A quick Sahil FF

Overwhelmed she was, as sanam was getting ready for the diwali celebration at her friend's house puzzled by ahil and his indirect declaration of love. Yes, Ahil broke out in frustration as his tears kept progressing down his cheeks screaming his undying love for sanam. The obvious reaction from sanam was denial. How the man she despised so much of could claim at the top of his voice that he cannot and will not live without her?

As surprised as she was, she shook it off,

"why do I care? Why am I even affected by his words when they don't mean anything to me? He is just trying to pick a chance to shout at me."

Puzzled, Ahil questioned himself,

"was it wrong? What must she be thinking? Sanam herself is so nave in these kind of situations I know for a fact she would have misunderstood me."

Passing into the room she is changing in he glances back to find her unable to tie her dori on her blouse. He scrolled his eyes across her and politely asked

"do you want help with that?"

Shocked she was but turned slightly shy in his presence and replied

"well now that you are here, can you please tie it for me?"

She lowers her gaze and faces her back to him as he makes his way to her. Unaware what to do with her emtpy hands she entangles her fingers and plays with them. Ahil stares at her reflection in the mirror and looks back down again lifting the two strings to his chest.

"The way I behaved yesterday - I was a little caught off guard, I became overwhelmed with emotion in the situation. But every word of it was true. They say that you tend to say the wrong things in anger but I was fully conscious and I know for a fact what I said was not wrong. Maybe the manner I thought to have spoken to you was but the message was still the same and today I want you to be fully aware of that."

She stopped playing with her fingers and looked up to the mirror. She noticed his eyes were closed the whole time. Before he looked back up, she shut her eyelids hoping he didn't notice. He smiled at her childish reaction and tugged the dori tight forcing her eyes to open to reality. She remained silent and slightly confused blinks at Ahil as she thanked him.

He picked the waist chain up from the dressing table and scanned his eyes across her tiny waist with a cheeky smile. Disapproving of this sanam retaliated back,

"wait! Its okay, I can manage from here, I will get dressed myself from here thank -"

"shhh" ahil whispered into her ear as he closed in closer on her giving her a small fright.

"you say you can manage but whenever you are in trouble, you always end up needing me to help you so why not now? You know after getting married to you, I decided that I would hate you each and every day to the extent that you yourself would walk away from the relationship. Everything happened so quickly and suddenly, that I didn't know who to blame. The real culprit of this marriage was me to be honest. I put you through so much when it was not even your fault. I didn't understand that even you had no choice which is why you said yes in the nikaah. Ever since I had met you, I couldn't remove you from my thoughts and slowly you became a permanent image in my heart and mind."

She tried to show no emotion as she contained them in the fists of her hands clenching onto her choli. He brought the waist chain from behind her over to her stomach as his fingers brushed passed her skin - she felt her tummy tremor a little. As he clipped the chain on he rested his hand on her stomach.

"this feeling, this touch, your touch always struck me like the way it is perhaps striking you. Not just your eyes but the slightest intimacy I shared with you always haunted my thoughts. Now I cannot imagine my life without you. Where out meeting began with so much anger and fire, it's burned into a passion, a passion for your love."

She again closes her eyes avoiding his gaze as he crosses over to face her. He picked the dupatta up and began making pleats. He rested the pleats on the shoulder of her blouse and secured it with a safety pin.

"why are you doing this?" she murmured under her voice.

"because I love you."

She looked up as her eyes began to swell with water. She was trapped in his words. She felt truth this time, maybe because she looked so closely into his eyes for the first time.

Trying to calm her, he freed her grip from her choli lifting her hand up to her chin and one by one slid her bangles on. She fixated her eyes on him and softly said

"I never knew you were so hurt and at the same time so passionate. Why could you never be so kind to me before? We would have gotten along better. You could have gotten along with everyone from the beginning if you were this nice."

Ahil looks up towards her and spoke

" love can change a person right? And I changed for all the right reasons. I changed for you because I fell in love with you. I realised that I wanted to be happy with you, and I wanted to be better with you and unknowingly, I never knew when my feelings changed for you. And I want to be able to express that to you every day just to see you start your morning with a smile because I want to be the reason for it. I could go on with a list of reasons as to why I love you but because of rejection and being singled out, I was afraid I would never be able to tell you. God has always written someone special to be a part of your destiny and when you meet destiny, it is called luck which very few people have in this world and I am very fortunate to have you in my life. And you know what else sanam -"

"stop."

She gasped a little and tried to compose herself. She released her hand from his and tried to leave. He grabbed her other hand pulling her towards him and locked it behind her. He continued placing the second set of bangles on her hand.

"I know you feel the same for me but you are only denying your feelings because you hate the ahil you met the first time. You think I am going to walk all over you once you let your feelings out, you think I will just use you, you think I will hurt you again, like all the other times. I know I have hurt you a lot but why can't you give me a chance in the moment I am being the most honest about?"

He let go of her hand and caressed her hair, placing it behind her ear and over her shoulder. Carefully he put on her earrings on not letting it hurt her. He turned her around to face him and asked her to open her eyes

"open your eyes sanam cause they are the reason I have fallen for you. You hold honesty and your stories of emotion in them. Or you think you can conceal your love for me within your eyes if they remain shut?"

She gave in to his request and looked straight past his eyes hoping she will not expose her true feelings. He looked across her chest and noticed her breathing very heavily. She looked rather nervous and uneasy. She began the game of playing with her fingers again. He knew she was guilty. Ahil smiled a little more and cleared the distance between him and her. They were breathing right into one another's lips but this time ahil tilted his head slightly and rested his chin between her neck and shoulder. Sanam's eyes widened as ahil bit the hook tight on her necklace where she felt his lips brush her skin. moving his hand away from her back, carefully placed it on her waist.

"sanam" he hissed

"yes"

"shall we..."

"shall we...what"

"Shall we..."

"shall we...do what"

Sanam frustrated with the thought of what Ahil was planning to do had her stomach in knots. Ahil amused by his little prank decided to end it with her.

"shall we...leave?"

He blurted a small laugh out as sanam opened her eyes with disbelief and a little disappointment. Looking at him she pushed him away from her and left the room.