Today I am butterfly and attracted to the bud which I have seen lately. The bud attracts me towards it by its fragrance and the mere simplicity. I would love to watch it blossom and eager to taste nectar. But can someone tell me by doing that am I not deceiving the leaf which gave me shelter during my early days when I was only a worm?
Yes, down the lane of memory, I was a small worm which took shelter with that thin, transparent leaf to hide from my enemies like birds and reptiles. The leaf took pity in me and decided to give shelter to me and save me from the world of enemies. As a first step, the transparent leaf grove hard and dark, so that I was not visible to anyone from its cover. It fed me with its own juice and with that it started shrinking but it didn't disown me even then. It never thought of its own life but took my responsibility as an elder and saved me like a shield there by for an onlooker, it looked like a withering colorless, shrunken & an ugly leaf. But that ugliness was the result, it on itself to give me my life. It took all those shapes (wrinkles) just to give rivals a feeling that there is nothing behind that hard lifeless leaf except for the protruding bones which looks unattractive but no one see its effort to save me, it jeopardized its own life. It took shapes according my necessity & accordingly it modified itself so much that even it doesn't know what its own originality is and how delicate it was. Now everyone looks at this cactus leaf and sees only the thorns but no one knows why it overgrew those thorns. Those were not required for the leaf but for me. So I had promised the leaf that no one in this world can take its position in my life as it had sacrificed its complete life for my welfare.
Now I have overgrown my worm life and am a beautiful butterfly which every one adores. All of a sudden I saw that rode bud, which was about to blossom, which was a new sight for me. The roses were never grown in the desert I born & grew up. Its beauty and fragrance attracted me much that for a moment, I forgot about my life shaver, who shaped my life and fell for this new flower. Yes, when I transferred that bud from its original garden, I ensured I brought its plant along with as I just could not think of the bud wither. But I could not gather the courage to tell the leaf that I grown fond of the rose bud and said, the bud teased me for flying around and to teach it a lesson, I plucked that plant from its garden and made it alone. Now it will have its punishment here living in a totally different climate and my friend, the leaf believed me and got ready to punish the bud. Now what should I do? Neither could I defend the bud as the leaf was my life all along and it lived its life only for me that it doesn't even know that there may be a life without me. At the same time, I can't see the bud hurting as it hurts me. What should I do now that I will not hurt both and they have a mutual admiration? Can someone help me here with this difficulty?
Today I don't know what is happening to me, I am more and more attracted to the bud that I am feeling dejected towards the leaf. I am waiting for the bud to blossom, so that I can drink the nectar to my content. The juice of the leaf, which was my favorite food so far, has started tasting bitter. I know I am wrong by comparing the leaf and flower but I love both and would like to have both. But the leaf has taken my words too seriously that it treats the bud as its own enemy (as it treated the birds and reptiles, which were only my enemies and not the leaf's) and has taken a oath that it will not allow the bud near me which is irritating me. But the bud has realized these feelings of the leaf and keep advising me to go to the leaf as that was there in my life from the beginning and that had sacrificed its total life in my name. But why can't the leaf also thinks in those lines and accepts the bud as its own, so that the bud decides to blossom? Unless the leaf accepts the bud, the bud will not allow me to go anywhere near it. But the leaf is reluctant and is treating the bud as rival which is all set to snatch me from the leaf. What do I do now? How will I assure the leaf that I will be its forever despite sharing my life with the flower? I will I make it understand that o flower can take its place in my life, be it rose or jasmine, the leaf will have the first place in my life and no one will ever be able to displace it from that position.
I am, your Jalal is in need of timely advise from you wise people, to convince my donor (the leaf), Ruqaiya that the rose bud, princess Jodha will never dreamt to dislodge her position. Till such time, Ruqaiya accepts Jodha as her own, Jodha will never be mine. Pleaseadvise me the next course of action with which I can win both my life saver & Life donor. I can't afford to lose anyone of these two