Chapter 16
Neetu looks on sadly, as the days go by she notices the distance between Ragav and Kalpi grow bigger... But Ragav had told her to keep outside of it... To let it be... He would sort it out. Deep down she knew that Kalpi was fighting a deep battle... To suddenly find out that the baby she carries is her... Her outrage was justified. Her heart breaking over the cost of her selfishness... Her greed. She looks at Kamla and says, "I ruined their lives. I am responsible for this mess." Kamla looks at neetu, the feeling of betrayal bubbling within her. She says, "as much as I try to understand what you did... I can't." Tears fall, she continues, "you used my daughter so callously... The girl you played a part in raising...I shudder to think what would have happened to my Kalpi had this truth come out after she gave birth."
Neetu watches her son... Reads the worry in his eyes as he watches Kalpi from a distance... Taking a deep breath, she thinks, "in my greed I have ruined my son's happiness." Unable to watch the distance between husband and wife, Neetu gets up and walks away.
Ragav stands by the open sliding door, watching Kalpi who is seated several feet away on the grass... Staring ahead, oblivious of her surroundings. He sighs, wishing that she would talk to him... Tell him how she felt. Ever since that night she had withdrawn from him... She had become so secretive. His heart cries out, "please talk to me... Please forgive me for thinking that you..." His conscious shouting out, "well you are happy deep down that the child she carries is yours!" He whispers, "yes I am. I will not apologise for it. I am sad too... For the invasion of her body. What mum did is wrong on every level?" His fears voice out, "what if she is upset because she never planned to stay married to you? What if she saw the marriage as something temporary... Until she gives birth... She thought the baby was yours and Pakhi's... What if she always planned to leave after the birth? She does not know you love her... Does she love you?..." Needing space, he turns and heads to his study.
Kalpi stares out into nothing... Her heart aching for the pain she is going through... For the pain Ragav is going through... For the pain Pakhi is going through. "Oh God!" She cries out, "will I be able to give my child to Pakhi and Ragav?... I love him and want him to be happy... And I know his happiness is with Pakhi... He loves her so much that he was willing to never be a father... But to separate myself from my child."
She places her hand on her womb lovingly, smiles weakly and says, "you are mine. I don't want to share you. I don't want to... Oh gosh! I never thought that I would love you more... Your mine and Ragav's." Sensing a presence, she turns towards the house, her gaze zooming towards the study window... Spotting Ragav's shadow. She looks on sadly and says, "I am sorry for the distance, but I need to know where I stand when you ask me to give our child to Pakhi."
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Several nights later, Ragav stares at the ceiling and says into the dark, "Kalpi please let me in... Please talk to me." Her back towards him, Kalpi feigns sleep, tears fall, her heart whispers, "I know what to do, but I am not ready to hear the words. I am not ready to hear you ask me to give our baby to Pakhi... Oh be still beating heart... You know when push comes to shove you will choose Ragav's happiness over yours."
Moments later, composed and stronger, her back to him, she says, "Ragav please do me a favour. Find Pakhi for me. I called her family in London, they said she is in India and that they don't have her contact." Ragav turns towards her sharply, asking, "why?" She replies, "goodnight."
Ragav stares at her back... Feeling helpless... His heart panicking, "she has decided to leave me... Oh no... What am I to do." Feeling a wetness on his cheeks, he realises he is crying... Wiping his tears... His conscious says, "after everything that has happened... You will respect her wishes and do as she says... Even if it means that she walks away from you."
Edited by angelpureness - 10 years ago
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