Have you thought this out...Paro??

Paro Bai Sa...so you have and are going all out to win his trust back. You want to be back, where you belong. And are determined to be back in his life, his family, his home...but have you really thought this out to the end?? Why..why do you want to be a part of his existence?? Why are you hovering around him?? Why are you just not ready to let go of him??

Yes, he has done plenty for you. Saved your life several times over, but then he was doing his job. And any officer in his place would have done the same..(not the lovey dovey touches Rudra added but at least saved your life). BSD offer you protection, any other officer can do the same and fill his shoes. And you have made some mistakes, you apologized for them..repeatedly, sincerely. He denied you the same, so why not leave it at that? Now he hates you, accuses you of trying to kill his father, and you have repeatedly pleaded your innocence. In such circumstances, either you prove your innocence or you just move on. And as I don't see you trying to figure out what happened at the haveli and who did it, I figure you are ready to move on. And if you want to prove your innocence, how do you go about finding the real murderer,... by hanging 24/7 around Rudra?? Making his tea, breakfast, lunch, picking stuff up for him, bandaging his hand?? And do you want any proof or do you even plan to get some proof of your innocence?? Any thoughts or plan of action to capture the real culprit?? Any intentions of looking for the murderer...No...so its not about your innocence, or getting proof and proving to the world that you were not at fault...its all about Rudra!!

Originally posted by: eveline

Paro Bai Sa...so you have and are going all out to win his trust back. You want to be back, where you belong. And are determined to be back in his life, his family, his home...but have you really thought this out to the end?? Why..why do you want to be a part of his existence?? Why are you hovering around him?? Why are you just not ready to let go of him??

Yes, he has done plenty for you. Saved your life several times over, but then he was doing his job. And any officer in his place would have done the same..(not the lovey dovey touches Rudra added but at least saved your life). He denied you the same, so why won't you let it rest at that. And you have made some mistakes, you apologized for them..repeatedly, sincerely. So, now he hates you, accuses you of trying to kill his father, and you have repeatedly pleaded your innocence. In such circumstances, either you prove your innocence or you just move on. And as I don't see you trying to figure out what happened at the haveli and who did it, I figure you are ready to move on. So how do you go about finding the real murderer, by hangind 24/7 around Rudra?? Making his tea, breakfast, lunch, picking stuff up for him, bandaging his hand?? BSD offered you protection, any other officer could fill his shoes easily. And do you have any proof or do you even plan to get some proof of your innocence?? Any thoughts or plan of action to capture the real culprit?? Any intentions of looking for the murderer...No...so its not about your innocence, or getting proof and proving to the world that you were not at fault...its all about Rudra!!

You want his fogivance, his acceptance!! Why?? So tomorrow if he forgives you, and accepts you, you plan to stay with him forever in this role?? Are you really thinking this through?? What exactly is he to you, your body guard..your rakshak forever?? Forever..hamesha?? What do you make him...when you compare him to Shiv and yourself to Parvati?? How can you mentally compare your situation and relationship between that of a husband and wife?? How can your equation and example be that of Rudra and Uma...the eternal Shiv Shakti ...the two parts of this universe?? What status have you given the man, and what do you think will happen if he accepts you?? You plan to stay with him forever...in what role?? Do you seriously think he is your fated one, your husband, your love??

Seriously at a loss to understand, where is Paro taking this?? Has she accepted this man as her meant partner in a day?? Has Paro even paused to consider the relevance of her thoughts and the consequences of her actions?? Can she even think beyond...Rudra??

I know my writing today is not even satisfactory but am seriously at a loss to understand Paro's emotions and feelings regarding Rudra. Her single minded determination to be part of Rudra's life and family...has me in a turmoil. It seems to be a case of too much too fast!!

right now she is not thinking about any thing other than rudra rudra n rudra bas

Originally posted by: Newbiesoapfan

She doesn't know it... but its because "Baat rudra ki hai... to pharak padtha hai"!

Isn't that too quick...to develop such deep feelings in just a breath of half a day??

I too am a bit, ugh I don't know. The romantic in me wants to believe that she's developing feelings for him in a subconscious state of mind, or maybe it could be a guilt concious? Maybe she feels that she needs to fill the ever-so-growing gap in his heart?

I-

I mean I have no complaints sure lets full steam ahead but I'm sorta sat there itching my head going 'you what?' Well the rational part of it anyway.

Am I even making sense here? 😆

I don't know anymore, I hope I don't appear super critical 😕 😲

Originally posted by: eveline

Isn't that too quick...to develop such deep feelings in just a breath of half a day??

Originally posted by: automaticstart

right now she is not thinking about any thing other than rudra rudra n rudra bas

And what about the reason behind this thinking, these actions...does she have clue about what is happening to her life, her heart, her soul??

Originally posted by: curledup

I too am a bit, ugh I don't know. The romantic in me wants to believe that she's developing feelings for him in a subconscious state of mind, or maybe it could be a guilt concious? Maybe she feels that she needs to fill the ever-so-growing gap in his heart?

I-

I mean I have no complaints sure lets full steam ahead but I'm sorta sat there itching my head going 'you what?' Well the rational part of it anyway.

Am I even making sense here? 😆

I don't know anymore, I hope I don't appear super critical 😕 😲

I know exactly what you are feeling...and that's why my post is so nonsensical too. Today left me halfways too... I mean what the heck is going on here??

I think she just wants to be there for Rudra like he was there for her and she probably also wants to clear her name and the misunderstanding.

Originally posted by: curledup

BUT ITS TOOO SOOONNN!

Or that's how we feel !!