chapter 15
"Sh, robbie. Its ok." I whispered and stroke his head, while he still was sobbing.
"Can you ever forgive me what I did to you?" he asked looking up at me, I sighed and walked over to the window.
"kasturi?" he asked unsure. I looked out of the window into the beautiful garden.
"You never told me you had such a lovely garden." I heard him getting up and walking the few steps to me.
"Yes, its really lovely. And it would be a perfect place for a child to play." I turned to him.
"kasturi, I know I made a big mistake, but I really love you, please can you forgive me?" His eyes were so honest and true that I almost couldnt bear it.
"robbie, how long did I wait for you to come back and to tell me that you still love me...But you never came and I started a my own life, I dont know if I..." He nodded and looked at the ground.
"I see, you cant forgive me. But perhaps you can in the future?" he asked hopeful.
I stroke his cheek with my hand. He grabbed it, but I jumped as it was the spraid one.
"What is with you? Why do you wear a bandage?" he asked concerned.
"Nothing, just from a fight with..." I stopped in the midsentence.
"With?" I sighed straightened my shoulders.
"My exboyfriend. He wanted to tell me how he feels, but I let him down and there he..." robbies face turned red of anger.
"That bas***d, who is he? Im going to kill him." he called mad, but I only shook my head.
"No robbie, its ok. Its over. And I didnt love him anyway...I couldnt love him, because...because..." I stuttered, not able to end the sentence.
"Because you love me?" asked robbie careful. I looked up at him and nodded slow my head.
"Yes, I can do whatever I want, Im always stuck on you." A tear ran down my face.
robbie kissed it away and pulled me into his arms. It felt so right. For the first time after our breakup I felt safe, loved and complete.
"I love you robbie, but I need time. Especially for Rohan as I have to explain everything to him.That wont be easy after his illness." I whispered.
"You have all the time in the world."
We stood like this for an eternity, just feeling each others body.
"I think I have to go. Rohan might wonder where I am." I said, stepping back.
"Um, what illness were you talking about?" asked robbie now.
"We got the diagnosis that he has leukemia a few months ago." robbie jumped.
"Oh my god. Is he ok? I mean, will he recover?" I nodded
"Yes, he is ok. In between the doctor was about to give up on him, but Vikram uncle had the matching marrow and saved his life." I explained, robbie was speechless.
"That was his big secret..." he mumbled.
"I have to go now, robbiej." I said again and he nodded.
"Sure, but you forgot something." I looked suprised at him.
"What? I have my bag, thats all I need." But he pulled me into his arms again and kissed me tender.
"I bring you to the door." he said after he let me go.
"So, I gave you enough time, I hope for you that you made it, otherwise..." complained Vikram uncle as he saw us leaving the livingroom.
"So?" he asked, looking courious at us, I had to giggle.
"Dad, you are impossible. Why didnt you tell me about my son?" asked robbie mad.
"Well, I didnt tell you because I wanted kasturi to tell you herself. And as I see, she did." he grinned.
"Yes, I did Vikram uncle." I answered smiling.
"I hope for you that you fought for her and got her back, my son. If not Ill do that for you. If you let such a wonderful woman go twice you are insane." I looked thankful at Vikram uncle.
"No, dad. We made it." answered robbie, putting his arm around my waist.
"Thats what I like to hear. And when will you marry and move in?" I blushed.
"kasuri needs time to get that and especially time to tell Rohan." Vikram uncle nodded.
"Thats a good idea. Take your time, kasturi." he kissed my forehad.
"Thank you Vikram uncle." I whispered.
"But I really have to go now, Rohan is waiting for me." I smiled at the two men I loved so much and left.
"Aaaaaand?" asked Naina opening the door to me, I only could laugh.
"The way you laugh it turned out well and you are back together." she concluded.
"Yes, I also think so. Better said, I hope so." added Nikhil appearing behind Naina.
"But look at her eyes, the sparkle like stars. I think they made it."
I slapped Naina playfull and giggled.
"You will never change, will you? And yes, we made it."
They grinned wide at me.
"Im so happy for you." Naina hugged me tight.
"Thank you."
"But why didnt you come here together?" asked Nikhil now.
"I told robbie I needed time, because I want to talk to Rohan first." I explained.
"By the way, where is he?" I asked looking around.
"Oh, he is at the playground with Emily, she visited earlier."
I nodded.
A few days later, Rohan sat at the table and painted.
"What are you doing, honey?" I asked looking at his colourful face and giggled.
"Im painting. Wait, its almost done." he answered.
"Here, look. this is for you, Mum." he handed me the paint.
"Wow, Rohan. Its wonderful, but..." I stopped as I saw that he had painted our family.
"This is Uncle Nikhil, Aunt Naina, me, grandpa and you..." he explained.
"And who is this?" I showed at the person next to me.
"This is my father." he simply said, I gapsed.
"Do you miss to have a father?" I asked careful, he shrugged.
"Not really, especially after we moved in here. Uncle Nikhil is my dad."
"But why did you paint your father?" He shot me a look.
"Mum, you are too slow. Because you met him and you are back together again." he explained to me as if I was the little child.
"You...you know?" I asked shocked.
"Sure. Grandpa had said something like that and Uncle Nikhil has told me everything after I had forced him to tell me." I felt unsure.
"And what do you say?" He smiled at me and took my hand.
"Mum, I want you to be happy and you are happy when you come from him." The tears welled up in my eyes and I hugged him tight.
"You could invite him to my birthdayparty on saturday." he offered, I only could nod.
next day
"Good morning, honey!!!! Happy birthday!!!" I called as I entered Rohans room together with Naina and Nikhil and a big birthday cake.
Rohan sat in his bed, his armes crossed, and looked approachful at me.
"Mum, Im awake for hours, what have you been doing so long?" Naina and me looked at each other, then we burst into laughter.
"Im sorry, Rohan. But we tried to hurry up and its only 7 am." I apologized kissing his forehead and sitting down on his bed.
"Ok, I forgive you, but only because its my birthday." He grinned, looking at the cake.
"You are a big boy now, 5 years..." I said dreamy.
"...and hungry. Ill get ready and we have breakfast together, ok?" I smiled and nodded.
"You go, I have to talk to Rohan first." said Nikhil giving me a strange look. I only shrugged.
"Wow, 5 years. I have the feeling it was just yesterday that I held him in my arms." said Naina as we prepared the breakfast.
"I know, to me its the same. God, what happened all in this last 5 years..."
Naina put her hand on my shoulder and nodded smiling.
"Its been hard, but now everything is ok, right?"
"Right."
"Were here!" called Nikhil entering the kitchen.
"Wow, and you look so adult. Its only a matter of time till you come home with your first girlfriend." said Naina, I shot her a look.
"And I hope a matter of long time." I added, we giggled.
"Are all women like that Uncle Nikhil?" asked Rohan rolling his eyes.
"Yes, they are, but you will learn to love them when you are older." I winked at Nikhil.
"Ok, the first kids will be here in about 2 hours. You and Rohan go and play and Naina and me will prepare everything." I ordered later.
Right then the doorbell rang.
"Can you please get it?" asked Nikhil me, I rolled my eyes and sighed.
"Whoever this is, you are too ear..." I said, but stopped when I saw robbie standing in front of the door.
"Hey my beauty. Im sorry if Im too early, but Nikhil told me to come at this time." He apologized with a grin, grabbed me at my waist and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
"Well, if you are here...come in. Ill kill Nikhil later." I said half mad, half giggling.
"Where is he?" asked Robbie nervous.
"He plays soccer with Nikhil. They are in the garden. Come." I took his hand and led him into the kitchen where he could see them from the window.
"Hey robbie, good to see you." said Naina smiling and hugged him.
"You too." they shared a look, but I ignored the strange feeling welling up in me.
"Look, there he is, thats Rohan." I showed proud at him.
Robbie breathed deep and looked with misty eyes at the little boy, playing in the garden.
"Wow,kasturi. Hes perfect and he looks just like me." he whispered.
"Lets go outside." We walked to the terrace. But suddenly robbie stopped.
"Whats up?" I asked.
"I dont know if he wants to see me, I mean, sure...Im his father, but Ive never been there for him." he said doubtful.
"Dont worry, robbie. Hes fine with that, actually it was his idea to invite you." I smiled at him and pulled him soft outside.
"Rohan, here is a visitor for you!" I called and walked over to him.
"Who is it?" asked Rohan courious.
"May I introduce? This is Rohan and this is robbie." I said nervous. robbie kneeled down and smiled unsure at Rohan.
"Nice to meet you Rohan, happy birthday." he offered his hand. Rohan watched him sceptical, he studied his face very seriously and didnt say a word for a few seconds.
"You must be my dad, right?" he asked without hesitation. robbie looked suprised at him, but then nodden.
"Yes, Im your father." He answered honest.
"Good answer. It can be only you, because I look exactly like you." concluded Rohan, I smiled loving at my son.
"Nice to meet you, Im Rohan. Do you like to play soccer with us?" he shook robbies hand.
"Yeah, that would be great." said robbie relieved.
"Great, I think I let you play and begin to prepare the party." I said to let them a bit time and turned to leave, but Rohan grabbe my hand and pulled me down.
"Mum, I dont know him till now, but I think he is ok." I smiled and kissed his cheek.
"Thank you, honey."
"And, how did it go?" asked Naina, when I came back into the kitchen.
"Really good. Damn, Rohan is so adult. He asked robbie if he was his father without hesitation." Naina giggled.
"I think he will be a good lawyer, when hes older, dont you think so?" We giggled.
"Im so happy for you, kasturi." I smilde thankful at Naina.
"What are you hiding from me?" I asked now, looking at the food I was preparing.
"What do you mean?" asked Naina, pretending to know nothing.
"Oh, come on. You are my sister, I know you better than me and there is something in your eyes, a sparkle, just like you are..." I looked shocked at her.
"Oh my god, you are pregnant!" I called out.
"Sh!!!!" Naina put her finger on her mouth.
"Not so loud, Nikhild doesnt know it till now."
"But you are pregnant. Naina, thats wonderful, Im so happy for you!!!" I hugged her tight and jumped with her around.
"Since when do you know?"
"I found out 3 days ago and went to the doc yesterday. Its true, 8th week."
"AAAAaaaahhhhh! My sis is expecting a baby!!!!" I was so excited.
"Im soooooooo happy for you, Naina!" I said honest, she looked smiling at me.
"Thank you. I was hoping that."
"God, this kid has too much energy." said Nikhil coming inside.
"What? Are you planning to get old?" teased Naina with a cheeky grin.
"You wish, Im still as young as I feel." he gave back.
"So you are 60?" I asked innocent and burst into laughter.
"Just watch out, otherwise..."
"Otherwise what?" I asked grinning.
"You will need your energy in the future more than you think." I added.
"What do you mean?" he asked confused, I only winked at Naina.
"Nikhil, I have to tell you something....I...Im pregnant." said Naina now, not sure if she should smile or not.
"You...we...Ill become a father?" he asked shocked. Naina nodded shy.
"Oh my god, thats....thats....WOHOOOOO!!!!!" he screamed, lifted Naina up and whirled her around.
I laughed hysterical.
