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so voila all ready for you
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Chapter 6
Suddenly, moments of his past flash before his eyes...with every memory his anger shot up...every thought...every moment...everything coming back. Dutta gets off the swing and hits a pole. What the hell was he thinking...how could he let it go this far...
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Dutta jolted away from the swing as he thought over the nights happenings, his thoughts...his thoughts about Naku. He turned with a jerk to face the greenary in the area. He closed his eyes shut and brought his hands to his head. Placing each hand just above the ears, he held his head as if trying to stop the thoughts going on in his head. He shook his head from side to side, as if trying to shake his thoughts out. It was hopeless. The more he tried the more he remembered. He began cursing himself 'how could you let Naku in...how could you forget it all...what were you thinking...become friends...friends? Idiot...' Dutta thought to himself. Although the intention was for them to become just friends...something unexplainable existed, something more, some sort of natural pull and Dutta had acknowledged that. He could feel himself getting lost in her, unwillingly, so naturally. It just happens. The more he thought about his feelings from the nights events the more he cursed himself. His anger was slowly reaching extreme heights. He starts having flashes of his dance with Naku. His hold on her, her captivating eyes, those alluring lips, there was something in that moment, that prevented him from letting go. His firm grip, he lost himself in her completely. How? Why? He couldn't make any sense of it. He was beginning to get frustrated, his anger was shooting higher. Suddenly his mind travels down another path. A blast from his past. Supriya comes to mind. Her smile, their moments, the day he lost her, the day his world crumbled down to the floor. As those moments ...images...flashed before his eyes, he felt himself get angry, at himself, at his fate, at god...
Naku came out of her dreamland when she suddenly heard a loud, thump sound from outside. She got up and made her way to look outside when she sees Dutta. He seemed fired up. As soon as she saw him she knew something was wrong, something seemed off. She could see some storm was brewing. She focused her attention on his every move. His expressions, body language, it was all unfamiliar to her. A side of him that she's never seen, he looked angry, but why? His frustration...anger was clear. Naku watched on with much concern and worry, but there was another feeling emerging. The more she watched him the more she felt scared. When she saw Dutta turn away and hold his head, her heart thumped. As she saw him shake his head, side to side, vigorously. As if feeling everything he was. She wanted to stop him. Her feet reacted to her hearts beat, the initial intinct to be there for him. Her feet lead her to where he was. She started increasing her pace down the stairs and was almost running out the door. Her feet halt when she sees Dutta, standing facing away from her. She slowly approached him and saw him life his head up towards the sky, in despair. Watching his every move, Naku felt a shiver down her spine, yet she wanted to hold him, to calm him. The fear she felt was maybe a little for herself but more for him. It killed her more to see him so worked up. Naku reached out and placed a hand on his shoulder, hesitantly. Upon feeling her touch, Dutta's head jerks down. He knew exactly who it was and this wasn't the time. He really didn't want to face her, but it was her stupid idea and talks that brought him here. He comes out of his thoughts and jerks his body in her direction her causing her to spring a few steps backwards. As they came face to face, their eyes lock. His blood shot eyes told her that she shouldn't say a word. She knew he was in some distress, but she feared the anger. That stare...the look...those eyes were enough to send shivers. Dutta knew if a single sound escaped her mouth, he would explode. As he looked in those green eyes, he saw the fear within them, but he also saw the concern. Her innocence was something known to him, he knew of her intentions, he didn't seem to find the words to say, and he didn't want shout. He stared in her eyes, still showing his anger. In that moment Naku realized that this sudden, abrupt mannerism must be from the night's events. Naku remembers Dutta's words after marriage "I loved someone before, I gave her my heart, and I never got it back. I can never love anybody the way I loved her, this marriage was only for my family" and then she remembers the feeling she got from the dance. There was something there...something brewing. Dutta shut his eyes to break the moment and stormed off from there. Naku's eyes follow his figure and watch it fade into the distance as he leaves the premises of PN. For the first time in her life, Naku's heart sank. She felt a single tear escape her eye and she thinks about everything from the moment they met to right now.
Sethji had watched the whole thing from a far and the minute Dutta left he came towards his sister and placed his hand on hers. She looked down at him and plastered on a smile. "I saw everything Tayi" Sethji said as Naku let out a pained sigh. "But why are you crying?" he asked a bit confused as with his eyes all he saw was the abrupt behavior. "He didn't say anything to you ...so then?". Naku shook her head in negation "Mujhe nahi pata..." Naku let out a deep sigh "I don't know why ...I really don't know...why do I feel this way suddenly...why do I feel that the moment he took me in his hold, everything fell into place...I felt in that moment he is my destination...this exactly where my life was meant to be. Why sethji why would I think such a thing when I know there's no chance...when I know that he doesn't want any such relationship...when I didn't even want this relationship...what changed...how did it change...why???" Sethji sat silently listening, he felt she needed to vent to clear her mind. "how can I do this...friendship?" she smirked "what was I thinking...that I would become best friends with my husband and expect not to fall in lo..." she stopped speaking as she realized her feelings were more...way more ...and she had in fact accepted him as her husband, that image of him was always there...she masked it with friendship, but she had accepted it the minute he married her...she just didn't know it then. He was a stranger come friend but somewhere deep inside he was imprinted as hers because they were hitched. Sethji smiles and is now well aware that Naku has realized she loves Dutta...everything they've been through since marriage brought them together and has managed to leave a lasting impression on both. He decides to leave Naku to her thoughts and collect herself. Naku sat there trying to make sense of how it happened...when it happened. Naku speaks out loud to herself "I'm smiling thinking of you but when I think of us ...that smile fades...mujhe nahi pata ke abh mein kya karoon...
Next morning Naku was up and about early. She couldn't sleep all night for two reasons. Her discovery of her own feelings for Dutta and the fact that he never came back from where ever he went last night. The only reason she was calm was because she had sent Baaji out looking for him and Baaji had messaged her saying all is fine and that they will be home in the morning. Naku's mind was only in thoughts of his reaction to the nights events..the look he gave her...those eyes that held so much pain from his past which was almost haunting him now, whatever happened had really left it's mark on him. There was guilt in his eyes as if someone was watching over him and holding him back from even thinking to move on...the hurt ...anger...there was so much in those eyes before he walked off. How could she not think about what condition he may be in. Naku tried to keep her mind occupied by doing some random house work, but nothing worked she couldn't stop thinking about him. Naku headed to the kitchen to make everyone's morning cup of tea...
Dutta and Baaji walk in throught the main entrance of PN. Dutta walks ahead of Baaji in a very bold manner. He is about to head to the stairs when both of them jerk their heads towards the kitchen area as they hear a loud shriek sound and some smashing sounds. Dutta's immediately thought about Naku and his feet within seconds ran in the direction with Baaji following behind. Both halt at the doorway of the kitchen when they see pot of water splashed on the floor, and Naku jumping around wiggling her hand in the air as she winces in pain. Dutta's eyes immediately catch a small burn on the surface of her hand, Dutta's feet springs to Naku and without uttering a words he drags her towards the tap and runs her hand under cold water. Naku shocked with his gesture feels a sudden sense of relief with his presence, his touch. The burn was no longer existent to her. Baaji goes to turn the stove off and picks up the pot from the floor. He turns to see Dutta's concern ridden face and smiles slightly watching him. Naku watches Dutta's face and feels her heart flutter, as if she could see there was something there for her in that moment...he was there for her...concerned for her. Dutta could sense the two pairs of eyes looking at him and suddenly releases his hold on her hand. He stops what he was doing and turns around while avoiding looking in Naku's direction. Feeling the sudden cold air that slipped between the space he created between them, Naku looks disappointed. Both remember last nights events and then Dutta authoritively gestures Baaji to help her and he barges out of the kitchen. Naku is left staring after Dutta as his figure fades away while Baaji went to grab the first aid kit. He comes back to see Naku standing staring into the empty hall. He reaches out to her shoulder causing her to come out of her thoughts. She gives him a pained smile. Baaji gestures her to towards the counter as he sets the kit on top of it. Baaji pulled out the ointment, opened the lid and squeezed it into Naku's good hand. She slowly spread it over her small burn as Baaji watched her. "Naku don't worry everything will be alright..." Naku smiled "and I'm talking about you and Bhao..." Naku looked at Baaji blankly. "He just needs time to be able to move..." Baaji stopped as he didn't know if Naku knew anything or not...Naku finished off with spreading the ointment and looked at Baaji "Move on ...forget that love that seems to be torturing him now?" Naku stated unsure what to think. Baaji nodded agreeing."Baaji can I ask you what exactly happened...I mean I know he loved someone but what happened between them?" Baaji looked at her aprrehensively of her situation. He figured it is something she had the right to know...and maybe it would be better if she knew exactly what happened. She would be able to understand Dutta better. Baaji smiled and gestured her to follow him.
They both went out to the garden and sat down. Baaji took his seat beside Naku and started his narration..."You already know that we moved to USA after the loss of a loving husband and father, we needed a change in location to adjust to the change, a life without him. We didn't know for how long we were going, when we'll come back...but we knew that AS needed to leave to get over it and we needed to get away from the memories" Naku listened keenly. One of AS's friends had offered to let us stay with them. We arrived at the airport that day, who knew that day would change Bhao's life forever, our lives forever" Baaji stared into oblivion as he spoke, remembering that day. AS's friend had came inside to receive us. We all greeted her and followed her out to their car. Just as we arrived at the car, from the opposite side a girl stepped out" Baaji turned to look at Naku "Supriya" Naku lowers her eye brows as Baaji continues "that day, nothing sparked between them, they just got introduced and that was that" Baaji turned to look forward "but as we were living in their house, it was inevitable that they ran into each other often. They had soon become friends. The more they spent time together the more they started feeling something for the other" Naku listens and remains calm on the outside, although she was feeling a stinging feeling on the inside, listening to Baaji's words. "Eventually they moved out of the friendship zone and started to date.I wouldn't say they were a match made in heaven, they were just a normal couple. Had their fights, flaws, but always managed to make up. They were together for 2 years before Bhaoproposed to her. Both families were happy for them and there were no problems." Baaji pauses. "So then what happened between them?" Naku asked curiously. "You said there were no problems with the families, and they were also good together...then what changed?" Baaji let out a sad smile "I guess what was meant to, happened. They got engaged, fixed the wedding date but fate had another plan all together and stepped right into thier lives" Naku looks on, Baaji continues "and forced them to separate". Baaji paused as he remembered that horrible day, where everything went down the drain. "Forced?" Naku prompted to get him to continue speaking. Baaji turned to face Naku. He knew from the look on her face, she was still confused and unsure what to think. He let out a sigh "Vahini, the got into a car accident" Naku's eyes widen as she's sure this car accident is a major part to the story. But it had confused her more as to how it relates and why they separated. "They were going shopping and about few hours after they left we got a call informing us of the accident. Some drunk driver ran a redlight causing that car to collide with Bhao's. It had hit the passenger side with full force and speed. We had gone to the hospital immediately and found out that both of them were unconscious from the site of the accident. After a long time, the doctors had told us Bhao was stable but Supriya..." Baaji's voice faded out as he looks away for a moment. Naku couldn't believe what she was hearing, she was begining to get scared to hear the rest of the story. Her mind was now thinking if something happened to Supriya. Baaji turns back towards Naku "Supriya's condition was getting worst. The doctors suggested that Supriya be shifte to their other hospital which was bigger. We had immediately agreed to that and had her shifted. AS and I stayed back with Bhao, who regained conciousness 8 hours after the shift was made. As soon as he became aware he was in the hospital. his first intinct was about Supriya. We told him that she was in another hospital and her condition wasn't looking good. Bhao had created chaos trying to convince everyone to let him go so he could see her. We managed to calm him down for the night and the doctors gave him a medication to sleep. If I had known, then, that they will never meet again, I would've asked the doctors to make arrangements to shift him there too, but what happened was unexpected" Baaji stops as he hears Naku's voice "don't tell me she..." Naku couldn't finish. Baaji nodded "She died that night, we found out, from her dad, when Bhao called him the next morning to inquire about her status. The worst part here was that her parents were saying words that they shouldn't have, but it was understandable saying that they just lost their daughter" Naku looked on "What did they say?" Naku questionned. "Bhao had told them that he will make arrangements to come and they had at that point cracked. They yelled saying that it was his fault and had he been more careful it wouldn't have happened, their words are truly what impacted Bhao the most. They had put it in a way that he felt they were right. They ended the call telling him never to come before them. This day had not only broke Bhao but had changed him forever, to a person who went into a shell. He was in depression, he excluded himself from us, from the world. He began drinking carelessly, doing things that can endanger his life...it was when everything seemed to be reaching it's peek that AS had decided to bring him back here. He was a little better but still in his shell, slowly I had brought myself to come back into his life and slowly we started seeing a somewhat more normal Bhao. It took a lot of effort and lectures to get him to live a little. He started to keep himself ...his mind occupied with work. It did sort of work, but we still never got that Dutta that once existed back, the one who was living in the moment, very down-to-earth. AS was really worried for him and after months of coaxing, she finally got him to agree to get married and thats where you came in" Baaji finished as he watched Naku's upset expression and welled up eyes. After minutes of silence, Naku spoke "I didn't think she left like that" implying that she was unaware the girl had died. "But his feelings I guess I can understand why he is having trouble letting go of that past" Baaji looked at her questionningly "he never got that closure he needed, he never go to see her, let out his thoughts, and to top it all off I guess that phonecall just added more fuel to the fire...but I can tell he is really hurt by everything that's happened in his life" Naku's eyes trail to stare into oblivion as she felt her heart sink thinking of everything. Baaji watched her expression "Vahini, this much I can tell you, he does feel something for you ...I can see it...there is something between the two of you that I never once saw with supriya" Naku turns to look at Baaji. "You know Baaji, I never wanted to get married, but I never like anyone, it was just a personal decision. When I got married I wasn't ready for anything, but somewhere along the line I had accepted him as my husband" Baaji lips curve into a slight smile hearing this. "I can't help but feel his pain, looking in his eyes it's like I can go straight into his heart and see the pain" Baaji nods as if agreeing "and I think Bhao has acknowledged that, he probably fears what he feels, sees with you. I guess what you said is true eh" Naku looked at Baaji confused, still holding her upset expression. "When the hero gets pained the heroine can feel it" Baaji lets out a small smile trying to lighten the mood a bit. Naku to smiles. "Vahini just give him sometime, he just needs to think over everything with a clear mind again. He needs to realize that you're here to stay and he needs to accept that and realize your worth" Baaji gets up and stands to face Naku "Everything will be alright...just give it some time...be patient he will come around, but do remember there is something there between the two of you that even I can't explain" Baaji was about to walk off when he turned back around "continue to put the ointment on until it has healed, good thing the burn isn't too bad" Naku looked at her hand remembering burning it and then looked at Baaji and nodded. Baaji smiled and walked off as Naku turned to stare into black space.
The day was coming to an end and both Naku and Dutta had avoided each other completely. Both had found it difficult to stop thinking about the other. Dutta went to work to avoid coming face to face with Naku. He came home eventually, but went straight to his office area and worked. While Dutta kept his mind occupied with his work, Naku was having a hard time to even stop herself from thinking about him for even a second. The night was growing, AS and Baaji had headed to bed, while Naku remained in the dinning area. She was hesitating to go up. Finally she decided she would just go up and let what ever is meant to happen, happen. Naku who was still lost in thoughts and quite worn out, approaches the top of the staircase and the door to the room. She sees that Dutta was not around and goes to lay on the bed. She couldn't get herself to sleep so she lay down awake, thinking over Dutta's situation, her situation...their situation.
Dutta on the other hand, went down to the bar to avoid facing Naku. He figured he will go up once she is asleep. He decided to pour himself a glass and with each glass his past and present flashed in his mind. His thoughts were alternating suddenly between Supriya and Naku. Going back and forth. Thinking of every moment he had with each of them. The more he remembered, the more confused he...which caused more pain...and lead to make him drink more and more. He was heading to a level of intoxication where even he would no longer have control of himself. He thought about the accident the last face he saw of her smiling at him while both were talking about what they need to buy. He then remembered the accident, waking up, the phone convo and his anger made him drink more. As he thought of all this suddenly he remembers getting married, his first night with Naku where he made that curtain, they way they were awkward. He then remembers that simple conversation that had made his heart feel lighter, after years he felt truly normal. To anyone who knew how Dutta was before marriage would've definitely seen how it was so effortless. Her words creating some magic, her presence, her being. There was definitely something there. Some ease, some comfort, the way her words played on his heart strings. He unconsciously smiles thinking about Naku. There was something that striked their two hearts and binded them almost immediately. Whether they recognized or not a connection was made, a sense of belonging was established. Dutta was by this point, over the top drunk. He smiles as his mind remains in thoughts of Naku. He get himself to stand with great difficulty, and makes his way up to his room as he stumbles and has trouble balancing himself. He walks to his door and pauses looking in the room as his eyes meet Nakus who was now sitting up on the bed. She to turns to see him as she feels his gaze. She see's he is having a hard time standing and her feet automatically take her towards him. As she approaches, Dutta suddenly has a smile on his face. She realizes he is drunk and directs him to get some sleep. As she helps him he stares at her. His eyes said so much and his heart felt so light with her there. Naku holds him by the arms and Dutta places his one arm around her shoulder to help steady himself. As they move towards the bed, Dutta stops in his tracks causing Naku to stop too. She looks at him silently and notices something different in his eyes. A sense of comfort, relief, and if she didn't no any better she would even say affection and appreciation. She gets lost in him as he gazes into her eyes. "Naku" his lips utter. Naku's heart skips a beat with his tone, there was so much affection there."Ajeeb hai...kuch sochu to tera khayaal aa jata hai, Kuch bolu To tera naam aa jata hai, Kab talak byan karun dil ki baat, Har saans me ab tera ehsaas aa jata hai.. " [note: I didn't write this, found on the net... ]. Naku looks at Dutta shocked but strangely it really sent her heart racing in happiness. "When I come before you, see these green innocent eyes, hear that sweet soothing voice, feel that positive vibe...some strange feeling sparks..." Naku listening suddenly realizes that he is drunk and most likely what ever he is saying, he is not realizing it. "Aap hosh mein nahi hai...get some sleep and we can speak in the morn..." before she can finish Dutta removes his hand off her shoulder and stand to face her as he places a finger over her lips "Ssshhh..." he sounded as Naku looks up surprised at his behavior, she sees his eyes travel around her face and his lips crease into a smile...has anyone ever told you, your lips are petal soft...and your eyes damn anyone would drown in them...Naku feels herself go warm to the cheeks and decided to step away from Dutta. She tries to move when he grasps her wrist. "where are you going..." Naku stands at a loss for words. Thier eyes lock in that moment and both get lost in another world. Dutta inches forward as Naku backs up towards the bed.
Tanhayee ...
Dil Ke Raaste Mein,Kaisi Thokar Maine Khaayi...
Toote Khwaab Saare Ek Mayusi Hai Chhayi...
Har Khushi So Gayi Zindagi Kho Gayi...
Tumko Jo Pyaar Kiya Maine To Saza Maine Paayi...
Tanhayee...
Milo Hai Faili Huvi Tanhayee
Tanhayee...
Khwaab Mein Dekha Tha Ek Aanchal Maine Apne Haatho Mein...
Ab Toote Sapno Ke Shishe Chubte Hai In Aankhon Mein...
Kal Koyi Tha Yahin Ab Koyi Bhi Nahin...
Ban Ke Naagin Jaise Hai Saason Mein Lehrayi...
Tanhayee...
Palko Pe Kitne Aansoon Hai Laayi
Tanhayee...
Dil Ke Raaste Mein,Kaisi Thokar Maine Khaayi...
Tanhayee...
Suddenly, moments of his past flash before his eyes...with every memory his anger shot up...every thought...every moment...everything coming back. Dutta gets off the swing and hits a pole. What the hell was he thinking...how could he let it go this far...
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Dutta jolted away from the swing as he thought over the nights happenings, his thoughts...his thoughts about Naku. He turned with a jerk to face the greenary in the area. He closed his eyes shut and brought his hands to his head. Placing each hand just above the ears, he held his head as if trying to stop the thoughts going on in his head. He shook his head from side to side, as if trying to shake his thoughts out. It was hopeless. The more he tried the more he remembered. He began cursing himself 'how could you let Naku in...how could you forget it all...what were you thinking...become friends...friends? Idiot...' Dutta thought to himself. Although the intention was for them to become just friends...something unexplainable existed, something more, some sort of natural pull and Dutta had acknowledged that. He could feel himself getting lost in her, unwillingly, so naturally. It just happens. The more he thought about his feelings from the nights events the more he cursed himself. His anger was slowly reaching extreme heights. He starts having flashes of his dance with Naku. His hold on her, her captivating eyes, those alluring lips, there was something in that moment, that prevented him from letting go. His firm grip, he lost himself in her completely. How? Why? He couldn't make any sense of it. He was beginning to get frustrated, his anger was shooting higher. Suddenly his mind travels down another path. A blast from his past. Supriya comes to mind. Her smile, their moments, the day he lost her, the day his world crumbled down to the floor. As those moments ...images...flashed before his eyes, he felt himself get angry, at himself, at his fate, at god...
Naku came out of her dreamland when she suddenly heard a loud, thump sound from outside. She got up and made her way to look outside when she sees Dutta. He seemed fired up. As soon as she saw him she knew something was wrong, something seemed off. She could see some storm was brewing. She focused her attention on his every move. His expressions, body language, it was all unfamiliar to her. A side of him that she's never seen, he looked angry, but why? His frustration...anger was clear. Naku watched on with much concern and worry, but there was another feeling emerging. The more she watched him the more she felt scared. When she saw Dutta turn away and hold his head, her heart thumped. As she saw him shake his head, side to side, vigorously. As if feeling everything he was. She wanted to stop him. Her feet reacted to her hearts beat, the initial intinct to be there for him. Her feet lead her to where he was. She started increasing her pace down the stairs and was almost running out the door. Her feet halt when she sees Dutta, standing facing away from her. She slowly approached him and saw him life his head up towards the sky, in despair. Watching his every move, Naku felt a shiver down her spine, yet she wanted to hold him, to calm him. The fear she felt was maybe a little for herself but more for him. It killed her more to see him so worked up. Naku reached out and placed a hand on his shoulder, hesitantly. Upon feeling her touch, Dutta's head jerks down. He knew exactly who it was and this wasn't the time. He really didn't want to face her, but it was her stupid idea and talks that brought him here. He comes out of his thoughts and jerks his body in her direction her causing her to spring a few steps backwards. As they came face to face, their eyes lock. His blood shot eyes told her that she shouldn't say a word. She knew he was in some distress, but she feared the anger. That stare...the look...those eyes were enough to send shivers. Dutta knew if a single sound escaped her mouth, he would explode. As he looked in those green eyes, he saw the fear within them, but he also saw the concern. Her innocence was something known to him, he knew of her intentions, he didn't seem to find the words to say, and he didn't want shout. He stared in her eyes, still showing his anger. In that moment Naku realized that this sudden, abrupt mannerism must be from the night's events. Naku remembers Dutta's words after marriage "I loved someone before, I gave her my heart, and I never got it back. I can never love anybody the way I loved her, this marriage was only for my family" and then she remembers the feeling she got from the dance. There was something there...something brewing. Dutta shut his eyes to break the moment and stormed off from there. Naku's eyes follow his figure and watch it fade into the distance as he leaves the premises of PN. For the first time in her life, Naku's heart sank. She felt a single tear escape her eye and she thinks about everything from the moment they met to right now.
Us ko mera halka sa ehsaas to hai
be-dard sahi woh mera humraaz to hai,
woh aaye na aaye mere paas lekin,
shiddat se mujhe uska intezar to hai,
abhi nahi to kya hua mil hi jaayegi kabhi,
mere dil mein usse milan ki aas to hai,
pyaar ki gawahi mere aansuon se na maang
barasti nahi aankhien magar dil udaas to hai'''!!
Sethji had watched the whole thing from a far and the minute Dutta left he came towards his sister and placed his hand on hers. She looked down at him and plastered on a smile. "I saw everything Tayi" Sethji said as Naku let out a pained sigh. "But why are you crying?" he asked a bit confused as with his eyes all he saw was the abrupt behavior. "He didn't say anything to you ...so then?". Naku shook her head in negation "Mujhe nahi pata..." Naku let out a deep sigh "I don't know why ...I really don't know...why do I feel this way suddenly...why do I feel that the moment he took me in his hold, everything fell into place...I felt in that moment he is my destination...this exactly where my life was meant to be. Why sethji why would I think such a thing when I know there's no chance...when I know that he doesn't want any such relationship...when I didn't even want this relationship...what changed...how did it change...why???" Sethji sat silently listening, he felt she needed to vent to clear her mind. "how can I do this...friendship?" she smirked "what was I thinking...that I would become best friends with my husband and expect not to fall in lo..." she stopped speaking as she realized her feelings were more...way more ...and she had in fact accepted him as her husband, that image of him was always there...she masked it with friendship, but she had accepted it the minute he married her...she just didn't know it then. He was a stranger come friend but somewhere deep inside he was imprinted as hers because they were hitched. Sethji smiles and is now well aware that Naku has realized she loves Dutta...everything they've been through since marriage brought them together and has managed to leave a lasting impression on both. He decides to leave Naku to her thoughts and collect herself. Naku sat there trying to make sense of how it happened...when it happened. Naku speaks out loud to herself "I'm smiling thinking of you but when I think of us ...that smile fades...mujhe nahi pata ke abh mein kya karoon...
Next morning Naku was up and about early. She couldn't sleep all night for two reasons. Her discovery of her own feelings for Dutta and the fact that he never came back from where ever he went last night. The only reason she was calm was because she had sent Baaji out looking for him and Baaji had messaged her saying all is fine and that they will be home in the morning. Naku's mind was only in thoughts of his reaction to the nights events..the look he gave her...those eyes that held so much pain from his past which was almost haunting him now, whatever happened had really left it's mark on him. There was guilt in his eyes as if someone was watching over him and holding him back from even thinking to move on...the hurt ...anger...there was so much in those eyes before he walked off. How could she not think about what condition he may be in. Naku tried to keep her mind occupied by doing some random house work, but nothing worked she couldn't stop thinking about him. Naku headed to the kitchen to make everyone's morning cup of tea...
Dutta and Baaji walk in throught the main entrance of PN. Dutta walks ahead of Baaji in a very bold manner. He is about to head to the stairs when both of them jerk their heads towards the kitchen area as they hear a loud shriek sound and some smashing sounds. Dutta's immediately thought about Naku and his feet within seconds ran in the direction with Baaji following behind. Both halt at the doorway of the kitchen when they see pot of water splashed on the floor, and Naku jumping around wiggling her hand in the air as she winces in pain. Dutta's eyes immediately catch a small burn on the surface of her hand, Dutta's feet springs to Naku and without uttering a words he drags her towards the tap and runs her hand under cold water. Naku shocked with his gesture feels a sudden sense of relief with his presence, his touch. The burn was no longer existent to her. Baaji goes to turn the stove off and picks up the pot from the floor. He turns to see Dutta's concern ridden face and smiles slightly watching him. Naku watches Dutta's face and feels her heart flutter, as if she could see there was something there for her in that moment...he was there for her...concerned for her. Dutta could sense the two pairs of eyes looking at him and suddenly releases his hold on her hand. He stops what he was doing and turns around while avoiding looking in Naku's direction. Feeling the sudden cold air that slipped between the space he created between them, Naku looks disappointed. Both remember last nights events and then Dutta authoritively gestures Baaji to help her and he barges out of the kitchen. Naku is left staring after Dutta as his figure fades away while Baaji went to grab the first aid kit. He comes back to see Naku standing staring into the empty hall. He reaches out to her shoulder causing her to come out of her thoughts. She gives him a pained smile. Baaji gestures her to towards the counter as he sets the kit on top of it. Baaji pulled out the ointment, opened the lid and squeezed it into Naku's good hand. She slowly spread it over her small burn as Baaji watched her. "Naku don't worry everything will be alright..." Naku smiled "and I'm talking about you and Bhao..." Naku looked at Baaji blankly. "He just needs time to be able to move..." Baaji stopped as he didn't know if Naku knew anything or not...Naku finished off with spreading the ointment and looked at Baaji "Move on ...forget that love that seems to be torturing him now?" Naku stated unsure what to think. Baaji nodded agreeing."Baaji can I ask you what exactly happened...I mean I know he loved someone but what happened between them?" Baaji looked at her aprrehensively of her situation. He figured it is something she had the right to know...and maybe it would be better if she knew exactly what happened. She would be able to understand Dutta better. Baaji smiled and gestured her to follow him.
They both went out to the garden and sat down. Baaji took his seat beside Naku and started his narration..."You already know that we moved to USA after the loss of a loving husband and father, we needed a change in location to adjust to the change, a life without him. We didn't know for how long we were going, when we'll come back...but we knew that AS needed to leave to get over it and we needed to get away from the memories" Naku listened keenly. One of AS's friends had offered to let us stay with them. We arrived at the airport that day, who knew that day would change Bhao's life forever, our lives forever" Baaji stared into oblivion as he spoke, remembering that day. AS's friend had came inside to receive us. We all greeted her and followed her out to their car. Just as we arrived at the car, from the opposite side a girl stepped out" Baaji turned to look at Naku "Supriya" Naku lowers her eye brows as Baaji continues "that day, nothing sparked between them, they just got introduced and that was that" Baaji turned to look forward "but as we were living in their house, it was inevitable that they ran into each other often. They had soon become friends. The more they spent time together the more they started feeling something for the other" Naku listens and remains calm on the outside, although she was feeling a stinging feeling on the inside, listening to Baaji's words. "Eventually they moved out of the friendship zone and started to date.I wouldn't say they were a match made in heaven, they were just a normal couple. Had their fights, flaws, but always managed to make up. They were together for 2 years before Bhaoproposed to her. Both families were happy for them and there were no problems." Baaji pauses. "So then what happened between them?" Naku asked curiously. "You said there were no problems with the families, and they were also good together...then what changed?" Baaji let out a sad smile "I guess what was meant to, happened. They got engaged, fixed the wedding date but fate had another plan all together and stepped right into thier lives" Naku looks on, Baaji continues "and forced them to separate". Baaji paused as he remembered that horrible day, where everything went down the drain. "Forced?" Naku prompted to get him to continue speaking. Baaji turned to face Naku. He knew from the look on her face, she was still confused and unsure what to think. He let out a sigh "Vahini, the got into a car accident" Naku's eyes widen as she's sure this car accident is a major part to the story. But it had confused her more as to how it relates and why they separated. "They were going shopping and about few hours after they left we got a call informing us of the accident. Some drunk driver ran a redlight causing that car to collide with Bhao's. It had hit the passenger side with full force and speed. We had gone to the hospital immediately and found out that both of them were unconscious from the site of the accident. After a long time, the doctors had told us Bhao was stable but Supriya..." Baaji's voice faded out as he looks away for a moment. Naku couldn't believe what she was hearing, she was begining to get scared to hear the rest of the story. Her mind was now thinking if something happened to Supriya. Baaji turns back towards Naku "Supriya's condition was getting worst. The doctors suggested that Supriya be shifte to their other hospital which was bigger. We had immediately agreed to that and had her shifted. AS and I stayed back with Bhao, who regained conciousness 8 hours after the shift was made. As soon as he became aware he was in the hospital. his first intinct was about Supriya. We told him that she was in another hospital and her condition wasn't looking good. Bhao had created chaos trying to convince everyone to let him go so he could see her. We managed to calm him down for the night and the doctors gave him a medication to sleep. If I had known, then, that they will never meet again, I would've asked the doctors to make arrangements to shift him there too, but what happened was unexpected" Baaji stops as he hears Naku's voice "don't tell me she..." Naku couldn't finish. Baaji nodded "She died that night, we found out, from her dad, when Bhao called him the next morning to inquire about her status. The worst part here was that her parents were saying words that they shouldn't have, but it was understandable saying that they just lost their daughter" Naku looked on "What did they say?" Naku questionned. "Bhao had told them that he will make arrangements to come and they had at that point cracked. They yelled saying that it was his fault and had he been more careful it wouldn't have happened, their words are truly what impacted Bhao the most. They had put it in a way that he felt they were right. They ended the call telling him never to come before them. This day had not only broke Bhao but had changed him forever, to a person who went into a shell. He was in depression, he excluded himself from us, from the world. He began drinking carelessly, doing things that can endanger his life...it was when everything seemed to be reaching it's peek that AS had decided to bring him back here. He was a little better but still in his shell, slowly I had brought myself to come back into his life and slowly we started seeing a somewhat more normal Bhao. It took a lot of effort and lectures to get him to live a little. He started to keep himself ...his mind occupied with work. It did sort of work, but we still never got that Dutta that once existed back, the one who was living in the moment, very down-to-earth. AS was really worried for him and after months of coaxing, she finally got him to agree to get married and thats where you came in" Baaji finished as he watched Naku's upset expression and welled up eyes. After minutes of silence, Naku spoke "I didn't think she left like that" implying that she was unaware the girl had died. "But his feelings I guess I can understand why he is having trouble letting go of that past" Baaji looked at her questionningly "he never got that closure he needed, he never go to see her, let out his thoughts, and to top it all off I guess that phonecall just added more fuel to the fire...but I can tell he is really hurt by everything that's happened in his life" Naku's eyes trail to stare into oblivion as she felt her heart sink thinking of everything. Baaji watched her expression "Vahini, this much I can tell you, he does feel something for you ...I can see it...there is something between the two of you that I never once saw with supriya" Naku turns to look at Baaji. "You know Baaji, I never wanted to get married, but I never like anyone, it was just a personal decision. When I got married I wasn't ready for anything, but somewhere along the line I had accepted him as my husband" Baaji lips curve into a slight smile hearing this. "I can't help but feel his pain, looking in his eyes it's like I can go straight into his heart and see the pain" Baaji nods as if agreeing "and I think Bhao has acknowledged that, he probably fears what he feels, sees with you. I guess what you said is true eh" Naku looked at Baaji confused, still holding her upset expression. "When the hero gets pained the heroine can feel it" Baaji lets out a small smile trying to lighten the mood a bit. Naku to smiles. "Vahini just give him sometime, he just needs to think over everything with a clear mind again. He needs to realize that you're here to stay and he needs to accept that and realize your worth" Baaji gets up and stands to face Naku "Everything will be alright...just give it some time...be patient he will come around, but do remember there is something there between the two of you that even I can't explain" Baaji was about to walk off when he turned back around "continue to put the ointment on until it has healed, good thing the burn isn't too bad" Naku looked at her hand remembering burning it and then looked at Baaji and nodded. Baaji smiled and walked off as Naku turned to stare into black space.
The day was coming to an end and both Naku and Dutta had avoided each other completely. Both had found it difficult to stop thinking about the other. Dutta went to work to avoid coming face to face with Naku. He came home eventually, but went straight to his office area and worked. While Dutta kept his mind occupied with his work, Naku was having a hard time to even stop herself from thinking about him for even a second. The night was growing, AS and Baaji had headed to bed, while Naku remained in the dinning area. She was hesitating to go up. Finally she decided she would just go up and let what ever is meant to happen, happen. Naku who was still lost in thoughts and quite worn out, approaches the top of the staircase and the door to the room. She sees that Dutta was not around and goes to lay on the bed. She couldn't get herself to sleep so she lay down awake, thinking over Dutta's situation, her situation...their situation.
Dutta on the other hand, went down to the bar to avoid facing Naku. He figured he will go up once she is asleep. He decided to pour himself a glass and with each glass his past and present flashed in his mind. His thoughts were alternating suddenly between Supriya and Naku. Going back and forth. Thinking of every moment he had with each of them. The more he remembered, the more confused he...which caused more pain...and lead to make him drink more and more. He was heading to a level of intoxication where even he would no longer have control of himself. He thought about the accident the last face he saw of her smiling at him while both were talking about what they need to buy. He then remembered the accident, waking up, the phone convo and his anger made him drink more. As he thought of all this suddenly he remembers getting married, his first night with Naku where he made that curtain, they way they were awkward. He then remembers that simple conversation that had made his heart feel lighter, after years he felt truly normal. To anyone who knew how Dutta was before marriage would've definitely seen how it was so effortless. Her words creating some magic, her presence, her being. There was definitely something there. Some ease, some comfort, the way her words played on his heart strings. He unconsciously smiles thinking about Naku. There was something that striked their two hearts and binded them almost immediately. Whether they recognized or not a connection was made, a sense of belonging was established. Dutta was by this point, over the top drunk. He smiles as his mind remains in thoughts of Naku. He get himself to stand with great difficulty, and makes his way up to his room as he stumbles and has trouble balancing himself. He walks to his door and pauses looking in the room as his eyes meet Nakus who was now sitting up on the bed. She to turns to see him as she feels his gaze. She see's he is having a hard time standing and her feet automatically take her towards him. As she approaches, Dutta suddenly has a smile on his face. She realizes he is drunk and directs him to get some sleep. As she helps him he stares at her. His eyes said so much and his heart felt so light with her there. Naku holds him by the arms and Dutta places his one arm around her shoulder to help steady himself. As they move towards the bed, Dutta stops in his tracks causing Naku to stop too. She looks at him silently and notices something different in his eyes. A sense of comfort, relief, and if she didn't no any better she would even say affection and appreciation. She gets lost in him as he gazes into her eyes. "Naku" his lips utter. Naku's heart skips a beat with his tone, there was so much affection there."Ajeeb hai...kuch sochu to tera khayaal aa jata hai, Kuch bolu To tera naam aa jata hai, Kab talak byan karun dil ki baat, Har saans me ab tera ehsaas aa jata hai.. " [note: I didn't write this, found on the net... ]. Naku looks at Dutta shocked but strangely it really sent her heart racing in happiness. "When I come before you, see these green innocent eyes, hear that sweet soothing voice, feel that positive vibe...some strange feeling sparks..." Naku listening suddenly realizes that he is drunk and most likely what ever he is saying, he is not realizing it. "Aap hosh mein nahi hai...get some sleep and we can speak in the morn..." before she can finish Dutta removes his hand off her shoulder and stand to face her as he places a finger over her lips "Ssshhh..." he sounded as Naku looks up surprised at his behavior, she sees his eyes travel around her face and his lips crease into a smile...has anyone ever told you, your lips are petal soft...and your eyes damn anyone would drown in them...Naku feels herself go warm to the cheeks and decided to step away from Dutta. She tries to move when he grasps her wrist. "where are you going..." Naku stands at a loss for words. Thier eyes lock in that moment and both get lost in another world. Dutta inches forward as Naku backs up towards the bed.
To be Continued
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