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CHAPTER 10
Sugni sat in the garden, which in the past week had become her favorite space in the house. She loved the greenery , the flowers, the peaceful atmosphere and elegance of it. She felt at peace here for some reason. Since she was brought back to the house by Vickram, things changed. She was relived that he did not think that way about her, but she was also ashamed at jumping to the wrong conclusion. She must of hurt his feelings she was sure. Not that he said anything after ward, he simply brought her home and left her to her own devices, saying he wanted to make some calls . Amrita came and they talked about it , Amrita telling her it was natural how she felt, but she should remember that they really wanted to help her.
Three days ago , she started her therapy sessions where Amrita would pick her up after work and they would go to her house and she would talk. It was hard, talking about her family, her fathers drunken behavior and abuse. Her feelings. But after she started letting it all out , and with Amrita helping her see that she was the victim, not the creator of her troubles , she was slowly beginning to feel a little lighter. She knew she had a long way to go , but she was given hope and she would be a fool if she did not at least meet them half way.

Today was a particular hard session as she talked about her life before the establishment, talking about her mother, who got pregnant at sixteen, and went against every ones advice to have an abortion, and have the baby. She dropped out of school and went to live with the man she thought was the world to her, for the first few years they were poor but happy, she worked, took care of the baby while he stayed in school, Then He picked up a drug habit and nothing was the same. But her mother tried to give Sugni the best she could afford, which was not much. Growing up Sugni saw the sacrifices her mother made . Call it a strange game of fate but when Sugni was sixteen her mother died, , she collapsed one night dancing in a bar and never got up. Changing Sugni's life forever her father resenting the fact he now had to work for a living he or he was going to feed his habit.For three years she thought nothing could be worse that that but then she found out she was wrong.!

"Hey!" Vickram said breaking her out of her deep thoughts,

"I thought I'd find you here, you ok?" He asked .
She nodded. Placing a hot cup of tea in front of her he took a seat.

"Things going well with Amrita?" He asked. She nodded again.

"Things going well in stores?" She nodded. ...

"It's bright tonight isn't it, look you can see the stars actually" he took a sip form his cup and settled on his chair.

Sugni was a little surprised, normally by this point in the conversation, he would give up and leave her alone. "What? not even a nod for that one, I'm hurt" he said sighing, with a forlorn expression. She smiled.

"OH MY GOD! She can smile, well look at that.! Good to know." She actually laughed softly. It felt strange, the only other person who was able to get her to smile was Amrita.

"So...you've been here a couple of weeks now, " He said seriously. "If you're going to stay here , some things are going to have to change, you can't continue like you have been."

What did she do now?, she thought everything was going well, she kept to her self, she did her job as best she could, she tried to stay invisible and not cause any unnecessary trouble, except for that running away incident she thought everything was going well.

"What did I do?" She asked staring at the table.

"Nothing" he answered..."And that's the problem."

"What?" She looked at him, confused.

"See for the past two weeks , that is exactly what you been doing around here, you get up have breakfast, go to work, and now therapy come back go to your room, or sit here for a while, instead of the living room, go to your room and do it all over again the next day, the one exception was that shopping trip.'

"What do you want me to do?" She asked .

"Anything!!!, there is a study full of books you can read, there is a big old TV in the living room that you could probably watch on occasion, A huge collection of movies to choose from, a gym you can work out in, a pool you can use, it's all up to you ! But Sitting around staring into space is really not good"