MAIN JO MIT BHI GAYA TO VAJOOD MERA SADA TUJHME RAHEGA ZINDA

To: Sunara, Diya Di, Joseph, Jules and all my fellow RRians here...

😭MAIN JO MIT BHI GAYA TO VAJOOD MERA SADA TUJHME RAHEGA ZINDA 😭😭

Do you remember how badly you had craved to connect with Paro??

You remember how upset you were at not being shown Paro's point of view??

You remember how much you had longed to do away with the disconnect and disorientation that existed between Paro and you???

I have this strong instinct that the message managed its way to the CVs via IF or Twitter..

They decided to give us all of this, but how??!!!

By setting our lives on fire...setting this forum on fire!!!

Sunara, did you see you just came up with the most heartfelt and ethereal ode to Paro???

Did you see how the CVs managed to turn your rants into sympathy for Paro???

Did you notice how everybody followed in your footsteps and cried for that angelic soul???

Diya Di, did you realise you just dedicated a post to the sisters of heart'???(Something u haven't done in the longest possible time)

They have paved the path for empathy Baisas...

The connect has been successfully established...but in the most severe and harshest possible manner.

I know what must be running through the CVs minds---- "You people think you can't connect to Paro and cry only for Rudra. We will show you what kind of bond you share with Paro. We will thrash your hearts and then let you realise in the most dreadfully dreadful way that you always connected and felt for her, just that it was subliminal!!"

Jules you were so right when you spelled CVs minds out in your post,

"Paro ko maar dete hain...Rudra royega...Audience royegi...TRPs hasegi!"

AT 1.00am in the midnight I had tears rolling down my cheeks as I read through Sunara's and Diya Di's posts...

All through the night either I had flashbacks of Parud's journey or rather our journey with RR or apprehensions about how things would unfold and what all could happen to Paro...

The episode managed to give me pangs in my heart and belly as I cringed and singed...seethed and simmered...the biggest pang was given by the last scene and Paro's dialogue,"Majorsaab tayyar ho jaiye aapki zindagi mein khushiya hi khushiya aane waali hain!!"😭

Never have such cheerful words felt this cheerless.

After the episode ended, the first lines that ran through my mind were Rudra's dialogues at the BSD office when he was all shattered and thrashed after seeing Mala's photo at Tejawat's mansion.

"Koi nahi chahiye..akela chor do...sab dur ho...

Koi dawa nahi hai...koi dawa nahi hai...

Kat gaya hai sab...sab kat gaya..

Andar tak sab kat gaya...

Chir gaya andar tak sab...

Kuch beh raha hai tapak tapak..

Kuch beh raha hai...

Dard ho raha hai...

Bohot dard ho raha hai..."

Reason: This is what we feel at the moment and very soon would Rudra...

Never knew that the two characters from the world of fiction and fantasy could do this to my psyche...your psyche...our collective psyches...

As I woke up in the morning with a heavy heart and with my heart in my mouth because of the thoughts that swayed in my mind as I slept, I again had tears in my eyes...

I could think of the movie 'Ek Villain'(sadly someone had come with its RR version wallpaper recently) where a pregnant Aisha was ruthlessly murdered and snatched from her lover 'Guru'. Her lines ," Mujhe mat maaro. I am pregnant. Mujhe is bachche ko is duniya mein laana hai," to the villain begging for her life since this child was the ray of hope in her husband's life..their life...Alas, the villain didn't listen to her and I shrank in fear as the song from this movie "Koi mujhko yun mila hai...jaise banjaare ko ghar" ran through my mind. It has that Parud connect after all. I couldn't help but be appalled at the thought," Is this what Shantanu is going to do to Paro???"

There were multiple thoughts flashing in my mind.

Would they be separated like Amir and Asin in Ghajini???( The brutal murder and separation story)

Would they be separated like Hritik and Amisha in Kaho Na Pyaar Hai??( The London lookalike theory)

Oh God, please stop these thoughts. And as if these were not enough somebody at my home put on the radio and the songs that played made things worse for me...

Kaise Mujhe Tum Mil Gayi, Kismat Pe Aaye Naa Yakeen
Utar Aayi Jheel Mein, Jaise Chaand Utar Ta Hai
Kabhi Haule Haule Dheere Se
Gun Guni Dhoop Ki Tarah Se Tarannum Mein Tum
Chhoo Ke Mujhe Guzari Ho Yuh
Dekhu Tumhe Ya Main Sunoo, Tum Ho Sukoon
Tum Ho Junoon..., Kyun Pehle Na Aayi Tum


Main To Yeh Sochta Tha, Ke Aaj Kal Uparwaale Ko
Fursat Nahi Phir Bhi Tumhe Banaake Woh
Meri Nazar Main Chadh Gaya, Rutbe Mein Vo Aur Bad Gaya

with its touchiest part being the female singer's lines-----

Badle Raaste Jharne Aur Nadi, Badle Deep Ki Tim Tim
Chhede Zindagi Dhun Koi Nahi, Badli Barkhaa Ki Rimjhim
Badlengi Rituein Ada.., Par Main Rahoongi Sada..
Isi Tarah Teri Baahon Mein Baahein Daal Ke Har Lamha Har Pal...

I again have tears as I write this.😭

The radio was no less savage to me. It played such songs back to back which wrecked havoc on my heart. It was as if these songs are from RR and depict the impending scenario.

The next one was 'Teri Meri' from Bodyguard...

Teri meri, meri teri prem kahani hai mushqil
Do lafzoon mein yeh bayaan na ho paaye

Ik ladka ik ladki ki yeh kahani hai nayi
Do lafzoon mein yeh bayaan na ho paaye

Ik dooje se huey juda Jab ik dooje ke liye bane


Tumse dil jo lagaya toh jahaan maine paaya
Kabhi socha na tha yun meelon door hoga saaya
Kyun khuda tune mujhe aisa khwaab dikhaya
Jab haqiqat mein usey todna tha (These are the worst lines..😭 )

Ik dooje se huye judaa, jab ik dooje ke liye bane
Teri meri, meri teri prem kahani hai mushqil
Do lafzon mein yeh Bayaan na ho paaye

Teri meri baaton ka har lamha
Sab se anjaana, do lafzoon mein yeh
Bayaan na ho paaye

Har ehsaas mein tu hai
Har ik yaad mein tera afsaana
Do lafzon mein yeh bayaan na ho paaye

Sara din bit jaaye, Saari raat jagaye
Bas khayal tumhara lamha lamha tadpaye
Yeh tadap keh rahi hai mit jaaye faasle
Yeh Tere mere darmayaan hai Jo saare( These too!!!!)

Ik dooje se huey juda Jab ik dooje ke liye bane
Teri meri baaton ka har lamha Sab se anjaana
Do lafzon mein yeh Bayaan na ho paaye

Har ehsaas mein tu hai har ik yaad mein tera afsaana
Do lafzon mein yeh bayaan na ho paaye

Teri meri, meri teri prem kahani hai mushqil
Do lafzon mein yeh bayaan na ho paaye


This was followed by the Aashiqui 2 track as I was left wondering if this is just another coincidence or something else!!! Spare me the horror, oh Lord!!!

Hum tere bin ab reh nahi sakte
Tere bina kya wajood mera

Tujhse juda gar ho jaayenge
Toh khud se hi ho jaayenge judaa

Kyunki tum hi ho
Ab tum hi ho
Zindagi ab tum hi ho
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho

Tera mera rishta hai kaisa
Ik pal door gawara nahi
Tere liye har roz hai jeete
Tujh ko diya mera waqt sabhi
Koi lamha mera na ho tere bina
Har saans pe naam tera

Kyunki tum hi ho
Ab tum hi ho
Zindagi ab tum hi ho
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho

Tumhi ho... Tumhi ho...
Tere liye hi jiya main
Khud ko jo yun de diya hai
Teri wafa ne mujhko sambhala
Saare ghamon ko dil se nikala
Tere saath mera hai naseeb juda
Tujhe paake adhoora naa raha hmm..

Kyunki tum hi ho
Ab tum hi ho
Zindagi ab tum hi ho..
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho

The promise " TU, MAIN HAMESHA!!!" stands broken and has been replaced by this one last promise and message by Paro that she leaves behind for Rudra and the diehard Parud fans as she departs from this world...

"MAIN JO MIT BHI GAYA TO VAJOOD MERA SADA ZINDA...😭"

And the last one that played before I put off the radio for I couldn't take it anymore was Kabhi kabhi aditi... But this one was as though a message by Paro to me( us)...

Kabhi Kabhi Aditi Zindagi ,
Mein Yuhi Koi Apna Lagta Hai
Kabhi Kabhi Aditi Woh Bichad Jaye To
Ek Sapna Lagta Hai

Aise Mein Koi Kaise Apnne Aasun Ko Behene Se Roke
Aur Kaise Koi Soch De
Everythings Gonna Be Ok


Kabhi Kabhi To Lage Zindagi Mein Rahi Na Khushi Aur Na Maza
Kabhi Kabhi To Lage Har Din Muskhil Aur Har Pal Ek Saza
Aise Mein Koi Kaise Muskuraye Kaise Hasde Kush Ho Ke
Aur Kaise Koi Soch De
Everything Gonna Be Ok

Soch Zara Janejaa Tujhko Hum Kitna Chahte Hai
Rote Hai Hum Bhi Agar Teri Aakhon Mein Aasun Aate Hain
Gana To Aata Nahi Hai Magar Phir Bhi Hum Gaate Hain

Hey Aditi Maan Kabhi Kabhi Sare Jahan Mein Andhera Hota Hai
Lekin Raat Ke Baad Hi To Savera Hota (message for us by Paro)


Kabhi Kabhi Aditi Zindagi ,
Mein Yuhi Koi Apna Lagta Hai
Kabhi Kabhi Aditi Woh Bichad Jaye To
Ek Sapna Lagta Hai

Hey Aditi Hasde Hasde Hasde Hasde Hasde Tu Zara
Nahi To Bas Thoda Thoda Thoda Thoda Thoda Thoda Muskura

Tu Kush Hai To Lage Ki Jahan Mein Chai Hai Kushi
Suraj Nikle Badlon Se Aur Baate Zindagi
Sunto Zara Madhosh Hawa Tujhse Kehne Lagi

Ki Aditi Woh Ko Bichadte Hain Ek Na Ek Din Phir Mil Jate Hain
Aditi Jane Tu Ya Jaane Na Phool Phir Khil Jate Hain ( The real message!!!)


Kabhi Kabhi Aditi Zindagi ,
Mein Yuhi Koi Apna Lagta Hai
Kabhi Kabhi Aditi Woh Bichad Jaye To
Ek Sapna Lagta Hai

Hey Aditi Hasde Hasde Hasde Hasde Hasde Tu Zara
Nahi To Bas Thoda Thoda Thoda Thoda Thoda Thoda Muskura
Hey Aditi Hasde Hasde Hasde Hasde Hasde Tu Zara
Nahi To Bas Thoda Thoda Thoda Thoda Thoda Thoda Muskura

Signing off on this sorrowful yet an optimistic note...

CVs please don't be so cruel to get things back on track..to bring the realization that we still connect to Paro...Parud...

Joseph-"U were so apt with your title and post yesterday---' Kal Ho Na Ho'...😭😭😭

😭

You most made me emotional Gayatri 😒*hugs🤗*

Originally posted by: Joseph_A

Your post is so touchy Gayatri ! just like upcoming twist. 😭 can't say more... 😭

😭

Originally posted by: IAmMayFlower

You most made me emotional Gayatri 😒*hugs🤗*

The news is really making eyes water every time I log in here... The posts made here makes me even more emotional!! Aww.. I still can't stand loosing that cheerful paro who never failed to bring a smile on our faces!!

Though paro was never explored.in the story till now, though her character was never a highlight.. Paro made her own place.in everybody's heart and soul... The very thought of her bidding adeu to us makes us cry for her, grieve for her!! Parud is incomplete without Paro... How will we watch RR next week keeping in mind that Paro is dieing.. There can never be a character ever that'll replace Paro for me!! Awww I'm crying 😭

Love you Paro.. 🤗I'll badly miss Paro.. Aww 😭

Originally posted by: princessunara

Oh god I am crying all over again after reading your post Gayatri!! thanks for the mention.. and truly i am breaking thinking there will not be Paro anymore! 😭 just hope for the best!

beautiful post! thank you! 🤗

Oh God, Gayatri, you made me emotional all over again. Seriously, I never thought I was so attached to Paro ... I've been in the forefront cribbing loudly about the way the cvs neglected her, didn't show her emotions, ignored her tears ... I thought she had been ignored ... but as the news of her death comes in, I realise this girl has made such a big place in my heart ... in all our hearts .. the very thought of Paro not being there in Rangrasiya is shocking and heartbreaking. Even the Sanaya fan in me, who knows she will be back as another character , can't accept that easily ..

Very touching post!
Even though I know Sanz is coming back, just cant let Paro go, she is too close to heart😭