Dear Devil

So today we saw a small titbit. We don't know how exactly it's going to be imbibed into the story. Hardly a 10 second scene where Sonakshi is standing in front of Ishwari Nivas holding days old Suhana in her arms. A scene from the past that would be shown to us in the near future.

Now we can successfully conclude that Sonakshi did make an attempt to contact Dev after Suhana was born. She brought the baby along with her. Although we can't say yet what made her turn back without meeting him, it is obvious that she initially had no intention of hiding her daughter from Dev. So something happened when she had come. Maybe she heard Ishwari and Mamaji talking about pre-nup or maybe Ishwari saying something bad about Sonakshi. Whatever it was, it hurt her / scared her enough to change her mind and disappear out of Dev's life before he even knew she had come back into it.

Anyway, that is not what I have been thinking ever since I watched that small scene. I am thinking of a woman - heart-broken, her love trampled on, her trust shattered, knowing that her love had resulted in her family being out on the streets, believing that she can never conceive and then finding herself pregnant. She doesn't come back to her husband while she was pregnant. Why?

1. Because he threw her out of his life?

2. Because he accused her of marrying him for money?

3. He and his mother insulted her and her family?

4. He said that she would make a bad mother?

None of the above. She didn't come back during her pregnancy because she knew the risks associated with her pregnancy. Because she knew that she had NO VALUE of her own in that house if she couldn't give Dev a child. Couldn't give Ishwari a grandchild. Both Dev and Ishwari proved that, didn't they? They made it so clear that they might as well have tattooed it on her. What if she went there pregnant and she wasn't able to carry the child full term? So she waited. She went through, what must have been, a painful and stressful pregnancy without making any attempt to contact Dev.

And once the baby was born, she brought that Tiny Miny Khargosh to the baby's father. Knowing that even if she did go there, she would have no value other than the baby's mother. Ghar ki tulsi, tulsi hi rahegi. Ghar ka hissa nahi. Yet she went. Why? Because she knew Dev. Knew how he felt about growing up without a father. Knew that he deserved to know that he is a father. That her baby should know her father.

We talked about ego. How she was so egoistic that she didn't deem it fit to even inform Dev about his child. Now we know that her ego didn't feature in her decision.

We don't know what made her change her mind. But it had to be something strong. Something that made her fear that if she went in, she either wouldn't be welcomed or worse, her baby would be welcomed but she herself wouldn't be.

We questioned her intentions. Why, if she was not ready, did she come to Delhi at all! Why the sudden fear that he would snatch her child away from her. Could be that these two instances are connected. That the one attempt she made to contact convinced her that her child will be taken away from her. Yet after seven years, she is here, in the same city, sharing the same office space with her child's father, making no obvious attempt to hide away her daughter.

If this is not courage, if this is not strength, then I don't know what is!

As the saying goes - Be the kind of woman that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, the devil says, Oh Crap! She's up!

Dear Devil, She is indeed up!

Originally posted by: tia.o

<font size="3" color="#663366">Suvika, I have immense respect for strong women. And Sonakshi is a strong woman. So strong that in spite of receiving the most devastating news of her life when her husband didn't stand beside her because he was busy catering to his mother's tantrums, she didn't break.</font>

<font size="3" color="#663366">How many people we know who could stand up after being broken so many times? What courage it takes to have that kind of strength?</font>

<font size="3" color="#663366">She turned her and her family's life around. Soha was not the reason for her strength, she always had the core strength.</font>

<font size="3" color="#663366">She survived two heartbreaks by the same man for the same reason. Yet she is content with her life, happy in her own way because she found her own happiness. She is not wasting her time blaming people. She is living her life. If that isn't a triumph of her, I don't know what is.</font>

<font size="3" color="#663366">I won't have blamed her if she never contacted Dev or his family. After all they washed off their hands when they were sure that she can't be a mother.</font>

<font size="3" color="#663366">But the fact that, as you said, she gathered her courage once again and made another attempt, makes her a so much better as a person than that family or Dev could ever deserve.</font>