A/N - heya there... what long time no see... eh... this one is for me as i took way too much time to write an epilogue... 6 months... who takes that much time.. so lets read what comes up and i hope it answers whatever questions are unanswered... well if u not remember the story then give it a read again i think...
EPILOGUE
"bhaiyu..." little siya screamed at the top of her voice as she saw aarav coming towards them strolling his bag behind through the white corridor of the hospital. She ran to him and he flashed her a bright smile opening his arms for her. "how is my sissy..." aarav pinched her cheeks as she hugged him tight. "sissy missed bhaiyu..." she said sniffing. "aww bhaiyu missed sissy more than sissy missed bhaiyu..." aarav nuzzled her nose. "hawww... no... sissy missed bhaiyu more... more n more" she puffed her cheeks making him laugh out loud. "ok i agree..." he kissed her forehead making her chuckle. "champ..." parth called him out. Aarav hugged parth and settled sia on one of the chairs. "how's bua maa..." he asked. " oh she is fine... we will meet her soon and the baby boy too" parth said with a brimming happiness. "finally bua maa won..." they both laughed as parth agreed. "so sia... no sissy there is chotu sa brother for u inside" parth made her sit on his lap. "why... u both told me i will have a little sissy... now who will play with my new barbie..." she whined making a face. Parth and aarav stifle their laughs at her expense. "mai khelungi sia..." came a voice making parth and aarav turn to its source. They saw dolly aarav and amvi coming towards them. "amvi di..." sia let out another squeal and jumped in her embrace. Dolly hugged aarav close to her heart "kaisa h champ...". "perfectly fine maasi..." he replied as dolly kissed his forehead. Saurav too hugged him. "bhaiya..." amvi side hugged aarav as he too reciprocated. "how are u... hows clg... u made friends any girl friend or..." amvi started ranting. Aarav has to put his hand on her mouth "amvi... stop it..." aarav said turning pink. All of them laughed as amvi pouted. they were still laughing when a nurse came to them "u can meet dr. Tamanna now" she smiled and went off. They all entered her ward with joy written on their faces. Parth kissed tanu forehead "u ok?" and picked his little bundle of joy in his arms as she nodded. "he is so cute..." aarav said taking him in his arms "sissy see ur cute little brother..." sia ogle at the pink baby and touched his hand."hellow bhai.." she almost whispered in baby ear making all of them smile. "aarav bhaiya... give me the cute little boy..." amvi spread her arms to which aarav obliged. Dolly kissed tanu forehead while saurav hugged her. "kaisi h princess... oops ab to princess queen ho gyi h na" asked saurav. "nhi mai hmesha princess hi rhungi... bhaiyu ki princess" she replied in a whisper causing saurav to hug her once more. "they are here princess... here only" dolly smiled at her. "i know..." tanu replied. "ok now tell me what is the name of this new member..." asked dolly. "aaron..." tanu kissed the little boy forehead as everyone rejoiced.
As everyone got busy with the baby, aarav came and sat by his bua maa side. "u won bua maa..." he chuckled as tanu nodded with proud. "missed me?" he asked. Tanu hugged aarav to her heart "i missed u so much bhaiyu... so much more..." her tears slide down in a futile attempt to hold them. "i missed u too bua maa..." he replied. "u promised to come back soon... n see came back after 5 months... that's not fair" she complained making him chuckle. "but i came back now and will go only after 15 days at least... fir after this sem i will be back for holidays..." he informed. "u r fine? There..." she asked. "of course i m... dont take tension..." he kissed her forehead "now take rest... we will be out" he stood up as everyone left after giving aaron to tanu. He closed the door after glancing at tanu who lie down with aaron by her side.
"so dolly di aap amvi ur sia ko lke ghar chalie mai tanu ko lke ata hu... aarav tum?" parth asked. "m here with u..." aarav said. Everyone agreed and moved ahead for the assigned work. Parth was busy with the documentation and tanu was resting so aarav decided to roam around. He started strolling around the corridors reminiscing the last time he was here. "aarav..." a familiar voice called him out. He turned to see dr. Vidhi standing in front of him. "doc..." he practically leapt towards her who too was grinning from ear to ear. "how are u doc.." he exclaimed hugging the life out of her. Dr. Vidhi laughed and hugged him back. "m good... m good... u tell whats with u now a days" she asked to the boy who still uses the name his father once used. "oh m same old... u met bua maa?... n our little aaron...?" he asked excitedly. "yes yes... i met them already... come lets have a coffee... m on a break right now" dr. Vidhi tugged his hand and he trailed behind her happily. It doesnt every day that he got to meet one of his fav person and the one who know his parents this close. They entered the cafe and ordered two coffees. "lets sit outside?" dr. Vidhi suggested while aarav agreed. They both went to the secluded area where doctors generally came for a break and sat on a rock bench. "so how's college treating u?" she asked. He gave her a genuine smile and answered in a meek good which she returned. They kept silent wandering in their own thoughts for a long time still sipping on coffee which turned cold. "u never talk about them... do u" dr. Vidhi voiced her thoughts taking aarav by surprise. That was true. He never talks about them openly, not even with parth or tanu. He kept it all to himself. He made a promise to his dad that he won't breakdown that he will take good care of his little princess. And he thinks the day he will let it out in open... he will be devastated for life. A bottle of emotions was deep buried inside him n he knew there was no one who will bear this weight with him.
Was he happy? Yes...
Was he content? Yes...
But was he living? No... he wasn't. He was breathing. That's all. But he was ok with it. Ok with the way life was leading him. Finding meanings and answers... he left those curious questions behind. He wasn't eager anymore. So he didn't tried to dig anything. He remember them, he promised he will never forget them. But it never lessen the pain. It was just a sweet torture for him. And he is accustomed to it.
"no..." he breathed. "why?" she asked. "what's the use of it..." he shrugged "it only become worse every time" he said. She gave him a sad smile. "come i need to show u something... a reason to keep finding answers" she get up and strolled towards her cabin. He got up too though unwillingly but he was never the one to disoblige anyone so he followed. As soon as he entered, she instructed him to sit while she kept rummaging through her old files. After some good hours she exclaimed in happiness almost giving a sleeping aarav a heart attack. "what???" he woke up with a start to find her grinning from ear to ear and handed him some files and a handbook. He looked at her incredulously and took the possessions. "what's this?" he asked. "ur answers... go home and read?" she asked softly and patted his head. He smiled and stood up hugging her last time. "i thought u will not need it... but u really did...this is from ur parents" she whispered and then ushered him out before her tears came in view.
Aarav was in his room. The one which once his parent shared. It still has that remnants of booming laughter and precious banters. It still has the essence of the happiness they shared. Still her mother's smell lingered in corners and still he can feel his father wrapping his arms around him, stroking his hair while his mother will be sitting with his father's head in her lap. THOSE GOOD OLD DAYS. He sighed and finally opened the file. A sharp pain emerged through him seeing the name on the file. He had seen this file way too many times for his own liking. Its painful to keep reading the dreadful way his father had to leave him. Too bad... he can't get rid of it. He go through with each n every page again... torturing himself again... reading how cancer eaten up his father, his family, his happiness. When he reached the last page, he knew who won the battle. Letting out a cursing, he moved to another file. This one was new... he didn't read this file before. But the name on it was all too familiar. MRS. NISHA KABIR KUMAR. His loving mother. He smiled at the name remembering how much she loves her name. Opening it up, he got the shock of his life. There was multiple test reports, diagnostic slips, bills everything. He didn't knew she was suffering from something. He immediately got to the main page, reading it he shook his head at his mother's stubbornness. A simple diagnosis and she just ruined herself after it. What was she even thinking... didn't she love him enough to try n live for him. A type malabsorption... he thinks... just a simple thing but she let it take her life. Anger... anger started coursing in his veins. Did he wasn't worth for her to let her live. He threw the file at some random corner as he started feeling suffocated. She deliberately left him... she didn't think of him... just ruined his life... his childhood... left him with a scar. A pain shoot up in his chest, tightening... he felt suffocated with these turn of events. Gasping for air... he opened the window letting the cool air come. Gulping on the breeze he bend on the window pane heaving breathlessly. Suddenly he remembered the handbook and made a run for it. He knew there were answers and this time he want them. Opening it he found two letters in it. The first one had his name with kabir's handwriting on it.
Champ,
How are u my boy? I know u are good n u will be holding up better than i could have been. I know u can do it. Its just little unfair that i couldn't be there to support u through different phases of life. I m sorry u have to go through this. I really m. But i know u r strong... ofcourse u r because u r her son... u have ur mothers determination. I can see that. N i know u wont cry... u shouldn't. Boys don't cry remember... Just kidding. I have cried a lot of time in my life n trust me it feels good to let it out. There are a lot of things i need to tell u but i dont have much time. U see this letter writing is ur mother's last minute idea. U know how she is. But there is just one thing which u should know is that pls dont ever hate ur mother for leaving u. She has endured every single pain that has been inflicted my way and even now i know she is in extremes of pain and weariness but she wont say a word to anyone. But i know her better. I can see her suffering. I can see her bottling up that excruciating pain in her. Her emotions are hurting her physically now but she will not give up until it kills her. Only i know what she is going through but she is way too stubborn to listen n i understand her reasons son. If our roles were reversed, i would have taken the same decision in a heartbeat. I want her free of pain my child, if it means her death then be it. I have never stopped her from anything nor i will stop her now. I cant tell u how much i want her to live but i know it will cost her her sanity. I may sound selfish son but it actually a bliss to have a life partner like her who can give her life for me. Moreover she is actually letting u go... setting u free from pain champ. Its difficult... no its horrific to make such decision because u are her part but... i actually don't know what to say to u.. no words will ever be enough to transpire these feelings. I cant tell u our love story but it was pretty dramatic if u say so. U can hear it all from princess and u will understand what i mean. Ur mother was and is my biggest support. It was only in front of her when i showed my most vulnerable state. She was the one who risen me from ashes. Made me complete gave me u... if it wasn't for her i would have given up long time back. I know u will think it is absurd and strange and creepy but love is absurd strange and creepy. U will know once u find ur love aarav. I wish u find it soon and live it to ur fullest. Just let someone in boy, u will never regret. the right person giving u the right feelings in the most wrong situations. I have always loved u my boy. U will always be in my heart and one day i know u will understand what i and ur mother shared. She is and always be a wonderful woman u will ever know. Love enough for a lifetime where i won't be there champ.
Bye,
Ur dad.
Tear stained his face as he kept re reading the last letter his father written to him. Oh how he can give anything to just get a minute with him again. He cried clutching it onto his chest but then controlled himself and picked another letter with shaking hands.
Champ,
U r angry with me... i know and u should be son. I did the most horrible thing a mother can do to her child. I snatched away ur childhood ur mother from u. I know i should be despised but pls champ... pls dont hate me for this. I have to do this. I need to. I know it sound selfish of me and i agree i m selfish son... i cant live without him. Never. I can give anything... anything to be with him if it means my life then be it. I know its extremely wrong on my part to u but i cant explain it to u. Love is something too addicting to let go. Ur father is sun of my sky and there is no light in my life without him. I would be lost in those deep darkness of my own self that no one could help me in coming out. I will loose myself willingly if it means i could give u what u deserves. U deserve all the happiness in the world baby... but i know i dont deserve u champ. I know m not worthy of u. I gave up... but trust me when i say that i tried... i tried to be strong to be there for u. If only i could take ur father's place and set him free from that pain. I would have done that. If only i can be with u always i would have been. Dont ever think i let this happen happily or didnt took my care properly. I did. Its just i let it happen a little sooner because i know i wouldn't have made a day without him. I m sorry son. But i know u will understand me, u always do. I was lost son, i was darkness when on a day i found ur father. It wasnt love at first sight but surely it was something deeper than anyone can understood. I ran into his arms and found my solace. The peace the heal i was craving. He didnt let me go... never. He took me in. Inside his heart gave me the place i dont know i even deserve. Yes we go through some rocky patches but that was all worth it whenever i can rest in his arms listening his heartbeats. It was enough to go through any type of problem and when he gave me u... we held u together. I knew i was the luckiest ever. I love you champ. But ur father is something which i cant let go. I know i have said this a no. Of times now but it is never enough. One day u will know what i mean. What it means when u get so dependent on someone that u cant even take another breath without them. What means to be in the arms of someone who showered u with all his being... who make u see and feel a no. Of emotions u r even not aware that u possess. What kind of power they possess on u or how much they can do for u. The depth of which is deeper than any ocean. That love my child will make you understand what i did or why i did.
Love champ... if u can pls try n forgive me baby.
Ur guilty mother...
With deep shaking breaths and in between continuous tears, he folded the letters preciously. His prized possessions. He opened the handbook and seeing it made him cry all over again. A guilt crept in his heart for being angry on her. That handbook was actually a short version of an album. It has pictures of aarav and them in it though it was empty halfway but it had headings up on. There were spaces for his upcoming pictures noted with all imp days like his first clg day, his graduation, his farewell, his first job to be day, marriage, kids everything. And last was a note urging him to pls paste pics. He gave the letters n book a watery smile and shut it. He knew the answers he needed. A sticky note held his eyes.
"call me after reading
Dr. Vidhi"
A ring sounded in the eerie silence of his room when a groggy sound came from another side.
"hello..."
"doc... its me"
"aarav... u read..."
"hmmm..."
"nisha was diagnosed with metabolic malabsorption when she was pregnant with u... it wasnt something that big at that time. But after kabir had his near death experience when u were 3 i guess... it worsen. She had neglected herself before and that was understandable why her disease get serious. Taking care of u n kabir was a task for her. After tanu came back, she n kabir both improved still i kept n eye on her and she followed everything. She took good care of her because she wanted to live with u and tanu moreover she wanted to be with kabir always. After i told them about remission of kabir's cancer, that took a bad turn for her health. She still managed but it worsened. It wasn't because she didnt take care but she was so drained out that nothing helped. It became fatal which is highly rare but i guess so was ur parents. So it lead to what happened... all m saying is that nobody was at fault and not certainly u so stop punishing urself and let the tears run free so it can lift off the weight..."
"thank u doc... i... i needed that..."
"i know aarav... go now, sleep"
"yeah... good night doc"
"gd nite child..."
That night finally aarav let out everything in open... he cried not only for the loss of his parents but also for their love. That was something special... he guessed. He mourned for a life with them but was happy that at least they were happy and together. He just wished he could understand it completely. That night aarav slept peacefully with those letters in his hand close to his heart. He finally got a closure.
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"Amviii..." aarav roared in the house running after his sinister sister who have evilly snatched away the phone and was running in all directions. "amvi give me my phone back otherwise..." he tried snatching his phone but she rounded the corner again. "otherwise???" she teased. "otherwise... i wont let u come in my wedding tonight" he threatened but all in vain as she laughed. "no can do mr. I will come no matter what... afterall m going to do the rituals" she stuck her tongue out. "then why u need my phone... just give to me" he whined. "because u are not allowed to talk to bhabhi... but u were still talking to her" she said in a sing song voice and ditched him again. He groaned again when the door opened diverting amvi attention and he finally was able to corner her. Amvi widen her eyes but still didnt gave his phone back. "amvi give it to me now..." he glowered but of no use.
"offo... now what happened... why u two are fighting again" a tired tanu asked them as she and dolly entered after the last minute shopping while parth came in carrying the shopping bags with siya and aaron trailing behind, giggling on their father's expense. Amvi stood still with his phone in his hand at back while he keep trying snatching it. "tanu di vo..." amvi attempted to tell her but aarav voice choked her words. "now my dear little sister... agar bua maa ko kuch bhi bola ur mera phone nhi dia na to mai maasi se baat nhi karne wala tere ur tere us special friend k baare m... fir tu roti hui aaegi na to bhi mai kuch nhi karunga" he said smugly and as she let out a sigh he knew he won. She begrudgingly gave his phone to him and he gave her a triumphant smile. Others just eyed them and then went away shaking their heads at them. "thats cheating" she shouted at him as he dialled his wife to be a call. But soon her face lit up when a known no.flashed on the screen of her phone. She smiled and ducked out of the house to have a nice talk.
It has been years now... aarav is 26 and is getting married to the love of his life, chestha... now he understood what those words of his parents mean. Chestha has been his rock since 5 years and still is. She is the one who made him realise how wonderful life can be. That he didnt meant to be alone all his life. That she will be there always and hence he grab the chance of not letting her go ever. All over these years, he and amvi shared a beautiful bond of a brother and sister. As she was not too younger they happens to share every detail about their lives. And now when aarav was taking this big step, she was behind him in this too. Pestering him to talk to dolly and saurav about her long time boyfriend alex, an aussie who happens to be working in india for his company where she is an intern now. Her only hope was aarav as she always chicken out in this matter. Tanu and parth were as happy as ever and were actively involved with ccrc which was growing everyday. Dolly and saurav were the happy parents and are still very passionate about ccrc. Everything was perfect and on place. A void was still there in their hearts but that was understandable because they knew that the two best of people has this effect on them for a lifetime.
A/N - HA HA FFIRSE NOTE... NOW NOW NOW FINALLY ITS OVER OFFICIALLY THIS TIME... NO MORE RONA DHONA... BUT JUST LET ME CRY FOR ONCE... THIS WAS MY FAV AFTER ALL...
Edited by mansi_as18 - 9 years ago
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