SS - Kunal Suspects Richa!! - Part 12,13,14 UpDt! - Page 2

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Part ' 2

That night: Kunal could not sleep all night! He did not even drink his usual peg last night! He was waiting for the Sun to rise tossing and turning in bed so he could go to jail and find out about Siddhi.

Kunal: Why did I not visit Siddhi in jail even once all these years? What stopped me from visiting her? (Then he remembered about his last encounter with Siddhi soon after she was jailed 9 years back..) Siddhi did not want me to see her or talk to her.. but why did she say all those things? Did she really mean it when she said I was not a good husband? My heart says she never meant all those things she said and that she did all that for my sake!!

(He then remembered the day when the baby Anand was born.. how Richa brought the baby and handed him to Kunal) What was that about? Why did she want to send the baby away from me? She did not even let me see her on that day! Did she think I would not be a good father? Good thing Richa gave me my Anand, or else what else is there to live for? If Siddhi betrayed me for the sake of the baby, then why would she want to send the baby away? What kind of a mother would do that? (Anger was building up inside him.. he suddenly felt his face was red hot and had to wipe it off with a hanky)

(Suddenly, he remembered AC's words the previous evening) Did Anand say the boy's mother was Siddhi? Could it be my Siddhi? If she was out of jail.. why did she not come home? Is she still angry with me? No.. I am sure this Siddhi is different.. because I know I did not live up to her expectations and always gave her troubles but then MY Siddhi would never blame me like she did. She would come back to me if she was released from prison.

My heart refuses to accept Siddhi's words.. but then all the circumstances are against her. May be I did not visit her because I did not know what I would say to console her or may be I was scared of what else she would say to me!! As they say, Time is the healer.. I must have unknowingly stayed away from her all these years hoping when she is released, she would be a changed person, the person whom I fell in love with 10years ago! Hoping she will accept me and also our Anand once she is out of jail!!

Not a moment passed by when I did not think of Siddhi.. whether good or bad, she occupied my mind not allowing any other thought! I was unable to move on because of her!! I have become a good for nothing in the eyes of my own family members!!

After all these years, I am going to meet her in jail after all these years.. what will she say? Will she be angry that I did not visit her all these years or will she be happy about it?(he still thinks she might be in jail and what AC said to him was a coincidence)

All these thoughts made him all the more anxious.. he restlessly turned to the other side on his bed and saw AC sleeping with a smile on his face. He gently stroked AC's hair and kissed him on the forehead! You are the only person after Siddhi who has accepted me for who I am! How I wish your mother could see you now!! She would be so proud of you!! You are my life and without you, I would have died all those years ago when Siddhi left me!! I want you to know that I don't believe that your mother tried to send you away from me nor do I hate her!! And I will do my part to give you as much love as possible!! Forgive me Anand for keeping you away from your mother all these years.. but I had no other choice.

I will go to jail and find out about Siddhi in the morning. Even if she is unwilling to see or talk to me, I will find out if she is fine. I know what Anand told me is simply not possible but it is a sign that I need to go and visit my Siddhi tomorrow!! Hope I find some answers this time!! Thinking all this he tried to close his eyes forcibly around 4 in the morning.