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PART4
Flashback
The farewell was approaching in few days , everyone was busy preparing for it with a sadness in their eyes . Within a year Kabir and Jasmine became the most talked couple in the school . The more they both got closer the more i drifted apart . Days would pass even without a conversation between us . A year ago when kabir revealed about their relationship , i was very much aware about my feelings . Jasmine was also a good friend of mine , and thinking they are happy and my feelings a mere infatuation i drifted away . Why can't it be infatuation he was 24/7 by my side , day would start with him and end with him , there was no space for somebody else neither i tried to create . Whatever it was ,my feelings were only till me that's what i thought . Until that day i received that message .
It was a rainy Sunday , we all were busy preparing for the farewell next day . I went to the store to bring some art stuff when i saw kabir sitting in one corner of the corridor he looked sad , i thought the reason to be one of their arguments as these days it was common between them , everyday a new story . Ignoring it i was about to proceed with my work but my attention caught that rebel drop of tear which fell from his eyes and he immediately tried to wipe it off . That was it for me , it felt like a sharp pain in my heart , i tried ignoring it but couldn't. I went and sat beside him . He passed a fake smile at me and i returned a genuine one . "Kya hua yaha kyu baitha h ? " I asked " kuch nahi yaar tu bata teri packing hogayi " he diverted the topic , yes i was moving out next week as i already got admission to a renowned University for my bachelor degree . I was never the one who could even think of moving out in dreams , but it was better I thought. I never replied to his question i didn't felt the need neither he wanted an answer i guessed ,as he was busy hiding something that was bothering him and i was busy reading his eyes . Soon he left from there excusing himself as he received a call , i was also about to go and continue my work when my eyes fell on a crushed paper lying where kabir was sitting.
It was the admission form for delhi's best dancing school where he wanted to join after school . Everything started making sense now , the form was filled completely except the fields where parents consent was required . Yesterday night when arjun uncle came to out house to meet papa he was complaining something about kabir that i missed thinking his another mischief or low grades ,maybe it was the same .
How much i scold myself for not getting into other's matter i go back poking my nose everywhere . He is not someone else , inner me argued . And the next moment i was standing outside his door completely drenched as there was no sign of the rain to stop . Vasu aunty opened the door and took me inside and started wiping my hairs with a towel scolding me for such adventures . But she knew why i was there in that condition , as she told me that kabir and arjun uncle had an argument yesterday and kabir was upset since then. She thought kabir already told me this , and i never corrected her . Our Parents were unaware about kabir and Jasmine's relation .
After a long talk with uncle he finally agreed and that gave immense happiness to aunty and me .
Bidding them bye i almost ran back to the auditorium where all the preparations were going on and searched for him everywhere in that drenched condition but couldn't find him. Saurav even told me to go and change or else I'll fall ill but how can i miss that smile which will appear on his face after listening to the news . After some fifteen minutes finally my eyes found him standing near the stairs and i was About to run to him and tell him the news he was waiting for so long , but he received a call from home . Most probably from vasu aunty as he answered the call stating "han maa, kya hua ", i smiled thinking how happy aunty was and if there is anyone who deserves to reveal the news to him it was her . I realized that he got to know it from her as slowly slowly those lips turned into a curve and then that showstopper smile made home on his face.
He told saurav when he asked reason for his happiness , and when saurav counterquestioned him regarding how this miracle happened , " i know who did this " came his reply . I thought vasu aunty told him this also as he started walking towards me i was lost in his smile when my phone beeped a message flashed on my screen first i thought to ignore it but later the sender's name didn't let me do it ... I stood there almost as a statue after reading the message ...till kabir almost reached by my side his eyes brought me back , my hands involuntarily moved towards him in hope of a hug, but stopped mid way when he hi-fi me shouting " nishu papa maan gaye" and immediately ran past me and hugged the silhouette standing there, " thank you soo much , i never knew you could do this for me this admission means so much " he said parting away from jasmine...
I was confused two things simultaneously going in my mind , what was happening why he thought Jasmine did all this . Unknown tears rushed out of my eyes because of his one action . This confusion got cleared when saurav asked him and he told that few minutes ago he went home to bring some stuff from his garage when he saw Jasmine coming out of his house , that time he ignored but later when his mom called and told all this happened because of someone special he thought it to be her .
" I think you lost something personal, don't worry its with me safe and secure untill you stay where u are .. away ... Far away ... "
JASMINE the screen flashed the sender's name...
I ran back home there was no one in the house that time , and my room was a complete mess , yes my personal diary was missing , the diary which holds the deepest truth of my life , my happiness ,my sadness , the spine chilling tragedy that happened with me in sports meet 4 years back , my feelings for kabir and almost every thing that made me what i am today ...
I was scared because at one side no one knew about that incident other than kabir, he was the one who came and saved me from the worse , he asked me to tell it to family but i was scared but he understood and supported me and helped me come out of it , what if that secret came in open , i was drowning back to that deep well of helpless and agony ... And on other side kabir was slipping away from me ...
I never realized it was late in the evening i was lying on the floor at one corner in those wet clothes shivering staring the ceiling Today my life and my room shared the same fate darkness and a complete mess ... And the one who had the power to brighten up and bring back the light was unaware of the strom that came and drenched me in despair ...
The only question that my inner self shouted Why did i broke the rule and messed up everything why did i fell in love with my best friend ... and i was left helpless lying on the floor crying with my hands covering my ears trying to shut that voice but the damage was already done ...
Cricket
Chakravarti Samrat Prithviraj Chauhan
Mangal Lakshmi
