DevAkshi OS ~ Tujhpe marke hi tho, mujhe jeena aaya hai...*requested*
Hey guys - so some of you wanted me to continue my previous story, suggesting it would be nice to see DevAkshi getting back together.
Dedicated to saumiee, WeRockTheWorld - for being my awesome BAE :*
Dedicated to Anu_LoveRain - for being THE best li'l sis - forever Anu !
Dedicated to M.Soni, Monaleojan, gudiyanrani143, dlavanya and kashishbano - I hope you guys like it!
Special dedication to LittleStar108 - for introducing me to this beautiful song - Tere sang yara -which helped me understand a beautiful set of lyrics, accompanied by a soulful tune and got the idea of my title!!
Do not worry - this can be read as a stand alone as well.
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"Yeh lijiye, aapko bas use yeh diet routine follow karwana hai - she will be fighting fit after that, don't worry."
"Dr.Bose, mujhe worry is baat ki nahin hai ki shayad isse woh theekh na ho jaaye - mujhe hi nahin I'm pretty sure everyone out there - they trust you blindly. But aap tho Jhanvi ko jaante hi ho. Woh bohot ziddi hai. Ghar mein kisi ki baat nahin sunti."
I just wanted to say - maa bohot ziddi hain. Ghar mein kisi ki baat nahin sunti.
Oh - tho aapka yeh problem hereditary hai. Don't worry I'll manage.
Sonakshi's lips curved upwards, smiling fondly at the memory.
"Dr.Bose?"
Her eyes turned wistful.
"Haan. Woh - koi baat nahin. Aap bas Jhanvi ko lekar aayiye - I'll handle it."
Jhanvi's mom laughed.
"Is that experience talking?"
"Yeah. Experience."
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"Maa - aap pace kyon kar rahe ho? Mujhe bhi nervous kar rahe ho"
"Kya?! Pa..Mein koi race pace nahin kar rahi. Koi dikh raha hai tumhein mere aas paas - bhaagthe huye? Meri bhi koi umar hai race karne ki? Tum bhi..."
"Maa - race nahin ; pace - matlab aage peeche ghum rahe ho"
"Haan woh tho me.."
Ishwari suddenly ducked and crawled to her bed, jumping and sitting on it immediately.
"Maa - maine dekh liya - tu meri koi bhi baat sunti kyun nahin hai?"
"Hey bhagwan - maine kuch nahin kiya"
"haan - mein dekh raha tha - aage peeche bhatak rahi thi. Tu kya apne aap ko Usain Bolt samajhthi hai?"
"Usa..kaun?"
Dev sighed.
"Koi nahin maa.. mein bas..anyways - aapko ghutne mein dard hai maa - aur zyada stress kyun de rahi hai apne aap ko?"
"Lo aise bte ko kabhi dekhe ho maa? Tu Dr Bose ko ise bhatkane ki bare mein baat kar rahi thi. Woh tho isse bhi buri haalat mein hoti, agar aapko aise dekhthi.."
"Haan, haan pata hai.." Ishwari's face fell momentarily " isiliye tho mein soch rahi thi ki use kaise manaoun"
"Maa - tu bhi naa - bas use dekh ke has de - woh khushi khushi wapas aa jayegi."
Nikki and Riya looked at each other, aghast.
"Bhaiyya, aapne kitne unromantic ho?!! Aise HAS ke koi kisi ko manathe hai kya? Humne tho socha - ki sona di ne aap par kuch tho effect kiya hoga. Lekin yeh tho adverse effect hai. Isse pehle aap kam se kam kuch tho khareedthe the - ab bas HAS ne ki baat kar rahe ho?!"
Ishwari laughed, rolling her eyes.
Dev frowned, glancing at everyone unsure of himself.
"Woh teri jaise nahin hai - ki har kisi baat par dress ya phone chahiye!"
Nikki's eyes widened. Everyone else laughed.
"Haww - katti phir; main aapse na kuch bhi nahin poochongi - Sona di hi meri best friend hai."
"Haan aur woh mujhse bhi zyaada strict hai."
"Aur aapse bhi zyaada fun aur sweet bhi."
Dev narrowed his eyes at Nikki. Nikki smirked.
"Ab aa tu, mere paas, bhaiy.."
"Theekhe, theeke aap donon baad mein ladlo - pehle yeh socho ki Dr Bose ko iss sab ke liye ghar mein hona chahiye - joh currently woh nahin hai." Said Neha, speaking sense amidst the chaos.
"Main keh raha hoon na - use cheezon se pyar nahin hai - woh choti choti baton ki kadr rakhthi hai. Mujhe bhi sikhaya."
Ishwari's eyes momentarily dimmed. Neha noticed it.
"Ma..."
"Bilkul aapki tarah hai woh, maa. Hamesha mujhe bataane ki koshish karti hai ki aap sahi ho."
Her eyes brightened again, eyes brimming with tears of regret and shame for the moment of weakness.
"Haan maa - aur tujhe tho sirf Dr Bose hi handle kar paaye - bhai bhi nahin."
"Aur mujhe sirf tu aur Sonakshi - warna yeh log kya mujhse kuch kehthe hain."
Ishwari nodded shakily, clasping his hand and kissing it.
"Nikki, Riya - tum donon mere saath chalo, mujhe na Ranveer ki birthday ke liye kuch khareedna hai."
"Oooh - birthdays - mean..."
"Shopping!!" they chorused together.
"Haan chalo, chalo" and all three of them exited the room, shutting the door behind them.
"Mujhe maaf kar de."
"Maa.."
"Nahin ..tu mujhe baat karne de.. hum donon ..kabhi kuch kehthe hi nahin hai ..lekin kabhi kabhar bolne aur poochne se man ko chain milti hai ... kabhi kabhi jo hum sochthe hai woh shaayad.."
"Tu abhi abhi woh keh raha tha na ..ki woh tujhe samjha paayi ... tho mujhe bura laga... thodi der ke liye hi sahi ..bura laga .. itni saalon mein jo main..."
"Maa. ..tujh.."
"Dev. Bolne de mujhe. Tujhe .. aur shayad yeh dar, yeh shak thoda hi sahi - hamesha basega. Aur shaayad kabhi nahin badalne waala Dev."
"Lekin mein koshish karoongi, aur samjhoongi. Ek maa ka man khud ek maa bhi samajh nahin paati beta. Uske man mein kya chaltha hai - kyon, kab.."
"Tujhe meri khushi maine rakhtha hai - aur mere liye teri. Phir bhi maine - pata nahi kab itni khudgarz ho baithi. Us bechari ko bhi itna bhala bura kaha."
"Woh bechari tho sirf tumse pyar karti thi - aur kyun na kare - mera beta hai hi itna khoob."
Dev smiled through his tears.
"Aur mujhe bhagwaan se dhanyawaad karna chaahiye - ki usne hamesha tumhara saath diya - sahi raastha dikhaya - yahan tak mere liye - woh .." she choked on her tears.
"Aur tumhari sab kuch cheen li - tum sab ki chehre kaise utar gaye the - maine dekha. Dekha maine, Dev. Aur phir bhi ... darr lagta hai yeh sochke ki shaayad agar Neha nahin bolti tho mein hosh mein bohot der se aati."
Dev looked down.
"Aur tu bhi kuch nahin bolta - bola kar mujhse ... ki maa mein chup chupke rota hoon - aur .. mein samajh bhi nahin paayi - shaayad ki bhi tho - andekha kar rahi thi... us ke aasoon ne bhi asar nahin kiye mujhpe ?"
Dev shook his head furiously, clutching her saree tightly.
"Kaisi maa hoon mein Dev...? ..Ag"
"Maa.. ab kuch mat bol..sab theek hone waala hai - tu kuch.." Dev hugged his mother tightly, shutting his eyes in a strange relief at his mother's words and the feel of her tears soaking through his shirt.
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Sonakshi stepped out from the shadows as she saw Keechu Bhaiyya exiting the Dixit mansion.
Keechu bhaiyya looked around, smiling tiredly as he saw her.
"Auntyji.."
"Maa ji theek hai Doctor didi - woh bas unke ghut..."
"Tu yahan kya kar rahi hai?"
Sonakshi looked up, eyes widening at being caught - fear lacing the dark pools of onyx.
"Woh maa ji.."
"Tu jaa Keechu."
Keechu looked alternatively at the two of them. Sonakshi looked down, thinking of a plausible excuse. He left quietly.
"Tu ne jawaab nai diya mere sawaal ka.."
"Woh ..Auntyji..mei..mein bas..actually ..umm.. Dr Sinha"
"Mujhse nahin pooch sakti thi khud?"
"Huh?" muttered Sonakshi, caught off guard at the question.
"Mujhse - meri tabeeyat ke bare mein - mujhse behtar kaun jaanta hai?"
"Woh ..mai..main aapki phone ..try ..."
"Isiliye tu har din aati rahi, bina kisi ko bataaye, har din - itna sab kuch hone ke baad bhi."
Silence.
Ishwari stepped forward, taking her hands in hers. Sonakshi looked up, her eyes full of wonder and a light of hope shined from the deepest corners of her heart.
"Mujhe maaf kar de."
"Main..ma..tu mujhse nafrat karti hogi na?"
Sonakshi shook her head furiously, tears leaking out of her eyes - smiling, crying at the same time.
"Tu sochti hogi ki is budiya ko hi Dev ki maa honi thi - hame chain se pyar bhi nahin kar ne deti.." asked ishwari holding Sonakshi's chin making her look up.
"Nahin ..nah" she replied, laughing through her tears.
"Main pata nahin.. kuch dikhayi hi nahin diya - mere man mein aisa ...dar lag raha tha mujhe, shak - har buri cheez mere man mein ghus gaya tha - tujhe tho pata tha na - tu ..phir tune kyun nahin kaha - ki mein galat hoon - ki mein sab kuch barbaad kar rahin hoon.."
"Auntyji..aun..aap baithiye..aapke ghutn.."
"Nahin ...mujhe kuch nahin hoga -agar abhi nahin boli - tho dard hoga."
"Aur beta, mujhe pata nahin ki saare dar aur shaq door ho gaya ki nahin - sach mein pata nahin - mujhe nah..mein nahin karna cha.."
"Maa."
Ishwari stopped, her eyes shining with an unknown emotion.
" Aap apne aap ko justify kyon kar rahe ho? " Sonakshi asked, reprimandingly - still smiling " Aur aap royiye mat..." she wiped off the tears from Ishwari's face.
"Rothe hue aap Dev se bhi bure lagte ho."
They both laughed.
"Chal hat" ishwari said, playfully hitting her on the arm.
"Mera beta sab se sona hai"
"Aur woh use aap se mili hai. Sab kuch aap hi ki tarah hai."
"Haan - shaayad isilye ..sab kuch apne aap se rakhtha hai."
"Aur maine uska ..tum donon ka faayda uthaya."
Sonakshi held Ishwari's face.
"Nahin maa - aapka har haq banta hai. Aap jo chaahe hamse maang sakte hai. Aur hum dete rahenge. Mujhe pata hai Auntyji, aur I completely understand - mujhe koi dukh nahin hai. Bas - mein sirf aapko yeh bataana chahthi hoon ki - mein kabhi bhi aap donon ki beech nahin aaongi; nahin aa sakti - aapke bete se isiliye hi tho dil ko baithi. Aap donon ka rishtha ...ek aise maa aur beta koi doosra ho hi nahin sakta - aur mein itna special feel karti hoon na ki aisi do logon ke dil mein maine jaga banaaya hai."
"Aur shaayad aap sahi hain - kya, kab kaise mehsoos kare koi - kisi ke bhi haath mein nahin hai - lekin agar aap sab mere saath hain - tho hum face karlenge na."
Ishwari nodded her head, slowly smiling.
"Mujhe bas aapki pyar chaahiye - aur kuch nahin"
"Aur tere pass woh hamesha tha, pata nahin beech mein kaunsi bhooth ghus gayi thi mere andar."
They laughed in chorus.
"Aur" Ishwari took her hand in hers "Ek baat bol - agar main kuch gussa ya dar se ya pata nahin - muj..mujhe nafrat mat karna ...galti ho gayi samajh kar maaf karegi?'
Sonakshi shook her head.
"Nahin?" asked Ishwari in a forlorn tone.
"Nahin. Main aapko usse pehle kiss kar doongi!"
Ishwari laughed, "haan..woh bhi chalega.."
"Aur aap mujhe promise kijiye ki aapko kuch bhi lage, jitna bhi kam ho - mujhse bolenge. Mujhse ya phir Dev se. Share karenge. Kabhi bhi andar nahin dabayenge. Bacchon se kuch nahin chupaate hai na?"
"Nahin.." Ishwari replied affirmatively.
Ishwari embraced Sonakshi - feeling supported and happy - something which she had not been, the past few weeks.
At a distance, a pair of hazel eyes watched them - the hole in his heart finally closed forever.
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"Oh ho - tho yeh chalta hai behind closed doors"
Dev turned around startled, his hand almost shutting his laptop.
Nikki rushed towards it, snatching it away from is clutch.
"na uh bhaiyya" she said, shaking her head " aaj tho hamne aapko , nange haath ..ran..nang...uh..I mean to say we have caught you red handed."
"Range haath buddhu"
"Yeah, yeah whatever"
"Aur aap hamre BHABHI ko hamse door nahin rakh sakte."
Sonakshi smiled at them, from within the screen.
Yaar yeh log peacefully skype bhi nahin karne dete" Dev muttered under his breath.
"Aapne kuch kaha."
"Nahin. Kuch bhi nahin"
"Baat karo - aur jaldi jaake so jaao."
"Accha bacchu - Sona di - ab jab sab kuch theekh ho gaya hai tho inhe hamari zaroorat nahin hai."
"Aur nahin tho kya, aapko pata hai puri office depression aur seriousness mode mein gayi aapke jaane ke baad, sirf Tina inke moodswings handle karti thi."
Sonakshi smiled adoringly at him.
"Sab kuch theekh ho gaya na ab..tho phir"
"Neha di ki wajah se ..warne aaj bhi aap rothe rehthe hai..Sona di kal na itna drama hua.." and Nikki and Riya went on ranting - telling Sonakshi, everything that transpired.
"I have to thank Neha"
"Mujhe bhi."
"Accha ab chalo -tum sab log so jaao - abhi - remember health is wealth. Mein tum sab ko kal subah-subah milne aa jaoungi."
"Sacchi?!" asked a very excited and euphoric Nikki.
"Sacchi." - smiled Sonakshi.
"Mujhe tumhe hug karne ka man kar raha hai."
Sonakshi tilted her head to look at him more closely.
Aami tomake khoob khhob baalo bhashi Dev.
"Awww bhaiyya kisi ko hug karna chaahthe hain... don't worry, Sona di tho nahin hai - lekin hum tho hain.."
Nikki and Riya clambered their ways to Dev.
"Nah..no...ow.." and tackled him, hugging him.
Sonakshi laughed through the screen.
Dev hugged them back with a passion - relishing the feel of his sisters, the warmth and love they provided - for once, feeling complete in his life.
Everything was right. Everything was all right.
Sonakshi smiled, and looked toward the right end of the screen to end the session - wishing to leave them to their bubble - when she spotted a pair of eyes look at them.
She smiled, hoping she would see them.
Nothing happened.
But her worries vanished at the next moment, when Ishwari stepped into the light - giving her a reassuring smile. She opened her arms causing all the children to run towards them. The three kids hugged their mother - it was childhood revisiting them all over.
"Sona di - aap bhi hoti na.."
"Main hoon na " she said, pointing at her heart and then to all of them " wahan - tum sab ke dilon mein."
Ishwari smiled.
Why she ever... Never mind.
"Good night."
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Sab kuch mere liye tere baad hai
Sau baaton ki ik baat hai
Main na jaunga kabhi tujhe chhod ke
Yeh jaane le..
O karam khudaya hai
Tera pyaar jo paaya hai
Tujhpe marke hi toh
Mujhe jeena aaya hai
O tere sang yaara
Khush rang bahara
Main behta musafir
Tu tehra kinara
For me everything is after you, I could say a thousand things - but just know one thing
I would never leave you.
Lord is very gracious, that I achieved your love
It is after I loved you, died on you that I learned to live
Dearest, with you by my side
Colors have been showered on my life
I am the flowing traveller, while you are my stable shore.
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Have you ever seen a tumor? A person having tumor perhaps? In the medical world we have two kind - benign and malignant. The former harmless, the latter catastrophic. Whenever we tell a patient to not worry - that they could relax - because it is benign - we see relief on their faces. Relief - that there was no danger. We smile too - but we tell them, that they anyways have to undergo surgery because we never know it can turn malignant.
So many of them, so many refuse - saying it will leave a scar. It is harmless right - so no issue! But no - we never know; just one cell, one tissue - the wrong kind - that's all it takes - to rapidly spread to every part and eat you away.
That's how emotions are. Doubts, suspicion, worries, insecurity - all of them. So dangerous, it can affect your mind, your thought process. Better to keep them out. Learn to trust. Because holding them within - can kill you and in turn destroy everyone around you. Maybe harmless, may so it will remain - but voice it. Remove even the slightest out of your system,
Because scars can be healed. Over time.
But death cannot be reversed.
Never.
Better late than never.
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