So yesterday I had expressed my disappointment at Arzoo keeping absolutely silent. I still think that she would have not harmed her cause of upholding Sahir's izzat and her waada to Zaki by saying that she was not pregnant.
But this is not to rehash that point of view. I was reading the various articles on the forum about today's episode and I have to say that I don't fully agree - I am making a bad habit of this am I not? My apologies - I don't mean to be contrary but I thought I will list my observations from today's episode, though I am sure Sush and Jyoti are going to present a much more balanced and detailed report. To start with according to me it was a really cool episode and the pre-cap was even more so. Looks like Sahir will not be in the dark for long about the pregnancy misunderstanding.
Let me get a bit personal here - I remember being madly in love in my early 20s - I stopped thinking and behaving logically for a while. I expected my boyfriend to understand me and read my mind and fulfill my unspoken needs and wishes. And when that did not happen cause the poor fella was no mind-reader, I would get so mad and disappointed. I'd rage. How could you? Why didn't you?' became part of my lexicon when arguing with him.
Arzoo today reminded me of that me. The one that is lashing out cause she is still hurt by Sahir's "Tumhare hone ya na hone se mujhe koi farak nahi padtha." She is also unfortunately carrying a rather large chip-on-the-shoulder courtesy her no-good, sleazebag father. It is almost like she is expecting to be let down sooner or later. Zaki and Alvira don't count - cause they don't matter to her that much. But Sahir matters. What he thinks matters... And very illogically, she expects him to know the truth despite her silence.
Even when he tries to explain to her logically despite his own heaving stormy emotions that you sometimes need to voice your truth (I am with you 100% on that Sahir) - all Arzoo can hear is his one phrase - "Sach kya hai?"
I am not sure if I imagined it but I thought Arzoo until then still believed that Sahir absolutely believed that she was not pregnant. He trusted her values. But that question was a bit of a punch in the stomach for her. Why is he asking this question? Shouldn't he just know? Just believe that she is not pregnant out of wedlock!
I could be wrong about the above interpretation. But this is what I perceived.
The fact that his trust in human kind and women in particular is already shaken to the core is a fact she is unaware of. The fact that he is not willing to believe the accusations against her blindly but is still hanging on to hope that she is trustworthy is something that at this point she is not even able to see, because; just like Sahir is blinded by the pain of his past and its shadows on his present; she is pained by the fact that she is deeply in love with a man who doesn't trust her implicitly. She is wrong about this. Any other man in his place would have judged her. He has not. But she is too emotional to see this - that is what I perceived.
Arzoo is of course a very demanding lover. She is demanding 100% trust but she is not willing to extend the same to Sahir. She wants him to understand her, despite all her actions... but she is not willing to understand him, despite all his actions.
However Sahir is no different. He is an equally demanding lover. He will keep harping on hadd and limits (understandable given his past) but is so in love that he himself is not able to keep his emotions, hands, eyes or words within limits. He is constantly sending out confusing signals to her. His eyes tell her something. His words tell her something else.
I loved the Saaz scene today. It was full of emotions, passion and angst. What I realised is that neither of them are ever going to be logical and well-behaved with each other - they are too much in love. Poor babies. I just wanted to hold them and say "Don't worry... it's all gonna be ok." I am ok with holding Sahir alone too ;p but yeah... let's not get side-tracked.
But seriously I do hope that there is no unnecessary twist in the form of an engagement or nikah between Zaki-Arzoo or Sahir-Sam. That would be the pits cause I really don't think I can handle this particular knife being twisted beyond a point. That would put me off. But yes the pre-cap did point to Sahir coming to know about Zaki and Sam's love affair and that Rehman wants the two to be hitched. I am loving the parents in this show - not Arzoo's though.
Alvira and Rehman are so committed to getting their bachchas hitched to their humsafars.
Look forward to what you guys have to say about this POV.
AND I have to say this - and this is something I am sure no one will argue with - Harshad Chopra's eyes!! Man they emote. Like Anne Sexton said, "I like you; your eyes are full of language."
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