Originally posted by: eveline
Paro Bai Sa...so you have and are going all out to win his trust back. You want to be back, where you belong. And are determined to be back in his life, his family, his home...but have you really thought this out to the end?? Why..why do you want to be a part of his existence?? Why are you hovering around him?? Why are you just not ready to let go of him??
You want his forgivance, his acceptance!! Why?? So tomorrow if he forgives you, and accepts you, you plan to stay with him forever in this role?? Are you really thinking this through?? What exactly is he to you, your body guard..your rakshak forever?? Forever..hamesha?? What do you make him...when you compare him to Shiv and yourself to Parvati?? How can you mentally compare your situation and relationship between that of a husband and wife?? How can your equation and example be that of Rudra and Uma...the eternal Shiv Shakti ...the two parts of this universe?? What status have you given the man, and what do you think will happen if he accepts you?? You plan to stay with him forever...in what role?? Do you seriously think he is your fated one, your husband, your love??And what makes you think, he too has undergone a drastic and sudden change of heart like you, that he will happily accept you permanently in his life?
It takes but a night to change so drastically and desperately?? And what was all that running up to him at the temple??
Seriously at a loss to understand, where is Paro taking this?? Has she accepted this man as her meant partner in a day?? Has Paro even paused to consider the relevance of her thoughts and the consequences of her actions?? Can she even think beyond...Rudra??
I know my writing today is not even satisfactory but am seriously at a loss to understand Paro's emotions and feelings regarding Rudra. Her single minded determination to be part of Rudra's life and family...has me in a turmoil. It seems to be a case of too much too fast!!