Yearning You FF Complete - Page 8

Are you a doctor? I'm getting to know medical terms. Is her heart blocked? I can only understand that

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Thanks lovely

Im so sorry if the story has upsett you!

Im not sure when as yet, but eventually he will be more open.

It will take him time for sure but one day yes

It was very serious and that will be explained soon!

I know, its very bad so im hoping this story will be an eye opener

I am no doctor, I just have a similiar issue with my heart

But yeah, the blood is struggling to flow through her heart as the heart walls are so thick, but the tablets should help with that

Avni looked up slowly at Neil, her heart racing so quickly she was struggling to breathe.

"You want to leave me" she asked, her voice timid

This could not be true. He couldnt leave her, he wouldn't. Because he loved her and you dont walk away from the ones you love.

"You can still stay in the house, just the contract is over"

He wanted so badly for her to disagree with him, tell him he was stupid. Make everything better like she always did when he messed up.

"You want to leave me" she repeated, she had to be sure.

Neil sighed "Yes"

Avni nodded "Okay, if thats what you want"

It wasn't what she wanted at all. But she couldn't force him to stay. She didnt blame him, he was out of her league from day one. It was only so long before he realised that to.

XXX

Neil helped Avni sit down, her eyes glanced over the contract papers, she grabbed the pen and scribbled her signature down, Neil took the pen from her hold and did the same.

Neither wanting to long it out incase they lost the courage and begged the other to stay

She couldn't help but want to cry. But she wouldn't. Not in front of him. She was never going to beg him to stay if he didnt want to.

"So this is it, it's really over then"
Neil looked away, nodding his head slightly

He would always love her, but she deserved to be free.

"This isnt a divorce though, we're still married, so if you want to move on, you'll have to wait"

There was no way she could live seeing him with another woman.
It would kill her, because even if he didnt want her, she wanted him

Neil looked back at her "I dont want to move on" he whispered

"We'll see" she stood up, walking towards the bathroom, trying to pull in her anger, now wasn't the time

Neil turned, flinching as she slammed the door behind her, he closed his eyes allowing the tears to fall.

He fell to his knees, no longer worrying about his suit as he let out all the emotions of the past few days.

XXX

Avni rolled her eyes, gripping her towel tighter around her body, she had completely forgot clothes in her haste to get away from him.

Why was she so worried? He was her husband! So what if she walked out there with a towel, she lived here to.

Still didnt help her feel any less nervous though.
She pulled open the door, sliding past it when she tripped in her haste.

Neil wrapped an arm around her waist, the other held her hand tightly.

She really was beautiful, this was how he liked her the most. Just her natural beauty.

"Uh, im getting your blazer wet" she tried to pull away
"Dont worry about it" he wasn't ready to let go yet

Avni swallowed thickly, this position was to compromising.
She halted as she felt him lower down slightly, his nose in her hair, he inhaled

"What, what are you doing" she closed her eyes tightly as his breath tickled her neck
"You smell really good Avni" he replied, his voice thick

She gasped as she felt his lips on her neck, she threw her head back
"You're so beautiful" he whispered, his fingers gripping her hips tightly

She raised her hand, yanking at the back of his head
"What are you doing to me Avni" he growled

He lifted her up, her legs wound around his hips, he stroked her cheek with the back of his hand

He went to kiss her lips, but she turned her face away
"You just ended our relationship, you cant just want me now"

He frowned, he knew she was right, she always was. But she was so addictive and his yearning for her was all consuming

"Not when you never wanted me before" she finished
Neil looked on flabbergasted "I always wanted you"

"Then, why are you letting me go, what do you want from me, you wont touch me, then another man dances with me and suddenly I have your attention, you end our contract but then try and kiss me, what do you want me to do, beg for your attention, make you jealous, is that the only way to keep you around" her breathing was laboured as she spoke

"I just know you deserve better, but its hard for me to let you go" his eyes searched hers

"Have you ever considered the fact that its my choice what I do, who I stay with, you cant make that decision for me, but as you said, you wanted to end this, so go then, I am not stopping you, I will never beg for you to stay, no matter how much I want you to"

She was so unbelievably angry at him for making a decision for her that he had no right to, she loved him. A lot.
But that didnt mean she would try and make him stay if he didnt want to.

There was no way she would ever move on, but she wasnt the type to cry and guilt someone into staying.
But she wanted to, so very much.

He allowed her to stand up straight, tipping her chin up he sighed "All I ever do is stress you out and I hate myself for it, but maybe, maybe if you would allow me to, I may be the husband you deserve"

"You already are Neil, I dont want anyone else, you are enough for me, as you are"
She leant up, kissing his cheek "I need to do my hair before it gets fuzzy"

She slid past him, toward their room when she heard him speak
"I like your hair more when you dont do anything to it"
She smiled, turning back around to face him and nodded

She still had so much to say, but she had to take it slowly, she didnt want to push him.

XXX

Neil looked up at the sound of the doorbell, he looked over at Avni reading and decided to answer it himself.

He stood up, walking towards the door and opened it.

Neil froze, his heart racing, "Get away from me" he shouted, trying to slam the door when the man put his foot in the way

His hand slipping towards his belt "Now, we all know what happens when you make me angry" he sneered

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Bold- Singing

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Neil skidded back on the floor, he stopped as his back hit something, he looked up slowly to see Avni looking down at him.

What would she think of him? Would she see him as less than a man.

She looked up, scowling at the man at the door.
So this was the man, if you could even call him that.

She stepped around Neil, toward the door "Get away from my house and dont you ever come back"
He cackled loudly

"Always had to get someone to fight your battles didnt you" he peered down, turned, then walked away.

Avni slammed the door, locking it, she rested her head against it, trying to calm down her racing heart.
Then she turned around, not expecting the image she saw before her.

This was not the time for her to break down, he needed her now more than ever.

Neil had stood up, his brow sweaty, he leaned against the wall "I just remembered I had work to do"

Work would help him forget, he wouldn't be a burden to her that way

Avni stepped closer, very slowly
"Its okay, he's gone now"

The cold look in his eyes faded slowly to a broken one.
"Lets go sit down" she said calmly, though she didnt feel calm at all.
She had to be. For him.

XXX

Neil gripped Avni's hand tightly, his eyes shut, all he could see was him. The man who had taken away everything from him.

"Its okay to cry Neil" she whispered

"Are you gonna cry now" he laughed

"It doesn't make you less of a man, you are the strongest man I know" she soothed

"Look at you, crying like a little girl, so weak, do you want me to stop" he crowed

Neil opened his eyes, he looked down at Avni, then led down in her lap, his shoulders shook as his sobs began to consume him

She raised her hand, stroking his hair, tears silently made their way down her cheeks
"Ive got you Neil, I love you, I will always love you"

XXX

"So I heard you thought it was a good idea to try and tell your mother about our special nights, that wasn't a good idea was it, what will she think of you, she thought she had a son, and really she had a weak little girl"

He lowered himself, kneeling before Neil, he grabbed his chin
"Oh dont cry, it wont make any of this better, but it may make things more enjoyable for me" he smiled conceitedley

He stood up then, his hand on that worn out leather belt, the smell of alcohol and leather the first sign it was another night his uncle would ruin for him

XXX

It was at times like this, he was that five year old boy who didnt understand his uncle's malicious glares and inconspicuous touches.

Then he was eight years old, lying on that bed, frozen in fear, all energy to fight completley drained out of him.

Then he was ten years old, being told he was a child that misbehaves and tells lies
"He'll grow out of those silly imaginations" he heard his family say when they sent him away to live with the only man who claimed to be able to handle him, his uncle

"Neil" Avni called "Can I do anything"
"Just hold me" he paused "Please, you're the only one that can even begin to take it away"
She lifted him up, pulling him toward her, he sat between her legs, his head on her chest as she hummed softly

He could smell the alcohol and leather now, it made his chest tight and breathing seemed almost impossible.

He was that young boy again, he had never felt like a man, because men dont get raped, they fight back, they are strong, but he wasn't.

As if understanding his inner turmoil, Avni kissed his forehead
"None of this is your fault, its his, for doing what he did to you, you were a child, he stole your childhood away from you, how can you ever be at fault for being a child who wanted to live and be free" her voice broke partway through as she rocked him backwards and forwards slowly

No one tried to mess with him when he was suited up in his expensive blazers, shirts and trousers.
He was no longer that young boy who seemed to innocent, and if he believed his clothes could protect him from the innocence that had been stolen.

Then that is what he would believe.

Because he was dressed like a man now, no longer dressed like a young weak boy

His cold exterior would keep any bad away, because this time he was a man and no one tested men, but it didnt keep away the nightmares.

Because he could still feel the weight of his uncle's body against his

He could still feel his grabby hands all over his writhing body

He could still feel his breath against his neck

He could still taste the alcohol on his uncle's breath against his chapped lips

He could still feel the belt rubbing against his wrists as it held his hands away from trying to fight back

"Can you sing to me Avni" he sniffed, gripping onto her like his life depended on it

And his life did depend on it

She gulped, her voice shaky as she sang

"Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay"

He thought he would be over this by now, but he wasnt, he was still that little boy craving for someone to save him, someone to listen, someone to believe

"There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard, at the end of the day"

Every day was an ongoing battle, most couples had made love by now, even had children yet just kissing her was difficult.

She would never hurt him, but all he ever saw was those nights.

"I need some distraction
Oh, beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins

And maybe empty
Oh, and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight"

He just wanted to be free from it all, to not have to think of the pain for just a moment.

"In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here"

Those nights alone, shivering under the cold shower, scrubbing at his body. Scrubbing and scrubbing till he bled, till his skin burnt so much he couldnt feel any of it anymore

"So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back

The storm keeps on twisting
Keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack"

Avni rubbed his back as she sang, holding him to her so fearful he would slip away

She had seen pain in his eyes before, but never this look of emptiness, and it scared her, terrified her in fact that he would give up fighting and shrink into a shell of his former self

"It don't make no difference
Escape one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness
Oh, this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees"

She prayed he would just stay with her, just hold on. She would never leave his side, she would protect him.

"In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here"

"I want to shower" he spoke, pulling away
She let go weakly, she really didnt want him to be alone

"Ill be right here, okay"
He nodded and walked to get some clothes

XXX

Neil walked out of the bathroom, his creamy white long sleeved top clung to his wet body.
His eyes still a dark red, he shoved his hands into the pockets of his grey jogging bottoms

Avni stood up slowly "Coffee" she asked
He nodded

She felt so helpless, she had no idea what she could do to save him, to take this away

She moved to the kitchen, his footsteps tred softly behind her as she tried to focus all of her concentration into making the drink

She turned and put the coffee beside him, he looked down

Why wasnt she talking to him? Was she embarassed?

Would she be disgusted if he was to ask her to hold him, because he wanted to be held by her.

He stretched out his arms toward her, she moved quickly, wrapping her arms around his waist, digging her face into his chest.

"Oh Avni" he whispered into her hair
She didnt want to cry infront of him, but she couldnt stop herself

For so long he had dealt with this pain alone, now she was with him, he would never deal with it alone.

I hope this chapter wasn't to heartbreaking.
Please remember, rape isnt ever the victims fault, no matter the gender.

The reason I wrote this story was because I feel like rape as a topic, especially rape when a male is a victim isnt talked about as much as it should be

There is still a long way to go for Neil and Avni to try and overcome this, I hope this chapter turned out better than expectations

And again, let me know your thoughts

Much love