Originally posted by: -FlameOfHope-
Heya! I am back. I was so late. I am sorry, again. And let me go about the usual style of reviewing.
Selecting parts...
Like always, my hands and feet were bound, but this time, they didn't hurt at all. It was as though it were customary. But maybe it was because I felt blank.
The binding of hands and feet may be are his thoughts. Sometimes, thoughts thought about in our head all the time become so familiar that the next time you think about it, it seems not unusual but constumary. This especially happens with those painful thoughts, with me.
But somehow, pain was compensated with this time by the extreme weight upon my shoulders, as though somebody had given me the load of all the responsibilities and pressure of the whole of mankind to carry upon them.
Weight upon the shoulders, umm... may be it is the responsibilities as Ranveer said. As you grow older, don't they say that responsibilities grow too. And here, Ranveer was facing a difficult time - Ishaani, studies. Also, the hopes of his parents on him. So, it must be the responsibilities only.
I felt my body keep hitting against some kind of invisible barricade that kept me away from the reach of Love. I did not like the barrier; it gave me a vibe of being kept away from Love for something I didn't like doing in the first place.
Keeping away from Ishaani. Wasn't he doing that?
It was not just familiarity from the previous times when Love did it, but also from someone else... someone who I could not place in that moment.
Ishaani?!
"You didn't return after that night... I just thought..." I mention awkwardly as she now ruffles my hair playfully. This felt familiar again...
It's Ishaani who always ruffles his hair, isn't it?
I just wanted to feel happy. And only Love could do it.
Only with Ishaani does Ranveer's happiness lie and vice versa. So, proved. Love = Ishaani.
"I was with you all the time... you know it too," she tells me finally, her scrutiny upon me in spite of the mist between us.
Ishaani was with Ranveer all the time and he knew it, too.
"Well, isn't that why we're here?" she questions me, her tone suddenly amused. I crunch my eyebrows at her in bewilderment as I can feel beads of sweat now rolling down my forehead.
"Now what's that supposed to mean, really?" I retort instantly, my mind suddenly distressed. As expected, the bonds got tighter again, but I was still in control of them.
Hmm, does Love mean to say that they were there to find answered to Ranveer's latest predicament and Ranveer doesn't get her question when she asks about it.
"Why are you so mysterious and terrifying? Why are you my friend in one minute and my foe in the next?" I ask her unconsciously, not realizing that I'd let my thoughts slip into words. But now that I did ask her, I wanted some answers.
"You gave me the name," she replies swiftly once again, this time her tone sincere. "I define what I am known for. It depends upon how you view me. And right now, you aren't viewing me in any good light," she adds mysteriously, and I can feel my head spin now.
Ah! The final nail to the coffin. Love, the emotion is reckless. It is the most sweetes thing once and the bitterest one the next moment. Love, the mystical figure is also like that. Even Ishaani is also, the same. Ranveer's best friend once and his ex-bestfriend the next.
"So you're a mirror of my emotions?" I ask her, my senses suddenly sharp even though the sunlight was blaring my vision of what little the mist let me see of Love.
"No, the biggest one you feel. Your emotions are what tie you down; your feelings, where you find yourself to be," replies Love, but her voice felt as though it was coming across from a great distance.
The biggest emotion which Ranveer feels is love. So, wait, Love is a mirror of Ranveer's love!
Ishaani and I may have our issues, but no one, NO ONE, is allowed to make her cry.
Aha! I love this possessiveness. What is love without possessiveness?
I think Ishaani and I were this close to bitching about them together when we realized that we were no longer on talking terms.
IshVeer are awesome, always. Forgot about their issue! And were close to bitching about the kids who wanted them to patch up and tried it.
It's as though there's an invisible barrier between us that obstructs my way... I cannot reach her and I've shut the door of my mind, heart and soul to her as well.
This is like the barrier between Ranveer and Love. Where he can't cross it, only Love can. That's why she comes to caress his cheek.
Second chances... do they even exist? People say that life always gives us a second chance, but no, it doesn't. It. Just. Doesn't.
Do you believe in second chance, LM? I do. Because I feel that they exist but I have always believed that the second chance us never the same as the first.
Again, this is one helluva update! Love returns back. To help Ranveer find his way back in life and find his direction. And I have noticed that Love comes back only when there is some gap between IshVeer and there has been a disaster in Ranveer's life. Like ein the second case, Ishaani and Ranveer never talked and just sat in silence. In this case, they never talked, too.
Does this add up to something?
Love,
Poplu.