Sajan os: Pehla Nasha

Sajan os: Pehla Nasha

I would like to dedicate this os to my di, fauzia di, happy birthday di, love you loads 😳

[The story is naraated from the speaker's point of view. The text in black is told from Gunjan's point of view]

It was so dark. I was suffocating but nobody bothered to look at me. I was thrown in some corner of the room. I could hear voices; it took me sometime to recognize her voice. It's been a long time since she spoke to me. I often missed her; I missed being her best friend; I missed being her confidante; I missed being her life. Slowly my dark clouds started disappearing. I thought she was looking for me. I longed to feel her touch once again. I saw her fingers approaching towards me but my happiness was short lived. "What was that?" I questioned myself. I felt heinous pain on my body. There was so much burden upon me. I was about to cry. Before I could burst out I felt her touch on my body. She had a golden touch just like the king of England who cured many diseases with his spiritual powers. I started to breathe. I felt myself being carried in her arms to some familiar place. She placed me down and I fell with a "thud." I was heartbroken upon seeing her neglect me again. How could she do this to me? Once upon a time I was her best friend and now she doesn't even care to look at me. But hey! Hold on! I felt something soft and soothing on my body. I saw her wiping my body with a cloth. She took me to embrace and carefully admired me. I could sense her happiness and pride on having me back in her life. She handled me carefully. I missed this care and affection of hers. It was so warm and loving. It made me forget all my worries. She was, is and will always be my lady angel.

She slowly explored my body. Her soft touch sent shivers inside me. Her sweet fragrance spread all over my body. It was so addicting, I was completely lost under her effect. Maybe it is this fragrance of hers that kept me alive all the months I spent in solitude. She ran her fingers over me in nostalgia. I could feel the warmth of her wide smile over me. I could understand all her moves; after all we spent many phases of our life in each other's company. I knew every bit of her life. She would share everything with me. I knew her in and out. I was lost in the thoughts of my only friend and best friend in the world when I felt the most heavenly touch on me. I was waiting for this peace and contentment from the past few months. I was so incomplete without this touch. She found the address of a lost home. This house missed her presence; it missed her spontaneous chatters, missed her cribbing, missed her melodious voice, missed her never ending gossips, missed her warmth, and missed her blush. She was the only one who added life to this house, decorated it with all sorts of stuff and lived each moment to the fullest only in this place. To the world she is an introvert, a shy and reserved girl, a total geek but with me she was just the opposite. She would unleash all her traits only in front of me whom she considered her life.

We met almost every day, she would just barge into this house with some complaint about someone and that would give rise to our chain of conversations which didn't seem to have an end. We celebrated every occasion together; we had such wonderful time with each other. Suddenly she stopped visiting me. I stopped hearing her voice. I was almost a lifeless soul. I couldn't do anything. My mind was filled with queries. Soon I became past for her. I was lying in some draw in her room collecting dust. That was when I realized I was nothing more to her than a diary.

I felt the nib of the pen moving continuously on my pages. Man! This girl is in love. No wonder she forgot me all these months. I didn't grumble anymore after I found out that she was in love. I was looking forward to listen to her story. I patiently allowed her to talk to me. I was curious to know what happened. How it happened? Who was that guy? For heaven's sake speak up girl, I'm dying to listen to you.

"Pehla nasha, pehla khumar

Naya pyaar hai, naya intezaar

Karlu main kya apna haal ae dile bekaraar

Tu hi bata

Pehla nasha, pehla khumar"

I'm in love, I'm in love, and I'm in love.

Her words kept echoing my ears. The happiness behind those words was so evident. She continued,

Samrat Shergill- that name made her blush the deepest shade of red. I never knew that I would see my best friend blush this way only at the mere mention of a guy's name OOopppsss not any guy- he is the love of her life. She continued her story and I was listening enthusiastically.

Samrat Shergill I love you like I love no one before. You complete me, without you I don't exist. I still remember the day I first saw you. I was 9 and you were 11. I was on the swing and you were playing basket ball with your friends. I was going home and suddenly your ball hit me. I hurt myself badly and tears rolled down my cheeks making my angelic face apple red. When your friends started laughing at me, you came like the shining armour of the night. You apologized to me and I was happy to listen to your apology. When your fingers were moving towards my face to wipe my tears I was terrified. Before you could do anything I ran and buried my face in my mom's pallu who had come to pick me. After that day I never thought about you. I had completely forgotten you until that day'

I need peace; I wanted some time in solitude. I visited that place often. It gave me the best memories of my solitude. I was sitting on the rocks near the lake. This place didn't exist for the world but it did for me. This place was somewhere in the middle of the woods. It was pretty safe so I wouldn't hesitate to come here. Being so close to nature filled a sense of completeness inside me. I was trying to drift my mind away from the world into a place only where god existed; which was the place l wished to go in solitude. I heard the trees dance to the music of the breeze; I could see dry leaves somersaulting; I could hear the melodious chirping of the birds; I could smell the sweet fragrance of the flowers; I could see the reflection of the sky kissing the earth in the pure water of the lake. I felt nature kiss my body and was lost in an angelic world. I couldn't stop myself from spreading my melodious voice and entertain Mother Nature. I started humming and after a while I heard the guitar play. My voice synchronized with the tune of the guitar. I sang to my heart's content. Slowly the day light faded and it was time for me to return home. This continued for many days. I used to sing and somebody played the guitar for me. One day I heard that person sing along with me. His voice was melodious. The feelings behind his voice were so deep. I was falling in love with this alien. It was foolish of me for loving someone whom I never met, never spoke, never saw. But I was helpless. One day I demanded to meet him out of anxiety. There was no reply. I went home disappointed. Few days later I found some manly figure sitting on my usual place. I kept staring at him. I was lost in his hazel brown eyes, they were deep and mysterious like the universe, and they had some spark in them like the shining stars. His hair made me go weak on my knees. I saw him walk towards me. He flashed a smile. I was lost. His voice stopped me from dreaming further.

Guy: hi

Dreamily I replied to his 'hi'

I realized what was happening and tried to act normal instead of going gaga over this handsome guy in front of me. On further investigation I found that he was the same guy who played the guitar every day. It was this unknown guy with whom I was falling in love. He was Samrat Shergill. We had become good friends. Now I would visit the woods almost every day. I loved spending time with him. This continued for some years. We became the best of friends. The moment college would end I would rush into the woods to meet him. I would tell him everything. He knew my deepest fears and desires. He knew me in and out. We would sit on the rocks for hours together and for me time would stop. I could just see him during those few hours and nothing else. One day during one of our conversations I found that he was the guy who came like a savior in my childhood. He was the one who forwarded his hands to wipe my tears, I was so elated upon hearing that and after that day our bond grew stronger.

The finest memory of that place was that of Dec. 25^th, 2012. That day the surroundings near the lake were unusually beautiful. I could see candles lit all over, rose petals were laid on my path. My dream date was coming true. I saw a table set for two. The moon light and the light of the stars added to the romantic aura of the night. Nature was the sole witness of what was happening. By now I had realized my feelings for Samrat. I knew he felt the same for me. I could picturize the happenings of tonight. He stood in front of me; he held both my hands and placed them close to his heart. I could feel my heart beat increasing. Out of nervousness I bit my lower lip and downcast my eye brows. He pulled my hands towards his lips and kissed them gently. My hands shivered at the touch of his lips. He looked straight into my eyes and said.

S: shona I'm not one of those guys who know how to express their feelings. I don't have any flowers; I don't have a gift or card, neither do I have chocolates. All I have is my love. I know it sounds cheesy but this is the fact. It is said that "truth is beauty, beauty is truth." Shona the truth is I love you and I can make this love beautiful only if you reciprocate. Shona do you love me?

I shrugged my shoulders not knowing what to say. I bit my lower lip and tears were ready to flow from my eyes. I was quiet and preferred to remain silent and looked down.

S: shona look into my eyes. Shona please look at me.

I looked into his eyes only to find my reflection in them.

S: I love you shona

I hugged him tightly. I couldn't speak anything because I felt so many inexperienced emotions. I broke the hug and looked into his eyes and said "I love you" and hugged him passionately. He took the guitar and started singing,

"I just want to tell you all the things you are
and all the things you mean to me
you've been with me forever
through the changes in my life
through all the tears and laughter

When I find myself believing there's no place to go
When I feel the loneliness inside my heart

You're the answer to my prayers
And you're with me everywhere
You're my angel, miracle, you're all I need tonight
Give me shelter from the rain
You breathe life in me again
You're my angel, miracle, you're all I need to know, tonight"

We danced. I rested my head on his chest and we kept dancing. There was no end to this feeling. Love is the most pure emotion that one can experience in a life time.

Do you need to see that person to fall in love? Do you need to talk to that person to fall in love? Do you need to meet that person to fall in love? Do you need to spend time with that person to fall in love? Do you need to know every minute detail about that person to fall in love? NO, NO, NO!

If you say I talk to that person all day so that's the reason I am in love because I can't live without talking to that person, this isn't love; it's just your need. Love is that emotion which is not based on any reason; it's not based on any condition; it doesn't need any base or structure to develop. Love' you experience this emotion for a person because of some unknown quality in them; something in them pulls you towards them. Crushes, infatuation, attraction are misunderstood as love. These feelings are not love. Love is an ardent emotion. When you fall in love it's not necessary that you hear violins playing in the background; it isn't even necessary that you get everything. Love is that emotion which makes you a better person. When you're in love you have the strength to face every situation, you don't act like a pessimist, you try to be strong, and you try to handle every rejection with a smile carved on your lips. When you're in love you become selfless. You don't expect anything in return for all the love you give. When you're in love you will not have sleepless nights, instead the day you fall in love you will experience the best sleep ever and every day after that. You will smile if your love is happy; you're hurt if there are thorns in the life of your love, you will stop feeling restless with one glimpse of your love. You will not die if you don't have your love with you, instead your love will keep you alive, and it will encourage you to lead a happy life because love is the path to happiness. The first thing you'd do in the morning is praying for your love before you pray for yourself. There are so many inexperienced emotions and inexperienced moments in life. The story of our life is re-written with this emotion called love. You just need to find the right person because without the right person who will be your soul mate the purity of this emotion will disappear. That one right person is necessary to make life beautiful. You keep saying "I love you" more than 100 times in a day, it may sound very irritating and annoying for the people around you but only your love will understand that the depth of the feelings behind those words increases with every I love you. You can fight with that person, tell that person whatever you want, do everything, being totally yourself and that person will accept you the way you are, that person wouldn't want to change anything about us and unknowingly our soul mates love will help us convert our weakness into strengths. We forget our big fat ego with all the love we receive from our soul mates and live each moment from our heart. When two soul mates meet they do not fear death. This is because they live each day like there is no tomorrow and after you find your soul mate none of your wishes are left unfulfilled. Actually your desire to fulfill your wishes will fade away because with your soul mate beside you, you don't feel the need for anything else in this world. Human love is polluted, but the love between two soul mates is divine and divine love is pure, it's selfless. I heard people saying that love is blind; I didn't really understand why they said so. Love can never be blind, when a person experiences this emotion that person starts looking at things he/she once ignored; that person looks at the world with a positive attitude, that person looks at things from a different point of view, that person can see only happiness around, that person can see their soul mate even in darkness, that person can see the whole world near them. A person who was once self-centered starts including everybody in their world, their small world becomes big. When all this happens how can people term love as blind? Love can never be blind; love brings light into your blind life, blind thoughts, blind beliefs, and blind morals. Love helps us see in the right direction, it helps open our eyes.

Did I ever tell you that I hate this emotion called love? But today after I heard what my best friend told me I wish to experience every bit of it. This girl is really lucky, for this emotion is a part of her life. May god bless her and her love. Hey! I heard some unknown voice. Who was that? Oh my gosh it's Samrat, my best friends love, her soul mate. Please, please move aside girl I want to have a look at him. Awww he's so cute, he's dead handsome exactly like she described him. He's hugging her so possessively. They look so cute together. May their love last forever. Oooppss I forgot to mention the name of my best friend. She's Gunjan Bhushan and he's her love Samrat Shergill. Gunjan has to answer many of my questions. She'll have to pay for ignoring me all this while. Samrat is holding her in his arms, I see a glint of mischief in their eyes, and I better leave them alone. Let these two have some privacy. They look amazing together. They are Sajan- an epitome of sacred love.

"aseem gehraiyon ko chum lena

Bandh ehsaason ka zindagi mein dastak dena

Dil karta hai der saari baatein

Hulchul machti hai

Bechaini hota hai

Sachai ke raaste ko apnana hai

Kissi ke bina zindagi adhuri lagti hai

Dukh ke sagar ka khali padh jaana

Khushiyon ka sagar mein paani bharna

Asmaan ki unchaiyon ko chuna

Har ek pal mein swarg ka mehsoos hona

Maut ki na koi chinta

Judai ka na koi darr

Phirse milne ki chahta

Phirse judne ki umeed

Maye rishton ko apnana

Sabki khamiyon ko undekha karna

Andhere mein roshni

Akelepan mein kissi ka saath

Jhum ut the hai zindagi ke sapne

Iss pyaar ke ehsaas ko mehsoos karte karte"

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