!" Ranveer shouted. "No one can come there. Only I will go. You have to go back. Leave!"
"I can't," Ishani cried, tears welling up in her eyes. "I want to come with you, Ranveer. I can't leave you."
"Do as I say. That will be a favor to me," Ranveer said, as he prepared himself to cross the last path that divided his way from Ishani's.
"No! Don't leave," Ishani said as she saw Ranveer leaving. "Please!" But he did not listen and Ishani helplessly stared at him, tears burned the corners of her eyes. Her voice stuck in her own throat and her feet refused to leave the land as if rooted in it. Whenever she tried to walk nothing would help her and she finally saw Ranveer fading into the dark as he disappeared without looking at her.
"Ranveer!!!" Ishani shouted loudly but there was no one and she found herself in her dark room, on her bed, sweating badly and whispering she herself could not make up what. Ishani groaned softly as the memory of the dream made her shudder and she sat shivering, hugging her pillow tightly, her arms clenched tightly around it. A strong urge to run to Ranveer filled her heart but she saw her phone lying there. She dialed the number and soon enough Ranveer had received her call.
"Ishani, are you alright?" he said.
Ishani for a few minutes found herself not being able to say anything but on Ranveer's insistence she spoke all that she saw while Ranveer too remained silent for a few moments.
"It was scary to see you leave," Ishani said, crying.
"Ishani, I did not leave. And right now I'm talking to you," Ranveer said.
"I can't sleep," she said.
"You would have to, Ishani," Ranveer replied sympathetically. Ishani nodded her head, understanding as she came back to her senses in a few moments.
"It's alright. Everything will be fine," she heard Ranveer's voice before she disconnected the call. Tears fell freely from her eyes and a realization dawned upon her.
"How can I ever leave him?" she whispered to herself, but it remained a question with no answers and with a tiresome difficulty sleep stole over her.