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@Subiaman

Hi, I wanted to reply in the morning before I leave home but I couldn't as my appointment was nearing so I had to wait till I get back home to complete typing it😊

Now you sweetly made it seem like I'm biased😆! I don't blame you if you feel this way or anyone else for that matter because I knew my post would give that impression but believe me if Avni was facing the same and I felt it wiped all what Avni as a person was/is I would have reacted the same way. If my focus these days was on Neil, it's simply because he is the one who is the target.

See I always try to see things from different angles and I kind of focus on the point which is the bone of contention, I try to understand why and if in real life it can happen. I was lately reading some scientific researches on the feeling of guilt.

And yes I question Neil Khanna's actions and reactions and yes many times as a woman I feel revolted why would I deny it. I said it I am a woman as well and yes the first time that OLV about him leaving the altar was out, my first reaction was how could he?! with a twinge in my heart but then I decided to not comment till I see how things unfold.

Avni!!!, does this lady deserve anything but cheer and undiluted happiness!❤️ I mean the amount of pain she went through in her life and which started since she was a child, is something that not anyone can take without completely crumbling down and losing all hope in life, relationships, and even the willingness to live in such a world full of cruelty. I didn't watch the show pre-leap yet with the little I know I admire this girl and I'm actually impressed to say the least. I mean how does she even do it?!! From where does she draw that strength that after falling down in some of the worst ways, she gets up and fights back with the same ferocity as if nothing happened. How many atrocities she faced in her life! The childhood where children are carefree, leaving all the responsibilities on elders and just enjoying their time in their small world of innocence, where there is nothing but joy, happiness and playfulness, that childhood which is a right to every child, was something Avni didn't have the luxury to have! She was her mom's support system, when you usually expect the mother to be the one supporting her children, soothing their pain, discarding the fears from their hearts, bringing them the practical and emotional support, here we had a reverse role, Avni was the one who used to sing her mother lullaby and tried and strived to give her rights as a wife and by the same way Avni tried to achieve the dream of the happy family she wanted. I know I don't know the entire details, so no matter what I would say here I won't be able to depict things and give Avni justice, but I know she tried to get her parents married and her dad left in the middle of rasams and never showed up till everything has finished, in other words he abandoned Ayesha and Avni leaving them with broken hearts. That was Ayesha and Ashish equation still, but what would kill you is the way a father could publicly refuse to recongnize his child who was waiting there with those big shining eyes finally expecting her dad to take pride in front of the whole society of her being his daughter, it was like she was waiting for him to validate her existence, I watched that scene and that big smile of Arsheen and then how that brightness of those eyes which were moist with hope exintinghised under the shock she received. Her eyes were filled with tears, tears of disappointment, of sadness as the feeling of rejection was sinking in, nothing can be more painful than being rejected by your loved ones, feeling that you wasn't worth it enough for them to stand by you and say a word of truth for you. To top it all, a father could actually suspect his daughter of murder woh bhi the murder of her own mother and he sent her to jail, I mean when I first heard this and watched the show where he told her that now he thinks what was between him and her mother was a mistake as they got a daughter like her!! I mean a child of 12 years old hearing this, not only her dad refused to recognize her but he is believing she is a monster and that she could kill her mom, the mom she was trying to make happy all this time, the mom she was taking pride in having her name Avni Ayesha, anyone I won't talk about Ashish but Avni yaar I don't even know how many traumas she went through, one single one of this traumas is enough to send you to an asylum especially given the fact that she is not an adult, the scars left by childhood experiences never go away, you can overcome things if you are grown up but when you carry a wound bleeding from childhood you definitely won't be able to completely be over it. I mean yes you will understand things and even try to forget but the bitter feeling associated with that would still be there and now I remember Avni's dialogue to Neil when she told him that her wound is still hurting, that does he think she doesn't feel pain now (it was the scene in their bedroom during Ali's kidnapping track). These were not the only atrocities she faced, she tried to win her grand mother's love and affection but she was humiliated and tortured, locked up in a dark room with all kind of insects, if a grown up person can't stand then you can only imagining how traumatizing that may be for a child. Yet this child had hope always, tried to do everything to give her mom respect in society I heard she tried to release a film on her parents' life but she had to face another loss, her mom who died and her brother who was snatched from her. And then she discovers that the grand-mother she is trying to win over has killed her mother!! The girl still didn't break, she fought to get evidence and get her mother murderess arrested and she even succeeded, I mean you would wonder how could a child of 12 years do all this, it was clear since then that she was an exceptional person, she was like no other, but that child had to be once again face another disappointment as the system she expected to give her justice was the exact system which was doing her injustice and as if all this wasn't enough, a child had to face death getting shot but none other than her own grand-mother. A bundle of joy full of life, optimism, intelligence, with a spark had to face all these things and guess what she still had her never die attitude, her love for her brother was a catalyst that helped her to move on and she grown up to be this beautiful strong determined bindas lady don, she was case 123, she is a vigilante! I mean indeed she is one of a kind! This beautiful soul had though the clouds of revenge controlling her mind, she hated men, she hated the system, and why can anyone blame her, she has everytime faced injustice and disappointment from her loved ones and from the system which she trusted once. Once trust is broken it's hard to getting it back.

This lady nevertheless met that man, she didn't like him at the beginning, she thought he was hampering her plans, an annoyance! but what she didn't know is that this man was her soulmate, the one who taught her how to love, he saved her from a dark fate and he mended her broken heart. He gave her back hope in love, in the system and gave her a new desire to live her life, no wonder in today's episode she gathered the courage to tell him what he means to her and the impact he had on her life, I was flabbergasted when she told him to choose her! Wow!! I mean sweetheart no woman can hold a flame to you, you should never be in a position where someone should choose you! Still I liked the fact that she didn't want to sacrifice her love, she loves him and even if Juhi is his first love and might be a good person she wants him to choose her! I liked that, finally the girl started thinking of herself, of what she really wants!

She told him she wants to spend the rest of her life with him and she wants to have a happy family with him!! But look at kismat's irony!! She had to get a shock; one would wonder why this beautiful soul can't have an undiluted happiness, Neela's fears were on the spot. Why even when Avni gets happiness she gets it mixed with pain. When Neil finally heard the words he always wanted to , he had to break this news to his lady love, a news which definitely broke her heart, she must have felt that she lost him! But he assured her that no, while people might find it insensitive on his part, I would still say that I respected the honesty, unlike other shows where the girl learns from other sources and ends up misunderstanding, but by GOD that was heart wrenching, she was innocent, she had her eyes full of hope, that beautiful face looking at him and proposing him, a woman who tried to overcome all her fears, all her pain, to forget all her disappointments and God knows how much difficult was that, that girl had that one moment which is supposed to be one of the best moments of her life poisoned with the bitter truth of her husband's past! I felt like crying, my heart went totally to her! And guess what I still admire her! she decided to stay beside him, despite his past, she took the decision immediately, not even time to overcome her pain, her shock, she loves him this much!!! And I'm also happy that he gave her the choice if she wants to stay with him or not, he knew it's not something easy to accept and even she didn't he wouldn't have blamed her!

So Bottom line is I feel bad for AvNeil especially Avni, I mean look at the kismet ka khel!! I told Shonali that I hoped after DVM's track to see Avni happy, very happy. I wanted him to shower all his love on her to pamper her, to focus his full attention on her, to make her forget all the pain she went through, sure she is a person who doesn't ask for much she just wants his love and his saathi but this woman as I said deserves to have undiluted happiness and she deserves to be the priority in someone's life. I don't doubt his feelings for her, nor his intentions, I understand him and his situation by GOD it isn't easy at all, the way he is also, Shweta explained that one of the main purposes in his life is to help bebaas and lachar people but yes he will face the music and even symphonies if he leaves her at the altar because it's opening an old wound of Avni plus the embarrassment, it's definitely something extremely painful and hurtful, I have no doubt about his good intentions though, Juhi didn't have an accident, she tried to commit a suicide which means she can repeat the attempt once again, she needs not only psychiatric help but also someone she trusts to persuade her, people might not agree with me as they would imagine it out of question for a lover to run and leave his love there without even an explanation which is highly wrong but I still think that no one knows how people might react in real life, I wouldn't accept it, (the explanation part at leadt should be there for me), no woman would, it's something hard to digest but objectively if you consider human psychology and the thought the person might have had of the situation at that moment you might understand, understanding doesn't mean agreeing but we are human beings, and there is no one more complicated than human beings! Is it fair to Avni, No! Is Neil answerable Yes! Does it mean he doesn't love her No!

Yet I would still say that I love their love story, I love it a lot and guess what today's episode made me even love it more, people might be all shocked at Neil being the father even I wished he was not, even I wished the first time for him to be with Avni as well as the first child but yaar their honesty, understanding and love for each other is something I respect despite all this! And to tell u the truth despite it not being something I wanted because not only I'm an AvNeil shipper but also a romantic at heart but still my logical self thought of it as a possibility because the show's name is Naamkaran, and it would be logical that the Naamkaran would be related to the main protagonists and not to someone else. So far the way the story was told is convincing to me, AvNeil's equation is still the same to me, it even gained another feather today not because the child is his, but because the beauty of the episode, the love, the acceptance and even Shweta's scene, (was Neil full of admiration to case 123 before meeting her, or was it when he suspected her to be Ananya Varma, anyways he loved her even when he was treating her as a case, he spent hours at night studying the case, smiling!) I also respect CVs for sticking to their vision and not changing anything under any pressure, story if messed up with then inconsistency starts and story goes for a toss!

I thought Neil would be the kind of guys who would wait till after marriage, I mean I thought rules for him include social/religious rules as well and not only law's but seems he had no problem since he was in love and sure of his relationship.

About the child, I don't know, if Juhi spent 5years in the brothel how come the child is also 5years, it should be younger, she should be normally pregnant in her first months when she was kidnapped! Anyways Naamkaran and even other shows are never consistent with age, timing...let's just hope characters and story are good

Anyways enough of my bak bak, I don't know people might not understand me, usually I try to understand and see things from different angles and I try to never be hasty with my opinions, feelings are something which is not easily controlled but at least I can allow my thoughts to make me see sense. I hope I succeed at achieving this even in my real life.

P.S : Ignore typos

ETA: Obviouly CVs might have a surprise of the baby not being his but if Juhi is positive and not lying then she took the rape baby as Neil's but she should think of the possibility of the child not being Neil's even if she thinks she supposedly conceived the baby right before her being kidnapped! Moreover in all cases the child can't be 5years old. Last option is Juhi lying but Neil not denying means he used to get intimate with her anyways!

Another question if the child is Neil's why Juhi was begging him this much, I mean it would be his obligation to look for the child if it's his not a favor!

Many questions are there if we don't take things at face value

Let's see what they show. Personally till now and even if I take things at face value, the story and AvNeil still hold my interest.