Aahil : And I Kept Burning ❤️

And I Kept Burning

I saw a light approaching me,

She came close, enlightening me.

I felt the darkness, leaving me,

Through the arms, she held me.

I felt a part, growing in me,

Drop by drop, completing me.

She caressed my soul, inviting me,

The feel of which, completed me.

She was a light, she had to grow.

And she grew, little did I know.

I tried to catch, only to let her go.

She was a light, I wished I know.

I called her name, left a whisper.

I was lost, I felt a shiver.

She was leaving, tearing me up,

I grew more, as she kept breaking me up.

I was at the brink, of losing me.

But the light kept, embracing me.

The light didn't leave, It was me,

Who left the light, growing in me.

I was lit, but it left.

I let it go, it left me bereft.

It burnt me, more than I ever did.

It filled me, more than I never did.

The light grew, only to get lit in another.

I should have known, shouldn't have bothered.

It burnt me more, to see that light,

Going far, far away from my sight.

She was a light, it had to go.

She wasn't for me, I wished I know.

I kept burning, in the light I was in.

She was the light, I was burning in.

-The End-

That's all peeps. Hope it din't bore you. :D

Explanation:

(By Sarru darling) I love you sister!

I felt a part, growing in me,

Drop by drop, completing me.

She caressed my soul, inviting me,

The feel of which, completed me.

THE PART THAT WAS GROWING IN AAHIL// THE ONE THAT IS NOURISHED WITH LOVE AND CARE// THAT WAS REAL// NOT THE FLIGHTLESS FAADE OF TANVEER//ITS SANAM THAT MADE IT GROW// FROM SMOKEY ASHES TO A CANVAS OF PINKS AND GREENS AND /LOVE/ // HE FEELS COMPLETED WITH HER// HE DOESN'T KNOW WHY// WHY IT IS HER THAT COMPLETES HIM// WHY THIS WOMAN// THIS WOMAN WHO LOATHES THE SIGHT OF HIM// WHO IS SLOWLY DISINTEGRATING IN FRONT OF HIM// WHO IS ROTTING AND BREAKING SINCE THE FIRST DAY HE MET HER// BECAUSE ITS JUST THE SIGHT OF HIM THAT RUINS PEOPLES LIVES// LIKE IT DID WITH HIS AMMI'S//BUT SHE'S STILL THERE// EVERYDAY HE WAKES UP SHE IS THERE// AND HE THINKS THAT THIS MUST BE A DREAM// A DREAM THAT IS GOING TO INEVITABLY GET CRUSHED AND SMOTHERED UNDER THE HEEL OF HORRIFYING REALITY//

I was at the brink, of losing me.

But the light kept, embracing me.

The light didn't leave, It was me,

Who left the light, growing in me.

HE WAS AT THE BRINK OF LOSING HIMSELF// LOSING HIMSELF IN THE LIES AND NEVERENDING BRUISES AND DARKNESS AND NIGHTMARES// HE WAS ON THE BRINK OF THE CLIFF THAT WAS STEEP// THAT WAS SO STEEP THAT HE COULDN'T SEE THE BOTTOM// BUT THE THING IS HE /DIDN'T/ WANT TO SEE THE BOTTOM// HE WANTED TO LOSE HIMSELF INTO INFINITE DARKNESS// THE PLACE WITH NO PAIN AND NO FEAR// AND NO LEATHER BELTS THAT WOULD CARVE SLUGGISH RED WHISPERS INTO HIS SKIN// THE PLACE WHERE HE DIDN'T HAVE TO ASK HIMSELF WHY // WHY IS HE SO ALONE// HE KNOWS THAT FAULT IS HIS// BUT HE DOESN'T KNOW /WHAT/ HIS FAULT HIS// BUT SANAM// NO// SANAM GROUNDED HIM// SHE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW THAT SHE IS THE ONLY THING THAT IS KEEPING HIM SANE// THAT IS THE TETHER// THE STRING OF COTTON AND DUPPATAS AND SMILES AND WORDS THAT HAS HIM MOVING SLOWLY AWAY FROM THE CLIFF// HE DOESN'T KNOW WHY ITS HER// BUT SHE'S THE LIGHT// THE LIGHT THAT HAS LIT UP HIS SOUL//

It burnt me, more than I ever did.

It filled me, more than I never did.

SANAM BURNT HIM// SHE BURNT THE PIECES THAT WERE SO BROKEN THEY COULDN'T BE MENDED BUT THEY WERENT LEAVING AND SHE MADE THEM LEAVE//BUT SHE ALSO BURNT HIM IN THE WAY FIRE BURNS SKIN// THE WAY IT MELTS INTO PINK FLESH AND THE SCARS REMAIN FOR MONTHS IF NOT YEARS// BUT FOR AAHIL THIS WILL STAY FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE// HE HAS A MAP OF SCARS ON HIS SKIN AND INSIDE THE VESSELS OF HIS BLOOD// BUT SANAM WILL BE THE SCAR THAT WILL HAUNT HIS BEING UNTIL THE DAY HE DIES// BECAUSE SHE WAS THE GODDAMNED /LIGHT/ THAT FILLED HIM // THE LIGHT THAT WAS BRIGHTER THAN THE SUN AND SOFTER THAN THE CUTS OF THE STARS// IT FILLED HIS EXISTENCE AND THEN SHE LEFT.

The light grew, only to get lit in another.

I should have known, shouldn't have bothered.

It burnt me more, to see that light,

Going far, far away from my sight.

The LIGHT ONLY GREW TO GET LIT IN ANOTHER - AAHIL NOT BEING /JEALOUS/ BUT BEING /BROKEN/ BECAUSE THE GIRL HE LOVES IE SANAM IS SLOWLY VENTURING TOWARDS REHAAN AND HE SHOULD HAVE /KNOWN/ BECAUSE NOONE LOVES HIM// /NOONE/ //HE LOVES HIS AMMI SHE IS THE QUEEN, THE GOD IN HIS EYES HE WILL FOLLOW HER EVERY ORDER UNTIL THE DAY HE DIES BUT DEEP INSIDE //BEHIND THE WALLS OF CONCRETE AND STEEL AND ARROGENCE AND INDIFFERENCE// HE /KNOWS/ HE KNOWS THAT HIS AMMI DOESN'T LOVE HIM THE SAME WAY HE KNOWS THAT HIS ABBU LEFT WELTS OF PURPLE NAD BLUE AND RED ON HIS SKIN//SO HE SHOULD HAVE /KNOWN/ THAT SANAM WOULD LEAVE HIM// THAT REHAAN WOULD LEAVE HIM TOO //OR MAYBE BE KNEW THAT REHAAN WOULD LEAVE ALL ALONG// HE JUST THOUGHT THIS WOULDN'T BE THE THING THAT MADE HIM LEAVE// AND HE SHOULDN'T HAVE EVEN /BOTHERED/ BECAUSE THINGS AS BEAUTIFUL AS SANAM WILL /BURN/ IN FRONT OF HIM THEY WITHER AND BREAK AND ROT //AND HE KNOWS // HE KNOWS//BUT HE STILL TRIED//

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