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Till last month, I was smart. I was special. I was the only one of my friends
who had not totally lost her brains. I was the only one who didn't giggle,
swoon, or blush. In short, I was the only one without a crush.
But all that changed. Last month in fact. I'll always remember the day
when I turned into a "normal teen". The day I lost my brains completely
and started to find something attractive in a member of the male gender,
or, as I like to call it, the dumber gender. School started last month Before
that, I had enjoyed two months traveling and listening to the juiciest
gossip back home. Now, I run a risk of being featured in it. Woe.
I remember the day clearly…
It's the first day of school. I'm ambling along, trying to get used to the
prison camp that school is. And I stop. I see him. And I stare. And stare
until my friend asks me if my brains are still on holiday. I shake my head
and move before any fleece-heads notice something wrong with me. But
once I am safely in the assembly line, I stare some more. Woah, he has
changed a lot. And that too in a good way. Before, he used to be taller
than me by a few inches. Now he towers.
Oh. My. God. Kill me right now. He saw me. Big deal, the rational part of
my mind said. He's seen you thousands of times before and now, for
another year, he'll see you every day, all day. But those times I wasn't
staring at him! Another part replied. And I certainly didn't like him. Uh oh.
Did I say that aloud? I glance around panicking, but no one seems to have
noticed. But he's looking at me. I look down at myself. Have I changed?
Well I've cut my hair but I never expected him to notice. Till a few minutes
ago, I didn't particularly want him to.
Wow it's a warm first day of school. Then I realize, it's not warm, I'm
blushing! Aha! My shoelace is undone! Perfect! I bend to tie it, right in
the middle of the Princi's speech. She's going on and on about "new
developments" and something of the like. I'm not listening. I doubt
anyone is. I glance up in the middle of my bow. No, no one is listening.
Once the blush fades, I straighten up.
There's a lot more talking going on. And a lot more flirting as well. Again,
my face turns red. But I feel green inside - Bright, peacock green. Talking
of peacocks, she's certainly acting like one. I'm talking about the Leader
of the Snob society or LSS for short. She's not short though (unlike me).
She's tall and thin and "shapely". No wonder the boys go after her like
lost puppies. That's ok, it's amusing to watch. But when he does it, I turn
green.
Luckily, assembly is over and we're all heading back to our classes. I can't
concentrate. I'm discreetly staring half the time and dreaming for the
other half. Dreaming of him and me. Sitting, talking, and laughing
together. What happened to me!! In just one day my mind seems to have
gone wonky. I always looked at boys like monkeys, not something to
dream about. But here I am – dreaming. Thank God I haven't gone as far
as drooling though. Oh no. I think I spoke too soon. We're assigned
places right next to each other and he looks even better close up. If that's
possible that is.
It's the third class of the day and he's turned back to look at me at least
fifteen times already. Admittedly, it's all academic stuff but whatever. It's
sometimes great being a "brain."
I may not have paid attention in class today but I did learn something
new. His eyes are gorgeous. However, even when I'm daydreaming, my
mind is continuously telling how ridiculous it is that I have a crush. A
crush, imagine, a crush! I vowed never to do something so foolish, but
here I am, crushing on someone and enjoying it.
The first few weeks of school passed like this. I know exactly how he
looks now. Dark brown wavy hair, lighter eyes and a charming face. Yuck.
I can't believe I said that. You know, I won't be surprised if someone
drugged me. But if they did drug me, it seems to be wearing off now. I'm
sad. It was nice while it lasted. I had someone to think about late at night
and early in the morning. I had something to dream about. I had someone
to distract me from the mundane world of formulas and physics.
I still haven't totally gotten over him. I still look at him a lot more than I
look at other guys. But I don't stare anymore. I've started to see him for
what he really is now. A stupid little boy. Ouch. That's harsh. He's not
really stupid but not as great as I thought he was either. Well, whatever it
is, thirty, maybe even forty years from now, I'm not likely to forget him.
After all, he was my first crush.
who had not totally lost her brains. I was the only one who didn't giggle,
swoon, or blush. In short, I was the only one without a crush.
But all that changed. Last month in fact. I'll always remember the day
when I turned into a "normal teen". The day I lost my brains completely
and started to find something attractive in a member of the male gender,
or, as I like to call it, the dumber gender. School started last month Before
that, I had enjoyed two months traveling and listening to the juiciest
gossip back home. Now, I run a risk of being featured in it. Woe.
I remember the day clearly…
It's the first day of school. I'm ambling along, trying to get used to the
prison camp that school is. And I stop. I see him. And I stare. And stare
until my friend asks me if my brains are still on holiday. I shake my head
and move before any fleece-heads notice something wrong with me. But
once I am safely in the assembly line, I stare some more. Woah, he has
changed a lot. And that too in a good way. Before, he used to be taller
than me by a few inches. Now he towers.
Oh. My. God. Kill me right now. He saw me. Big deal, the rational part of
my mind said. He's seen you thousands of times before and now, for
another year, he'll see you every day, all day. But those times I wasn't
staring at him! Another part replied. And I certainly didn't like him. Uh oh.
Did I say that aloud? I glance around panicking, but no one seems to have
noticed. But he's looking at me. I look down at myself. Have I changed?
Well I've cut my hair but I never expected him to notice. Till a few minutes
ago, I didn't particularly want him to.
Wow it's a warm first day of school. Then I realize, it's not warm, I'm
blushing! Aha! My shoelace is undone! Perfect! I bend to tie it, right in
the middle of the Princi's speech. She's going on and on about "new
developments" and something of the like. I'm not listening. I doubt
anyone is. I glance up in the middle of my bow. No, no one is listening.
Once the blush fades, I straighten up.
There's a lot more talking going on. And a lot more flirting as well. Again,
my face turns red. But I feel green inside - Bright, peacock green. Talking
of peacocks, she's certainly acting like one. I'm talking about the Leader
of the Snob society or LSS for short. She's not short though (unlike me).
She's tall and thin and "shapely". No wonder the boys go after her like
lost puppies. That's ok, it's amusing to watch. But when he does it, I turn
green.
Luckily, assembly is over and we're all heading back to our classes. I can't
concentrate. I'm discreetly staring half the time and dreaming for the
other half. Dreaming of him and me. Sitting, talking, and laughing
together. What happened to me!! In just one day my mind seems to have
gone wonky. I always looked at boys like monkeys, not something to
dream about. But here I am – dreaming. Thank God I haven't gone as far
as drooling though. Oh no. I think I spoke too soon. We're assigned
places right next to each other and he looks even better close up. If that's
possible that is.
It's the third class of the day and he's turned back to look at me at least
fifteen times already. Admittedly, it's all academic stuff but whatever. It's
sometimes great being a "brain."
I may not have paid attention in class today but I did learn something
new. His eyes are gorgeous. However, even when I'm daydreaming, my
mind is continuously telling how ridiculous it is that I have a crush. A
crush, imagine, a crush! I vowed never to do something so foolish, but
here I am, crushing on someone and enjoying it.
The first few weeks of school passed like this. I know exactly how he
looks now. Dark brown wavy hair, lighter eyes and a charming face. Yuck.
I can't believe I said that. You know, I won't be surprised if someone
drugged me. But if they did drug me, it seems to be wearing off now. I'm
sad. It was nice while it lasted. I had someone to think about late at night
and early in the morning. I had something to dream about. I had someone
to distract me from the mundane world of formulas and physics.
I still haven't totally gotten over him. I still look at him a lot more than I
look at other guys. But I don't stare anymore. I've started to see him for
what he really is now. A stupid little boy. Ouch. That's harsh. He's not
really stupid but not as great as I thought he was either. Well, whatever it
is, thirty, maybe even forty years from now, I'm not likely to forget him.
After all, he was my first crush.
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