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OK.. here is the Raja-titli second version..
(In the first version... at https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/kuch-toh-log-kehenge/3626056/raja-titli-version-1 .. Ashutosh happened to be an ideal one.. or is he ideal here.??!!..š)
The long drive from the medical camp is tiring... quite disturbed to see the TB spreading so fast... Ashutosh thought, I need to visit them often...
Mallika is telling me random things... about the TB, about some old memories... caught one or two words here and there... but couldnt concentrate...
What this uncertainity? why I am so restless? because of the suffering in the village?? no.. that may not be the reason... it is not today... I am like this for the past few days... Unable to think anything straight... I was never like this... I get seriously confused whenever I remember that pair of dark eyes ... My mind is racing against all those journals and articles that I have read and published...
Nothing I can conclude at this stage... Only in few occasions vision affects like this... it should be the loss of brain cells causing a stroke or even Alzhemiers... but she seems to be not more than 25 years old... curious... do youngsters get such diseases? some thing like early ageing like Amitabh in Paa?
Hey! stop, I am thinking like a lay-man... let me lower the glass.. let me get some fresh air... the air is moist still...it should soothen my over active brain and uncertain senses...
Mallika is asking me, whether I will drop her... caught the request second time... only when she slightly raised her voice... I glanced at her... she knew that I am not here... her questioning look is mixed with concern.. but desperate at the same time... to know where I am... I dont know Mallika... why I am failing to come to a conclusion... Kotnis is some distance away... my concious brain is concentrated on the driving... the unconcious part has drifted to find the reason... I need to fathom it... my own work schedule is crippling me...
What if she is suffering from the brain tumors, that can press the nerves and affect the vision ... vaguely... the active brain is nudging me and telling me that I know the reason... where is it pointing me?
We have almost entered into the city... city is withdrawn into the calmness of the night... the long shadows cast by the roadside trees are taking me into the long lost story world of my childhood ... the King within his fort... just like me... just wanted to hog the light outside... desperately wanted to come outside into the warmth... wanted to come out from dark... but engulfed in his self cast exile... longing for the divine intervention... looking for a ray of hope... light... and hey! king heard the butterfly... At once.. it dawned upon him.
At once..dawned upon me...suddenly the flash bulb is switched on in my own brain... I know what those eyes are saying...I am impatient now... to reach Kotnis... strange!! what a change!!! always I preferred the solitude of my study room... I am striding towards the array of lights... The parking area is glowing brightly... I think Archimedes was like me when he shouted 'Eureka'...
Again, I saw the question in Mallika's surprise... she is wondering..what must have happened to me... where I am hurrying... No Mallika!! I need to confirm once with my notes... let me find out the reason before the damage goes permanent... let me find my titli who has enlightened the king...
Mallika is staring at me now... her gaze is almost piercing me... I know, she is internally dying to know the reason...
For a moment I thought she would follow me... must stop her... how to do it??...
"Mallika, I need to freshen up a bit"... Good!! that halted Mallika in her tracks...
Why I am avoiding her? ... I could have easily shared with her... she has always offered her help... No...NO!!! not now!!! she can make me miserable with her own twelve year old fundamental theories... I need check whether it is a genetic disorder or the inflammation in the brain...
No Mallika!!! dont be there!!! for once, I want to succeed here... I need clear thinking here... I need to do this alone...
Why I am bothered about Mallika at all.. She had seen me fail many times... in the Anatomy lab... while identifying the most obvious symptoms of cancer... and my patients on the operation table!!!!
But is it the same now? I am damn sure that my instinct about Nidhi's symptoms are hundred percent correct... wait!! what about new-age theories? do these younger researchers have comeup with the same meaning for what see in her eyes? I need to know... how will I know??... no ... not Mallika... I cannot ask her... she is against youngsters as a matter of rule...
Still I have another bug gnawing me relentlessly... now, how to convey my fears to Nidhi... how best I can handle this situation...
PS: I am guarantee about the sada hua anda and tamatar from both doctors and non-heartstone friends alike... so bhagooo...
but, but, I think this could be one reason why the heart-stone Ashutosh has lied to Mallika about wash room while seeking Nidhi in the Raja-titli story...
(Anjani9... I am sure you wont ask me anything after this......atleast you cannot expect something different from Mudra... after all!!!)
or jutha,
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
Mannat Har Khushi Paane Ki
Udne Ki Aasha
