*From To Sathish* - Thread 3 - Page 3

Will keep my fingers crossed for you, Satish...

CHAPTER 22


Have you ever stood in a busy,fast moving and preoccupied crowd ?. Have you wondered seeing the thousands of people going here and going there and they all seem to be going somewhere ? Life is the highway and all souls are traveling out and traveling in.We see only the physical aspects of our bodies and we stand witness to the so called death of the body.But we are dying every second physically and also making new selves and we are also dying in our souls when we are not loved,when we are lonely and when we are rejected.But you and your soul have everything and loneliness is the first step of letting go and aspiring for something bordering on spiritual and a place which is reserved for few.your seat is ready and booked in advance if you want to board that trip.but you have to take that step.But how will you take that step when your family is holding your hand and how will you begin that journey when you have so many responsibilities.
Ponder and keep pondering.

Bonds that bind and in them it matters not if one is kind or unkind.
Bonds of the flesh and they are tied with bonds of the soul
one with the mother and one with the lover
the mother could be of flesh or she could be one who is kind enough to be a mother
and a lover could be just that or a legally bound spouse
but both tie you in their flesh and both let you breathe in their soul whispers
One is maternal and the other one is marital or extra marital
touching,nursing,cuddling,cajoling,bathing and fighting
only these two will do and it is by which the world exists
and for man,bird and beast or beast man
they are sacred bonds and they bind you in flesh and soul
for even the most dearest friend only binds you in your soul
and so mother and spouse rule the house
and no not the house that jack and jill built
not the house that is made of brick and stone
but the house where your soul and god makes his home



First light,first sight

Avini woke up from a deep sleep,from a faint in which she had laid prone on the forest floor.She woke to the breath of gayatri and she woke to a brand new world for she sensed light everywhere.From the world of darkness before the voice and before the kiss,she opened her eyes not to sight but light.No,she could not see things normal people saw but she saw light and she also recognised darkness.She saw gayatri shining bright and could not understand at first what was going on in her mind and what was wrong with her body but taking a deep breath,she knew something had changed and then she felt the light and gentle warmth in her belly.

A woman knows and so avini knew that something lay in her womb and she knew that something was life and she placed her hands and felt the light.Holding gayatri's horn she slowly got to her feet and that was the first step and the first breath she took and she knew immediately she would call her child azhagu for the world was beautiful and she felt beautiful.In her mind,avini recognised some miracle,something beyond her understanding had taken place. and although blessed with intelligence and common sense she decided it was an act of god.Such is life,that when one gets what one craves or yearns for,then that soul does not give too much importance of who,why or what and just basks in the happiness.

Avini's husband gunalan who had been missing for a few days after his mother's death came back and hung around the village lost as usual in his own world.Then he left but not before doing one good thing.He secretly gave a woman,a neighbour who lived nearby a few coins and requested her to watch over avini until he came back.

For avini,nothing mattered and every day was one new step towards her child.She sometimes took a breath and smiled in realisation knowing that her breath was going into her childs body and that the life in her was totally dependent on her.She started eating well and ate a lot of fruits knowing it would all go into her child body.Every breath and every action was aimed at her child and so the days started rolling.

In the shadows of the forest,stood a few shadows and they watched avini with new life and secretly they stood watch over her.The villagers started noticing that something strange was going on in the forest and they avoided going into it after dark.But avini sometimes with the help of gayatri slowly made her way into the forest and called out to the voice.But there was no response and yet avini knew form the light that someone was there and she also felt it in her soul that they were there to protect her and would never harm her.She smiled and in her happiness she sang songs in her sweet voice.She sang songs about her childhood and she sang songs about her life in her old village kurunji.She sang in her sweet voice and hearing her voice came a huge black maned lion and sat in the distance.When avini sang,the forest became strangely quiet and even the air refused to move fast for it would rustle the branches and disturb avini.
The light in avini moved and avini knew that their was a soul in the light and that it too was listening to her songs.

Your light is my light
your sight is my sight
and in your soul and in your actions i will burn bright
my story is mixed with your story
and we are forever inseparable
the song of azhagan will be the song of avini

lost in translation

Adradra Nakku Mukku Nakku Mukku Nakku Mukku

Ethavathu purinchutha.Did you understand anything from those words.But wait for rather just listening to the song and tapping your feet or walking away
with your eyesbrows raised in expression " ENNADA ATHU " if you read the lyrics, then you will realize that there are some hidden words which make sense.Well i for one sat and pondered for i am a vetti officer.Forget that nakul did a great job of dancing in that film the song writer also did a great job but he was lost in translation

Maadu sethan Manishan thinan Thola Vechu Melam Katti
Adradra Nakku Mukku Nakku Mukku Nakku Mukku

Pandhu Attam Ulagam Vecha
Rattinam Pol Shozhala Vecha
Eera Vecha Eeranga Vecha
Sullu Vuttu Mayanga Vecha
Mayanginavanna Ezhuppu Da Ezhuppu Da Ezhuppu Da
Adinga Da Adinga Da Adinga Da Adinga Da (2)


Ponnugalam Porakka Vecha
Ponnukulla Karuva Vecha
Karuva Vecha Karpa Vecha
Karpu Kulla Thee A Vecha
Thee A Vechu Eriya Vecha
Eriya Vecha Eriya Vecha
Madhura Eriyudhu Anaigada Anaigada Anaigada

Thanks for sharing...trailer looks entertaining...

I couldn't help but ask...
the background voice in the beginning and ending of the trailer...is it yours?
And the old-bearded swami giving the punches...is he...you??
For a fleeting moment, it looked like it was you in disguise...
but I could very well be hallucinating too!

Jai is an unintentionally funny actor...
I still can't stop laughing whenever I watch his retro romantic looks in "Kangal Irandal" song.
He in an action role with 6 pack abs is something different...
don't know if it will create terror or humour...
but I hope the storyline is good...just like "Engeyyum Eppothum".

Hope the hard work pays off and "Valiyavan" does well...
best of luck to the whole team!

hi doc,
sorry not me in both the mentioned instances.I am sure the film is going to do well for the director had a clear vision and direction.The whole team has worked hard and it is going to be worth it.From what little i saw the story is good and it will be a neat entertainer and also a good film.

Ha,ha,ha

Dear Icebergs,
Sorry to hear about the global warming. Karma's a bitch.
Sincerely,
The Titanic

Dear America ,
You produced Miley Cyrus. Bieber is your punishment.
Sincerely,
Canada


Dear 2010,
So I hear the best rapper is white and the president is black? W*F happened?!
Sincerely,
1985


Dear Skin-Colored Band Aids,
Please make one for every skin color.
Sincerely,
Black people

Dear World,
Please stop freaking out about 2012. Our calendars end there because some Spanish d-bags invaded our country and we got a little busy, ok?
Sincerely,
The Mayans


Dear iPhone,
Please stop spell checking all of my rude words into nice words.
You piece of shut.
Sincerely,
Every iPhone User

Father is flying a kite. His child is watching him carefully. After some time the kid says " Dad. Because of the string, the kite is not able to go any further higher. "
Hearing this, the father smiles and breaks the string.
The kite goes higher after breaking of the thread and then shortly after that it comes and falls on the ground.
The child is very dejected and sad.

The father sits next to him and calmly explains
" Son, in life we reach a certain level of prosperity and then we feel that there are certain things in our life that are not letting us grow any further like Home, Family, Culture Friendship etc. We feel we want to be free from those strings which we believe are stopping us from going higher.
But, remember son. Going higher is easier than staying at the higher level.
And friends, family and culture etc are the things that will help us stay stable at the heights that we have achieved. If we try to break away from those strings, our condition will be similar to the kite."

" Never go away from culture, family, friends and relationships as they help keep you stable while you are flying high."

"Your Breath Comes...To Go. Your Thoughts Come ... To Go.
Your Words Come... To Go. Your Actions Come... To Go.
Your Feelings Come ... To Go. Your Illnesses Come ... To Go.
Your Phases Come ... To Go. Your Seasons Come ...To Go.
You Have Come ...To Go.
Then Why Do We Hold, Our Guilt, Anger, Hatred So So So Tightly, When they Too have Come ...To Go.

CHAPTER 23

"The wound is the place where the Light enters you." Rumi

Unfolded out of the folds of the woman, man comes unfolded, as is always to come unfolded,
Unfolded only out of the superbest woman of the earth, is to come the superbest man of the earth,
Unfolded out of the friendliest woman, is to come the friendliest man,
Unfolded only out of the perfect body of a woman, can a man be formed of perfect body,
Unfolded only out of the inimitable poem of the woman, can come the poems of man"only thence have my poems come,
Unfolded by brawny embraces from the well-muscled woman I love, only thence come the brawny embraces of the man,
Unfolded out of the folds of the woman's brain, come all the folds of the man's brain, duly obedient,
Unfolded out of the justice of the woman, all justice is unfolded,
Unfolded out of the sympathy of the woman is all sympathy;
A man is a great thing upon the earth, and through eternity"but every jot of the greatness of man is unfolded out of woman,
First the man is shaped in the woman, he can then be shaped in himself.
Walt Whitman (from Leaves of Grass, first published in 1860 edition)




From darkness into light



"You are the closest I will ever come to magic."? Suzanne Finnamore, The Zygote Chronicles

Deep inside the womb,nurtured by its mother the new life sleeps in a trance which is more like the act of a body in the time of death.But its tiny brain records everything it hears,even if it is not conscious yet,even if the realization of its own self and place in the world is far away,quite some time away.but its brain registers everything and everything is stored away.some will come back to haunt and some will come bringing joy.Like a ray of sunlight on a cold dark day,memories will some time come flooding back and with them will come recognition of love and bonds and of things that we lost in the fire.

Quote from what if - chapter 3


I am avini,daughter of ponni and nannan.I was alone in my blindness and i was alone in my soul.But the spirits of the forest have breathed their elements into me and now the light has pierced my soul and filled my womb.I am the light because of the light in me that has been given to me.I am beautiful because of the light and the soul that twinkles its heart every second and my heart beats with its beat.

Avini sat in the shade of the neem tree with her body leaned against the trunk for support.The full belly had now been noticed by all the villagers and they did what they could to help her.Just as many summers ago like her arrival had given hope to the village of kurinji,the elders of perumalvaram waited in anxiety for the coming of avini's child.Gunalan had been missing for many months and the villagers whispered that he had met another woman in a nearby village and was spending time with her.

But nothing could dampen avini for she knew she would have to be strong to bring up her child on her own and that she would need to draw on her every ounce of her strength and belief.Gayatri was her source of strength,every second of the time that passed and the cow followed her everywhere and watched over her like a faithful dog.But even avini had forgotten that gayatri had been with her for a long,long time and was now living way past the life span of a cow.


The tree undressed itself of its green clothes and stood naked with its brown bark and long limbs and all of the trees old clothes now lay at its feet burnt,dry and blowing in the wind.All the trees in the village and forest were shedding leaves and like lost children they flew here and there and were swept away by the villagers and carried away with the breeze.These were the days before the might of the summer sun would burn,bake and torment all things that lay under its eye and in its domain.Only the deepest lakes and ponds would still nurture their schools of fishes and creatures that lived in its watery world.But all other shallow water holes would dry up and and their underbellies revealed to the sun god.

Avini lived in her own world and in her own light and she knew that her child would come in to this world during the months of rain or just after it.Slowly but steadily a fear gripped her as the truth and reality hit home and she began to wonder how she was going to look after herself and her baby.Both her parents were gone and death had also taken away the kind-hearted Pattamma who had been her mother-in-law.

The night brought a strange dream for her best friend Appanar iyya came in it and whispered words of strength.In the dream,they both walked and he pointed to a mountain and strange lights that were descending on top of it and " the gods are coming my child and they are coming to protect you.They and i will be there next to you,every step and you will never be alone.If the need arises,call for the voice and they will surely come and all will be well.I am in the forest and i am the forest and everything will be fine."


Avini woke up from her sleep and she felt the tears on her face and wondered if she had been dreaming and she reached out to feel the softness of gayatri next to her.Slowly she sat up and placing her hands around gayatri she hugged the cow and the night marched on over perumalpuram and in the darkness and in the shadows they stood guard,spirits of the forest and the lion who prowled the boundaries in secret,keeping any eye on the light and the life.

Forces of war were gathering in madurai and in the palace,standing in a balcony overlooking the vaigai river, the pandyan king kulasekaran looked at nikantan,his minister " how much longer and how much more of this slavery do the pandyans have to suffer under the cholas.Havent we waited enough and how much longer do we have to wait for the signs.'

Nikantan calmly " lord,the signs are here but the wait will be for a while longer.Maybe a few more years for the signs are a bit confusing."

Kulasekaran stared at nikantan and then turned to one the guards and ordered him to go bring him his personal astrologer, Sahasranamam iyengar .

Sahasranamam the official astrologer and also the chief priest of the temple came in and after bowing to the king asked him how he could be of help.

Kulasekraran asked him to read the stars and see if it was time to begin preparations for a war against the cholas and to fight to get back their freedom.

Sahasranamam sat down and after placing the charts,closed his eyes and meditated for a while and then opening them looked at the king with a puzzled expression.Kulasekaran asked him to be frank and open with his findings and waited while sahasranamam went about writing a few things down.

The astrologer looked up and said " my king,my lord.although i have been in this field for a very long time,and my father and my forefathers have been in your service for a long long time,even i am confused by these signs.Yes,our clan of pandyas will eventually triumph and inflict a huge defeat on the cholas but it will not be under you,but someone close to you.and even that victory will come from an outside force,a force from the heavens".

Kulasekaran took in all this information and smiled " well,now you have thoroughly confused me too.Victory for us under someone else but not from my blood but from an outside force.Do you mean to say that the lord i worship and pray to everyday is going to come down from his mountain kingdom and free us from our bonds."

Sahasranamam did not know how to answer this " my lord,that is why me and nikantan think it is better to wait until things become more clearer.Moreover we still need to gather more forces and forge alliances with the king from ceylon and with the kingdom from the malabar region."

kulasekaran looked at nikantan and sahasranamam and then " okay,i agree with what you say.but could you be more clearer on that outside force you mentioned for that intrigues me the most."

Sahasranamam looked at the charts and " my lord,our stars look very bright for the next hundred years and yet there is a new star on the horizon,rising in the east and it is going to outshine all of us and evrything we do.Our entire history is going to be based on this star and forever linked with its destiny.I am not sure why the charts are saying this and what it exactly means,but i promise that in a few months time,everything will be clear and i will be able to tell you more."

Kulasekaran wearily nodded okay and requested them both to leave him to think more about all that he had just heard.placing his mighty arms on the wooden beam,he looked at that rising sun and whispered a prayer " my lord,i live but i am dead.I am a king but i feel like a beggar.will you not free me and my people from this misery and tyranny of the chola kingdom.help me my lord,please help me.".

The tears flowed from his eyes and he wiped them with the silk cloth that covered his chest and then,right then,the clouds that covered the sun floated away and the light from our star blazed so mightily that kulasekaran had to hide his eyes for it was so bright.The light blazed on the golden top of the madurai temple and the king thought he saw his city bathed in golden light.he knew it was a sign,a message from the heavens and raising his hands over his head and bowing his head
chanted ''Thiruchitrambalam,Thiruchitrambalam".


The light was already here,in the womb of avini and it moved and the soul of azhagan blazed fiercely for it was ready to begin its voyage and its purpose.

I am azahgan and i am the son of avini.

I am fire and i am water. I am hell and i am heaven and i will bring peace to you.

kaalaththil azhiyaadha kaaviyam thara vandha
maaperum kavi mannane unakku
thaayoru mozhi solluven

pallakku parivaaram pataiyutan muti sootal
sollukku vilaiyaakume makane un
tholukkuL puvi aalume

vaazhvendrum thaazhvendrum valamendrum kuraivendrum
sakkaram suzhalkindradhu adhil thaan sariththiram nikazhkindradhu
yaarukkum vaazhvundu adharkoru naalundu
adhu varai poruppaayataa makane en
arukinil iruppaayataa

kaalaththil azhiyaadha kaaviyam thara vandha
maaperum kavi mannane unakku
thaayoru mozhi solluven

song from kalidas